Realms of Wonder

Hey all, anyone who has advice, I would really appreciate some input. I work in a kitchen, on concrete, for 10-12 hours a day, I had bough nonslip crocks since they are comfortable. A week ago, I started getting intense pain in my left foot, behind the 3rd and 4th toe, about a half inch above the bottom of my foot. After doing research it looks to be Morton's Neuroma, basically a pinched nerve. Often caused by ill-fitting shoes (i.e Crocks) The more I have walked on it the worse it has gotten, to the point where I was just limping around trying to relieve as much pressure from it as possible. For context: Last year about this time I had the same problem while working a a summer camp, the doctors had no clue what it was, so they put me on crutches, then a boot when it arrived, after being in the boot for a month it slowly went away. What do you think? Should I go to a podiatrist? I'm not a huge fan of doctors, but I really want to solve this once and for all. Alternatively, I bought a boot, and am wearing it when I need to walk anywhere, potentially at work (starts back up tomorrow.) Another idea would be to talk with my boss and let him know that the more I walk on it the worse it gets. So I need to take a week or so off from work. (This would be a last resort, they NEED me at work, kind of a linchpin ) Thanks in advance for your input!

Hey all, been experimenting with DMT for a few months now, having tried a few different methods, I am still on a search to find the most effective way to break through. I have an abnormally high tolerance, making it difficult to get enough into a hit, or multiple, to break through. I have used... Glass Vapor Genie: a beautiful piece, even at doses of 40-60 mg, not enough to get even close to breakthrough. E-Mesh Vape: I put together a vape (Aegis Solo, Mesh RDA, and custom meshes) and could load up to 80-90 mg before it would drip off the mesh, making it pointless to add much more then that. Great trips, able to take 2-3 hits, and still not break through. Dab Rig: This is new, I bought a dab rig hoping to be able to ingest more DMT into one hit, this works, I am able to drop in 200-300 mg of DMT into the bowl and breathe it in one breathe. Still no breakthrough, even when taking multiple hits. plus Sadly it is messy and the residue gets baked on hard to the bowl. Insufflation: BAD IDEA. Next method I have not tried but have ordered the equipment for is: A bong, adding a few parsley leaves to keep the crystal from falling through the bowl, then adding my dose, then heating a glass rod, and using that to vaporize the DMT, breathing it all in one hit. So once again, What is the MOST effective way to ingest NN-DMT? What am I missing? I want to keep searching for a better way, a way to ingest more at a time, because I love this substance and what it shows. Thanks for your time, feedback appreciated.

Not everyone wants to lead, but for those that do, I see them experiencing more of life, and deeper. Leaders, by definition, are in the "front," so they "SEE" more than those following. For those who really want the most out of life, its hard to imagine actually doing that while being just a follower. Also, I see leadership as a facet of Authenticity. Leaders have a vision, and they create a new path, a unique authentic path. Followers go down the path the leader sets for them (in a sense.) The leader explores and discovers, while the follower sees and explores what is already discovered and known.

No meds. Lucky genetics I guess My brother has a similar tolerance, maybe even higher.

Thank you for the pointers. 5-10 mg. Amazing how different sensitivity can be, how wide a range there is. Have you always been that sensitive? have you noticed it increase as you grew in consciousness?

Spot on. Eerily accurate. Its shocking that there is so much unconsciousness to be explored. I had no clue that could be what was going on, but it lines up nearly perfectly with this situation. Thank you

Today lead me to realize that my current work is killing me. slowly. Physically, mentally, creatively, everything. I get paid to create food that hurts people. To stand on concrete for 10-12 hours, leading to foot problems and back pain. I dont want to just complain, I see this as a wakeup call. I am tired of settling for less than the best. I am tired of letting my laziness keep me from creating a business, a life purpose. I am tired of acting like I am mature and "grown up" when I am a kid, with a ton to learn, and a massive ego I am afraid to let go of. I am tired of the lies I tell myself to keep myself pacified. I am tired of being tired! FUCK. Of waking up late, because I get off work at eleven fucking thirty! I Have no FUCKING clue what I got to do to change this. I feel so much uncertainty my mind want to disintegrate. I dont KNOW. Something has to change. And it is ME, that will change. 5 years to get to now, 5 years of this path, and finally I am beginning to see what it will take to really change. And I am scared of it. I am afraid to die, I have died during mushroom trips before, but this is different, a slow, sober, excruciating death. Like forcing a snake to shed its skin. Or maybe this is all a story I am making up to make sense of all this. The authentic path is not the easy path. (For now.)

Thank you

That is not what I wanted to hear.... Thank you. I know that this isn't a quick fix, it will require a structural change in my life to solve this problem permanently. Thank you for the pointer.

Thanks for explaining! I love that perspective. Did you grow up listening to it?

This is beautiful. its so heart wrenching, the longing and hurt, the joy and the depth of feel. Love it. Thank you for sharing!

Great job! Has that belief about singing being a natural talent, innate, been the biggest hurdle so far?

Glad you shared! Thanks

Seeing others as "Less than" for not answering the call. Closed-mindedness. Becoming to identified with Labels: OCD, Traumatized, Man, Women, etc.. Looking to others to give you the answers, Gurus, teachers, parents, friends, etc.. People pleasing and Approval seeking. Short term thinking/instant gratification. Thinking you can get something for little or nothing. Entertainment and Social media, used as a crutch, a distraction to stop from looking within. Thinking "others" are corrupt, evil, biased, wrong, crazy etc.. but "I" Am not. Giving unsolicited advice to people. Assuming that what works for you will work for everyone. learning without applying. Talking, but not walking. lack of embodiment. No doing personal development. Forcing things without love. Lack of love development.

Intense! I can only imagine. Glad you made it through

@Phil King Thanks for the response brother! I would say you are on the right track. I grew up playing violin (10+) years, so it may be easier for me than others. That being said, Do not underestimate how much you can grow in just two years. if you have been taking it serious for 3ish months, your doing your best, coming up with a bunch of projects that dont meet your standard, or you feel suck, but dont know how to make them "not suck." You're exactly where you are supposed to be. Dont "create" music, instead "Play" Music. In "The Music Lesson" its talked about a lot, Music as an entity that you build a relationship with. It is something you connect with, you tap into. I like to think of music as already whole, complete, and waiting for someone like you, Mozart or Kevin Parker to hear it, to "tune in" to it. when you're in the middle of a project, listen to what Music tells you should be added next. some of my favorite moments of music are when I was listening, and letting Music inform my body and voice. I still have days where I feel I make no progress, or a project goes nowhere. I think that is normal, over time, as we invest more into the craft the balance shifts from. Beginning: Tons of shit songs but get lucky every once in a while Middle: tons of shit songs, but know why some songs work and some done, getting "lucky" more often. Expertise/Mastery/10,000 hours: even the shit songs a better than any of your best songs at the beginning. Plus a deep understanding of WHY and HOW to play beautiful authentic music. Hopefully that helps! All the best

Thank you Brother Thank you! me too, its very rewarding

Lyrics from a new song: "Every Single Teardrop Mattered." Verse 1 I see myself In the wind and the trees Let go of mind Be lost in the stars Pre chorus Where ever I go I have found More and more inside of mind Silence, followed by sound As I pick myself up and I find Chorus Every little moment has led here Every single tear drop mattered Let this love flow through me, into you As we face every fear till its shattered Verse 2 Beyond who I am Is an ocean of love Release all the lies Be lost in the truth Pre chorus Years since I answered the call To leave behind all that is known Look back, see the rain fall As I see just how far I have grown Chorus Every little moment has lead here Every single tear drop mattered Let this love flow through me, into you As we face every fear till its shattered Bridge Every lie we've been told will fall away As we learn to face the truth of what we are Every fear that we believed will fall away As we learn to ground ourselves in deeper love Chorus Every little moment has lead here Every single tear drop mattered Let this love flow through me, into you As we face every fear till its shattered

while it was down, I noticed how often I checked, at work, after meditation, after music, when I was bored. Led me to see how much I tend rely on actualized.org, interesting...

Wonder and Awe, thank you for sharing this Love.

Damn, you tastes are all over the place! LOVE IT. Curious to know, what is the attraction to Groove/Heavy Metal?

Beautiful, thank you for sharing

Why did you decide to take a break? Was it difficult to stop?

Lots of good points. Thank you

Thank you for your perspective, you touched on a ton here. What do you mean?