Realms of Wonder

Very Interesting hearing more of the story. You sharing about talking with that friend who was asexual, reminded me of when I was 17, a girl I was friends with in highschool said the same, instead of try to see it through her perspective though, I (in my mind) demonized her like there was something "wrong" with her. Was it difficult to see sexuality through his perspective? Endurism, had to google that one. very interesting, sounds like you have come a long way my friend, gaining awareness of more and more of yourself. Thank you for sharing

WOW. Thank you so much! @SamC The encouragement you show is inspiring, given freely with no attachment. Love that you and I can connect so deeply. I look forward to the days when we collaborate, and bring new, innovative, impactful, spiritually connected Music into Existence. Love you Brother!

Interesting seeing responses, shows how much it can very for different people. Big Picture, Psychedelic's have been a huge boost to, Vision, Clarity, articulation of Life purpose, and even work on my life-purpose (Music.) New ideas, ways of singing, or placing sound can come from tripping, Lyrics, melodies, and so on.. I would say, it depends on what your desire is, and what you are focusing on in life. For example, if the social domain is one that is the focus for this chapter, Micro dosing LSD, DMT can be very helpful in reading and feeling connection with people, flow of conversation. Deeper trips alone or with a trusted friend, can free up blockages, mental and physical, lead one to face trauma, limiting beliefs, the shadow, leading to more fluid social interactions in the months and years post trip. Another Example from my own life: Gaining clarity into Life-Purpose. I had my first real "OH MY FUCKING GOD, OF COURSE, THE SIGNS HAVE BEEN THEIR THE WHOLE TIME! MY LIFE PURPOSE IS MUSIC!!!" on 4-ACO-DMT, after taking the ULPC for the first time. Though there has been additional clarity over the years since then, that was a special time. Continuing with the example of Life purpose, Psychedelics have an uncanny ability to allow the unconscious/subconscious bubble to the surface, leading to much more intuitive, authentic answers to questions such as "What would be the most meaningful impact I could have on people?" Like Leo Mentioned, it would be a good idea to watch his video on the top dangers of psychedelics. https://www.actualized.org/articles/the-top-dangers-of-using-psychedelics Much Love

I see it so often. It is no wonder so many young men are sad and depressed. Those are some really good points, what did it take to learn from those experiences? It seems you have more wisdom looking back, then you did in those specific moments.

Thank you for making the time to more fully explain your perspective. Well said, pointing to the structural problems not just he symptoms.

beautiful, raw. Love it! Thank you for sharing.

Love this thread, thanks for reviving it! @Vision

How much do you poop per day? In March I experienced something similar. However, it was related more specifically to not drinking enough water plus stress. Basically, though food was being digested, I could not poop! It got to a point beyond constipation, where I would sit there, straining for half an hour and nothing, lol. so I scheduled a colonic, hydrotherapy session, and it did wonders! It was about an hour and a half, and I was blown away at how much unpassed stool was in my colon. Afterwards, I added in a bunch of probiotics to help with digestion, haven't had that problem since, bowel movements pretty regular as well.

DMT Insights. Life is meant to be lived, like a game, played for its own sake. The only way to lose, is not to play, and in that case, still haven't lost because that’s the game. Its so infinite it includes every possible outcome, move, result, and play. As God, I Am. I am Able to choose what I want out of life, be specific about it, and Live it, giving my entire being to it. It may take years and decades for it to be realized, but this is it. Music, is a massage for the mind, a loving way to DIE. Just like a good massage, my music may leave people sore, painfully aware of the "knots" in their self. I will love myself to death. MY/God's Music, will show people so much Love, that they melt into infinity. Into their True/Authentic Self. I choose not to be normal, I will stand out, I will be extraordinary. I will face whatever I need to, to be true to myself. Every fear Every lie Every story Every moment

Is that the only reason? Or are there other reasons?

Why are you on this forum?

Hey all, would appreciate perspective on this. Is it a bad idea to avoid politics during the early stages of Self-Actualization and Life purpose work? I have purposely shied away from politics, even voting locally and in any elections, and my excuse has been that I dont understand the political domain enough to make conscious, intelligent decisions. This could remedied by doing RESEARCH, and LEARNING about it, But in my mind, it makes more sense to handle my life more, meet my basic needs, heal the worst of my neurosis, build more positive habits, and create more value in the world through my life purpose, and then, on that foundation build a deep political understanding. Am I fooling myself?

Good points! I conveniently forgot that I dont need to understand every detail about the political-scape, to make a decision on who should lead America. Thank you! Really appreciate the time you all gave to help.

That video is haunting, seen it a few times since it was released. Chills every time.

Hey all, anyone who has advice, I would really appreciate some input. I work in a kitchen, on concrete, for 10-12 hours a day, I had bough nonslip crocks since they are comfortable. A week ago, I started getting intense pain in my left foot, behind the 3rd and 4th toe, about a half inch above the bottom of my foot. After doing research it looks to be Morton's Neuroma, basically a pinched nerve. Often caused by ill-fitting shoes (i.e Crocks) The more I have walked on it the worse it has gotten, to the point where I was just limping around trying to relieve as much pressure from it as possible. For context: Last year about this time I had the same problem while working a a summer camp, the doctors had no clue what it was, so they put me on crutches, then a boot when it arrived, after being in the boot for a month it slowly went away. What do you think? Should I go to a podiatrist? I'm not a huge fan of doctors, but I really want to solve this once and for all. Alternatively, I bought a boot, and am wearing it when I need to walk anywhere, potentially at work (starts back up tomorrow.) Another idea would be to talk with my boss and let him know that the more I walk on it the worse it gets. So I need to take a week or so off from work. (This would be a last resort, they NEED me at work, kind of a linchpin ) Thanks in advance for your input!

Hey all, been experimenting with DMT for a few months now, having tried a few different methods, I am still on a search to find the most effective way to break through. I have an abnormally high tolerance, making it difficult to get enough into a hit, or multiple, to break through. I have used... Glass Vapor Genie: a beautiful piece, even at doses of 40-60 mg, not enough to get even close to breakthrough. E-Mesh Vape: I put together a vape (Aegis Solo, Mesh RDA, and custom meshes) and could load up to 80-90 mg before it would drip off the mesh, making it pointless to add much more then that. Great trips, able to take 2-3 hits, and still not break through. Dab Rig: This is new, I bought a dab rig hoping to be able to ingest more DMT into one hit, this works, I am able to drop in 200-300 mg of DMT into the bowl and breathe it in one breathe. Still no breakthrough, even when taking multiple hits. plus Sadly it is messy and the residue gets baked on hard to the bowl. Insufflation: BAD IDEA. Next method I have not tried but have ordered the equipment for is: A bong, adding a few parsley leaves to keep the crystal from falling through the bowl, then adding my dose, then heating a glass rod, and using that to vaporize the DMT, breathing it all in one hit. So once again, What is the MOST effective way to ingest NN-DMT? What am I missing? I want to keep searching for a better way, a way to ingest more at a time, because I love this substance and what it shows. Thanks for your time, feedback appreciated.

Not everyone wants to lead, but for those that do, I see them experiencing more of life, and deeper. Leaders, by definition, are in the "front," so they "SEE" more than those following. For those who really want the most out of life, its hard to imagine actually doing that while being just a follower. Also, I see leadership as a facet of Authenticity. Leaders have a vision, and they create a new path, a unique authentic path. Followers go down the path the leader sets for them (in a sense.) The leader explores and discovers, while the follower sees and explores what is already discovered and known.

No meds. Lucky genetics I guess My brother has a similar tolerance, maybe even higher.

Thank you for the pointers. 5-10 mg. Amazing how different sensitivity can be, how wide a range there is. Have you always been that sensitive? have you noticed it increase as you grew in consciousness?

Spot on. Eerily accurate. Its shocking that there is so much unconsciousness to be explored. I had no clue that could be what was going on, but it lines up nearly perfectly with this situation. Thank you

Today lead me to realize that my current work is killing me. slowly. Physically, mentally, creatively, everything. I get paid to create food that hurts people. To stand on concrete for 10-12 hours, leading to foot problems and back pain. I dont want to just complain, I see this as a wakeup call. I am tired of settling for less than the best. I am tired of letting my laziness keep me from creating a business, a life purpose. I am tired of acting like I am mature and "grown up" when I am a kid, with a ton to learn, and a massive ego I am afraid to let go of. I am tired of the lies I tell myself to keep myself pacified. I am tired of being tired! FUCK. Of waking up late, because I get off work at eleven fucking thirty! I Have no FUCKING clue what I got to do to change this. I feel so much uncertainty my mind want to disintegrate. I dont KNOW. Something has to change. And it is ME, that will change. 5 years to get to now, 5 years of this path, and finally I am beginning to see what it will take to really change. And I am scared of it. I am afraid to die, I have died during mushroom trips before, but this is different, a slow, sober, excruciating death. Like forcing a snake to shed its skin. Or maybe this is all a story I am making up to make sense of all this. The authentic path is not the easy path. (For now.)

Thank you

That is not what I wanted to hear.... Thank you. I know that this isn't a quick fix, it will require a structural change in my life to solve this problem permanently. Thank you for the pointer.

Thanks for explaining! I love that perspective. Did you grow up listening to it?

This is beautiful. its so heart wrenching, the longing and hurt, the joy and the depth of feel. Love it. Thank you for sharing!