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@Godishere If you are alone, what are you running from and where will you hide?

The question is happening within the infinite universe and that finite happening can never know the infinite.

If the ego is making you chase love then what is this "me" that is chasing love? Yes, love is unconditional so it's not a state and not an attribute of the ego. Now is all there is. If pessimism comes up then see what the underlying feelings are and let go of them. Those feelings are the only things that hides the love that is underneath them.

@Godishere Let the integration happen.. when the false self falls away the true self is revealed. You can't DO integration since the doing is made by the false self.

If you are genuinely curious about this then start investigating these questions within your own experience. No one but you can answer them.

If you feel lost, let yourself feel lost. If you feel fear, let yourself feel fear.if you resist, let yourself resist.

In the beginning of the no self realization it's easy to be pulled out of the no self back into the conditioned self but as the realization matures less and less outer "happenings" pulls you out of it. I wanted to leave everything to live out in the woods to get away from people and society but this desire no longer comes up. It all goes full circle back to "normal" life.

@Terell Kirby Some teachers are more into mystical experiences than truth and then there's those who are into truth but have realized different facets of the same truth. Depending of which facets has been realized the words they speak can be very different but can be true from that perspective. What words/teachers resonates with you depends on what facets you have realized and touching upon.

I can relate to your experience and I'm sorry I haven't communicated this to you adequately. It's not easy to meet this fear. It's probably the hardest thing one can do because it's going against the survival operating system but it's simple in that it doesn't require a multiple step plan to deal with. If this fear is to unbearable to deal with then you can look for the small ways that fear is running your life and meet it there first. You will be able to meet it when the time is right.

No that's not it.

What knows that? ?

I don't assume it's infinite. I only see the limitations of the human mind. ?

But does God need to understand how reality works?

Yes, give it a go and see. The feeling "fear" is no problem without the thoughts about it.

It's so fantastically arrogant of humans to believe that they can understand how reality works. All understanding is only a limited view of something infinite. How can we not see this?

What happens if you let the fear be as it is and continue "being aware of thoughts" despite the fear?

Have you contemplated this question? What's real and what is unreal/imagination? That realization might come one day. For now maybe it's best to lay down that question. What's real and what's imagination? That question is a distraction from reality. Reality IS truth how can you be 1000 miles from truth? It seems to me like you're looking for some realization that will make everything crystal clear (which you are imagining) to you but the searching for it is distracting you from truth/reality which is already here. The journey is a going deeper and deeper into reality/truth and a dropping of all of what you are imagining. Reality/truth might seem boring and ordinary in contrast to what we are imagining so there might be resistance (negative feelings and thought) to doing it.

@Vido I like his model alot. Not for using it as a map for enlightenment but more as a map for the feelings themselves and how they interact with each other. The problems one might face when these feelings are let go of and how to untie those problem knots make that map a valuable spiritual tool to have. Based on my own life the map seems pretty accurate but as with all maps they are not to be confused to being the truth itself. ?

@Alysssa If art is what you want to do then do art. To do what we want to do gives us intrinsic happiness. ? Desire is a feeling of wanting something we don't have. And believing it causes division in that not having it NOW is unhappiness and getting it later leads to happiness. That is an illusion. Seeing through the illusion of desire is good. Happiness is here and now already. Yoga and meditation is also practiced NOW and may or may not lead to enlightenment. Who knows? But if those practices are benefitting you why not continue with them. This post was more for me than you. ?? Thank you for sharing your realization!

Have you seen this page? https://spiraldynamicsintegral.nl/en/red/#6470d0b630086ae91 From my own experience with stage red I'd say that personal integrity is key. Establish clear personal boundaries. Any perceived "weakness" tends to get exploited. Be honest - If you don't agree then say so. If say that you are going to do something then you'd better deliver on that promise. In a workplace they value speed and efficency above all else.

Yes, that seems to resonate with me. These energies effect us whether we are conscious of it or not and especially if you are vibrating on a slightly higher state than that person. If you are vibrating on a much higher level then it won't effect you much. You can raise your vibration by letting go of negative feelings and be in environments with a higher vibration.

@Vynce The best teacher is probably the one you resonate with the most. That teacher probably has the tools to elevate you further and when you don't resonate with the teacher anymore you know it's time to move on.

@Mu_ It's funny how the mind goes blank when one tries to point to that. ?

These thoughts and feelings come up so we can fully heal them. I have gone through something similiar. Alot of fear and anger over quite some time. When we sit with those feelings they start to dissolve and start to lessen in intensity. It's all part of the purification process.

Everything we say is just a limited perspective. No matter how well we express it or whether we think it's a personal opinion or the truth. Realizing the absolute is not enlightenment but it's a start.