mandyjw

Better, better, better, I can always find something better. better (adj., adv.) Old English bettra, earlier betera "of superior quality or excellence," from Proto-Germanic *batizo-, perhaps from PIE *bhad- "good," but Boutkan finds no good IE etymology. "Perhaps from pie, bhad- "good". bhad good Etymology is just a huge hilarious ongoing joke. We be pranking ourselves. prank (n.) "a ludicrous trick" [Johnson], played sometimes in malice but more often in sport, 1520s, a word of uncertain origin, perhaps related to the obsolete verb prank "act ostentatiously, show off" (mid-15c.), also "to decorate, adorn in a showy manner" (1540s), which is related to Middle Low German prank "display" (compare also Dutch pronken, German prunken "to make a show, to strut"). My pride is my shame, my shame is my pride. (Taken from Mister God This is Anna), compare two with three. Two is one less than three. Compare three with two. Three is one more than two. One less is the same as one more. compare (v.) c. 1400, "regard or treat as equal;" early 15c. "liken, make a comparison, represent as similar," from Old French comparer "to compare, liken" (12c.), from Latin comparare "to liken, to compare," from com "with, together" (see com-) + par "equal" (see par (n.)). Related: Compared; comparing. https://www.etymonline.com/search?q=compare

I lied. Wow. I never dealt with this. I exited the religion before I had to deal with it. https://youtu.be/kbB0QrBIs9k You don't have to deal with it. deal (v.) Middle English delen, from Old English dælan "to divide, distribute, separate;" hence "to share with others, bestow, dispense," and also "take part in, have to do with," from Proto-Germanic *dailjanan (source also of Old Saxon deljan, Old Frisian dela "to divide, distribute," Middle Dutch, Dutch deelen, German teilen, Gothic dailjan),from PIE *dail- "to divide," ‌‌perhaps a Northern Indo-European extended form of root *da- "to divide," or a word from a substrate language. OK! So that's there. No it's not. SHUT UP. You're why everyone accuses me of gaslighting! Ashamed? Arghh!!!!

I used to think I was such a piece of shit if I didn't devote my life to missionary work in Africa. No husband, no kids, no money. If Jesus is the truth, and it saves you from hell, there's no fucking way you get to live your life. You have to do everything, eveeeerything and give up everything to tell people the truth. So I realized I had to let go of the idea of hell. The belief in hell and that also solved that problem as well as a whole lot of others. Then the whole idea of heaven and all of it was let go of. So I thought. But I still believe that other people suffer, and I believe that I am here to fix it. And then I go to hell. Hell: Old English hel, hell, of Germanic origin; related to Dutch hel and German Hölle, from an Indo-European root meaning ‘to cover or hide’. BUT SOURCE. Florescent YELLOW/GREEN? It's too bright. Too bright. I'm embarrassed. I'm also very confused, am I... Oh. No shame. No fixing what's broken. My head is broken. Then don't try to fix it. JESUS. I'M STILL ASHAMED OF YOU. Sigh. This every desire and no time thing. Is Leonardo DiCaprio gonna show up on my doorstep? I also never got a pogo stick. I wonder if those two things are related.... alright time for bed.

Pssst.... Source! Wake up! What am I doing here? It's so... weighty, grave. Gravity. And highly visible. I feel highly visible. Like I'm wearing that magical hideous fluorescent green yellow color. I thought skin tones were subtle. Yeah, I guess it's not a design issue. It's kinda like you go from nothin' to a WHOLE lot. Source is like Pedro's cool cousins with all the sweet hookups. Overly conspicuous. Really cool. Everyone be a bit alarmed. FUUUUUUUCK. She caused her own heart attack with her constant angry thoughts and pretends it's a medical mystery. Fuuuuuuuck. I know this stuff. How am I supposed to sit here and observe the world? You don't KNOW that. You can't answer questions people didn't ask. The knowledge is for you. "That's my ride." That's my ride.

@Carl-Richard OMG! ?

This just popped up on my youtube feed and I thought it was really good and much needed in this thread.

@Rilles

I already have everything I want and what I want is to keep on wanting.

@Raptorsin7 Chubby chasing. Never ceases to amaze me how one single name or title can seem to invoke shame and then avoidance. Oooooo... the depths of the illusion. Astounding.

If you had that preference there would be something behind it, not expressing the preference would not bring this to light and instead would allow it to play out in the abuse again and again or eat you up. Expressing it to a therapist would be ideal. A gay man who can't admit to himself what he likes and who marries a straight woman does not love her. He wants to love her. He does, in a way love her. But only until he expresses his desires will he really show her any love or allow himself any love. You must allow yourself love to give it to another because love is not two, it does not go from one to another. It is the shared being. Everything changes when you can be as you are.

No, she lost the weight. As far as I know things were fine with her hubby. That wasn't the point though. See how quick you are to pounce on the judgement button? Why?

@Raptorsin7 Who cares? The majority of people aren't gonna like the same car model you really like. Everyone is weird. Men liking big women is more common than you'd think. It's only hidden out of shame quite often. Then big women feel shame. Shame, shame, shame. The things we do to each other out of shame. What a shame! I know a woman who was obese and wanted to lose weight and it was an issue for her husband. He loved big woman porn and she wouldn't be that anymore. Russell Brand is so very, very not my type at all, that I find this entire thread somewhat hilarious. Attraction is not inherent in something! Are you attracting, attracted or pushing away what you don't want?

@Raptorsin7 HONEY. There ain't nothin' wrong with you. You don't like obese women? Fine. Lots of men do. The story that they are unloved and unworthy is a projection.

@Raptorsin7 There's nothing wrong with pleasure eating. If you're actually taking pleasure in food, you would know when to stop. Over-eating is just one way that could manifest. In the case you gave of the hypothetical unattractive obese woman, she seeks to be filled and then is supposedly unattractive to men because of the way she uses to meet this need, which supposedly lowers her value and causes unworthiness of being "filed" by a man. Is this not ironic? Is this not a vicious circle of an assumption that something is wrong with me? If I am feeling deprived, more deprivation is not going to solve my problem of deprivation.

Because they feel unfulfilled and seek an outside source to fill them.

Why no babies? Humans make their own milk for their own babies. Society doesn't need to change drastically, just make small changes that feel good yourself. That's how all change is effected.

Why do people overeat?

That's funny, as a woman I've always felt totally worthless and powerless when it comes to career and value to society. Of course, that wasn't true. Felt like my ass was ugly until Kim Kardashian made the girls I thought had nice small butts feel inferior instead. I could sell those women a fitness regime and convince you I worked for what Mama gave me, or I could just say, you know what? You're beautiful. There was no point in time that you became a problem.

@Raptorsin7 All I can think of right now is how freaking hot Dexter is. OMG. However, he just plays a sadistic murderer.

@Raptorsin7 Autism is not a problem. Again, skin lightening cream. ? Working with someone can sharpen your focus and bolster confidence for awhile. You use them as an excuse to focus. JESUS FUCKING CHRIST "Hitler was probably autistic." Enough. I cannot. Just cannot.

@Raptorsin7 The video sounds to me like a lot of compensation for what might not actually be a problem. Of course, the problem is so deeply assumed to be the case that it's missed that the problem is not the problem, it's the assumption of the problem that's the problem. It just strikes me as a lot like selling skin lightening cream to those with dark skin. You don't see the irony here? (Timestamped)

@Raptorsin7 There are members on this forum on the Autism spectrum. In my opinion, this entire thread should be removed.

God: "Alright Adam, remember, the greatest pleasure, love and connection will come from not thinking. Thinking about yourself in a manner that deems you unworthy will trigger a response in Eve that reflects that back to you. The less you overthink the more you will enjoy sex and the more Eve will want to sex with you. " Adam: "I don't think my penis is large enough. Your mistake." Thousands of years later.... PUAs and penis enlargement ads.

Damn, damn, damn! I finally understand all the stuff in the Bible about Praise. It's a wild party. That's all there is to do. Forget teaching. Imma just here to tell you how fucking beautiful and brilliant you really are. Why? Cause I see it.