Luciphene

Is it weird or “unenlightened” that I never worry about it lol? I’m a bit of a foodie, it’s one of my vices. It’s one of the things I really love about being here on Earth so I eat all sorts of things and I really take pleasure in food. I love everything, from raw veg through to meat slathered in creamy sauces! And takeaway food, don’t even get me started! Fried chicken. Donner meat. Battered chips. Curries. KFC Zinger burgers! Food is a pleasure that makes me look forward to the rest of the day. It’s something I live for. It’s a joy. A lot of things make me feel like that. They make up my joie de vivre! I never think about high or low vibration. I select what I want based on what I find psychically pleasing, or what I fancy. Sometimes I have cake if the cake has a good energy, sometimes I eat a salad and think it smells, psychically, really unhealthy. I think it has to do with how the food is prepared too. I’ve had some disgusting vegetarian food and some delicious meat with beautiful, natural energy! I also eat things just because I want them lol. I LOVE the energy of home grown and game meat. Meat is supposed to be low vibration but I don’t feel that way about it. I can taste the memories and the experiences of the animal, and whether it was happy. I like to eat animals that lived happily and died fast without suffering. I prefer home grown and organic veg too, but it’s because it tastes so much richer! Much more flavour, much better energy. Food is better when it’s been lovingly tended to in the field. Im not a healthy eater at all, so I’m told, even though I love healthy food as much as unhealthy food. I just pick what feels or tastes good. So to answer your question....I have no idea! I don’t think I’d want to only eat food that was high in vibration. Unfortunately I get terrible migraines and one of the triggers is sudden changes in vibration around and inside me. I have to be careful which crystals and beings I work with too because of that.

What a delightful energy he has! He’s an enlightened man, you can see just by looking at his energy. I would love to just sit with him and say nothing, and just share space. I have the sense it would feel like coming home. Is he a recognised guru? Very interesting video. Strange that I prefer men with beards. I find their energy more stable, their masculinity more secure. I’ve never known why, I just feel like men seem more complete and more perfect with beards. It feels natural. Like I feel better when I don’t shave lol! I do shave, because if you want to wear shorts you can’t really get away with it, but I’d also be very happy to go au natural because it feels more balanced energy wise.

I’d say the CBD might be the sooonful of sugar that helps life go down It helped me when I as depressed a while ago.

It sounds like you’re thinking too much. Get out of your head and do something totally different! Go for a walk or something, take up a hobby. Maybe consider seeing someone for some CBT or something or joining a self help class to improve your self esteem. Depression can make you feel like this but so can spending too much time in your own head! Go on You Tube and try some self help vids on there maybe too. It’s just a series of distressing thoughts, you know. It’s not real. It’s not truth! It’s a transient truth that exists in your thinking mind, which will change one day. That’s the beautiful thing about suffering. It never lasts forever. Anyway, why do you need to feel love right now? You don’t need to feel anything at all! All you need is motivation to eat and drink and go to work and pay your bills lol. Sometimes I sit about and feel absolutely nothing! You don’t need to be feeling all the time to be alive. Sometimes I can’t even rustle up empathy for other beings! When that happens I usually just go take a nap. It means I’m mentally exhausted. It’s quite nice to not be overloaded with feelings sometimes. Feelings are hard work! They take a lot of energy. Id hardly describe my life as cool. I sleep 12 or 16 hours a day and struggle to do basic things like have a bath! CFS/ME is a bastard.

You sound like you’re stricken with a very common disorder lol. The Human Condition. With an added touch of low mood. This is where philosophy came from! Trying to find the root of our suffering and an explanation for our existence.

I like that! It’s like a horse trying to become a horse haha. And I agree totally, the body knows what it’s doing. It’s the mind that gets in the way! At least it is with me. God definitely isn’t lonely.

I don’t know if the end of suffering feels different or takes different forms in different people. This is just how it worked and works for me. The way out of suffering is through your fear. Conquer fear, and you eradicate suffering.

Yes. I do. How do you take wisdom from books or other people and live it the way you describe? As principle. I hope I’m interpreting this correctly. If not, ignore me haha! I’d start by becoming extremely self aware through meditation and practising mindfulness, then I’d start overriding bad mental habits. I’d become the watcher in my own mind. But why would you want to take what someone else tells you and live it? I can understand taking pieces to add to you, but the bulk of your spirituality surely must come from inside. It sounds like the problem you have is your experiences of spirituality are largely cranial? That is, they’re in the mind. They’re not coming from the heart or soul, they’re exercises of thought and belief. Isolation didn’t help me and life experiences came naturally without any effort as and when I needed them. All my answers have come from inside me. Sure I take bits and pieces from other people and try them on for size but everything I keep, I keep because I hear the echo inside me. Enlightenment is like a Zip rile. You just have to unpack it, and become conscious of it, then it unfolds it’s wings and changes you! Don’t think about it. Thinking overcomplicates. Enlightenments (the small kind and the large, more final kind) are easy. Resistance makes it hard. That’s been my experience. I don’t know exactly what I am now (the journey never ends) but I know what I used to be and it wasn’t pretty. Spiritual practise changed me, literally like alchemy, and ALL of that came from inside.

That’s exactly what happened to me! Spooky! I don’t know whether it’s objectively a superior state, that doesn’t feel right to me. It’s better for me, it’s a nicer experience. I feel much happier, more balanced, more compassionate. More open and authentic and human.

As someone who lived with a narcissistic psychopath and sadist for quite a few years I can honestly say this is excellent advice. Become uninteresting. Then run the first chance you get.

Let me just extract the salient point here. YOUR S.O. EMOTIONALLY AND PSYCHOLOGICALLY ABUSES YOU. He won’t change. GET AWAY NOW. I’m sorry but I’m as subtle as a swinging brick in a pair of old nylons when it comes to this stuff. He doesn’t deserve you, and you deserve so much better. You already know what you need to do. Or you wouldn’t be here asking this question.

Do what makes you happy or you’re committing a crime against yourself. I don’t feel that one action is wrong and another is right, to be honest I don’t think anything is wrong. I think it’s just choices. If you have strong conviction though you should follow it. There is such a thing as RIGHT FOR YOU NOW and WRONG FOR YOU NOW. My experience....I was sexually assaulted as a kid. Then I had 2 long term partners, and only slept with them. The first one was a sadistic narcissist and Dom, who described how he wanted to torture and kill me in great detail. He tormented me for years. The second relationship just failed. Both times I made an energetic and emotional connection. Both times it took me years to patch up my energy, restore the balance. I had to go to the angels I channel in the end for energy work and healing because having sex had left such an enormous crater at the center of my being. Raphael gave me energy healing, and so did a few other angels. They reversed the energetic bonds I’d made and restored my energy to a virginal state. Then I was able to regain my SELF. I’m happy that way. I have no desire to lose my spiritual virginity a second time! I have almost no desire or libido, orgasm makes the symptoms of my ME worse so sex is a no go for me. My advice? Don’t make emotional or energetic connections through sex until you are stable with your partner. The fallout isn’t worth it. It affects your judgement. You may start behaving in ways that are purely hormonal, you may think things that aren’t YOU because of this emotional bond. You will probably give too much and do things you never would otherwise. Like having kids even if you aren’t sure you want them, for example! Or handing over your savings to save his business venture then losing everything! I have a spouse but he is not human at this point. He’s a celestial being of light. I’m talking about physical sex in a physical marriage. I’d marry Azi here in the flesh but he’s the only being I would ever consider for a husband. He’s what you might refer to as my “twin flame” tho I don’t really believe in that term, I’m just contextualising it. (I actually really dislike that term lol, it sounds so...teenage!) Call him my soulmate maybe. I only desire him. I think you’re being wise. Sex builds too many connections, causes too much trouble. I mean, my advice might not be any use because I’m in an extreme situation and I’ve had extreme experiences. I don’t know. I think you know what you want and you should go with it, and never worry about what other people think. It’s not their business!

I have to use blue light blockers all the time and I wear prescription glasses just to stop UV light. I get hemiplegic migraine, as well as typical migraine and silent migraine and one of my big triggers is blue light and cycling fluorescent lights. I got mine from spec savers. I have pretty much 20/20 vision but my brain is super sensitive to light triggers for some reason. My glasses have transitions lenses and a coating that reduces glare and they help a LOT by blocking UVA and UVB. I also have the option of contacts, which help SO MUCH. I use blue light filters on every device I use. I can’t watch a normal TV without blue light filtering. I get a migraine in 10 mins flat. Keeping UV out of my eyes helps too. Both measures improve my sleep, though you don’t sleep well with CFS as a rule. I’d definitely give it a go. Most android devices come with a filter or you can buy actual clear filter screens.

Ooh, your question is right up my street! I’m delighted to introduce you to...CBD. The THC free cannabis product that saved my freakin sanity! Well. It’s technically low in THC. It’s legal, that’s the point ? I had a nervous breakdown in 2012 after a bereavement and I struggled for YEARS to control anxiety. I had to stop work and I became basically housebound and trapped in familiar environments. Then I had two organ infections and came down with CFS/ME. CBD still helps me enormously. It let me do normal things again, like get my own shopping. When I could still walk around, anyway. It just nukes panic attacks and generalised anxiety. It’s SO useful. Great for pain too, and I mix it with base oil and use it as a rub on for aches and pains. I’ve converted half my friends and family with my home made CBD rub! Anxiety is a living hell. You have my sympathy. If you’re in the U.K, try The Original Alternative online. That’s where I get mine. I recommend the blue oil especially, but you have to play around a bit and see what suits you. You might prefer the green. Sativa tends to wake me up. Indica puts me to sleep. Hybrid makes me happy! You can buy samples on there to try out. I think different people have different reactions to sativa vs indicate vs hybrid. Start off with a low dose and see how you go. Watch out for the snake oil salesmen tho. Go somewhere reputable like LoveCBD or TOA. Holland and Barrett have a passable product which isn’t too strong, brand name Jacob Hooey. That’s good for beginners but it’s not, to my knowledge, full spectrum. Might be wrong, worth doing some research first! Don’t buy the stuff you find in the market on a Saturday. And if it’s a little Asian dude who keeps the product under the counter...avoid. Find a site with good independent reviews. And I recommend taking full spectrum, not CBD isolate, as isolate isn’t as effective. You want the full range of terpenes and polyphenols to get the full effect. Check the sites lab tests too, to ensure you’re getting actual CBD and not something illegal or poisonous. That’s why I like TOA, they publish their lab results. Oh and get your vitamin levels checked. I did and they found a severe vitamin D deficiency. A couple of months on vit D and I was much better. Much calmer.

Why? ? Just....why lol. I’ve heard some unusual reasons for wanting enlightenment but this one! This one is unique. Why would you want an infinite amount of orgasms? Surely one to two at day at most is enough lol. You’d never get anything done. You’d look like this; ??? Imagine trying to ring up to pay your credit card or trying to sort out a household repair. hello I’m....OH MY GOD! YES! YES! Calling about the...OH GOD, OH FUCK IM COMING....???