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Sounds orange if that's all there is to that statement

How'd ya know the universe hasn't collapsed into nothingness already? How do you know you are speaking coherently and making sense? You don't know if any of your thoughts are rational or not. You don't know if your idea of rational is rational or not. How do you know you're not in complete and utter chaos right now. You don't. I think worrying about consistency should be done more like this. What happens physically should be a secondary issue. You can worry about whether the sun will rise tomorrow after figuring out if it ever rose to begin with.

@Julian gabriel The basic thing you need to be able to do is generate pressure in the middle of your chest where the heart chakra is. This pressure is exactly like how it feels when you'd focus on the third eye chakra. It's hard at first, or atleast was for me, so what I did was to focus on generating love within my psyche. You could do it by thinking about something or someone you love. Once you feel that love grab onto it and try introspecting what that is. Once you have a good understanding of that feeling, generate it more and more, again and again. Eventually you want to move away from your head and generate that love in your chest(if you weren't already). At some point you'll be able to feel something in your chest. Eventually with practice you'll be able to generate pressure instantly in your chest when you focus on it. I am generating it as I write about it. You should then work on making it more dense but also cover a larger area on your chest. After generating the pressure or even before, you need to do shadow work, think about your life, browse through your memories. Feel nostalgic. Nostalgia is key. Maybe put on some music. Feel that nostalgia. That's you becoming vulnerable, opening up. Also find ways to humble yourself. You know those moments when somethings humbles you so bad it hits you in the chest? Look for those experiences. Another thing you need to do is be more emotional, doesn't matter which emotion, just indulge into it. Jealousy, anger, happiness, sadness, love, don't care, just show it on your face and your body. Express it outwards. Become a beacon of emotion and do not care whether others are able to tell or not what emotions you're feeling. Let them judge and let them know. It's important you express your emotions consciously and not make foolish choices. Also understand that the emotions you put out in the world is what others absorb and become themselves. If you're angry you'll likely make others around you angry too. The key word is vulnerability. When you open your heart you're making yourself vulnerable. You feel vulnerable, sensitive and soft. You feel that if anyone were to strike you, you'd be dead in an instant, yet you're ok with that and not paranoid at all. Instead, you're happy, and feel safe(possibly due to a good root chakra, not sure). You're ready to sacrifice yourself for even an ant. There is no logical reason behind this feeling. You need to do these things in several sessions because you're chipping away at the layers of walls built around the heart. At some point you'll reach the seed of your being. It'll be so sensitive, vulnerable and gentle that you'll gag(as in cry) when you find it for the first time. When the last layer of that wall breaks, there'll be a big release of energy and you'll feel orgasmic in your chest for a while, this is only a one time thing. It may become permanent on higher levels of consciousness I am not sure. This is currently the point where I am at. Occasionally when you feel into the seed, it shoots up a geyser of energy through the higher chakras. For me it hits the roof(crown chakra) and dies down after a while. It hits the roof because my crown chakra is closed. Another thing to be noted is integrating your heart chakra with every other chakra, specially the solar plexus as that chakra deals with the ego, and plays a major role in the negative polarity. I think for integrating those two just feel into them together and do what feels right and feels like 'integration'. I don't have much experience in that so I can't explain it in words. Another helpful thing to do is to shift your awareness from the head to the chest. So that when you feel into the chest, it feels like your focusing on the center of your being and not somewhere down there below you. And so that when you think of yourself, you naturally focus on the chest and not on the head. So that when you think of your head, it feels like the head is somewhere up there. The chest is a nice place to rest your awareness as this place is naturally very warm and protected by the rest of the body around it. Last thing, it'd be great if you could watch teachers and construct your content diet to be focused around compassion and love. Although I'll be honest, I never did this. But I just might start now.

The model of negative and positive polarity from the RA material is helpful here. What you seem to be urging for is growth in the negative polarity. That happens when the heart chakra is closed if I understand correctly. On the negative polarity you can still realize you're everything and all that, even transcend suffering to some degree, without any element of love involved. The only difference would be that you'll get your energy and bliss from conquering others while the positive polarity gets it near effortlessly just through existing. I think you should work on your heart chakra and balance it with the solar plexus.

Great post, I think this summed up all my thoughts about this forum

The purpose of the dream is infinite in nature. Because it can be anything you want to make it. There is no 'objective' purpose because any purpose can be objective depending on your POV. To define a purpose one needs to go outside of what it's defining but you can't go outside of the dream/reality. Any purpose you may find will always be a part of the dream. By saying all this I am not avoiding the problem of "What's the purpose of this dream?", this IS the answer. So honestly it's not even that deep whether you should help someone awaken from the dream or not. It's not like you'll EVER go against the purpose of the dream lol. And if you worry about whether you'll mess someone up by delivering the teachings at the wrong time, well that's a question regarding personal ethics. That depends on where you draw the line and that's very relative.

I have watched Aubrey Marcus's Podcasts with him. I'd like to believe him but I got really no evidence to do so.

In my experience one of the biggest reason for this is living in a society where you are constantly blasted with people identified with themselves talking and behaving in ways that imprint you with that level of being. If you have ever reached a state of bliss or whatever with no sense of self and proceed to talk to people or consume normal media, the self-obsessed nature of people is clear. But then as you interact more and more, you slide to that exact same state yourself. For me, who isn't as well established into the higher states, I'd slide down anyways even without interaction, however with interaction it's much faster. Without interaction, maybe a few hours; with interaction? 30 - 50 mins and I am back to being identified with the self. I need guidance as to how I can sustain such levels of consciousness where I am literally leaking out of my body because of how disidentified I am, but still manage to interact with people without lowering my level? I know it's possible but how? For those of you who are more experienced in this I have more questions I am dying(pun intended) to have answered. In default states and even in such states I feel like I am suffocating in a way I can't explain, and through previous experiences I know the way to solve this is to open my heart, because once I did it for a split second and it felt like I took a big gasp of air after suffocating my whole life. But no matter how hard I try, I cannot open my heart in the right way to feel that breath of fresh air again. Need help. My third question is how do you head towards God realization from here(without psychedelics, I do not intend to take them yet)? I have heard the next step after self-realization would be to experience the void and have enough experience of it to move past the bliss of self-realization. But what is this void and how do I experience it? Maybe God realization is too high a goal to aim for sober, if that is the case then where can I go from here in general besides embodiment?

Enlightenment doesn't have a single meaning, different gurus use it differently and so does every seeker's version of what it means to be enlightened is different in a really broad way. Meaning you should not worry about whether you fit the label Enlightened or not as in someone's definition you definitely do. Some believe it has some sort of objective meaning but you quickly learn that it's just a relative word as it stands now. And as you realize more and more how much you have yet to awaken, you keep pushing what it means to be Enlightened further up the conscious scale. In my definition of Enlightened 2 years ago, yes you are Enlightened. Now? I don't even know what that word means anymore tbh. For most people the definition goes like this: As long as I see you on par with the most conscious person I have heard about, I'll call you Enlightened. Some go to say that Enlightened is a specific awakening or realization after which there is still a long way to go. But one needs to keep in mind that's also just a definition. I still think it's important though to see in which definitions you are considered as Enlightened if you seek to interact spiritually with others for eg, Teaching.

@UpperMaster It took too much energy to sustain so I stopped after a while but I believe it should be possible to make it the baseline after practice.

One thing I have found useful in this regard is the 'lucidity' you feel during certain awakenings really increases your spatial awareness. I was having an awakening walking on the street and I could tell by body heat how big, how close, and how fast someone was walking behind me, if at all. It was crazy, it was like having your back turned into an energy sensor. Didn't last long for me though. This lucidity feels exactly like being lucid in a dream, if you have ever experienced it. It can also be followed by amnesia as well so yeah. You become so lucid you lose your memories.

@TEOTLR Thanks for your response. Can you please elaborate more on this? What is this physical connection? Does this dissolve by observation? What happens if this connection is strong vs light vs gone?

Enjoying fictional books is pretty hard for those of us who see books as a source of knowledge not entertainment. It feels like you are wasting your time. Well, read it when you are wasting your time then. When you'd have wasted your time anyways for example watched a movie/show/youtube video, just read that book. Although if you're goal is other than to enjoy the story itself then I don't see you finishing the book. I'd only read a fiction book if I believe it will connect to me on some level and resolve some karmic issue inside. But that's the case with any sort of entertainment.

I think the intuition being talked about in 'counter-intuitive' is the primitive and under developed intuition that is default to people. That's not even really intuition as I understand it but subconscious patterns that have been either picked up from culture, people, society etc, or acquired as a human creature or as living being, etc. For eg. As an ego it's 'intuitive' to not wanna die, but that's what you have to do for understanding reality. The intuition in 'life is intuitive' is probably actual intuition in the definition that it is the knowing of something without any logical reason(that you can observe or articulate). So life being intuitive could mean something like life can not be explained logically but needed to be understood intuitively(without normal human logic)

Not really athletics but his POV as a 7'1 man is fascinating

Can you explain more the relationship between the human personality in you and the jellyfish?

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What you care about reflects who you are. In the sense of what you value. First you need to be radically authentic and find out what you really care about and what you don't. Pro Tip: Being numb, ignorant, or scared of something doesn't mean you don't care. Now, once you know what you care about you should have a good idea of how developed you really are. So now you need to look at and guess what value systems people more developed than you hold. That's tricky because you need to discern between their personal values and values that comes with that level of development(which is what you are looking for). Also it's your current values which determine who's more developed and who isn't, so yeah. It's very tricky. My advice: Observe diverse models of development and pick out what's common, what makes sense, and try to find contradictions. You can also use this perspective to become anyone you want, as long as you know most of what they care about. (Which even they don't)

I am just starting my 9th day and I feel literally no difference except that I am horny all the time. But I like this sensitivity, I do not want to lose it by masturbating. My theory is that you can naturally outgrow masturbation as the sexual tension isn't the issue. The issue is the unnatural addictions to porn etc. You can't outgrow those, you need to kill those. I know two men in my life who have outgrown masturbation and they are both longtime friends with no reason to lie to me. It's definitely possible and not masturbating is definitely more common than people on the internet like to think.

@Tyler Robinson I see, thanks a lot.

@Tyler Robinson What would be a higher, more truer opinion of women in your opinion? What's your take on if women have intrinsic value or not? (Value here meaning something that would be of value to society)

I did it for a few months and realized it's wayyy too much of a hassle. The fact that you start a timer or whatever and are measuring your meditation disturbs the authenticity of the meditation. Sometimes you stop meditating for a few minutes and go back to meditating. Do you count that as meditating? How will you measure such gaps accurately? How accurate are your estimations? It's not so simple as to doing a particular amount of time during the day. The only measure of whether you meditated enough should come from inside you. Tracking how much you meditated isn't necessary unless you want to claim a title of "I have done 10k hours of meditation" which is a egoic pursuit. There can be other reasons but yeah. I don't think it's necessary at all but in fact hinders meditation. At least for me.

I am in a really similar situation. I can't advice you on how to improve your time management but I can tell you how to stop procrastination(if you have that problem). Even if you don't this'll be helpful. In situations like ours we tend hold a lot of worry and fear in our hearts. Uncertainty about the future, sadness about the past, all that jazz. This causes procrastination, inability to focus, loss of energy, which all leads to shortage of time. If you were able to remove some unneeded habits and tasks, maybe even destructive(hard to notice), then it'll free up a lot of time and energy in your day. Stopping even little habits that are technically not needed can free up good amounts of energy. You can than use this energy to look into making your current daily tasks more efficient. Once you make your tasks and day more efficient(only possible when one has mental clarity and energy), you'll free up even more time and energy, using which you can heal your heart. This is very important to be able to focus on things. You cannot read even a page from a book if you are worried, and you wouldn't know why. Healing your heart can take time and often times, the gut needs healing too. Mine certainly did. What you can do is focus on how your heart/gut(whichever you're healing) feels right now. Maybe you can't feel anything at all. But keep your attention there, hit up some nostalgia inducing songs or images, from when times were good. If you had no such times then imagine a world where all your worries are sorted. If you are able to visualize or remember correctly thanks to the nostalgia, your focus on your gut/heart will start unravelling the layers upon layers of walls built around the heart/gut. For the gut it will feel like you are becoming a child as this happens, and it can be scary and you might be resistant to it, it will be uncomfortable but you have to push through. For the heart this feels similar, but you'll start feeling way more vulnerable and emotional. That's a good thing. Tell your heart it'll be fine. It's ok and do not worry. Push through that discomfort as well. It will lead to great silence and focus. Reminisce about your life etc. Point is your gut and heart become a throbbing, sensitive organ, as they were originally. This will free up energy locked in cuz of the worries and fear. More energy should lead to more time in the day. Sometimes one has just too much to do and needs to sacrifice some tasks for others. Sometimes you are just not efficient or skilled enough to do all the tasks in the day, for which youll need to slowly practice. Habit building will become easier through this process but it's still hard. This was just my personal process so take what you find useful

I converted to Grandsonism the day the episode dropped (look at my tshirt)

People say this often but I have never understood this through any sort of awakening. It's the claim that God wants to understand itself and this is why it experiences itself for all eternity. How do you realize this? How would I know this for a fact? Any pointers? Why God?