Breakingthewall

@Yeah Yeah The issue, for me, is: the mind cannot, with mental processes, stop itself. you can go to satsang, read theory, whatever, but it's more mind. it takes an external agent to strike. for me that agent is 5 meo, complemented with hours of meditation every day. hit and disintegrate your mind for a while. It can be nice, horrible, whatever. the important thing is that it disintegrates your mind and then integrates again. here the mechanisms of the mind, its nature, are revealed. then you need to readjust your daily mental processes to integrate what has happened. You do it again, same process, over and over again. it is not so important what is revealed to you in the psychedelic trip, since one thing is the same as another thing. everything can become a belief. what is important is the mechanical act of disintegration of the mind and its reintegration. It happens only with meditation too, but in othel level .the mind itself sees what it is, more and more clearly. not conceptually. the same as you learn to hit a ball. muscle, cellular memory. until your ego stops being an iron cage and becomes volatile. you have dynamited its foundations 100 times, it is no longer so solid. dissolution occurs spontaneously, at any time. the mind ceases to be a jail to become a vehicle, an interface. resistance softens, disappears. reality flows, you're tuned in, the pieces fit, the experience goes from battle to sightseeing. It's easy to be free of the concept, of the need of understanding, of control. But first, you must really want to surrender that control, surrender yourself

This is everything, but do you really see what it is? It is the infinite void giving a cry of joy absolutely wild. You have done 5meo many times, a lot of meditation. you have not opened the door of absolute emptiness and it has overflowed you with love? there's nothing, it's empty, but it's wild, it's joy, it's everything. it is an incomprehensible paradox, not simply: it is empty, there is nothing. of course there is no self in the ego sense, someone who does this or that, there is existence, and existence has a quality: love. since without him it would not exist. love is the cry of infinity when it sees itself, and I'm listening to it right now. hallelujah brothers!?? But yes, it absolutely impersonal, the death for the i that wants a better experience...but he gets a better experience, because he realizes of his illusory nature and accept his place, so he can relax and enjoy the experience

@VeganAwake @The0Self don't see it that way. there are no layers of ego and something underneath. the ego is a structure that gives a certain apparently shape to the substance of reality. If you erase this structure, there is absolute emptiness, nothing. but nothing is unlimited, infinite, and being so, it is absolutely everything that is possible to be, at this exact moment. and that is what we are if we erase the structures. To say that there is simply a void is an absurd nihilism, since it is obvious that the void is the ego itself and everything that exists. It is not a matter of logic but of living it. The infinity is impersonal because it is infinite, so without certain qualities, shapeless. but it exists and that is what we are, so in some way it can be said that the absolute total infinity, and that it is what we are, is a self in some way, in the sense that i am that

is made by the self, which senses its unreality and has the intention of surrendering its control, but cannot, since to do so is to cease to exist. when it ceases to exist , or better, it dissolves, it realizes that it is just a set of preferences with the function of the human avatar surviving. without it there is no separation and the experience that is remains, but this unlimited being that unfolds once the structures of the self dissolve, is in turn a self, only it is not a self that asks questions, just is. Really it's the same self that was asking and trying things, but shapeless , since he has seen that form and structure, essential at a certain moment for survival, have become a hindrance and must be discarded

It is a very serious matter since any day you could have a fatal accident, with innocent victims. 80-year-old guy driving drunk is Russian roulette. I would make him see the seriousness of the matter with a meeting with the whole family in which he is forced (always with affection, acceptance and in a reasoned way) to install the breathalyzer, and supervising that it continues to be installed every week, and if he does not accept, the alternative is to file a complaint to have the license withdrawn, or directly destroy the car with a mallet. It is not a joking matter and he has to understand it. not a breathalyzer or I am not talking to you. Or is: breathalyzer or you don't drive once more starting right now. With all your love and respect, i hope someone would do for me if I'm in that circumstance

the point is to loosen the structures of your ego, since they restrict you and prevent you from seeing from a broader perspective. The first step is to realize that you are imprisoned in the ego, with all its limitations, its attachments, rejections, fears, certainties. the second, to want to destroy that jail whatever it may be, at the cost of your life if necessary. The third, to do it

You seek to escape suffering, but you also seek to achieve greater delight. negative vs positive motivation. When you stop suffering completely, you can keep looking, life is very beautiful and offers wonders. why not enjoy them?

@Aaron p the purifying fire in your nose ??. In theory, a pH 7 could be achieved if the mixture of 5meo and vinegar is exact. maybe with pH measuring strips ...

I know this probably doesn't help at all, but if you dig deeper you will see this: everything is exactly as it has to be, to the millionth of a millimeter. so relax and enjoy

my family is deeply dysfunctional, my father was a narcissistic addict, etc. etc. etc. all that, variations of the same movie. I have been feeling hatred for many years, I have progressed a lot in life based on struggle and anger, but having that inside you is shit. Although you may not realize it, you have identified so much with your hatred that you have become addicted to it. I tell you from experience. Suddenly, one day I realized: those narcissistic monsters were just idiots. like stupid children incapable of maturing, worthy of pity and nothing more. They are you and you are them, that's life, a game that can get twisted. give those poor idiots a mental hug and forget them completely. Easier said than done, obviously. getting to do it is the way that will set you free. Those fools are your teachers, accept their lesson

if plugging does not work for you, try putting the 5 meo dissolved in vinegar with the syringe in your nose, it stings but it works very well

your body is a perfect energy pattern where each atom occupies an exact place, continually being exchanged for new atoms. a structure of inconceivable complexity. It is the same thing that makes you move that what makes that every time you breathe millions of atoms are expelled and millions more take their exactly place: the infinite mind of God

existence is infinite so it changes and doesn't change. it changes apparently, but really it is already everything that could be or change, it is total and the totality is immutableb ecause it encompasses all possible mutation

just relax and enjoy

It is magnificent

there is something rather than nothing because there is. mystery. there, deep in the void, it is. It could be simply a void, but since it is infinite, magic happens, and there you are. everything possible unfolding infinitely. like a wild cry of joy that in an instant, is all that can be. for no other reason than because he can and because he wants to. infinite love pouring out infinitely without control ... so much that it is nothing. uncontrollable, unfathomable, unknowable, the you that is not you, because as much as it is, it is nothing, but it is

@omar30 What happens to you is that you are identified with your ego, with the idea of your life as a story, the past as something alive, full of meaning and strength. The moment you surrender to the present and realize what you are, all of that dissolves. all that mental shit that tortures you is what encourages you to solve the riddle. you have to untangle the strings of the ego and set yourself free. a great revolution that results in total freedom. But first you have to understand, even if only intellectually, the inherent falsehood of any concept. if you want to go beyond the mind, the mind itself must recognize its limitation

everything is enlightenend, only that we humans forget it when we focus on the stories of the ego. look at the birds, or look a month-old child in the eye.

Leo is a new kind of teacher. he has a solid ego and his mind does not stop trying to understand. the opposite of what is required for enlightenment. but he has chemical aid and uses it intensely and fearlessly. this help temporarily turns him into a being with less ego than buddha. then he returns to his normal ego self, and that ego processes what has been revealed to him without ego, and exposes it in a way that other egos can understand. ramana maharshi cannot speak the language of your ego. Leo can

The meaning and pourpose are to be, to exist. creative passion, manifestation of love. You could call it nothing or anything, it's what it is

Do you think? I would say that nothing has always been, there is no beginning in being. if it is always, it is loved always. If it has loved always, it has always manifested . nothingness, love and manifestation are right now, which is the only moment that exists. There is not like: nothing at the beginning, then love and then manifestation. everything is now, and now is always

There is still something behind nothing, or simultaneous to nothing. be. absolute emptiness without qualities, is. exists. and by existing and having no limits, loves itself infinitely and manifests

We should all kill a cow or a lamb and then eat it. maybe we wouldn't be hungry

If there is no resistence, you will disappear, you will dissolve into the whole. mashamadi i guess. Life is resistence

True, but it's impossible, is what i said before. you are the illusion. you cannot stop being it. Buddha ate, drank and shit. If a tooth ached, he had a bad time. there is a limit to Buddhahood while the "illusion" of being human occurs. or rather, while you're human. fear is a fundamental part of this illusion, one of its pillars. it can be controlled but never eliminated. But there is no problem with fear if you know what it is. you feel it, you accept it, and that's it. Forget the snakes, are too gentle. think in hammers in your bones. You could go to your execution full of joy, but the human part will feel fear, even Jesus in the cross