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@UpperMaster It took too much energy to sustain so I stopped after a while but I believe it should be possible to make it the baseline after practice.

One thing I have found useful in this regard is the 'lucidity' you feel during certain awakenings really increases your spatial awareness. I was having an awakening walking on the street and I could tell by body heat how big, how close, and how fast someone was walking behind me, if at all. It was crazy, it was like having your back turned into an energy sensor. Didn't last long for me though. This lucidity feels exactly like being lucid in a dream, if you have ever experienced it. It can also be followed by amnesia as well so yeah. You become so lucid you lose your memories.

@TEOTLR Thanks for your response. Can you please elaborate more on this? What is this physical connection? Does this dissolve by observation? What happens if this connection is strong vs light vs gone?

Enjoying fictional books is pretty hard for those of us who see books as a source of knowledge not entertainment. It feels like you are wasting your time. Well, read it when you are wasting your time then. When you'd have wasted your time anyways for example watched a movie/show/youtube video, just read that book. Although if you're goal is other than to enjoy the story itself then I don't see you finishing the book. I'd only read a fiction book if I believe it will connect to me on some level and resolve some karmic issue inside. But that's the case with any sort of entertainment.

I think the intuition being talked about in 'counter-intuitive' is the primitive and under developed intuition that is default to people. That's not even really intuition as I understand it but subconscious patterns that have been either picked up from culture, people, society etc, or acquired as a human creature or as living being, etc. For eg. As an ego it's 'intuitive' to not wanna die, but that's what you have to do for understanding reality. The intuition in 'life is intuitive' is probably actual intuition in the definition that it is the knowing of something without any logical reason(that you can observe or articulate). So life being intuitive could mean something like life can not be explained logically but needed to be understood intuitively(without normal human logic)

Not really athletics but his POV as a 7'1 man is fascinating

Can you explain more the relationship between the human personality in you and the jellyfish?

B- B- But prostate cancer-

What you care about reflects who you are. In the sense of what you value. First you need to be radically authentic and find out what you really care about and what you don't. Pro Tip: Being numb, ignorant, or scared of something doesn't mean you don't care. Now, once you know what you care about you should have a good idea of how developed you really are. So now you need to look at and guess what value systems people more developed than you hold. That's tricky because you need to discern between their personal values and values that comes with that level of development(which is what you are looking for). Also it's your current values which determine who's more developed and who isn't, so yeah. It's very tricky. My advice: Observe diverse models of development and pick out what's common, what makes sense, and try to find contradictions. You can also use this perspective to become anyone you want, as long as you know most of what they care about. (Which even they don't)

I am just starting my 9th day and I feel literally no difference except that I am horny all the time. But I like this sensitivity, I do not want to lose it by masturbating. My theory is that you can naturally outgrow masturbation as the sexual tension isn't the issue. The issue is the unnatural addictions to porn etc. You can't outgrow those, you need to kill those. I know two men in my life who have outgrown masturbation and they are both longtime friends with no reason to lie to me. It's definitely possible and not masturbating is definitely more common than people on the internet like to think.

@Tyler Robinson I see, thanks a lot.

@Tyler Robinson What would be a higher, more truer opinion of women in your opinion? What's your take on if women have intrinsic value or not? (Value here meaning something that would be of value to society)

I did it for a few months and realized it's wayyy too much of a hassle. The fact that you start a timer or whatever and are measuring your meditation disturbs the authenticity of the meditation. Sometimes you stop meditating for a few minutes and go back to meditating. Do you count that as meditating? How will you measure such gaps accurately? How accurate are your estimations? It's not so simple as to doing a particular amount of time during the day. The only measure of whether you meditated enough should come from inside you. Tracking how much you meditated isn't necessary unless you want to claim a title of "I have done 10k hours of meditation" which is a egoic pursuit. There can be other reasons but yeah. I don't think it's necessary at all but in fact hinders meditation. At least for me.

I am in a really similar situation. I can't advice you on how to improve your time management but I can tell you how to stop procrastination(if you have that problem). Even if you don't this'll be helpful. In situations like ours we tend hold a lot of worry and fear in our hearts. Uncertainty about the future, sadness about the past, all that jazz. This causes procrastination, inability to focus, loss of energy, which all leads to shortage of time. If you were able to remove some unneeded habits and tasks, maybe even destructive(hard to notice), then it'll free up a lot of time and energy in your day. Stopping even little habits that are technically not needed can free up good amounts of energy. You can than use this energy to look into making your current daily tasks more efficient. Once you make your tasks and day more efficient(only possible when one has mental clarity and energy), you'll free up even more time and energy, using which you can heal your heart. This is very important to be able to focus on things. You cannot read even a page from a book if you are worried, and you wouldn't know why. Healing your heart can take time and often times, the gut needs healing too. Mine certainly did. What you can do is focus on how your heart/gut(whichever you're healing) feels right now. Maybe you can't feel anything at all. But keep your attention there, hit up some nostalgia inducing songs or images, from when times were good. If you had no such times then imagine a world where all your worries are sorted. If you are able to visualize or remember correctly thanks to the nostalgia, your focus on your gut/heart will start unravelling the layers upon layers of walls built around the heart/gut. For the gut it will feel like you are becoming a child as this happens, and it can be scary and you might be resistant to it, it will be uncomfortable but you have to push through. For the heart this feels similar, but you'll start feeling way more vulnerable and emotional. That's a good thing. Tell your heart it'll be fine. It's ok and do not worry. Push through that discomfort as well. It will lead to great silence and focus. Reminisce about your life etc. Point is your gut and heart become a throbbing, sensitive organ, as they were originally. This will free up energy locked in cuz of the worries and fear. More energy should lead to more time in the day. Sometimes one has just too much to do and needs to sacrifice some tasks for others. Sometimes you are just not efficient or skilled enough to do all the tasks in the day, for which youll need to slowly practice. Habit building will become easier through this process but it's still hard. This was just my personal process so take what you find useful

I converted to Grandsonism the day the episode dropped (look at my tshirt)

People say this often but I have never understood this through any sort of awakening. It's the claim that God wants to understand itself and this is why it experiences itself for all eternity. How do you realize this? How would I know this for a fact? Any pointers? Why God?

tried anything yet?

yeah you could do that

You must really be suffering to be thinking like this. Sending love.

In our world where it is so easy to fake videos no UFO footage is ever gonna be sufficient lol. Either aliens have to land on the white house lawn or they need to do something big.

Man I have no substance to add to the main topic because I don't know anything about anything regarding this topic. But I do wanna barge in say that this discussion is certainly not calm and non-judgmental lmao, from both sides.

I support you and looking forward to a conscious rapper. I'd love to listen!

I'd say burn this karma. You can go for it literally in physical life or you can meditate and burn it through visualization if you are able to locate this desire within you to an accurate degree. This is what I usually do. But sitting and burning this karma will be hard if this desire is directly linked with some or more attachments you have as of right now in your life. Good thing is that you will be able to identify these attachments and take physical action to remove these and continue burning your karma. tldr; locate your desire within yourself and burn it

Man imagine how hard it would be to stay calm when someone is cutting open your chest. I have no idea how people can achieve such levels of acceptance. It's one thing to achieve constant peace, bliss and equanimity in health, and another in the face of pain. Just adding this to the convo.