mandyjw

Certainty in oneself is death though, and not even a peaceful death but such a struggle to maintain. If we weren't trying so hard to be a someone, would we be so bothered if other people change? Or if they don't change? What would be our reference point? I sometimes think that we forget that we put so much drama into relationships only because we have the privilege of doing so. Way back when survival was harder, you had to work together or you died. There wasn't time to bicker at your husband for looking at Mary's ass, if you didn't help him shovel a path to the barn so the cows could be milked you were a goner. We could build something really great if we weren't still looking for fires to put out all the time.

"Stargirl" young adult fiction novel by Jerry Spinelli I read it on an intuition and its about enlightenment, spirituality and not caring what other people think is the main theme. "Outrageous Openness: Letting the Divine Take the Lead" by Tosha Silver Absolutely hilarious, entertaining but some of the stories will leave you with chills running up your spine. "What's Next After Now?: Post-Spirituality and the Creative Life" - Steven Harrison "The Nature of Consciousness: Essays on the Unity of Mind and Matter" by Rupert Spira I Am That- Nisargadatta Maharaj

The moon should really stay the same all the time don't you think, and nature should stop storming so much. I mean, why not just rain a little everyday at 9:00pm like a sprinkler system? That would be so much more convenient. Also why is the earth tilted on its axis, it should really straighten up, this seasonal changes shit is annoying. Winter, summer, winter, summer, oh make up your mind! You keep interrupting us, inconveniencing us, and delaying what we're building. Never mind that we're building it out of nature itself. Like nature, emotions are a power, they make people uncomfortable, they look like weakness sometimes, but life doesn't go on without them. The first step is to stop being uncomfortable with it yourself. You are not what changes, you are the witness of what changes. Emotions are a super power. Super powers that you don't understand are not easy. You cannot ignore them or repress them but you can be really good at reading them, and the key is to get curious about them and allow them. We cannot learn about a subject if we're too afraid of it to get near it. During times when they bubble up and seem to paralyze you like PMS, go into meditation and watch your thoughts. It's basically like a time of purification or bringing to light what we were too busy to see before. It just won't be ignored. Some really nasty thoughts might come up. Let them. Cry, release. See what the core desire is in them. Then you'll see the value in the super power of emotions. Also I really recommend this book. https://www.amazon.com/Womens-Bodies-Wisdom-Revised-Emotional/dp/0553386735

Spontaneous mystical experiences are very frequently misinterpreted too. So is all experience, even mundane everyday experience. We interpret all experience through a filter. A filter is fundamental to having any experience in the first place. What is prior to any experience?

@4201 There's a subtle difference between obsession and suffering for it and intelligent concern and respect for dangers. You'll only know the difference for yourself, by feeling into it. I think it's common for some form of OCD or hypochondria to precede going deep into spirituality. Some people are such strong thinkers and feelers that they are incompatible with the beliefs of everyone else around them. We were taught that we are a mind that lives in a body, that lives in a world and therefore, we have drawn all kinds of horrible conclusions and "if that then this" beliefs from it. It's a house build upon the sand. Our minds are absolutely rebelling against it. We have a deep intuition that will not accept the beliefs and when we go along with them feeling screams "NO, that's not right!" and the more we stick to them the more we worry, obsess and suffer. So we must start at square one and inquire and feel into what we really are. The mind really wants to be united with feeling, but if you build your house upon the sand and believe the mind, body, world hierarchy and forget the awareness and consciousness behind it all, the mind will try to dominate the entire show with its own misinformation. Depression, anxiety and many mental illnesses are a complete rejection or rebellion towards this fundamental inequality of power. But we sometimes project this intuition out and get angry at others who we think are taking our power. Or we believe that we really are flawed or move back and forth between the two reactions of anger and self hatred. Who would have thought that you should put down a foundation before building the first floor of the house? Seems so impractical, right?

AWESOME. Thanks for sharing.

What happens when you open up to them about stuff? Or ask them questions about their past? Or tell them about things you find exciting or interesting?

Awesome! I don't do stand up, but running seems to be a really good way to get in a flow state where funny connections occur to me.

@Gesundheit I always love to put a check mark next to failure on my list for the day. Then it's a success.

I love this idea, but I couldn't wrap my head around trying to determine what teachings should come first without knowing someone. From my perspective people intuit different things and are all over the place with nonduality and spirituality. I'll read a section of writing or watch a video and get a lot from it, go back later and it's entirely different. I actually filtered the writing with my own level of understanding. It's just so... well you can't grasp it.

The taintedness we see in others is the taindedness we see in ourselves. We grow by exerting ourselves and then during a rest period we grow stronger. If you lift weights you tear up your muscles in the process, and then while you rest your body grows them back better than before. If humans throw you out of your element, hold your focus on what's real about them, then use nature as a rest period. If you only ever rest you won't grow. If you only ever challenge yourself, you will also not grow. If God, or nature or consciousness was happy with nature as it is, animals never would have evolved. We are nature, there was no point in time that we ever truly split from it,.

I don't know about you but I'm super sick of this whole I deal.

You are just a pore, a tiny opening looking out from and into the world from within the vast, borderless, formless sea cucumber of consciousness. What you think you are is actually just an opening calling the first thing it sees itself, and the next not itself, like a baby bird imprinting on its Momma.

Be a moth to the flame not a moth to the blame.

Muninn, it's one of Odin's hunting ravens. Kind of funny and a bit ironic since the breed is a bird hunting dog. I remember your post about Max, it's SO hard to say goodbye.

A Rupert Spira analogy really helped me understand this better recently. Picture that our normal waking state is like a camera lens in focus on objects. Out of focus there's infinite potential and inclusion of everything, but no distinguishable objects. Consciousness with no object is deep sleep. As soon as you zoom in on a subject there's duality but also everything seems clear, in focus and distinguishable, it comes into being or creation. Somewhere in between you've got archetypes, dream states, what we call the subconscious and all kinds of stuff. There's no real state changes though, you can never pin point where you begin and end each state change, just like you can't remember your own birth. So there's a certain susceptibility to seemingly being strongly in one state or another that gets integrated or seen through. Like the theme of so many stories, we go out on an adventure in seemingly dangerous, magical territory, to bring back something (to the waking state.) That's the story though. The author of the story never leaves her desk.

He is sitting up and also begging for a bellyrub, which you can sort of see in his eyes.

I saw this comment somewhere the other day and I loved it. "This is either a fairy tale or a death trap." Once you realize death is not... it's just a fairytale. And I'm still just so in love with the wonder of it. I'm forever thankful to this forum and everyone all along who helped bring me along to the craziness here. Even if it's still hard to surf the waves of it sometimes. I'm also really thankful for my dog, who I've had for about a year now. I'm a dog person and I've had a lot of great dogs, but followed my intuition on this one, and he is just AMAZING in so many ways. I just can't get over it.

My advice would be to try diet first. I had something that may have been endometriosis but also had symptoms of PCOS and was also advised to take birth control pills. Birth control pills made it much worse, and turned it into a much weirder concerning pain, over a much longer period of time. Cutting dairy and sugar seemed to be a huge help. Also add in more veggies and healthy fats. Cruciferous vegetables (kale, broccoli) help regulate hormones. You should be taking vitamin D if you don't get much sun, and in order to properly absorb and use the vitamin D you also need to be making sure you get vitamin K and A to go with it, so eat an orange veggie and green leafy veggie every single day. You might really get a lot out of this book. Oh how I wish I'd known what was in it about 15 years sooner. https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B07ZY62QSX/ref=dbs_a_def_rwt_hsch_vapi_tkin_p1_i1

You don't posses consciousness though. Consciousness has you.

evolve spelled backwards is evlove cause Source be ever loving.

Oh no, counterintuitively, that would have been a really Slytherin thing to do.

Isn't that essentially what all spiritual teachings aim to do? Tap into what resonates with you. All teachers have unique angles of teachings and different ones resonate at different times. You can't really shortcut by asking others if there's something more direct or accurate out there. The more "direct" a teaching is the more difficult it is to really define the teachings. I've read books that have changed and shifted things completely, but if you asked me to write a book report or summarize the book or what I got from it, I'd just be like, "uhhmmmm..."

I'd have guessed Ravenclaw, but I can kinda see it.