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Luckily I have never had the experience of being fired but I can imagine it doesn't feel good. Everything happens for a reason, maybe there is a lesson to be learned from it. Like you said, stay positive and remember: There is enough abundance in the universe for every single one of us to get what we truly desire.

I kindly disagree sir. You can be enlightened and still have 'false' and 'limiting' beliefs. These beliefs can still reside in the brain in an enlightened person. Only when they 'pop' up they can be quickly changed through awareness if these beliefs don't resonate with source consciousness.

Enlightenment is not about being aware of everything that is happening, enlightenment is the realization you ARE everything. There's no more need to worry about anything, whatever you do or don't do, it's fine. This thirst for getting ahead in life will melt like snow under a bright sun. That doesn't mean you can't do anything anymore, there's just no more need for anxiety and worry. You can't be enlightened in one area, you are either enlightened or you're not. If you feel there's stuff that need to be 'fixed' you are not enlightened.

If you don't desire anything, why worry about it? Obviously you desire something or else you wouldn't be asking questions about it

Notice all the "I"'s in your story. Your friends aren't holding you back, in fact no one is even capable of holding you back except for yourself. If you feel your friends are the ones holding you back you aren't going anywhere anyway.

Well, you can't convince people their gossiping is not really benefitting them in the grand scheme of thing. People have to find out for themselves. When I encounter people like this I just show with my body language that gossip doesn't interest me in the slightest, most of the time they pick up on it and they(or me) change the subject. No harm done. If they don't pick up on it they are not people I want to interact with anyway.

What really helped me to not give a shit what people think and to get really self-confident was to learn to get grounded. I was always flying way high in the air and didn't even notice my legs connection to the world. Check out some yoga and meditation exercises for grounding, they might really help you out.

Most adults I see are barely at level 4

That book is a monster. I couldn't get through it. The writing style is not really a page turner for me. I'm reading Lolita by Nabokov. I never read it and I love the Kubrick movie so why not

You have to first realize you can not "conquer" anyone. You do what you do and they do what they do, that's the way it's supposed to work. The only way you can sabotage this - and thus sabotaging yourself - is by sacrificing yourself to comply to the other. Try to see these people not as "powerful" or intimidating. That thought alone will throw you off balance. They are people who are trying the best they can by what they have learned in THEIR life. Their life has learned them that people will comply the easiest if they use their power and intimidate people. That's not their fault. Only when they see that their intimidation tactics won't work anymore will they 'learn' that it's not congruent with source. When you stay true to yourself and these people still try to intimidate you they will be the ones who will feel bad about themselves, not you. And when they get to the point where they are encountering this a lot they will realize they are the one's who will have to change.

Try to realize you can only do one thing at a time. You can worry about a million things at one time, but you can only DO one of them. When you worry about time you are wasting energy time on worrying where you could be doing. You have to be clear internally about what you want to achieve and then relax. Do the things you have to do, peacefully. See if things like meditation and yoga resonate with you, it has helped a lot of people finding this inner peace. When you do find that peace you will find that you can navigate way more joyfully and peacefully.

The affirmations won't work if you keep stressing and checking if they are working yet. True inner progress always needs a degree of faith. The thing inside of you that keeps checking if it's working is the thing that needs to be evolved. Your affirmations are probably more in line with a higher part of yourself, doing these affirmations are a tool for you to reach that higher self. But it's only one possible tool, it's not the affirmations themselves that will bring you to a higher plane of your experience. Your affirmations radiate abundance, by trying to define or check up on abundance you are bringing scarcity inside your experience and thus restricting the flow of the abundance.

It's important to keep your energy inward, inner congruency. A lot of people that have problems socially are letting their energy be dictated by what happens what they see and hear on the outside - through the senses. It's good to get out of your head more, but you still need to keep the energy inward, outside of your head does not mean outside of the body. If you do let the outer energy dictate your inner energy you will feel off-balance and not happy. Even if people will somewhat like you, you will not feel authentic. These people are the people-pleasers, people never like people-pleasers for who they are as people. People only like to interact with people-pleasers because they easily validate the energy of the other person. They give up their own energy to make other feel good about themselves. But by doing this you are only creating energetic disbalance inside of you. If you are totally balanced within you will have no more issues with your voice. When you are fully in tune wit yourself your voice can move freely to where it wants to go. Only when certain energies within you are restricted will your voice suffer. Strife for ultimate inner-comfort when you are interacting. Whoever that person may be, it's a good person, the true self is the closest one to God.

@Natasha I might do something like that in a few weeks when I finish the first stage of my project. But at this moment my project/purpose feels too 'holy' to talk about. Me working on it feels like I'm being one with God(I'm not religious), when it's time to stop working on it for a while I get a cue to take a break. At that moment I feel it's right to let the project sink away to my subconscious for awhile. And not talk or think about it at all. Then when I start again, fresh ideas/ways arise to progress again.

It's so strange, for the past few days Work does not feel like work anymore Time does not feel like time anymore My thoughts are only there to support my actions The world only exists to cheer me on towards my path When I take a step the next step is already laid out Maybe this is what it means to be self-actualized. Total synchronization between me and the world. I apologize for my ramblings but I needed to share this to blow off some steam

All I can say is that I have a strong feeling that my project is going to positively impact the world on a global scale. It's like I can see the future happening before my eyes, that there is no more difference between now and the future. The Path is so crystal clear. Nothing in this world can stop me anymore, nothing can faze me. Maybe I'm going insane but actually I have never felt more sane and lucid in my life, peculiar indeed.

@Neill Bolton Sorry I can't, yet. I'm still in the process of developing the first steps of my project to unleash onto this world. It does not feel right to talk the talk before walking the walk;)

It's only a downfall if you become insecure about. You need to relax, it doesn't hurt to do speaking/voice exercises to explore all the tones your voice can make to become more aware of your voice potential. But ultimately you have to be relaxed to use your voice effectively, you can't force a certain voice and expect it to sound good and natural. The potential to use your voice effectively is already there, it's not really a muscle you have to train anymore. You just need to relax it.

Shyness is fear. You are confused with introversion.

I don't have any children myself but isn't simply spending time with your children and loving them as much as you can not a form of meditation? I can imagine your own children, which you put on this world, is the easiest thing to pour all your love into. And so guiding yourself to a higher consciousness. Maybe my view of the parent-child relationship is too idealistic though lol

The point of your life is to pick the path that gives you the most joy. If you are in a bad situation right now it's simply because you did not walk the joyful path in the past. Now you can easily correct this but it takes time, when you reach a certain threshold of joy in your life you won't think twice about 'meaning' in your life. Life just is, and it is amazing.

Trying to get rid of things is just introducing more scarcity in your life. It's more effective to actually add things which make you feel good. When the time is right, the bad things will automatically fall away out of your experience because they have been overtaken by the good things. Easier said than done but if you stick with it and give it time it will always work, no exceptions.

Focus on money is only a bad thing if it triggers a scarcity mindset. The majority of people have grown up with limiting beliefs about money so money has been given a bad rap in this society. But money itself is not a bad thing at all, society has only deemed it so out of fear. How many rich people have you heard say that money is the root of all evil lol. Money is only evil if you are afraid of not having enough of it. So find out if you have limiting beliefs about money. If you do, try to not to focus too much on money.

It's good you have experienced that you are still falling when you take off the training wheels. But realize that eventually you really have to take off the training wheels as well. Don't confuse cycling with the training wheels on with actually making progress for cycling without the wheels. The best measurement for progress is still your ability to cycle without the wheels.

First you have to realize you can't destroy matter nor energy in this universe, you can only transmute it. The same goes for your thoughts. If you have a rotten apple in your belief system don't try to destroy the apple, this will only give it more momentum. You need to surround the rotten apple with fresh apples. Now this analogy doesn't make much sense in biology(lol), but bear with me. You need to slowly take away the energy from the rotten apple to more desirable apples. Now this energy transmission won't ever happen instantly, it will go gradually depending how deep rooted this belief is in your mind. So don't try to avoid the bad thoughts, but try to surround it by good thoughts all day. Let's say you are going to do something that triggers that bad thought. Before you do, do something that you are sure that makes you very happy. Maybe going for a walk, helping a stranger, hugging your girlfriend/wife, catching up with a friend, something. Now do the same directly afterwards. You need to keep the good feeling going. If you can do this effectively, the bad thoughts automatically change to a belief system which support the more positive thoughts. Let me know if it resonates