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  3. Posted · Edited by Axiomatic

    The thing about all this is the intention imo

    Cold approaching in itself isn't bad or ineffective. But in my experience my cold approaches go better when I am naturally interacting with people and simply being open.

    I go to the cafe to read and write and enjoy myself. I might see a girl there and say something. I met a girl working at a gas station when I went to get gas. She was very open to talking to me from her tone and body language. We chatted about school and I got her number. 

    When I was younger, I would try to plan this stuff out and strategize. And that just made it a 'thing'. I wasn't talking to girls because I enjoyed it, I was doing it to "fix something" with myself or to prove myself worth, or to get a dopamine rush from validation. 

    It's the same with a social circle. Yeah, it would help a lot to meet women that way. But get in a social circle based on your interest with the intention of enjoying life and making connections. Making it apart of your plot sabotages the entire purpose of socializing. At least for me.

  4. Posted

    12 minutes ago, Jacob Morres said:

    I hear you G. Just be careful i see some confirmation bias here. Don't let an unempathetic women cloud your worldview , there are many, many good women out there that Do care. I was like you for a while. Just takes some searching but there really are many. I feel you bro ?

    People who are unempathetic are suffering themselves - a lack of empathy is karma (u always regret it in my experience. Psychedelics taught me this)  and is a sign of low social development 

    Thank you brother. I needed this. Truly 

  5. Posted · Edited by Axiomatic

    33 minutes ago, evgn said:

    3) I met a guy once, again through a group of friends. Literally the first question he asked me was "are you single?" ... honestly I should have said yes because then he asked me if I wanted to go to a sauna with him... *sigh* I gave him the coldest possible look and shook my head "no", he still tried to give me his fucking number after. The fuck has to be wrong in someone's head to behave like this!   

     

    What if a handsome guy ask you that? Would you be upset?

    Yeah there’s definitely a huge cognitive dissonance in that way of thinking. 
     

    I’ve pulled more than one woman who tried to write me off to see how I would react. How am I supposed to know which ones playing and which is serious?

     

    eventually as a man you gotta say fuck it and do what you want. Women can hate all they want, but men won’t get anywhere playing the logic game with women. 
     

    if I went around worrying about making every possible women uncomfortable, I would get zero pussy 

  7. Posted · Edited by Axiomatic

    16 hours ago, Loba said:

    I don't know what to tell you, this is a problem with the times.  Men have gotten less socialized, but to be fair, so have women.
     
    I used to dislike men.  I don't anymore, I feel completely neutral in most instances - but to be honest, I don't fully trust them in a relationship setting, and this is something that I have carried with me for as long as I have been a little girl.  I have a lot of karma in relation to how my family raised me and how they treated one another, and I learned that men don't protect you when you need it.  My mother was often violent and emotionally corrupt and my dad left me when I was five, only to come back in my teens and they both ganged up on me.  Now that he is older, he can see the game for what it is.  But I realized that men tend to either submit to the demands of bitchy women, or they will leave you.  This created in my life a repeated pattern that has played out where I am mishandled.

    I'm the one that gets used as something to toss around, manhandled for a while, and then left - often lied to, or having had my reality distorted so that they never have to really look at themselves in the face.  Or I am the middle girl in between breakups.  Or I attract abusers who use my bad self esteem to keep me down - if I love them, I'll give them anything.  Not a good thing.  I used to think this wasn't a common problem with men, but I realized that it is much more so than I realized.  Especially after having spent some time here, I really could never see myself bringing a human masculine presence into my life ever again. 

    It's too late anyways, I'm nearly done for.  But it has been something that was on my mind a few months ago when working on these issues in coming to understand the collective dissolution of human connection - what would it have been like to have gotten what I held dearly as a little girl - the love of a man?  Truly, to be seen.  I think, if I had it in my early 20's, before everything went downhill, that it would have literally saved my life.  I wouldn't have become mentally ill, or physically ill.  I think my body wouldn't have produced so much stress, I would have had some stability.  I wouldn't have hid from the world.  I would have filled myself up with love.  I would have known that I was worth something.  I would have been saved.  But I wasn't good enough in the eyes of human men.  I was just a toy to be used for pleasure, and so what could have bloomed into a happy, healthy person was sluffed away and damaged - and I was told that I had to be held accountable for their actions for not knowing any better.  Abusive people don't just damage your self esteem, they corrode your mental health and people have literally died from health complications being around the stress they induce.  There is a term for it.  Boiled frog.

    So... in some sense, I view human men as the attempted murderers of my soul - if it weren't for some sense of divine retribution reaching out to comfort me, I would probably be floating around, aimless.

    That said, I have made good friends with men.  I love them as friends, but the dynamic is different in that setting.  None of my childhood programming is activated, and so it's usually carefree and innocent.  But if the dynamic were to change and they were to catch whiff of that programming, the whole thing would be turned upside down.  Men can't help themselves.  They're savage, if you strip them away from everything else that makes up the human shell.

    For the most part, though, a good portion of men I have met and dated have been shallow, selfish, manipulative bullies who have done everything in their power to rob me of my personal divinity.  To keep me from being who I was meant to be.  Creatures from the bottom of the sinkholes with no other purpose than to take my sense of purpose, love and health. 

    I had to seek within, so fucking far within to find some sense of it in my own person.  And I am never letting go of it for anything.

    The human Adams of the world, who were supposed to serve and protect the innocent and vulnerable failed.  Completely.  A repeated lesson time and time again that could have been mitigated.  Well... now I have a sense of personal power.  I won't misuse it, but I can't speak for the thing that created me, designed me to be loved, cherished - and watched as this experiment failed.

    I'm not really much of a feminist, but I can understand the pain that women go through.  I went through it, too.  A lot of guys want to push these problems on women, but to be fair, we are designed to be loved and adored, and shown how to bloom, to follow in your footsteps.  Most of you lot aren't worth any of it.  Not really, anyways.  It doesn't make me feel bitter anymore.  I found what I was looking for... but... it does make me sad.  I think that human connection, which could be something so marvelous and something that could create miracles, will never, ever get to the level that it was intended.  And... well... that is the fault of man.

    I used to take that into me, and to feel that I deserved it.  That it was my fault - but the divine came to me, and told me that none of it was - that the things that happened to me were a mistake, that the world had gotten it all wrong.  I was told that I could be kept safe somewhere after death - away from all of this, forever.  I'm grateful.  I went into this world with such innocent expectations of men, only for them to be shattered, only to see that this is collective problem.  Men are broken.

    To be fair, I don't have a lot of hope for the human race.  I feel like just one small tendril out of billions of actions.

    We are all so fragile.  No one really wants to accept this.  Just one... tiny little wave... and the whole thing comes crashing down.  What a damned shame... :/ 

    You’re doing exactly what I said. I’m not an incel, but if I ever discuss my problems via the internet, I get no empathy. And that’s usually a term thrown around as a symbol of a lack of empathy and an easy way to write off my problems. 
     

    it’s also ironic that you state that you shouldn’t have empathy for someone if that person lacks empathy for other peoples problems. Because right after that you literally said you don’t have empathy for how I feel. 
     

    you summed up in that essay why I generally don’t trust or care about womens problems. Because they see any pain I feel as divine retribution. 
     

    I’ve been emotionally abused,manipulated and had my self worth stepped on by women. I’m told to man up and stop whining by people with your perspective. Or that I choose the wrong women. Or that I’m an incel or mgtow or whatever the hot name is to make my problems not feel worth discussing 
     

    so in conclusion, go fuck your self. You don’t fucking listen either. 
     

    you are walking irony 

  8. Posted · Edited by Axiomatic

    26 minutes ago, Loba said:

    I don't know what to tell you, this is a problem with the times.  Men have gotten less socialized, but to be fair, so have women.
     
    I used to dislike men.  I don't anymore, I feel completely neutral in most instances - but to be honest, I don't fully trust them in a relationship setting, and this is something that I have carried with me for as long as I have been a little girl.  I have a lot of karma in relation to how my family raised me and how they treated one another, and I learned that men don't protect you when you need it.  My mother was often violent and emotionally corrupt and my dad left me when I was five, only to come back in my teens and they both ganged up on me.  Now that he is older, he can see the game for what it is.  But I realized that men tend to either submit to the demands of bitchy women, or they will leave you.  This created in my life a repeated pattern that has played out where I am mishandled.

    I'm the one that gets used as something to toss around, manhandled for a while, and then left - often lied to, or having had my reality distorted so that they never have to really look at themselves in the face.  Or I am the middle girl in between breakups.  Or I attract abusers who use my bad self esteem to keep me down - if I love them, I'll give them anything.  Not a good thing.  I used to think this wasn't a common problem with men, but I realized that it is much more so than I realized.  Especially after having spent some time here, I really could never see myself bringing a human masculine presence into my life ever again. 

    It's too late anyways, I'm nearly done for.  But it has been something that was on my mind a few months ago when working on these issues in coming to understand the collective dissolution of human connection - what would it have been like to have gotten what I held dearly as a little girl - the love of a man?  Truly, to be seen.  I think, if I had it in my early 20's, before everything went downhill, that it would have literally saved my life.  I wouldn't have become mentally ill, or physically ill.  I think my body wouldn't have produced so much stress, I would have had some stability.  I wouldn't have hid from the world.  I would have filled myself up with love.  I would have known that I was worth something.  I would have been saved.  But I wasn't good enough in the eyes of human men.  I was just a toy to be used for pleasure, and so what could have bloomed into a happy, healthy person was sluffed away and damaged - and I was told that I had to be held accountable for their actions for not knowing any better.  Abusive people don't just damage your self esteem, they corrode your mental health and people have literally died from health complications being around the stress they induce.  There is a term for it.  Boiled frog.

    So... in some sense, I view human men as the attempted murderers of my soul - if it weren't for some sense of divine retribution reaching out to comfort me, I would probably be floating around, aimless.

    That said, I have made good friends with men.  I love them as friends, but the dynamic is different in that setting.  None of my childhood programming is activated, and so it's usually carefree and innocent.  But if the dynamic were to change and they were to catch whiff of that programming, the whole thing would be turned upside down.  Men can't help themselves.  They're savage, if you strip them away from everything else that makes up the human shell.

    For the most part, though, a good portion of men I have met and dated have been shallow, selfish, manipulative bullies who have done everything in their power to rob me of my personal divinity.  To keep me from being who I was meant to be.  Creatures from the bottom of the sinkholes with no other purpose than to take my sense of purpose, love and health. 

    I had to seek within, so fucking far within to find some sense of it in my own person.  And I am never letting go of it for anything.

    The human Adams of the world, who were supposed to serve and protect the innocent and vulnerable failed.  Completely.  A repeated lesson time and time again that could have been mitigated.  Well... now I have a sense of personal power.  I won't misuse it, but I can't speak for the thing that created me, designed me to be loved, cherished - and watched as this experiment failed.

    I'm not really much of a feminist, but I can understand the pain that women go through.  I went through it, too.  A lot of guys want to push these problems on women, but to be fair, we are designed to be loved and adored, and shown how to bloom, to follow in your footsteps.  Most of you lot aren't worth any of it.  Not really, anyways.  It doesn't make me feel bitter anymore.  I found what I was looking for... but... it does make me sad.  I think that human connection, which could be something so marvelous and something that could create miracles, will never, ever get to the level that it was intended.  And... well... that is the fault of man.

    I used to take that into me, and to feel that I deserved it.  That it was my fault - but the divine came to me, and told me that none of it was - that the things that happened to me were a mistake, that the world had gotten it all wrong.  I was told that I could be kept safe somewhere after death - away from all of this, forever.  I'm grateful.  I went into this world with such innocent expectations of men, only for them to be shattered, only to see that this is collective problem.  Men are broken.

    To be fair, I don't have a lot of hope for the human race.  I feel like just one small tendril out of billions of actions.

    We are all so fragile.  No one really wants to accept this.  Just one... tiny little wave... and the whole thing comes crashing down.  What a damned shame... :/ 

    if you were a guy, people would call you an incel. at least people care about your pain 

  9. Posted · Edited by Axiomatic

    As a sports fan, I always see videos and stories calling to cancel an athlete because he cheated on his girl.

    I suppose it's a retaliation to slut shaming, but I don't think it helps anything.

    In regards to women, there is nothing wrong with a woman doing what she wants obviously, but women have the power to really fuck shit up for other people, especially guys, if they aren't responsible for their sexuality.

    I had a female roommate, and when we got our second roommate (a guy) she chose to sleep with him the second night he moved in.

    She then proceeded to fuck around with the neighbor, causing a major beef that I had to de-escalate so it wouldn't turn violent.

    So imo a woman shouldn't be shamed for doing what she wants UNTIL it can harm others or affect them negatively, which whether women want to admit or not is the honest truth. Their sexuality is powerful. 

    2Pac said it best in this video

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a44xcrm2RNk

     

  11. Posted

    On 10/5/2022 at 2:40 AM, sholomar said:

    I find the American left, not necessarily the ones abroad, are rather low consciousness. When I watched Leo's video on socialization making you stupid, the first thing that came to mind are the left, because they are collectivists and too much trust so called "experts" to tell them what to think rather than coming to their own conclusions. They tend to go along with whatever their leadership tells them to think.

    I don't even think they are necessarily much higher in consciousness than the right. I see way too much identity politics and division promoted among them. Why the need to divide people up into a million different groups and tell some of them they are victims and get them fired up?  Why all the reverse racism of punishing whites and asians for being "too successful?" I see both the extreme left and extreme right as being low consciousness. The only people approaching sane are moderates. :)

    Go on reddit and look at the typical leftists there. They are like whiny children. I really wish the left would improve and grow past this stage, for the good of society... this victimhood, hating the haters type of mentality. This undeserved sense of moral superiority they have. They need to be more tolerant, to lead by example. They act like their cult political party is the answer to all of the world's problems. They act like they are never wrong.  Hopefully with time we can evolve.

    In the meantime I basically have to flip a coin at the polling booth when I go and vote... I can't stomach either political party. All I know is that I'm voting yes in 27 to legalize marijuana, and yes on medicaid expansion (South Dakota)

    yeah people on the far left are usually very insecure/unhappy with themselves and overcompensate for it with their ideals. 

    It's ironic because they describe the other side that way. 

  17. Posted

    On 12/22/2021 at 3:41 AM, mememe said:

    ware that you in your own description started that fight first being unsociable while the other girl had a hard time, having an alcoholic mom at her space, and that you just recived the payback for being not receptive. you could be thankful for the attempt that they try to teach you empathy.

     

    This part is utterly hilarious! They were literally getting drunk together for over a week. I cannot believe you have the audacity to put the blame on me for not wanting that in my home...

  18. Posted · Edited by Axiomatic

    6 hours ago, Danioover9000 said:

    @Tron

       Ah, I see, you illiterate? An addict of Tumblr, thought I was writing weird jumbles? Need some contact lenses? I guess I ruffled your feathers, so sorry man chick, here's a truffle, for the visuals, Kenshin, for your poisoned eyelids, hallucinating that chicks voice, only to have her kick the bucket by thy sword in your hands, that's really sad.

       Ah, I see, you knew what a PUA player was, and tried to play games with me. However, explain to me, your pick-up artistry attempts are as cute as Pua Moana, while sporting itty bitty little piggy pee U attached down there, is that why you are going bananas, cuz yours are not bananas?

       No, I'm just rapping bro, chill. Grow a pair, compared to mine, yours is shriveled up from all your affairs, getting sucked from hips to chest by Succubae you shouldn't mess with. Here, have some pears of mine, you need some vitamin D and milk, BTW, I'm Bi, so when I pare up with you and your GF, bi curve you and her cleanly, hang you guys out to sun dry leanly.

       I'm a troll? Lol, you're the troll, who couldn't roll with a fine Lass's punches and jabs at your confidence, folded up your poker hand, choked on your words, mishandled and misunderstood in a midnight stroll, telling me I misapply and mismatch stuff, too many misses in there, lmao, might as well call you Jr. misses, and roll you under a bridge, cuz my raps are taking their toll on your highness.

    This is one of the corniest things I have ever read. 

    Please don't rap, you're not good at it 

  19. Posted · Edited by Axiomatic

    So a quick bit of history about myself: I am a 30 yr old straight man. I have dated on and off through my adult life. I took a hiatus from dating for a few years due to health issues and also focusing on school. I also realized that the stress and anxiety from things such as dating contributed to my health issues. I felt it was best to focus on myself and get to a better place before I open this avenue again.

    Well it is present day, and I feel as ready as I ever have to date again. I didn't know where to start, but I am in between semesters this summer and decided to get a summer job at a restaurant. I didn't know what to expect, but I tried to be friendly, open, and do a good job.

    Well I realized that I'm quite popular with a lot of the women there. There were 2 or 3 in particular that I felt were interested in me. One thing I learned from my dating mistakes pre hiatus was to really be aware of the woman who I was going for. Their age, maturity level, life choices all need to be a factor in that. Because not only would I like something serious, but I just don't want to deal with someone who is going to mistreat me or cause me unnecessary problems. Blindly going for women who I was simply attracted to on a physical level was a failing formula for me.

    So I decided to ask out a women at work who I really liked. She is 32, going to nursing school, and is someone who I felt comfortable around from the start. She always seemed interested in me. She ask me about myself, my interest. I catch her glancing at me when were in the same area. I had a strong feeling that she liked me and that asking her out was a good idea.

    So after a few weeks of working there, I finally asked her. I simply said "Hey I know you're busy with all your stuff, but if you ever wanted to do something outside of work I would definitely be up for that". She agreed, asked me if I liked to hike, then offered me her phone number.

    I felt ecstatic. After that part of my life being cut off for so long, it felt like a real rush to have a girl who I crush on say yes. I waited a few days, and then I texted her. I just let her know my schedule and asked if she was free any of those days.

    ...She didn't text me back for a day and a half. I tried not to get anxious about it, but it bothered me enough to turn my notifications off. She finally texted back and said "Hey! hmmm how about next week?" I said thats fine and then she asked about my 4th of july, etc.

    I'd see her at work and felt like the vibes were stronger. It felt like we both wanted to get closer to each other and want to be alone with each other if possible. She continued to ask about what I like and such.

    She mentioned how she wanted sushi at work. So I texted her a few days later in the evening "Heyy I've been wanting sushi ever since you mentioned it. I'm probably gonna get some tomorrow, if you're free you should join me!"

    I didn't get a reply...I felt terrible. I started to feel anxious like I did in the past. Trying to figure out if I did, said, or went about it wrong. Did I come off too strong?

    I saw her at work the next day. She came up to me and said "I'm so sorry I didn't text you back! I was visiting my mom". I played it cool. Just joked that I went with my roommate. She started asking me more questions like where do I like to go to eat sushi? She tried to converse with me whenever we could and I once again felt okay. I thought "Of course she likes me! She apologized and is asking about me so shes clearly interested!"

    I went to bed feeling happy about it, but then it struck me. She didn't have the courtesy to text me back at all, she didn't attempt to set up another time, let alone tell me what her when she's available. At work she seems interested, but her actions speak differently.

    I have decided to let off the gas for a bit and just let things be. I find myself going through similar patterns that I once did before I went on hiatus. The constantly being in my head trying to figure shit out. Even though I knew I just needed to let it go, it still bugged me.

    It left me feeling a bit frustrated. She seems like a really sweet person, and I don't think she intentionally tries to manipulate me, but a younger/more immature me would see it as a perfect plan to lead me on. It kind of makes me feel bad. Like she doesn't take me seriously or something.

    And before I get any replies, I want to also add that I am aware that sometimes girls are just being friendly and not always romantically interested. Trust me, I do my best to be aware of that. That didn't feel like this...but maybe it was.

    At the end of the day I feel a lack of communication of what she wants. I clearly told her I want to go out with her. If she wasn't interested I would be fine if she just said she was looking for friends. If thats the case, why didn't she just say that? Because shes afraid I wouldn't want to be her friend? If so, thats not much of an excuse to lead me on. This is all speculation btw.

    This is hard...but I don't want to run away anymore.

  20. Posted

     

    For one, white women try to divorce themselves from their white privilege in attempt to be apart of the club. But they are clearly way more self entitled and shitty than people who face real oppression. And the shittiest part is that their voices are heard more often than other oppressed groups.

    On top of that, they use this idea of oppression (which is really just insecurity) as a reason to be shitty to other people.

    A prime example is my roommate situation. I roomed with two white women. A few months ago, I got really sick and had to get a serious surgery for my gallbladder. On top of that I was carrying my corpse through finals. And during that week I let the dishes go (it was honestly hard to tell which were mine because my other roommates didn't do their dishes either). But instead of understanding my situation and even trying to discuss and communicate the issue, they waited until I went out of town for the surgery and tried to tear me apart through text. Calling me a self entitled man expecting them to clean everything. They tried to make me feel like a straight up piece of shit.

    Fast forward a few months. One of these roommates had their alcoholic mom stay over for a fucking week, and they TRASHED the kitchen. They just got drunk for days on end and left it a wreck. When I asked her to clean it so I could cook, she just cussed me out and said I'm just as messy (a straight up lie).

    Her mom heard and decided to clean up because she knew it was out of hand. And my roommate got angry that "she was submitting to a man telling her to clean" and punched a mirror and threw it out the window. She also left that broken mirror in our driveway for days before cleaning it up.

    So in the minds of an 'empowered white woman', if I don't clean up my mess, I am sexist and disrespectful. But if I ask them to clean up their mess, I am also sexist and disrespectful.

    White feminism is the biggest bullshit in our current culture. And the saddest part is that it will probably be one of the only 'issues' that will ever be addressed in our modern times.

    I pray that one day society will see through their bullshit.

  22. Posted · Edited by Axiomatic

    2 hours ago, Michiryoku said:

    just his oppinion i mean he didnt insult anybody so...

    yeah, but he said some disrespectful shit with that word nig***. So i think hes a prick and id clock his ass if he tried to talk that way around me in person 

     

    im not even gonna report it. but he aint shit typin all that on here 

  24. Posted

    On 10/25/2021 at 1:51 AM, lmfao said:

    Bro, it's an okay anime but it's just that. It's FINE, just fine and exactly fine. The characters were really retarded and 1 dimensional at the start, they got better later on, My Villain Academia slaps but the manga readers murmur it was adapted shitly. Making it your favourite anime means you're missing out on a lot man. Deku is a punchable crybaby but he's better now. The series is gay as fuck dude even if it's decent. Zoom Zoom(ers) ? Team Bakugo for life, fuck that nîgger deku up.

    I wish I was in a more hyped up mood to discuss it, but Shigaraki's liberation into himself, absolutely beautiful. MVA babyyyy.

    Damn bro...that whole paragraph was incredibly disrespectful. Regardless of the subject

  25. Posted

    I think a lot of people in this community make the mistake of an all or nothing attitude. They see how intense these Yogis and Leo can be, and they feel like either you must devote your entire being to whatever they think they are looking for and there is no other way.

     

    I started this journey as well, but got a bit burnt out like you seem to be saying. I realized that my spiritual journey can compliment my life, rather than be my life itself. I still meditate and apply awareness, try to use that in my everyday life etc, but I dont feel this need to break through anymore. When it is time for me to make a breakthrough, I'll be open to it as much as possible. But im not gonna spend my life being a monk