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I believe you are describing DMT trip perspective shifts. That is the loss of center. That is why it feels infinite, because the sense of size and border is gone. Usually in sober states of being, the ego attaches itself to positions in the sensory space. So for example even though the entirety of your sensory field is imaginary, the ego attaches itself only to the shape of the body appearing within it. So it feels like you end at your arms and that the wall and such is "outside". When the ego loses the ability to do this, that is exactly what you and others are experiencing on DMT. It has nowhere to attach itself so loses border and just sort of leaks out and becomes totally malleable. So it extends to your ENTIRE sensory experience, and there is no perceived border. Hence infinite. Do you see that is exactly what is happening when you breakthrough on DMT? That is not ego death, it is loss of center. I don't believe there is an absolute I. I think all forms of I are tacked onto what is by default without one. Redness doesn't come packaged with an I. The I is the ego. The idea/thought of self that is appearing, is adding the I on as though it were more than an appearance but an actual entity sitting there either: Watching red, being red, or comingling with red. What would happen if you lost the ability to perceive any sense of self? Since the sense of self is exactly that, it is a "sense". What is the self you perceive was fuckin' DELETED completely but somehow red was still there. Did you know that can happen? And then if the red can remain when there is zero perception of any self, I, life, person, how can any of those be said to be necessary components in anything? If red CAN appear without you, no matter how brief, it shouldn't be possible at all. If the you was in fact the alleged ground of reality.

I'm not sure it is possible, for the reason that there is then nothing to awaken. Like neo-advaita speak... Which is considered useless communication, but maybe it wouldn't be if the people using it weren't just arrogant pricks with extreme spiritual ego? If they spoke that way with the intention of the person understanding the words..... Hm.

Reality is WITHOUT A "YOU". Only the appearance of a thought/idea/sense that there is one. Which can very literally stop appearing completely... Yet many appearances can remain in its absence... The sense of spatial dimension is why the you even exists so easily. It has a nice little space to craft itself in. It's not even just causing the idea of reality being external. Reality is what is, the you is fictitious. I am quite sure this is what the Hindu and Buddhist people argued about forever.

Other bizarro-world ideas caused by Atman teaching includes: Cycling through lives. Subjective solipsism. The Egg by Andy Weir. Gods. Creators. Being born. Dying. The idea of being alive. Where do I go in ___ (deep sleep, anaesthetic, whatever). Unnecessary. I am not sure if people are at least understanding what it means, that redness is what is. I.e. that there is literally nothing (NOT EVEN A NOTHING "I"), not ANYBODY or ANYTHING viewing it. AT ALL. That it is just redness. That it DOES NOT NEED a you for it to exist, and that as it appears to """you""" (the fictional character made of thoughts) right now you already are absent. You are not alive. There's no such thing as being alive or dead, or asleep or awake, or conscious or unconscious. There is no you. Right now there is none. Yet see how reality is still appearing. Is that at least being understood, the thing I am trying to convey?

No I wouldn't be. I'm not a self now. There is no self. Self is a thought. It isn't a real thing. It's made up. Atman = pure religion. It comes out when Vedanta teachers are asked certain questions and have to go with weird answers to get around the obvious fact it's not there: In "deep sleep", Rupert Spira claims you are aware of yourself. And the proof he claims, is that when you wake you feel refreshed. That's the type of maneuvering used to try to circumvent the fact there is no self entity at all. There is no deep sleep, it doesn't happen. There's no gap because there is no you character to go anywhere or be anywhere or be anything. There is only reality. Hence no gap. Not weird excuses that "you are aware of yourself" or w.e. Atman is a shitty teaching. Misleading, empowers ego, causes weird questions about deep sleep and death. You're already dead. See how existence is here when you are not. There is no you. Anatta. Totally.

What is existing is redness, violin-sound-ness, tasteness, touchness, thoughts, ALL senses. Are you able to actually comprehend what I mean when saying that reality is made of, for ex, redness, WITH ABSOLUTELY NO person viewing it. Not in ANY meaning of the term is it being viewed by anything, or anyone. It is exactly the thing that is. Do you at least get what I mean? The "thought" there is an I does not mean there is an actual character there where you believe it to be. Exactly the same: The thought there is an I IS THE THOUGHT THERE IS AN I. It is not thought by anyone or anything. Or observed by anyone or anything. There is nothing to it BUT that. There is no ghost in the machine. The ghost in the machine is not secretly everything. The ghost in the machine is a sense, idea, thought. Redness is a sense, idea, thought. There isn't actually any character sensing it, and it is not made of any God character. Do you see what I mean?

What you are referring to literally has zero "I am" in it whatsoever. That is actual legit ego death, so that part isn't even existent anymore.

Separation where? You don't even exist. You = a thought. It's not a real entity actually sitting there hanging out. So separation between the appearance and what? The false idea of a you existing is also appearing. Like the red is. And there's no I having the thought of I, the thought of I doesn't have a thinker. The thought of I is what is appearing. There isn't an extra additional character. Whatever difference between Atman and Anatta I am strenuously attempting to convey, I think I demonstrated well visually with the tape measure. Where the ego and "I" being (the thought of it) generates itself in an imagined 3D space, in a location imagined to be distant from the appearances swirling around.

Don't have even 1% clue what you're talking about, no. Just sounds like drug trip "ego replacement" which I know well, recontextualization of ego rather than ego death. E.g. when you stop feeling your body and center, thus the you floods out (with nothing to attach itself to). This is even there when the chunk of the ego is dead. AKA the story of you is dead (but the sense of a "viewer" is still happening). I know what a drug breakthrough is like. That's like n,n-DMT.

Say a thought, a feeling... Sensation... (Some sensations are weird, like the sense of distance. Because the sense of what 10 foot is can change to seem shorter or longer but there isn't a word for that alteration). The added idea is that a thought can't be thought without a you. That there MUST be a thinker in order for a thought to be, or a see-er of red for redness to be. The for some reason difficulty of understanding that reality is made of redness and soundness and thought without seer, hearer, or thinker. That the redness and soundness and thought is the ONLY element present.

The I character is bollocks... It's not there. The appearing thought is what is appearing. There is no self entity thinking about it. It doesn't NEED to be observed, it doesn't need you. It already doesn't have a you. If a self entity was actually some permanent and existent thing, how is it possible for it to actually completely 100% go away, even for a split second? It shouldn't be possible if that were the case.

Where is there an "I" in red? It's cope...... Ego = I. Ego death = it's actually not there anymore. "Atman" is just religious bull. It's literally just the Bible "soul" presented as something wiser. Anatta. No such thing as a self, or a Self. There is no character here. There's only an idea there is, generated in the space left by the sense of reality being at a distance in 3D space. Even if as 2D as you seeing a plane (Salvia).

It is in fact pure thoughts and ideas. The color red exists, but doesn't have an "I" by default. The color red is the color red. There's nothing extra hanging on to that. You're adding it, with an idea that there is such an entity looking at it.

It's fictional BS. God is also fictional BS. Doesn't exist. It's made of thoughts, feelings, and ideas. The I is a sense, and the "God" is an idea. All bullshit (because it can go away but existence does not go away with it).

I ought to have realized since all senses lose positioning. But vision is very persistent in the sense of position, and doesn't often go away even very deep in a trip, it still usually feels like the sight is in front of you... Even when all other senses aren't happening anywnere anymore. The "in front of" sense is when the I appears, because that is when there can be the idea of this thing is in front of "me". The me being where the entire ego generates itself.

The I part isn't necessary. That element is not only the fact of being-ness, it's the "passenger" thought; the thought that there is a character back here (named "I"), which is viewing reality. There isn't actually a character back here. You realize, all of that I-ness is created with thoughts, feelings, and ideas. The plant you are looking at doesn't actually need a "self", doesn't need to be viewed by anyone. When you have said previously, that the sight of a tree IS the sight of a tree. AKA completely direct. Not a you then atoms then the sight of the tree. Just the sight of the tree. There isn't any self character necessary. It is possible for the sense of there even being such a thing as a self to go away. Which ought not be possible, when existence is only made of the image of the plant and not of a you and an image, or an image made of anything other than the image (i.e. not made of you, and without a self element). So that entire portion is not actually vital to existence at all.

What sort of utter shithole do you have to even go to for someone to get you with scopolamine? Lmao. Sounds worse than Kenya...

Definitely when I was 14 I knew I didn't want to have sex with men, and did want to have sex with numerous girls. Leo is probably homosexual to fuck a dude at 14.

Jimmy Savile can help you experience assrape.

Bullshit. Lots of weird bullshit in every thread. This is one such case.

My current hobbies include tidying, cleaning, repairing, perfecting, and piano. Strenuous activities but soothing. I like my home and car to look BETTER than new.

Lmfao. I don't even really care about pedophiles, just think they're weirdos (like furries), but this is like a legit NAMBLA message. It's not good because people already say the Actualized logo is some "boy love" symbol. Leo might have touched children. LOL. For some people they will not like that......

About 5 IQ points.

Weird. Creepy.

I'm not really sure how or why the clearly wrong idea of a world out there, gets entangled in with science. The two things are demonstrably not related at all.