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Don't worry. Life goes through cycles and the spiritual journey is of no exception. Just focus on the beginning of your next cycle. Relax for now. Gather energy to go all out next time.

There advice wasn't as thorough and complete as would be of someone who embodies it, but they correctly identified my problem and pointed me to the right direction. I think the reason they could do that was because they were dealing with the same problem, and the solution to this problem is something that requires consistency, and while they couldn't be consistent with the solution, the problem of consistency is an entirely different matter than the issue at hand. They are basically parroting what others have already said, but what they parrot could be of value to you if they correctly identify your problem. And as I said, it wouldn't be as thorough and nuanced as would be someone's advice if they actually embodied it. Another thing is that if you ask them more questions about the initial knowledge, they might start making shit up, which is not related to your problem. All in all, I have received advice about fitness and even spirituality from people who couldn't embody it, but I could because I had some pieces of the puzzle they didn't.

I have met a few people who give incredible advice but fail to embody it themselves. Their advice has worked for me. But I think what you're saying should be the default rule when judging whether to take advice or not. But I just wanted to add that nuance.

That's the whole goal of tantra. To annihilate the self and becoming a walking avatar of the deity you worship.

Yeah I do this all the time. Whenever I read back to my posts on this forum, it never feels like I have written it.

You sure smoking weed and jerking off is sustainable? I get your concept and it really does make sense. But the practice you're advocating seems inefficient to me. I think even if you don't look at reality from the lense of sex, you simply raising your consciousness is penetrating or getting penetrated by reality. I'd say there's a lot better ways to do that then.

It's obvious isn't it?

If I am being completely honest with myself, I'd get stuck in a loop of consumption, burn-out and recovery. I would achieve nothing and learn nothing for a long time. I need to fix this before I even look for my LP.

The implications and use cases of this insight are HUGE. Thank you for this insight. My main takeaway was that "Attention is the fuel for Distinction"

If socialization is sabotaging your work so severely I think you should look into how you can change your situation so you don't have to deal with them regularly. There's almost always a way to change your situations. But if it's absolutely impossible for you then some degradation is unavoidable when you socialize. To minimize it, I say you develop your relationship between these people in such a way that it's acceptable for you to be conscious as you chat. Because I am sure you have to change your level, way of thinking, speaking and personality for different people. So simply remain at your highest possible level while interacting with them. If they find it weird, let them have it.

Having a little sister, and regularly observing her play with her friends, has revealed the same thing to me. I'd like to share my experience: There's this kid who is short tempered, impatient, practically a genius, and very selfish. She employs manipulation tactics and all, which is obvious to an adult like me, but just good enough to deceive other kids. There's another kid who's really just slow compared to other kids, in understanding, physical activity and speed of speaking. There's another who's very confident in herself, and unlike others, when the first-mentioned kid tries to manipulate her it almost always fails. She also loves to play pranks, but it will certainly hurt your feelings if you're not integrated. There's another who's very shy and takes no sides. I mean it's a lively bunch, but there are a LOT of fights. Mainly because of the manipulator-kid taking advantage of her louder-voice and other things. So I have to often solve these disputes between the kids, and it has taught me a LOT. Firstly, every kid has a good intention, but they are a copy of the average personality of their family. They are all 7 - 9 year olds and it's only the older ones who have started developing a personality separate from their family. Secondly, the stereotypes we have about certain groups of people is entirely visible in the children. They are the perfect examples of let's say a selfish-prick or a people-pleaser, depending on the kid. But such perfect examples are rare in adults. Thirdly, they are very focused on your tone and choice of words. Way more than the meaning of the words itself. To teach them any sort of nuance, you can't do it through words. You have to get them to experience it, but it's really hard to come up with such scenarios. Finally, it seems to me that their brain is capable of thinking in a sophisticated manner it's just that they can't grasp those sophisticated concepts and use it as a tool in their thinking. Honestly, handling kids reveals to oneself a lot about what they judge, hate and demonize. About what they can't love and what they don't accept. Normally we effortlessly and without awareness, avoid such things due to the way we lead our lives. But with kids, it's unavoidable, which is great opportunity for growth. Adults are great at hiding bad behavior, so you don't have much practice in dealing with it head on, but kids don't know how to hide it, and all their selfishness and tactics are on your face, so... can you still love them?

I do not call someone more than once because I assume either they are busy or want to talk to me later. I think it's actually rare in today's age that the reason someone hasn't picked up is because they didn't notice it. I mean, whether you call someone more than once or not really depends on what kind of relationship you have with that person. The fact that her husband called back and abused you means she felt threatened by you calling her 3 times. If this was the case, then you should take responsibility and accept to yourself that you should have known what kind of relation you had with her, and that it was only appropriate to call her once. Or maybe just message her.

I think it's important in case of something like a dream to determine whether you are passionate about it or not. If you're not really passionate about it then put it lower down your bucket list. But the real question is, how do you know if you're passionate about it or not? I mean we are talking about an old dream. Maybe you just forgot your passion for it, and as you delve deeper into actualizing that dream, your passion will fruit again as it used to be. So it's important that you determine truly whether you have actually lost your passion for it or just forgot about it.

Yes Yellow contains radical forgiveness and the statement that "love and peace can't solve everything" does not contradict it. This is because 'love and peace' in this context is used to refer to what Green would call love and peace. But the version of love and peace of Green is very biased and their viewpoint lack a lot of nuance as compared to Yellow. This is also why they cannot truly forgive 'evil' people, while Yellow can.

By suffering that pain, misery and dysfunction without any resistance. That's what it means to love pain and misery. When you cry for another human being, that's love as well. Love doesn't always feel good because it's not about feeling good to you as a human. Love is truly beyond human. For us as an individual, the line between what is love and what's not is drawn at 'resistance'. But for God, even 'resistance' is simply an experience.

Your gf needs healing, love and growth more than revenge on the guy. Revenge will surely soothe your wounds but it will only be temporary for your girlfriend. The effects caused by such events gain a separate existence apart from the cause (the guy) itself. Cut off the BFF and live a life separate from the brother. Once he is out of her life completely, he is not the problem anymore, it's her wounds, THAT is what you need to defeat. In my honest opinion, some action against the guy, whether physical, legal, or any other way, would be justified if he was a constant or reoccurring problem in her life. Then you should have absolutely fucked him up, if you could. But in your case, from what I have read, this is not the case. You're not a pussy for not fighting him, he's not even the real problem anymore. Anyone who tells you otherwise is narrow-sighted. Chill out and take a deep breath.

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I haven't researched it but thought about it. It seems it is caused mostly by past dreams and past similar experiences. However, there is that 1% of Deja Vu that has nothing to do with the past. It seems it brings you such sudden intense lucidity that you are almost able to predict the future.

Yes you are correct. I was wrong. Although I still think there's no need to stop using "I/Me/My". If one is getting frustrated by the use of these words it looks to me that one still identifies too much with their relative self.

Have some self-love and let your relative self exist lol. God doesn't need to squash the relative self to be aware of itself.

There is no effort required in integrating Survival and Spirituality together. The distinction between them is artificial. If the nature of your journey is that you live in a cave for years, that's what it is. If your nature directs you to live in society, or live as a teacher, that's how you live. You'd do what your situation requires. The reason someone would go in a mental asylum is not because they did not care about their survival, but that they were reckless and as you said, without guidance. This idea that you need to separately care for 'Survival' is a bias. A bias created so you have an excuse to live the normal life alongside doing spirituality. This idea will hold you back. Just don't be reckless, and pursue what you want to pursue. If you going balls deep in Kriya Yoga requires you living in the forest than so be it, and if the result is that your nature makes you live as a millionaire guru then so be it. It's not that complicated.

There's no need to deal with this fact. This understanding is very enjoyable with the awareness of the love of reality. Isn't it just amazing how everyone you know is just as much a dream as you are? The only being in existence is God, your true self.

If you have awakened from the head, meaning you can comfortably see that reality is impersonal, empty, meaningless, and are completely detached from it, understanding it's all a dream without any substance, then the next thing to do is to awaken from the heart. Develop a pinpoint concentration in your chest, similar to the concentration at the third eye area. Emanate love from the point in your chest once you start feeling that pressure. Emanate more and more, until you realize you can love that point, and that emanation itself, so you detach from the emanation process, and you're loving everything at once from an entirely new dimension. It's a very intense state of love. Then, combine it with your awakening of your head if you haven't already. You'll see that this dream you saw as impersonal has been breathed with life, as if it's one benevolent being, emanating unstoppable love to absolutely nowhere. Now, let your relative self surface and be part of the dream, however, witness how your relative self is so absolutely made of love. If you don't at least have tears in your eyes, you haven't gone deep enough.

I went from forgetful, and anxiety driven to calm, peaceful and relaxed in my voice. I speak at the appropriate pace and crisply when it's a matter of exchange of information, but otherwise my temperament has become much sweeter. My words have gotten much clearer and I speak with a flow now. Sometimes the love is so great, it's hard to not speak to someone like you love them dearly. This does not mean I am not aware of my absolute sovereignty. This freed up my attention to be able to notice how others behave, I'll tell you my observations. I see people being very impatient, trying to find the next interesting thing all the time. Lots of demonization, they are so preoccupied with their life and their selves that they cannot enjoy the present. It's so utterly tragic. It makes me weep. Even kids show signs of such neurotic behavior, I have seen no kid that is peaceful. I sincerely feel that this isn't normal.