Breakingthewall

what you say sounds completely egoic. Why do you want to be a saint? to finally be able to self-approve? Find first where that need for validation comes from, overcome it completely, and then consider going deeper. using spirituality as a crutch to gain self-esteem does not work

Yeah , because there is a very strong current that pulls you just in the other direction. Even spiritual people who go on meditation retreats and live in a hippy town are materialistic and egotistical at heart. when you are a teenager it is impossible, you are overwhelmed. They are all messages that push you to attachment, comparison, fear of not fitting in. You are surrounded by toxic and narrow people, since almost everyone is, so nothing to do. but in the end one has to follow one's own natural tendency, otherwise the unhappiness will be deep, so the way would be found

It really happens totally? Could you explain your experience? mine is somewhat progressive. day by day I identify repetitive patterns, mental attachments, and liberation occurs little by little. For example, I realize that 2 months ago my mind was much more full of noise than it is now, much more fragmented, and a year and a half ago it was crazyness. now I have moments of freedom, but a certain reaction follows, the mind does not get used to being without handles. I fully understand what this means, so I'm going ahead with the demolition process, but it's not something that happens all at once, or at least for now. And I find it hard to imagine leaving the chains entirely

Yeah of course, every days. the thing is why of the fear. the ego perceives that the absence of limits is death and it is impossible for him to let it go, he will always want to maintain a minimum of definition, of form, since the non-form is nothing, death. but precisely nothingness is your nature, or god, whatever, and this is what is impossible to grasp with the mind. the ego must surrender completely, this you can do with 5meo for a few moments, but sober it is very difficult. to be awake is to live with that openness to the unlimited. I have an opening normally, but far from complete. there is attachment to form. the work is to detach from the form

@Michael Jackson maybe I'm not totally awake. Well, Maybe no, sure, because i feel that there is still a final opening to the divinity that I block. even with 5 meo I still have the feeling of...yes, god, anything, but I still resist. total infinity terrifies me. the total absence of limit is unbearable for me beyond a few seconds. Well, what I wanted to say is that in your definition of omnipotent, intelligent, etc, the fundamental word is missing: infinity. what we are is infinity, and the rest is implicit in infinity. but on the other hand infinity is so impersonal, so opposite to "I" that it is absolutely terrifying. it is death. educating the self to accept the infinite and to be able to become it, is the true awakening. the rest are limitations of the ego, call it god or whatever you want.

think that you are not doing this to realize god, or whatever, but that it is a demolition job of the limits of your mind that keep you prisoner. the experience can be whatever it is, the important thing is that you are going to hit the barrier of the ego with the wrecking ball. if it is also nice, wonderful. If it's not, well, hitting walls doesn't have to be fun, but it's essential if you want to be free.

spirituality is not acquiring knowledge, or not only that. doing so can work as a consolation in the face of death, etc, but you will still be unhappy since you will continue to be locked up in the ego. the goal is to free yourself, break the limitations of the mind and live being what you really are: unlimited, love, divinity... to put adjectives. It seems that people are satisfied with knowing things, but they see it as impossible to live in total openness and without limits. why? It's difficult but I think it's perfectly possible. and I also believe that you have to fight for it day by day, not to get caught in the prison of the ego, which is tenacious

It is rare that a guy as smart as Stephen Hawking, who also had a very hard life, has been a total materialist until the end. Seems stupid close mind

Yeah...agree at the end! ?

Inspiring reading. we call nothing the absence of contrast, of differentiation between one thing or another. but it is a wrong word. there is always something, existence. the true nothing would be non-existence, and that does not exist. and obviously you can't experience it.

So it was at the end . You don't understand. You are. Period. nothing related to the conceptual idea of myself, or if I remain a vegetable if I get hit on the head. I am. it is most obvious. the sense of the separate self, as you say, is false, since separate means contrasted with what is not me. there is no contrast. Only be. I could be shot in the head right now, which would still be exactly the same, only without all the mental paraphernalia that goes around in my head (which would not be a great loss either btw) there is only the being. being cannot not be. there is no enlightenment to look for, it is much simpler. it is realizing that you are, and you are limitless depth, right now. simply remove the limitations you impose, all your ideas about what is and is not, and voila! this. Now. Depth, life, that's you are.

Well, you are, right? Obviously you exist.

you have to really detach from yourself, and take real risks. if not, you end up wallowing in your fear, in your comfort and in your routines, and no matter how many realizations you have had, your life will be small and miserable.

True, but you can't see that since you are it. It's very twisted. imagine that you are the content of a glass where there is water mixed with ink. I tell you: hey, the ink is not real, don't you see? but you cannot distinguish the water from the ink, you are the mixture. You're going to make a thousand assumptions that the ink is this and the real is that, but you can't see it until they mechanically separate. there is nothing they can tell you that will make you see it because the one who listens to it and processes it is the water mixed with the ink. It is another thing to see, when they are separated, that the water is not limited to the glass. it is simply what there is without limitation or definition, but as long as it is mixed with the ink, its outline is defined and it is impossible to see that

If you mean the mental talking, It is the ego, an entity made of images and words that has attachment as its emotional basis. It is working all the time and cannot stop for a second, since it has mixed with you as a kind of symbiote. you and this entity are inseparable, you are mixed, but you must separate as it has grown too large and threatens to devour itself. this symbiote in another context, I don't know, in the Paleolithic, sure would be bearable, but today its dimension is impossible. he is a real monster. He leaves no room for anything but himself. the alchemical process that must occur is complicated. first the monster himself has to realize his monstrosity, and then he has, in a real act of surrender, to accept his place. recognize its unreal character. difficult since you, the one who is thinking that the voice should be silent, are the voice itself. you can't make yourself shut up. Because the will of try to shut up come from the voice, so is making the voice stronger. You have to play a subtle game with yourself. To cross the door you can't want to cross the door. you can only watch all the time, day after day, every minute. what you are and what you say, why you do it, how you twist yourself, make yourself aware of your terror of silence, your need to grab handles. until one day, suddenly, for a few seconds... poof! It is gone. you are at the bottom of you, of reality, the void. that is. there are no words. then it comes back again, but it's already less mixed. more detached. And the void attracts you more and more

I don't know, just speculation. nor do I think that any of us will ever know, since as Epicurus said, when death is there, I am not. the i that wants to know will disappear, and what it is will remain, since it is now. reality is, right? and you are a kind of dream, a limited appearance of the limitless. only a shape. if the form disappears, you disappear, the desire to know, the memory that you ever existed as a form, everything. only infinity remains, taking infinite forms from infinite time, that is the same to say that you are the first form that has appeared in the eternity. without memory, without permanence, but always the same infinity. You, right now

psychedelic users typically use them to come face to face with reality, not to escape from it. is this immaturity? rather the opposite

agree that enjoying life is the goal. I just wanted to point out that from my point of view, the only way to really do it is to remove all superfluous lies from you. there is no search for the truth, the truth is already the case. there are clouds that veil it, and these clouds must be understood for them to dissipate. if not, there will never be happiness, not in campfires, beaches or in anything. there will always be a distortion of background anxiety. if that distortion is equalized and you are one with the truth, it doesn't matter where you are, you will be happy

not agree. The truth is one and the rest is nonsense. the only real happiness is the truth. the rest are patches that take you to hell

If you vape a small amount, like 2mg, and it kicks in, it's probably the real deal. How to describe describe the effect... maybe like something that expands and takes you, and faint colored dots and small movements with your eyes closed. If it is more, the visuals would be small green and silver geometric figures turning like gears. More amount, luminous rectangles and vision cancellation. all this with a perfectly normal mind if you have never had a breakthrough (if you already had, with small amount the mind changes). In a moment, you pass the threshold of the breakthrough and the mind disintegrates. Difficult to explain that .it is something that when it happens , after you think: this, without 5 meo is impossible. goes beyond anything that is possible to think. anyone who does it alone usually takes many tries to get the dissolution

maybe you should try it. if you have the right look, and the right attitude, you might find yourself surrounded by admirers, beautiful women vying for your attention, millionaires making donations, documentary about you on netflix, a private island in the pacific where you are worshiped like a god living. You just have to start little by little

Try to vape a small amount, I have read that oxalate can be vaped. if you don't have a pipe, make it with a spoon, a lighter and a funnel. try 2 or 3 mg, and see if it works or not

I agree, the mind must understand itself, if not, the silence will be artificial, forced. To create empty space in the mind, all knots must be undone, the labyrinth solved. then silence comes naturally.

as simple as saying that the truth is silence. but how to get to the silence? That is the question. removing the noise, obviously. And how do you remove the noise? detaching you from it. but how do you detach from the noise if... oh wait... you are the noise? And this is spirituality, in short

What I believe is that when you die, the self you think you are will dissolve like a hologram in the void, and it will be as if it never existed. There will be no trace and no one to remember him. The infinite void will remain in infinite silence, which is what you really are. and I suppose that something else will happen, but the one who asks, will not know, because it would have disappeared