Oppositionless

consider that psychopaths and sociopaths do the bad things they do because of existential, absolute boredom.

Souvlaki by Slowdive is my favorite album of all time, and even though I’m not crazy about the music they’ve been putting out lately, I’m glad they’re still making it. their new album is titled “everything is alive” which I quite like the sound of. because it’s true as far as modern dreampop and shoegaze, Magdalena Bay is my favorite, they’re divine.

I’m working hard to be more authentic online. I didn’t post here for a couple weeks because I was disgusted with myself.

I think that’s one of the shadow aspects of our medical advances. a lot of old people with no friends or spouse who just want to go home.

chaste monks will never understand the awkanening that occurs in a lover’s embrace

I think you can transcend fear of death without knowing what comes next. yeah maybe I take that back, just because I’m not inside leo’s head. I just don’t think anyone is more likely than him to have transcended the fear of death. but perhaps no one has

it’s just become apparent to me in reading people’s stories and my own family, that once a terminal illness is declared and especially if there is major pain, it becomes a lot less scary

I’m 99% confident only Leo has. one thing I’ve learned from nde’s and people with terminal illness however, is that once it’s inevitable, fear kinda dissolves. have you ever considered that the fear is actually a good thing? it’s a fantastic motivator. it makes life so much more interesting.

my online persona is pure farce, an infinite web of machinery

after seeing the magnificently anxiety-inducing movie Oppenheimer, I have just one question: HOW LONG UNTIL WE GET A BIG-BUDGET MOVIE ABOUT PROJECT STARGATE? (men who stare at goats doesn't count)

music production

just the brute fact of consciousness existing debunks physicalism

I’m pretty sure aliens use technology to enchance their psychic abilities. that’s how these craft are able to perform such jaw-dropping seemingly physically impossible maneuvers

@Yimpa it's pretty awful. my sophomore year of college was one long high. terrible grades, little to no social interaction.

yeah rosin is just the good shit. none of the plant matter. you can attain a similar effect by using a vaporizer. I've heard good things about the Mighty

I'm trying to reconcile the magic of God with the suffering and inequality in the world. I can see why people cling to materialism. in some ways it's a comforting philosophy, there's so much bad stuff in the world that believing in Love , Consciousness and God can lead to some major disappointment. it's hard for me to not feel like God is singling me out sometimes. sometimes synchronicities just feel like a "fuck you in particular" rather than a sign of good things to come.

both. he's both lol. wisdom and insanity are deeply connected, it's just a question of what kind of insanity. the problem with anti-vax is it's not insane enough

maybe it was the just the misogyny of the era reflected in his thought process. OR because deconstructing reality just takes big balls (metaphorically speaking).

Arthur Shoppenhauer and the Virgin Mary

I want something more clearheaded .

not interested in acid or mushrooms anymore

I love that for you. I really wish I could use cannabis without getting super addicted, wanting to be high 24/7

you’re in a very privileged position. most people going through intense suffering aren’t so fortunate, they just grit their teeth and power through it. If you don’t have a therapist you should really get one. what do you get out of this? you remind me of early 2000s atheist youtubers collectively jerking off their nihilism because it makes them feel like toughguys

@Breakingthewall well said . You wouldn’t have incarnated as a human if you didn’t want the full human experience