mandyjw

I just finished the "What is Actualized.org? video". Absolutely amazing. Leo frames things in such a unique way. Spirituality often ends up being an island unto itself when it comes to teachers that go deep. If you didn't get your letter to Hogwarts you're fucked and doomed to be a muggle the rest of your life. Leo is a hero for inclusiveness, and I think right now, if I could project a desire on the earth or on God or on.. whatever, it is to include all in the magic of what "this" really is. Leo's videos get right to heart of everything I knew but never knew I ever really wanted and wanted to feel from life, but they bring it closer to home somehow, in a way that invites me to merge the dream with action.

The thought "I like blue", how does that thought feel? Does that have anything to do with the actual experience of looking at something blue? How does that feel? Is it possible that "I like blue" is just a thought, that actually has nothing to do with the actual experience of the color blue?

How do you know you like blue?

@Mikael89 What's your favorite color?

Not sure I see what you're implying. The reason I specify truck driver is because many truck drivers and construction workers have a culture of talking about women however they'd like because there aren't usually aren't any women around them. He carried his habits of speaking about women home, no thinking about how it sounded and what messages his daughters took from it. Similarly, on an internet forum one often imagines that they are talking to a specific type of man, when in reality their words are being read by a huge variety of people, each taking their own personal take a ways from the same statement. As a parent I've caught myself doing the same thing many times, talking to an adult lost in the conversation, and completely forgetting that little ears are listening.

@Someone here I had OCD when I was a kid, I would hear in my head commands to do things that made me really uncomfortable. Sometimes it was to confess things. I was able to recognize the disorder and stop taking the thoughts seriously by the time I entered high school and it never returned, except a touch of it every once in a while when I was running cross country or my mind was blank. It was gone until about a month or so before my awakening, at age 30. Then I realized that the impulses were leading me straight to what I wanted, but because what I wanted was what I thought was terrifying, I equated the impulses with intense suffering. Now I have with them daily and see them as a kind of sixth sense that doesn't care much about my own limited plans, ideas or schedule, but instead works only for my heart of hearts desires and they've led me to some pretty cool things.

@Gesundheit I've been reading Nahm's posts for a year and half now, almost daily. I still have to reeeally slow down and take my time. If one particularly strikes me or if I'm not getting it, I often read them 2, 3, 4 times, and often something shifts when I do. Trust me, it's really, really, really worth your time.

Happily Ever Before.

Confession, I sometimes think the only reason I've stuck around this forum so long as a female is because my Dad is a truck driver and I had to learn at a young age that wonderful loving men sometimes say some horribly unconscious hurtful things about women.

Was the aha moment accompanied by a feeling? Is there an insight your mind can grab on and hold without the feeling? Or were they unequivocally one?

Oh no, I agree. I would also say that Taylor Swift and Justin Beiber are authentic art. I mean to say that on a deeper level that it's all artifice, it's all based on our perspective and our perspective and the person behind it is what's false. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and art is the same thing.

Well, Satan or Lucifer is the angel of light, so light seeds might not help.

If something upsets you, just say something. Like you did. Sometimes it isn't clear whose fault it is, our projection, their problem, a misunderstanding or both our problem's, until we communicate.

Start to really look at other people as if you were an artist. Look for people who are interesting, who have some depth and interest artistically, not necessarily people who are beautiful by your standards or what you think societies standards are. Maybe even take an art class and try portraiture. You can do photography portraits if you don't draw. Or else just study and look at portrait art, both works of art and real life in people's faces. By mastering observation from the perspective of a creator and connoisseur (artist) , your own face becomes irrelevant and yet, beautiful.

All art is artifice. There's nothing authentic here, it's all up to the person judging the art as something other than them.

Love it. Anything M83 is amazing, Wait and Midnight City are my faves

My parents always taught me to always put others above myself. Sounds like a good thing and it was but still I unavoidably have to unravel a lot of erroneous assumptions from it.

Nonduality, neither false nor true. When someone really, really believes in a religion and being a good person as their security, and the belief as their ultimate security beyond death, breaking through is a very intense experience. "The outer self and the inner both are imagined. The obsession of being an ‘I’ needs another obsession with a ‘super-I’ to get cured, as one needs another thorn to remove a thorn, or another poison to neutralize a poison. All assertion calls for a denial, but this is the first step only. The next is to go beyond both." -Nisargadatta Maharaj If you really believed in God then the Devil is your poison. If you believe you are a fragment born into a story and subject to it rather than the author of it and the creator of the story of Christianity itself you must experience the love of the part you unconsciously created that you have resisted. Christianity has become a whole narrative framework, of "I love this supernatural power", "I hate and fear this supernatural power". The resistance to the "other" has to die. Christians are 100% right, meditation invites the Devil in. I would guess that for an athiest "God" would be intellect and "Devil" would be ignorance. Or something like that. Nonduality is a bitch.

I guess there is certain "karma" from honestly having believed in God and believing in the Devil. Christians literally are quite right about this. But since this forum mostly full of atheists you can laugh. Imagine honestly believing in God, and Jesus Christ and spiritual warfare from a young age and being confronted with the fact that you have to accept the Devil in. It would break "you".

I make and sell unnecessary "stuff" for a living and got deeply into minimalist/frugal living for a while. The source of my income was making and selling things to people who had completely different priorities than the ones I idealized. That created quite an inner conflict. I thought that the thing I loved that I had put so much energy into learning and that had made me a living so far was a waste, and unaligned with my newfound "wisdom". I couldn't advertise or enjoy my work and feel authentic about it. Then several things happened to heal this, but the most memorable one was that I got a message from a woman who got really sick and was bed ridden for a long time period. She told me how much my work cheered her up during that time. I realized that no "one" heals, but there is healing and you never know where or how it comes from, as it always comes from the same source.

https://www.dogshaming.com/ Our projections of shame and responsibility on animals are hilarious. If only we could apply the lesson to people.

Brushing my teeth didn't make me happy. I give up. I'm highly suspicious of showering now. If you're conscious of how conscious you are you ain't conscious.

My dog is a complete devil much of the time. You should see him steal my daughter's stuffed animals. He always takes the comfiest seat in the house, he'll even push you out of it if you're occupying it. It's also creepy how when you get a purebred dog, it does exactly what its parents did without being taught anything. He points at birds because he is a bird dog even though I don't hunt with him. He has all kinds of "memories" ingrained in him like that. Now I'm looking at my own parents like... "oh... crap."

The act of measuring such a thing is a judgmental attempt by thought that requires time, a timeline and a self to make. It's more efficient in my experience to pay attention to how I feel without being quick to judge it. I have experienced a lot of new thoughts that I would not have entertained before that feel amazing. It's hard to reflect on "no thought" because there's no time or experiencer, (I guess?). If you show someone a photo of a landscape with a person in it and one without, they will much more clearly remember the one with the person in it, because thought requires a person or placeholder for memory.