Elton

Joy

Have been entrenched in my bad habits from three months.I meditated to the setting sun, no view of it because of all buildings. I noticed an uneasiness could not relax even when meditating.i was being mindful to the environment around me, the birds were making a lot of noise, the children were playing, traffic out side... I started breathing heavily. Being mindful to my thoughts I was just allowing everything do nothing technique. Then I started thinking that I am existence itself the building the house the furniture .still being aware that even after meditating I’m not at ease .the birds stopped making noise the children still playing the traffic noise still was there .Could feel a model of a waveform of sinusoidal waves happening in my head as if it was resonating with the sound. The body was twitching many times those small twitches which no one has any control over AND THEN I thought of something imp. To me in my life right now and my body was filled with energy, I was possessed with that thought energy is what it felt like . Can this be a call guys? I was feeling it like this is the call this is the call. And then my muscles cramped stomach muscles leg muscles and then after few min my body calmed down. I did use one principle of coming back to the center by George Leonard. where you come out of your head and focus energy in the center below your navel.

can you please share some resources ? i was filled with lot of energy was up till 3 am studying.

What does that mean? experience even after indulging in lower consciousness stuf??? Like weed and cigarettes

its not that easy to let go , it takes training to do so.

amazing pic .

your dream is so appealing to me ... it will come true that's why we are actualizing :-)

Masculine compassion might work better for me... Leaving little by little thats feminine compassion.. Sometime you got to stand up inside yourself and say shut up!

wow!! a foreigner talking to me and giving me advice :-) its feels so nice and that too such a beautiful lady ...wow! thanks ... :-) seems like thoughts come from no where i have been meditating for a while and thats why i'm saying this ...lets see what more epiphanies i have in the future if i am alive .. i want a nice long life and all these year i've been indulging in smoking and all and it might affect my health in the long run very severely... all these vices are the shadow i'm talking about even in mastery its written if you are on drugs you are not on the path of mastery

the thoughts that smoking stuff and all this is bad and feeling guilty and all who is thinking all this ? who wants a change? a better health ? a better life purpose ? I I I

How about trying to accept reality as it is and not trying to change it?

No difference dude... Just had an epiphany we are all creators , so make sure what you are creating .

Name: Elton Mascarenhas Age: 24 Gender: Male Location: Mumbai, India Occupation: Engineer Marital Status: Single Kids: No Hobbies :Listening to music,driving I got into personal development in 2007, I came across a book called the Magic of thinking big, read The Powers of the sub-conscious mind and how to get from where you are to where you want to be in the time-span of 2007-15... not that slowly :-D didn't take those exercises seriously at all saw the secret too in that period.As I was dealing with emotional pain (didn't know much about females then even though i thought i knew) i came across actualized.org videos trying to self actualize ever since ... Leo is trying to kill his ego at this point and i'm want to build a really strong one... Personal challenges I've overcome: Graduated last year Have achieved open mindedness to some degree and built some confidence. What I'm working on now: Establishment of the meditation Practice Working out Finding my Life Purpose Being on track