Breakingthewall

books don't make any sense as soon as you start getting deep . books only serve to prepare the ground while you are an ego that lives on the word. once you leave the word behind, books are just a pretty boring curiosity

Yeah, but it was just an experience. The thing is very subtle. only now is. I do not seek to have many experiences. but I know that these experiences are breaking down the walls that enclose me in the illusion of being a person who evolves over time. I'm going to break them until there's nothing left. why? Because freedom feels good You didn't think in taking any psychedelic to see what happens? Was it a state of depression? let's say the walls were closed for you, and not a bit of light penetrated. that's hard, misery. How did you get the light to come in? Meditation? How was your analogic process :)? I think it was good since reading you now is easy to perceive a real opening, much more than before . At the end, everything is just this present moment, but can be more close, more open, or absolutely open. We are trying to open it totally, because it feels great. If i compare my life now or 2 years ago it's crazy. I lived in the mud and in the misery and i thought i had a good life.

the problem is that you can't wish for something you don't know. it is better to forget the word god, and anything else we have read. First, you have to realize that existence is this present moment. only this exists. is the absolute. second, wanting to penetrate to the bottom of what this is. for this we must delete any projection. what will you find there? you don't know. Everything that Leo has said, they are just stories. It is not that they are not true, it is that they are just stories in your present moment. unreal. the real is only the moment. true that they are a guide. even so you have to go to the bottom by yourself, without knowing anything. When your self disintegrates and reality is an infinite hole of nothing, not being, is the last frontier. I have managed to cross that door twice, for a certainty: I am. if you die absolutely, you plunge headlong into total emptiness, the manifestation takes place. but not always! so overcoming the fear of that empty death is essential. Today i did that twice, and every time, when it finished, i though: shit, I'm going to be traumatized for ever. This present moment is just...no thing. No life. No self just a nfinite hole. But in a while i already forgot and i could to do again:)) . Because i have faith: i am. So even I'm just nothing, let's be nothing. This nothing feels so good now so it couldn't be so bad. And i remember that times when the source manifested. But wait... maybe it's just an history in my mind...but well, maybe the nothing is just another history :))). Only the present moment is, so let's go deeper and deeper. I'm glad I can talk about it in this forum, because if I talk about it with anyone I know, they would think I have schizophrenia.

The realization of the absolute that Leo speaks of is something that is not easy, at least for me. I think that without something like 5 meo it is impossible, because even if you think that you have realized the absolute, it is not really that, since your mind is still fully functioning. They may be glimpses, but you're still there. but be careful, 5 meo does not guarantee, it only facilitates. I have had many experiences with 5meo which are: infinite emptiness. and that's it. the few times that the absolute has opened up for me has been after having 2 or 3 of those total ego dissolutions where reality is a flat screen that expands to infinity devoid of all life. on the third, the void opens and the inexplicable happens. It's a bomb, not a glimpse. My strategy is to force that absolutely sad emptiness until my being gets used to it. and so in the future not need psychedelics. Sounds like I'm trying to rape god with a conquering ego... and so it is. So a lot of times I get absolute horror, but it's not in my nature to stop. Let's see.

I guess it's a matter of detachment above all

Well, understand...i mean, manifest . I'll give you an example. Today I have done 5 meo dmt, for me it is a serious challenge, since it takes you to the absolute. but the absolute is nothing more than the void. there is nothing to understand here. Today I did it 2 times. first, the horror of total death. reality is nothing...empty. horrible vibration of death. complete hopelessness, complete horror of real non-existence. weeeell... again this, i already know..., but there seems to be something, right? then i did again. the absolute is... nothing, emptiness. This is the void and that's it. zero. but hey, it's not that horrible. let's be the void ,okay. A hole of infinite nothing. Non sense . Infinity emptiness. You need balls to stand this. What I mean by this? that there is something "behind" the void. I have opened up to it two times. not today. Today I knocked at the gates of heaven, and I was filled with a stream of empty horror. I already know this, for me it's ok, it's just another step. you can't stay here, it's a nonsense. What led me to go further with this tool is the certainty that I am. Those two times when I really opened up to it, were a manifestation of the unthinkable. that is enlightenment. the rest are histories. when that happens, it is the glory of existence. The truth. not today. Today just a lesson of detachment . But I'm going to open that door, permanently.

agree more or less. nothing can be circumscribed since reality is unlimited, but it can be understood. the realization of its unlimited or infinite nature is what dissolves any separation and any sense of separate self.

the word is the apple that adam ate, and that immediately expelled him from the garden of eden. we need the word to break the spell of the word. the word must be stripped of all its power, until for you one word is the same as another. just words. the word is an agent of separation. When you name something, you are automatically defining I/act of naming/thing named. subject and object. Self separated. hell of the mind. your present moment must be free of the word to begin to deepen. to free yourself from the word, you have to understand what the word is

Don't be so mysterious and explain what God Realization is for you, what it is to go beyond that, what is non-experience, what is that enlightenment you are talking about. It is not allowed to say: it is so deep that I cannot speak it. the old trick of the zen master . Just try to explain.

society has been forged by violence. war, slavery, ethnic cleansing. from the ancient empires, the tribes of africa, the cannibals of polynesia... no one has been spared. So what do you expect from a world in which the one who is not from your tribe is your enemy to death? gay friendly? It is not friendly at all, neither with gays nor with anyone

the aim is not to achieve a pleasant life, it is to go deep into the understanding of what this is. this present moment that I am. It is crazy not to try if there are the means to do it.

well said. ultimately wisdom is knowing that reality is love manifesting itself. Wisdom is opening your heart to the love that reality is.

have you ever had a complete breakthrough with 5 meo? Become the absolute infinite emptiness. When you talk about God Realization, what is it according to you? god is ....depth. that is not an experience. You are the absolute nothing. void. But the void is an infinite source of... everything. Nothing=Everything=love=this moment=you. Impossible to understand, just it is.

Yes, that's why it's difficult. It would be said that it is accessing a different dimension. to the non-dimension. the mind is solidly structured and does not allow that openness. But as you speak, you've achieved that without psychedelics. is that so? How? Because as much as they say it's not an achievement, it is. it happens by wishing it, and by taking actions aimed at making it happen

there is only one absolute and it is impossible to talk about it. It is the truth. It happens when the total void opens and the total source emerges. there is nothing in the mental world that can come close to describing that. the word glory maybe. or hallelujah. the absolute goes beyond the mud in which we move.

truth is not conceptual. It's something impossible to understand. it is something that manifests itself. what we do is prepare the ground for that to happen.

I don't know what are you talking about. the aim of this work is to dissolve the barriers of the ego and realize the infinite and become infinite. first once. then, at will, with meditation. make the walls so thin that it is easy to walk through them. the truth is very simple: we are an infinite mind creating this moment. the job is to open up to this truth and realize it in the direct experience as often as is possible. everything else is stories

You have to be very skeptical of what you notice in the energy of others. things are rarely what they seem at first glance

a very interesting question. few people do what leo does. It may become a regular path in the future. Leo should explain the consequences of his extreme practices. loses the illusion all the interest for him and only the absolute has it? Does it have any addictive nuance? What happened to that of the spontaneous activations, that apparently permanent psychedelic effect? what was that about Alien? it is interesting and important

Great quote, thanks for sharing that Huang po. there is something that does not explain imo. two things happen. 1 that "students" take that unique mind as a belief so deep that they really believe they know the truth, and 2, even more subtle, that whoever has really opened up to this truth, stops being open to it and takes its realization as a belief. imo the truth must be lived in a completely actual way, not thought. This is very difficult since once you have realized the truth for a moment, there is no rest for you in the lie, but the ego barriers are solid and come back. you have to be humble enough to be patient, do the practices and not conceptualize the truth

Reality is now

I am alive, here and now. I want to get to the bottom of the matter. completely. I also want to be absolutely free. erase completely in fear. go to death with joy. open myself fully to the reality of who I am, without any reservations. I feel passion for existence and I want to savor it without any limitation. I see that the way to do this, in addition to important actions in the relative, go through the death of the ego with psychedelics. Maybe he's too focused in the psychedelic experience, like an addiction. I don't know. It's not my case. I use the psychedelic as a mean not as a end. But as you said, we don't know him, so any judgement is just speculation

No, i mean in the purely relative sense. I don't mix the relative with the absolute nor do I draw conclusions like: I invented Leo for... I think that's a mistake. I have seen how the relative is created, how the structure that is my body is being created, and everything else, and I have realized that my pov is the total absolute. but I don't understand how, why, nor do I pretend to. I have seen that everything is exactly as it has to be. so for me the job is to let go and let's say, unite the absolute and the relative as much as possible. let the absolute do what it has to do. I'm working on a total ego dissolution with 5meo plugged. I have already done vaping several times but it is very different, as if it were another psychedelic. plugged you see how all the structures are crumbling, like your primordial attachment, your body resists. with 27 mg the dissolution is not complete yet. instead vaped is from 0 to 100 in a second. Now I'm here, suddenly, the void. By plugging I have come to the conclusion that Leo maybe is right: no one has gone as deep as him. nobody does serious work with 5 meo plugged until the total dissolution. It's almost impossible to reach this point just by meditation, it's another level. But after that, everyone reach his own relative conclusion, and i find those of Leo bit confusing

I guess he said that for two reasons. first because it is somehow true. only direct experience is real. you cannot get out of your direct experience, therefore your direct experience is absolute. and second, because understanding this intellectually helps liberation since it creates a mental configuration of unity, against the common idea of seeing yourself as a part of something larger and alien to you. if you want to prepare the ground for the total dissolution of the ego, realizing that others are only a component of your direct experience, which is the absolute, helps a lot in the detachment that is needed

The reality is that we know little about the mechanics of infinity. It would be said that infinity is relative and absolute at the same time. that is the incomprehensible paradox. so leo's video on solipsism is right and wrong at the same time