Breakingthewall

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  1. @KatiesKarma have you tried mushrooms? they do miracles
  2. The day will come where all humans love themselves and others in a totally selfless way. where there is no more desire, only fullness of being. where to compare and value does not exist, where infinity smiles through each person. where the human has completely realized himself and is only a carcass of god. that's the way that goes slowly but surely
  3. you are just my imagination. and yet I am your imagination. let's take off the imaginary disguise and recognize ourselves as the same. So lonely, much better that infinite illusion
  4. when buddha said that life is suffering he was referring to the ghostly life of the ego. the life of an animal is not suffering, it simply is. the human by his speaking nature enters the cloud of the ego, and that turns him, by definition, into a mad being. Buddha proposed the cure for human collective insanity. we are trying to cure our insanity. more than everything is suffering, everything is madness, disease of the mind due to attachment to thought
  5. Everything indicates that human life is a learning process. reincarnation would be the logical step to complete the process. this is not to say that none of this is true, but it seems
  6. serious in the sense that life tests you, there are times when you have to give it your all, or you get stuck in a dead end and the game can get very unpleasant. not very serious in the sense that deep down it doesn't matter. it's a serious game, but a game
  7. I took a shot on a salvia extract and at the moment it seemed to me that reality was bouncing, and that I had to bounce to balance it or reality was going to fragment. I started jumping around a very small apartment breaking all kinds of things, my babysitter was a girl and she couldn't make me stop. suddenly everything stopped in a second
  8. in the middle of infinity ... what year could it be? the only year, the only day, the only second
  9. we know that reality is illusory right? a kind of hologram whose substance is nothing. A thought. we are illusion, we do not exist, only like a thought. So if you stay in a coma, they give you propofol, deep sleep, whatever ... what? it's part of the dream too. where did you go when propofol? If there is no propofol, neither you , nor where to go
  10. I would say that all the possibilities, infinite, are right now, and they are all nothing. why are we perceiving something concrete right now and not something else? the eternal question ...I don't know
  11. as a form you were born from nothing, and you as a form will disappear without a trace
  12. I've had that experience many times, it's terrifying. there is nothing, empty. I am not there. only empty, immeasurable, infinite. The feeling when the ego comes back is indescribable. the point is, that's what you are, but it's also nothing at all. neither love nor intelligence in this moment. Void. getting used to that is quite a challenge. it's possible ... more or less, I'm working on it. If I vape 5 meo in high dose that's my experience. All is void. if I do it again, the emptiness explodes, in an instant, it is all that is possible. the infinity of possibilities being in this instant. the two are the same. and it is also the same me now writing. hard to understand. I hope I'm getting used to that void, i feel it's very important
  13. The thoughts are nothing more than you talking to yourself because you are afraid of being alone. You've been depending on others your whole life to live, if they leave you alone, you will pee and poop. so you talk to yourself and you talk to yourself to give yourself the feeling that mommy takes care of you (and me, i can't stop neither). That is the whole mystery
  14. addictions are usually a tool that you use as a patch, to cope with your unbearable anxiety. If you can't get your anxiety levels down, no strategy, method, idea is going to work for you. It is obvious from reading that you are fully aware of what this addiction does in you: it rots your mind. It doesn't matter if you know it, the anxiety is worse. anxiety eats you inside. Anxiety is a horrible hole in the center of your being, telling you: you are not worthy of love. God don't love you. what you have to do is serious, it doesn't matter if you are a teenager, a child or whatever, that's life: hard. you have to understand, solve the puzzle. If not, your life will be miserable, a shit. understand is difficult. First, you are not aware of what has caused your anxiety. you think yes but no. you have to go deep, to the bottom. therapy, psychedelics, real action, honesty, intelligence, courage
  15. have you tried 5 meo dmt? It is not a psychedelic, it is something else. it is a ego killer. No ego remaining. and without ego, only the truth remains
  16. @Karmadhi try to understand that it is not about competition, who is more handsome, or brilliant. it's about connecting. you have to go with your radar open, that is, contacting girls, until the connection occurs. You don't have to force it, just learn to be as yourself as possible, open up, eliminate any expectations, and let the magic happen. You don't want to win an award, be more than the boy next door, and take a girl who is not on your frequency. for what? so that they give you a medal? that is lowering yourself. you want magic. You want things to flow, and if it does, it doesn't matter if you have the most handsome guy in the world next to you.
  17. the ego has no faith. He believes that everything depends on him, that without his constant attention and work, the worst will happen, death. fight, be attentive, anxious. having faith is the opposite. Everything is as it should be, let it go, stop fighting
  18. the prophets were mystics who liked the attention of the public and who were brilliant orators and magnetic personalities, like osho. the question is not how deep they went but the people they reached. imagine that instead of prophets they were singers. There are millions of singers, not so much mystics but a lot as well. Have the best singers endured in time, or the most charismatic? a mix i guess, some really good, some really bad
  19. Happy to hear it . constant anxiety is a condemnation
  20. faith as surrender. Stop trying to be, abandon yourself, have faith in God, reality, merge with it without opposing the slightest resistance, and you will be swimming in an ocean of love of which you were always a part, although due to your lack of faith, you fought, you opposed, remaining separated, walking alone through the desert, determined, fast, believing that there was a destination to reach, when everything was right here, now
  21. happy New Year! good looking, nice place. but happiness is not that, not even close , brother. I have recently discovered it, or re-discovered it. you, as I was, you are lost. you are looking, and you do well. There was a moment in your life when you turned away from yourself. It seems impossible, but yeah, you did. it was out of fear. You thought you were unlovable and you walked away from yourself. pure anxiety. so it is impossible to be happy, ever. the day will come when you come home. One day, meditating, or whatever, you will notice an smell, something, a being ... you. finally. So much time wasted and you're back at home, you moved away, and to go back ... you had to go all the way around. When you open that door to you, love will flow until you cannot stop crying, the air smells of spring, of childhood, and within you there will be joy. that is happiness, that is love. what you are. It is rare that to find yourself you have to go through an odyssey, a fantastic journey in which you will have to give all your strength, your intelligence. To arrive and see that you are in the beginning. You only had to undress to enter. abandon all vanity, all pretense. humiliate you. but that's how this game is. I hope you are lucky and play it well.
  22. Not agree, there is a source of anxiety. It is the dissonance that your mind creates when you perceive a lack of love, (which can be criticism, violence, contempt from your parents, from your friends etc.) your mind does this: there is an unbearable lack of love, so I am not correct in essence, as a being . there is a should be that is correct. I abandon what I am and try to be that it should be. This is impossible, you are what you are and the should be is a ghost. But you try to get away from what you are and achieve what it should be. you become a dissonance. pure anxiety. That should be marked with fire, it takes you away from your center like a magnet. has you in no man's land, land of anxiety. You have to see this clearly, and little by little the magnet should be losing its strength. If you don't, your life will be a misery, always. to understand this is to understand yourself. meditation, psychedelics, terapy. the times, the time it takes. nothing is that important.
  23. for leo and others, for this whole forum: my deepest thanks. for being an oasis in the middle of the desert. for being the drop that makes the river overflow. for being the impulse of a revolution that i could not even imagine
  24. self-love, but also gives to others, true relationships, without reservations