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Hmm... I may have missed some of the humor there until now.

@Nahm Who is that, Tom Cruise or something like that?

Me before awakening experience. "Chakras are BULLSHIT." Me during awakening experience. "Why the fuck didn't anyone tell me about this, I'm an idiot. OMG they are real!! " Me after awakening experience. "OMG I think my heart chakra is blocked again, how can this be?" Me long after awakening experience. "Chakras are bullshit." Basically the whole awakening process is just a huge party celebrating my own personal idiocy. And I'm kinda into that.

When you don't know anything you're deadly. Silent but deadly.

This was playing on the radio at an opportune moment today. " "Give me a sign......"

@lostmedstudent I think I read somewhere else that you run a lot, is that right? Running is really bad for flexibility, unless you stretch really well after. You'll also be able to stretch further naturally right after a run.

@LfcCharlie4 Thank you! Super interesting, I'm getting more and more fascinated. Some strange synchronicity unfolding here too. Really glad you started this thread.

M: There can be no experience of the Absolute as it is beyond all experience. On the other hand, the self is the experiencing factor in every experience and thus, in a way, validates the multiplicity of experiences. The world may be full of things of great value, but if there is nobody to buy them, they have no price. The Absolute contains everything experienceable, but without the experiencer they are as nothing. That which makes the experience possible is the Absolute. That which makes it actual is the Self.

I enjoyed Christianity much better when I let go of the hell and other people going there belief.

Oh look, my favorite Lana Del Rey song from back then has 6.66 million views. *Slaps hand*

Stage rainbow of course.

@DrewNows Yeah, and 6 looks like the pineal gland, or they look like eyes, so the third is the third eye. There all all kinds of metaphysical stories and stuff. The number 5 has really cool meanings too, but all of them do, pretty much. I'm in the stage of the path where I get self imposed hand slaps for that stuff though cause I love it too much (the parroting Jim Newman stage ). Meaning isn't objective or permanent. It's something that apparently happens. Polly want a cracker?

Meaning. When I was a kid, 666 was an absolutely terrifying number. People who liked it were evil. When I was an adult it was meaningless. People who gave it meaning were ignorant and superstitious. Then I had a "revelation" on my 666th post, and a revelation about how the number was associated with me and how I had always hated that, and remembered the 666 on Leo's wall in gratitude for his part in my awakening. And 666 had a beautiful meaning. How were all these events seemingly over time possible? Because 666 has no meaning. When I thought it had no meaning, I was still giving it a meaning.

The lengths and stories we go into to avoid feeling are incredible. And those stories aren't even fun or intriguing. They have a pull but it's not that. I don't even know what to call it. Suffering? We're our own abusive lovers. When what feeling says isn't important to the mind so we beat it into submission.

If you spend most of your life avoiding or afraid of 666, then maybe during an awakening it'll turn into some sort of beautiful sign for you because everything you cut yourself off from or misunderstand comes flooding back in like a boomerang. Such is Oneness. Signs and symbols don't have objective meanings, you could say it's all about the meaning you give them, but how you define "you" can be a source of confusion there. When I was a kid, 666 was an absolutely terrifying number. People who liked it were evil. When I was an adult it was meaningless. People who gave it meaning were ignorant and superstitious. Then I had a "revelation" on my 666th post, and a revelation about how the number was associated with me and how I had always hated that, and remembered the 666 on Leo's wall in gratitude for his part in my awakening. And 666 had a beautiful meaning. How were all these events seemingly over time possible? Because 666 has no meaning. When I thought it had no meaning, I was still giving it a meaning.

One thing you could do is volunteer for an organization that sets up tables at fairs on in the mall for donations or educational purposes or something like that. You'll have a purpose for talking to anyone and everyone, a reason for being there so feeling like you're out of place won't be there at all, and sometimes really good conversations and connections with people just happen.

What is the reasoning behind no fats in the morning?

Sometimes we get a sense of security from following and sticking with one teacher. It helps to understand that there's fear as the basis behind that loyalty, and realize that more self love is the medicine.

Ray Boltz, the famous Christian singer is gay now, and Osho's dream commune is a Christian youth camp. This morning I asked for help with something didn't get it and had this rebellious thought come where I wanted to say, "I should have just listened to my mother and become locally renowned for my pie making skills like her instead of going into all this, whatever this is." Strange burst of synchronicity. I ran over a turtle, it was very upsetting and unavoidable. I have no idea what it has to do with anything. But seems worth noting. Picked up a newspaper. "For there is nothing secret that won't be revealed and nothing hidden that will not be disclosed." Under the header. WTF? Then an article on Don McClean and domestic abuse, he abused his wife apparently. The article mentioned Valentine's Day and wove in with something I saw a couple days ago. No one knows what the lyrics are really about, full of allusions and religious symbolism.

This hit me and I typed "Just Imagine" into youtube search. This song came up, after I was listening to old Christian music we used to listen to a lot when we dated. My husband used to play and perform this song. I never liked it that much, really but he loved it so I heard it so many times. I can only imagine. It's hilarious. Also a little sickening and disorienting if I'm honest, but hilarious.

This stuff is so horrendously anti-feminism. But hits you where you live, I know from experience and trail, and error that it's spot on. Just as I love both Abraham Hicks and Nisargadatta Maharaj, I'll read Women Who Run With Wolves and also take marriage advice from Laura Doyle. https://lauradoyle.org/blog/not-attracted-to-your-husband/ It's up to you to imagine what you want to imagine. Had a fight with my husband a couple weeks ago. Not really a fight, our fights are me not saying anything then blowing up and then feeling awful and trying to actually explain what I meant. There have been so many times at the start I've told him I'm done. I've made him cry a lot. But he just holds his ground and I come back around. It's stupid and shallow but I ended up cutting his hair for him cause of the pandemic and it's kinda like when he was in college again. The conversations that happened after I lost my temper lead to some really good things. It's up to you to imagine what you want to imagine. ADD... hit you where you live reminds me of this song... It's very funny to me now that I programmed my 6 year old brain with these messages. Lyrics You want to change, with all your might You want to do right in his sight It's his delight to give you your desire It's his desire to set your life on fire, on fire Sometimes it hurts when reprimanded It hurts him more than it's hurtin' you He'll pick you up from where you landed When he knocks you down, turns your life around He'll turn your life around Hit you where you live, you can't hold back When you're struck by his love you will know Hit you where you live, it's so close to home When you're all sold out the mark will show Let him hit you where you live The evidence leads to conviction When we don't live everything we say There's got to be a crucifixion We can live dying everyday You've got to tell him he's free to take a shot He wants to hit you with everything he's got Hit you where you live, you can't hold back When you're struck by his love you will know Hit you where you live, it's so close to home When you're all sold out the mark will show Let him hit you where you live A lost and dying world is dying to know He lives the only way they'll know, what he has to give Is when we're hit where we live Hit you where you live, you can't hold back When you're struck by his love you will know Hit you where you live, it's so close to home When you're all sold out the mark will show Let him hit you where you live On fire, on fire

They just aren't what I think. @Zigzag Idiot @DrewNows Thanks! I had a lot of fun with the video. I know Caught up in the middle I cry, just a little When I think of letting go Oh no Gave up on the riddle I cry, just a little When I think of letting go

There are no people on this forum. I have misjudged everyone, everyone completely.