Breakingthewall

Yeah you are right, its only an idea. I don't care about ideas, about what is reality or anything conceptual, It is a simple hobby to speculate around here. for me spirituality is to empty the mind and go beyond it, what I said before is mind and it is really the same as saying anything else

I had a vision with psychedelics, more real than reality. the void unlimited that is (me) recognizes itself and in doing so explodes in love, pure love in creative passion, and automatically, everything that can be, is. torture, hell, are pure mystical love. creation occurs spontaneously, want and creation are simultaneous, and that's happening now, always. but well, it's a realization that I remember, memory, just speculation really. Right now I'm not even remotely aware of that.

Be careful, respectful and humble with the lady. I just had an experience that I would describe as horrible ++ .I sniffed 12 mg. that in 5 meo dmt for me is very little, smooth, but was malt. Was the circumstance that my mind was very much into a story with a girl. something quite deep that it should not be but it happened due my selfishness . well, it seemed to me that my mind was calm, ready, and the amount was almost insignificant, so I did it without any fear. It start little by little. I thought, it's very feminine, too much, I like the solar ray of dmt better, noble, direct. It continued little by little, a dance, and suddenly all my reality melted away, but the energy with this girl held me. I had not been honest, this prevented me from letting go. My being was melted with that girl in a way that is not straight, not correct. my whole reality start to be a grip. I got up trying to pass the effect, but no. my whole being contracted. I did it 10 days ago, and it was the opposite, liberation, but this time... I thought my heart would stop, and it really didn't matter to me, I wasn't afraid of death, no fear, only pain, punishment. just contraction, suffering. my body contracted. my hands and feet hurt, I couldn't lift my head. I needed to get out of the house, I went out, I walked down the street from one place to another for two hours, suffering. It was passing, i called some friends, but this contraction, this punishment. shit, be careful with the lady. She told me: little piece of shit, I'm going to teach you what it means to be a dishonest piece of shit, and you'll see how you lose the desire to continue being one. If you want to dance with me, come clean, if not i will teach you some lessons you won't forget. you are welcome

I'd say because the core of existence really is an absolute void without limits, but that void is, and as it is, wants to be everything, it wants to manifest itself with such a passion that it explodes and creates a universe. and that passion is what we call love. what happens is that as humans there are parts of that love that we have to deny, since we must survive

Be prepared for the possibility of having a bad time. It's normal at first and nothing happens, it's ok. If that happens, face it with courage and thinking that everything will be for a greater good. if your traumas surface, you will suffer, but your traumas will definitely lose part of their power. Bad trips are very useful

think that 5 meo is something to let go everything. avoid sex, everything that ties you to the ground as much as possible a while before doing it, a week or more, let everything fade. avoid lies and false ties in your life, all that prevents you from letting go. do it in a moment of integrity, or of the maximum integrity that you can, and the maximum freedom that you can, or it can be very hard. being about to explode but hold on, it's something you don't want to live, I guarantee it.

if plugging doesn't work for you, dissolve the free base in as little vinegar as possible, add a few drops of water, take a ph test strip and wet a corner, look at the color, add drops of vinegar until the ph is 7 or nearby, put it in the syringe and drip it into your nose

Beautiful! True deep mystical passion. I thought you had written it improvising, I was very impressed?

samadhi is not silence, it is when your ego separates and you stop giving it life. It still talking but in black and white, powerless. your mind may be silent but your ego is fully activated. It is difficult to understand where is what triggers the separation and the union, I do not understand it, I only know that meditation can sometimes cause this to happen. when it happens it feels like something physical, as if you had taken a pressure off your head, but after a short time it hooks again. I would like to understand more the mechanics of this

I would see them, but with an important point: in matters of metaphysics, God, etc. don't believe what he says. not because it is not true, but because in spirituality any belief is the opposite of what we are looking for. this is difficult as he makes very precise descriptions. take it as a mental exercise to make your limits more flexible. in spirituality you don't have to believe anything. you have to experiment

the word truth implies opposition to lie. god implies absolute, without opposite. truth means what it is when the delusion of the ego disappears.

Yeah , sure, the problem if it they don't sent you nothing. Now there is no 5 meo malt in any place of chemical research. They have 5meo DMT, dipt, etc, but no malt. Only in 2 or 3 places where the minimum is 200 or 300 $. In one of them they sell natural mescaline in powder. It's impossible. They are fake. I guess malt is going to be available in a while. Maybe it isn't because in the past no body bought it, and now many does

All of that sites are fake. Don't buy in sites where the minimum is 200 or 300. If you have doubts search in google the name of the site in scam detector.

I've had that kind of problem and I've ruminated hate a lot. Let's see, when someone disrespects you, humiliates you, etc, they leave a mark on you, right? you can't forget it, it will corrode you like acid even if you don't want to. You can't turn the other cheek, impossible. then, the solution is not difficult. It's not usual to be disrespected, right? but it can happen. if it happens, just react. in a serious, strong, hard, tough, aggressive, merciless, murderous way (the last one is a joke). do it in such a way that you think: I have gone too far, I should apologize because this person makes me feel sorry for how I have crushed him. And that's it, the hate disappears, there is pity. It may be simplistic and not very spiritual, but it is the only thing that has worked for me. There is a situation where me or the other is going to feel bad. So i choose that the other is who is going to ruminate. having thought about it before being such an idiot. The possibility of the situation could finish quite bad exist, but what to do? If you want peace, be ready for war

Easy, you just have to be indifferent to all that. Then the present will offer you much more. but as long as all that is important, the present will escape you, it will always be one step ahead of you

I think that any awakening is temporary, perhaps Ramakrishna sits drooling for a week needing to be fed and washed, but even then it is temporary. in order to function in the world, the doors must be closed. As Aldous Huxley said, the mind is an elimination machine. remove everything that is not necessary for survival. Or as William Blake said: if the doors of perception were opened, everything would manifest as it is: infinite. and you would drool until you die

@AdeptusPsychonauticai guess he mean that the chemistry of the brain is constructed in such a way as to provide great solidity to the structure of the ego, to guarantee the survival of the individual and the group, and that the psychedelic alters that chemistry in a certain way. temporary, dissolving the ego barriers that give consistency to subjective reality, thus allowing a total opening of the mind and enlightenment happening. This has a scientific explanation since there are substances that stop the activity of the frontal lobe, which is where the structure of the separate self is created...at least it's that i think it happens . The thing here is to define enlightenment.

if you let go of the ego for a moment, you will see without a shadow of a doubt that there is no difference between being alive or dead. the difference is created by the ego

True, this has always existed. the ascetics, the renouncers, who went alone to the mountains or to the forest for several years meditating on the verge of starvation and completely unconcerned about their physical integrity, renouncing everything worldly, everything that can strengthen the ego, and with practices of deep meditation, teachers, etc., after the years, perhaps in old age, and only in a few cases, predisposed minds, radioactive minds in the sense of being by birth not completely stable in the ego, it happened that the shell cracked and enlightenment happened Now that I think about radioactive minds, I think that a large number of the true mystics died young of cancer. Ramakrishna, several of his disciples, maharshi, and I think several. Probably the predisposition to enlightenment is a kind of malfunction

the structure of the mind is almost as solid as that of the atom. it will not dissolve. it is something extremely rare. a lot of meditation to soften it, but it doesn't happen, it's still there, 30 or 40 years. You have to put solvent on it. there is a very interesting experiment. you take small puffs of 5 meo, very little by little, until you see that the mind is about to dissolve. even being ready, you have one certainty: it is impossible for it to dissolve. the forces that hold it together are enormous, cosmic forces. and suddenly, a hole opens up, that's the magic of that shit. This is real, it's physical. the walls of the ego are absolutely real, nothing imaginary

Agreed, but still there are layers. You can go into deep meditation in silence, without interference, but still your ego is blocking. the obstacle that you are is a reinforced steel door, it is more than it seems. let's say that you are in the present moment empty of mental content . but there is more. you can't help but differentiate, even if you don't think. you are a software in automatic operation. the narrative can stop but still the mind is differentiating, it goes very deep. chemistry gives the software reboot button.

It's not a question of which is more valuable. without ego, without memory, what would you be? what would be your experience? absolutely all your current experience is impregnated with memory. without memory your hand is not a hand, it is not different from the empty space that surrounds it. Your direct experience has many layers of ego, to detache them is almost impossible, it's a solid construction. You need chemical help. the memory of an enlightenment experience is not the enlightenment itself but is something that leaves a mark on the psyche, an opening to the void.

it is enlightenment. it is a door that opens, the infinity that it is, the total love that flows totally. the bottomless divine void that shines. you, that is, god. Even if it's just a memory, erase your sadness

I think that permanent enlightenment is possible, and that it must be achieved, but i don't know how. The thing is that "achieves" implies the opposite to enlightenment. it's not about getting anywhere, as you said, it's already the case, but there are very serious barriers that prevent you from seeing it, that keep you mired in the shadows. this barrier is solid since it is you. if there is you there is no enlightenment, simple. if you want enlightenment you have to cancel the you, but the fact of "wanting enlightenment" is the you in all its power. It is a very delicate, subtle matter. Really I don't know the way, but seems that little by little the self recognize his unreality, his futility . you can wake up completely with psychedelics, which erase the self for a while, but living without a self, transparent, empty...it's extremely unusual imo.

unconditional love has nothing to do with human love. human love is totally conditioned, it is attachment, mutual support, tribe, norms. unconditional love makes no difference between a mother with her baby or three psychopaths hacking you apart with axes while dying of laughter.