Breakingthewall

The more awake, the more balanced, the less heavy ego, more authentic relationships, more effective work, more purpose, less mental rumination.

the suffering is not that bad. it is a small price to bring together the work of art, the perfect tapestry. the wonder of the matter, its intricate genius, goes far beyond what a human mind can grasp. out of empty nothingness arises a dance that starts out simple and blends into this explosion of unimaginable beauty and genius that it is right now. God himself marvels at the wonder of his genius. each of your thoughts is sublime art. every breath, every blade of grass, every exhaust pipe spewing shit, every industrial pig slaughterhouse. hallelujah to the glory of existence. Perfect, bright , glorious, overflowing with pure love

god is the best word because you think: god has many cultural connotations, let's say totality, existence, being...until at one point, the door opens, and......yesssss yeeeeeeeees that is , the glory, the everything , me, hallelujah!!!! of course: god . then the door closes and you remember that but it is impossible to live it, and better to forget because it is a mess. But the glass that was empty has been filled. the prodigal son is back. this is how this works

Celtic tribes and Native Americans , and sure many others, were given to sacrifices. the Celts also went to battle naked, as a ritual. I would say that there is more here than simple ignorance. symbolizes the unreality of the individual. its banality. the individual is sacrificed in the name of the tribe, which endures. symbolizes: the tribe is something, the individual, nothing. the gods will reward the tribe if we show them humility Not very different, but much more harder to do, the japanese, sacrificing themselves with a knife in the guts, to show the submission of the animal instinct to the will. Duty taken to the extreme. Total renunciation of instinct. for them that was to be civilized

good or bad are words, but define something that is very real. selfishness is "bad" because it separates you, takes you away from unity, isolates you and takes you away from happiness. maybe there is nothing wrong with it, but it feels "bad". If you don't mind, it's ok. Selfless make you get closer of unity, from the joy, the truth. It's your choice, you can be unhappy if you want. Nothing happens at the end

Yeah , if you are surrounded of really selfish people the thing is difficult. Returning to Christ, turn the other cheek, the kingdom of heaven belongs to the meek, blabla. The reality is that if you are surrounded by evil, it will penetrate you and you will be lost. only some saint could be selfless. in highly selfish societies, which are almost all of them, most of us end up in hell and then getting out of it is difficult, that is what we are doing now I think There also seem to be people who feel quite comfortable being very selfish and others who find it hellish. They are the last ones who undertake a search to get out of the labyrinth in which they have been gradually inserted. go undoing each mark that has made you defensive, separated, but at the same time we don't want to feel defenseless, we never want to turn the other cheek. I guess it's possible because we live in a fairly fair society. if we were slaves or something, it would be difficult

Do you smoke weed? Your mental processes remember me when i used to smoke. I totally stopped the weed because that depersonalization, that compulsion to analyze everything, to narrate what is happening with the mind.

The thing is, why we don't want to be evil? Or less evil as is possible? Because we realized that "i" and the other are the same, so to have a evil behavior is to damage ourselves. So, more evilness = more unhappiness. Some level of evilness, and unhappiness, is unavoidable. total happiness is not being an individual, and we are and we want to remain so. but you realize that the more selfish you are, the more separation you create between you and what is not you, the more unhappy you will be. more isolated, closed to pure joy, to love. so you see that selfish behavior, which seems very smart and practical, is stupid, it leads to disaster, to something much worse than death that it is better not to go through: to hell. Idiots go to hell, smart people go to heaven.

im just a story in your mind.

evil is selfishness. the good, selflessness. we are all evil to some extent, even Jesus Christ. Well, when he decided to let himself be crucified for the good of others, no. evil excludes, and you need evil to be you, since to be you, you have to exclude what is not you. if you don't, you will dissolve and disappear. the basis of the existence of "things" is evil. even a plant has evilness, it competes, it fights to be itself. but her "goodness" is far superior, it is selfless, it just is. in humans, the tendency to evil is enormous. I as opposed to what is not me. this degenerates to crazy levels, to enjoying the suffering of others, to pure destruction. total evil, only humans have that ability. total unhappiness.

Not mine. I mean, compared to before, a year ago for example, my mind is in great peace, I am aware of unity almost all the time, there is joy, beauty, but... there is a barrier, I see it clearly. I. and I don't see how to relax that barrier. it is 99.9% of the time. the 0.1, or less, that disappears... that is, there is no more to get. freedom, unlimited. but come back soon. the very bitch. I mean, me, shit, I can't get out of the way, i am always spoiling the party for myself

That is the point. I understand perfectly, but the problem is inertia. extremely difficult not to mix with thoughts again, to grant them power. sometimes I have reached the total disconnection of thoughts, the feeling that you are in the void, at zero, you can still think, but with absolute detachment. the bad thing is that it is inevitable to get entangled again. it seems impossible not to. Maybe more meditation, stop distraction and really meditate many hours a day. But it's not only a matter of practice, it's to be really detached of everything, and this is difficult, because there are many hard attachments, like attachment to your health for example, or your look, or to communicate with others, hundreds more. They give the power to the thoughts

I deleted it because immediately after writing it my feeling was the opposite. I've been in a lonely place for a week doing lonely work and the mind loses solidity, which is interesting. I really wish it would disintegrate completely, but it seems impossible, unless you're doing psychedelics all the time. the mind tends to structure, to cling to what it knows

Great article, thank you!. My malt is ordered some days ago, i will find some scoops, thanks for suggesting, the scale is really imprecise.

@Muhammad Jawad sounds like you have ceased to be repressed. now you are free, and you have the opportunity to contribute to the people around you. before you were just a slave, nothing

As i said before, it's egoic. It's not bad, or good, it's egoic. Why? Because you, the ego, are using the possible realization to get advantages. the Christian and Muslim religions (from your name I imagine you have been educated in the latter) manipulate the ego with promises of reward and punishment. for true realization you have to forget that. you have to be totally integral. that is, you want to open yourself to the truth not because it is better for you, but because it is the truth. However, in my experience, the more open you are to the truth, the more intolerable it becomes to lie or harm others.

what you say sounds completely egoic. Why do you want to be a saint? to finally be able to self-approve? Find first where that need for validation comes from, overcome it completely, and then consider going deeper. using spirituality as a crutch to gain self-esteem does not work

Yeah , because there is a very strong current that pulls you just in the other direction. Even spiritual people who go on meditation retreats and live in a hippy town are materialistic and egotistical at heart. when you are a teenager it is impossible, you are overwhelmed. They are all messages that push you to attachment, comparison, fear of not fitting in. You are surrounded by toxic and narrow people, since almost everyone is, so nothing to do. but in the end one has to follow one's own natural tendency, otherwise the unhappiness will be deep, so the way would be found

It really happens totally? Could you explain your experience? mine is somewhat progressive. day by day I identify repetitive patterns, mental attachments, and liberation occurs little by little. For example, I realize that 2 months ago my mind was much more full of noise than it is now, much more fragmented, and a year and a half ago it was crazyness. now I have moments of freedom, but a certain reaction follows, the mind does not get used to being without handles. I fully understand what this means, so I'm going ahead with the demolition process, but it's not something that happens all at once, or at least for now. And I find it hard to imagine leaving the chains entirely

Yeah of course, every days. the thing is why of the fear. the ego perceives that the absence of limits is death and it is impossible for him to let it go, he will always want to maintain a minimum of definition, of form, since the non-form is nothing, death. but precisely nothingness is your nature, or god, whatever, and this is what is impossible to grasp with the mind. the ego must surrender completely, this you can do with 5meo for a few moments, but sober it is very difficult. to be awake is to live with that openness to the unlimited. I have an opening normally, but far from complete. there is attachment to form. the work is to detach from the form

@Michael Jackson maybe I'm not totally awake. Well, Maybe no, sure, because i feel that there is still a final opening to the divinity that I block. even with 5 meo I still have the feeling of...yes, god, anything, but I still resist. total infinity terrifies me. the total absence of limit is unbearable for me beyond a few seconds. Well, what I wanted to say is that in your definition of omnipotent, intelligent, etc, the fundamental word is missing: infinity. what we are is infinity, and the rest is implicit in infinity. but on the other hand infinity is so impersonal, so opposite to "I" that it is absolutely terrifying. it is death. educating the self to accept the infinite and to be able to become it, is the true awakening. the rest are limitations of the ego, call it god or whatever you want.

think that you are not doing this to realize god, or whatever, but that it is a demolition job of the limits of your mind that keep you prisoner. the experience can be whatever it is, the important thing is that you are going to hit the barrier of the ego with the wrecking ball. if it is also nice, wonderful. If it's not, well, hitting walls doesn't have to be fun, but it's essential if you want to be free.

spirituality is not acquiring knowledge, or not only that. doing so can work as a consolation in the face of death, etc, but you will still be unhappy since you will continue to be locked up in the ego. the goal is to free yourself, break the limitations of the mind and live being what you really are: unlimited, love, divinity... to put adjectives. It seems that people are satisfied with knowing things, but they see it as impossible to live in total openness and without limits. why? It's difficult but I think it's perfectly possible. and I also believe that you have to fight for it day by day, not to get caught in the prison of the ego, which is tenacious

It is rare that a guy as smart as Stephen Hawking, who also had a very hard life, has been a total materialist until the end. Seems stupid close mind

Yeah...agree at the end! ?