Rishabh R

Thank you for the replies people.

@Leo Gura what is your opinion on this condition of mine ?

@SgtPepper thank you.I was contemplating what is the way out of this situation and one of the answers came that I am good as myself.

@SgtPepper Ya but there is one more thing that I just wanted honestly to communicate to the boy that I was hurt by him but he abused me called me to meet in the college place and that girl whom I initially proposed when I called her she abused me and told me to tell him sorry so I told him sorry as I didn't wanted to provoke him and he said ok.But she told to meet me in college and she wouldn't spare me .By the way I also don't understand myself till now that why do I get jealous of people who are in a relationship.Whenever I hear or see people in relationship it makes me so hurt that I cannot stomach that.

Please guys reply as I need answers at this moment and also am utterly confused ,fearful ,angry,jealous etc.

@Breakingthewall thank you very much.

As mental images of the past run in my mind.I contemplate the above questions and came to the following answers: .By recognising that image in my mind is not the actual event .Image in mind need to be questioned .Mental image needs to be blurred .Recognising that the event was not one sided as I saw it .Recognising that it is normal,ok people have faced it

@Max_V I also feel sad ,angry,depressed,jealous at times but after it passes away I feel again back to normal.And even the happy moments or normal moments are temporary they last for a longer period of time.

Further answers after further contemplating: .It made me stronger .That event has long passed by .For other it was fun .The problem was not with me but other

@ted73104 ok.

@NoN-RaTiOnAL Thank you.By the way I tried therapy and antidepressants it improved to some extent but not much still I face the issue of hitting the imaginary person, sometimes screaming etc.

Hello @Leo Gura and guys. What are the questions by contemplating which I would make the counterintuitive move in almost many situations ?

Hi all. As I am practicing actuality from over an year by day to day by looking at my hand I gained an insight that reality is both real and illusory.Also as I practice it in the dark my hand disappears and also becomes visible.What is it @Leo Gura and guys ?

Hi guys. I have been practicing actuality for over 2 years and when I concentrate on my hand then there appears a spot around the point around which I concentrate.Also like my hand starts to become blurred and at the same time becomes real like interchangeably.Could you all guys tell me what is it?Also the surroundings become blurred and real interchangeably.

@Someone hereYou are facing a problem but the answers to the above posted questions by you can help you to navigate through life as you can contemplate them.

When do I felt love in the past? My answers: .By my mother .Care by my mother .Care by my father .My parents fullfilled my demands . Love by my brother .My mother carrying me to the van on first day of my school .My mother accompanying me to tution .Boosting up ,cheering up of me by my mother during bad times Why? .Because I needed it .Because it was good feeling .Because I wanted it(the things my parents brought) .Because I liked it(the things my parents gave me in birthday gift) .Because it was in favour of me .Because it was sweet .Because I craved for feeling good

@Michael Jackson ok now that's an interesting perspective.

Hello everyone, I was contemplating that how am I being a fool in life and these are the answers that I got .By not focussing on my life instead of other's life (like seeing their status then being jealous ) .By thinking that above move is not a counterintuitive move .By not questioning assumptions in every situation .By procrastinating .By comparing myself to others Any thoughts guys and @Leo Gura?

@Michael Jackson How could you say that and I am not making stories.By the way how could you know that I don't give myself 1% of the love I deserve even if you don't know me in real life. I am here to questioning that is why I am posting these topics.

By the way @Michael Jackson I love myself and rather the perspective of not accepting myself would be better.

@bejapuskas that's great as truth is experience.

By contemplating the above question I came to following conclusions: .That there are unpleasant truths of my aspect .I am lacking something (for example a relationship) that others are having and others are lacking something that I am having .Yes I am single and I don't have any girlfriend .Yes in career there are other people who are better than me .I am avoiding facing suffering Any thoughts or something you all can add guys and @Leo Gura?

Further answers after contemplating: .I am a doormat .Reality is head on .I need to study .I am avoiding truth all the time .I am avoiding many undiscovered truths

Thank you @bejapuskas ,@Esilda however we must try to keep this post alive so keep posting here people .As I would posting my results of further contemplating it.

@Leo Gura and people the results of further contemplating: .My mother is no longer with me .Yes there are problems in life .People will treat me badly .Truth will not go by my assumptions about truth . Present experience is all that is .Truth and my emotions could be inverse