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to help humanity in any form, we are in shit show already.

my whole life was a shit show but with all my Will power i managed to get it in "order" and then started asking question what else is there, is there other side, started reading NDEs, and that was for me.

First deep soul crying in 6 months from the begginning with my problems with eyes. Healing will occur in time. Humble i am. I've done everything i was asked from God to do. I felt grace, i felt humble, i felt relief i felt joy, i felt hope. I felt faith in true sense. I need to be of service deeper.

no, im good looking, its same.

In september i will meet my teachers, after 4 years of radio silence. It's painting course but deep down i know its more than that. What will become of this? Will we hug, will we cry together will we be drinking coffee in complete silence and enjoy the present moment? Will they evaluate my progress? Will I've been given constructive feedback? I'm little bit scared to be honest…..they can be tough if needed be. But im keeping my hopes high. They made me. I would give my life for them and they would for me. It's deeper connection. The whole world will be watching, it will be fun. We will have 7 days together. Last year on my facebook feed popped up picture of her (my teacher) hugging Ken Wilber, i was jelous at first then happy. Human condition, simple as that.

why do you blame always yourself? first punch then this......short answer it happens to the best of us.....its normal....

for the past 6 months I have problems with my eyes, i feel for him on ALL levels except i dont teach, he can do it!

just imagine having a girl as parent and everything will sit in its place.

this, but it was long time ago

@AverageMonkey i can sense you are trying to start a beef. whats your end game here? be honest.

@Shin see....(gloating off)

yeah, porn doesnt play such a huge part of my life, im currently focused on myself so im happy and content (most of the time) and making plans for the future......

yes i do, but i understand your loneliness, its hard sometimes.

im 4years without sex and im doing fine,

you get used to it....its not a big deal....

it says i will be one of the greatest leaders in the world lol.....

never done psychadelics in my life, and here i am. but cant wait for ayahuasca

we are old as history, there is no gay agenda, it's more simple then that, the humanity became more tolerant towards seeing two dudes/girls kissing, that's it.

im feminine as fuck, i would rather say the green is more "soft".

hmmm i see everyone as turqoise except they are not.

i take traditional religion and spirituality as equals.

in short you "need" to love/accept serial killers/rapist/pedofiles, for green thats a big no no. i know im going to extremes here