Amaal

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  1. good.. I have a silly question though, trying to "understand" it further Now let's say I AM in my pov married to someone, his name is David for example. So, David in my pov is my husband, but it's my pov so he is merely a character doing his part in my world, he is essentially ME. I AM experiencing him as my husband. And this David of course has a pov (a dream) of his own, where he is the "consciousness" and the "experiencer". so in his pov, Is he living another life?? for example, I'm not his wife and he is married to someone else? Or am I still his wife but I AM him ? I always knew reality is way too complex than we think, but this is fun lol
  2. Thank you both. Yes I get this, It's the "basic" knowledge in any spiritual quest. I know we are all ONE and I had several "dreams" of this nature. I mean the "illusion" of the seemingly separate people out there, for example, do they exist, think and act "independently" from you?
  3. This is not helping at all I love pink floyd, each song is like a "therapy session". The idea is little bit radical but at the same time I feel a huge sense of "relief" and liberation to hold such an idea. So I am YOU replying to myself, and YOU are ME talking to yourself ? well, I hope I don't wind up in a mental institution I see "nihilistic" and "positive" perspectives to it.. if all if this is ME imagining or "dreaming" the whole thing, it means "nothing matters". Appearances, self image, social life anxieties.. etc. Psychologically speaking, You feel a burden left your shoulders. This is the good part, the nihilistic part is that if all of those beings are nothing but a construct of my mind and merely "actors" in my dream then (nothing matters, but in a depressing way). for example, why bother having a relationship with another if the other person is merely a puppet and will act only based on my assumptions and beliefs? there is no taste in it, like he doesn't actually love me, I love ME, he doesn't actually have this brilliant mind, it's just me having a conversation with myself.. etc. There is a sense of "faking", and no sense of passion very nice explanation. thank you for sharing it I'm trying to "intellectualize" it and I think it's something beyond the understanding of the mind. But I was thinking something similar to your explanation here, that everyone living in his own bubble, and everyone is the infinite consciousness and "everything" in his own dream. It's like there is one absolute experiencing itself from infinite numbers of "perspectives" . I don't know how to communicate it but it's like there is one "I AM", one "Son of God", and each of us as "consciousness" experiencing itself in its own dream or its own "mental construct". Is that close? Thanks. "Everything" in this context seems like a "denial" state of being "alone" exactly, I feel just that I get your point. but the question remains do other beings that I see and interact with have their own minds and thoughts ? or that ALL of this is just ME imagining them? _______________________ This idea reminds me of the law of assumption (aka law of attraction) that says every single person in your universe is (YOU pushed out) and they well show up playing the "role" you assigned to them. I tried it "intentionally" few times and they blow my mind. I would assume and imagine a specific person tells me a specific thing and they text me the exact same words shortly after! There is a huge thing falling apart, a story came to an end, something like that
  4. Hello, I hope you are all doing well. I have a point I feel the need to discuss it with you guys. After I watched Leo's video yesterday, I was sitting with myself contemplating for a while, and suddenly it hits me, it was like if something external planted this idea in my mind with such a clarity and an overwhelming feeling that says (this is the truth). I always knew it "conceptually" but never take it seriously, I mean it never affects my day-to-day life. It's this idea of (other people don't really exist, there is no one but you, every one in "your world" is essentially you and not separate from you, all other people is merely an allusion from your imagination.. etc.) This is a little bit (hard to digest) idea, but it felt so "true" that it scared me a little. I suddenly felt overwhelmed and so "lonely". I slept with my sister and I kept looking at her and thinking "is she real?" "is she even here right now?" lol. I am on a spiritual quest myself for 5 years now, I am familiar with all "new age" concepts, I have read dozens of books the past 6 years and I still encounter this idea a lot, specially the sentence "There is no one out there." and that there is "one consciousness and each of us experience it subjectively", but like I said something inside me didn't want to "investigate" it further. can you guys elaborate on it please? can anyone share their "experience"? or is it merely a "mental" notion? I really don't know what to say, I'm confused. with a tiny sense of "freedom". I would appreciate it if you share different perspectives here. Thank you, and stay safe
  5. If I had to choose the best and most influential books I have read, this book is on the list for sure. I've been recommending it in almost every "books conversation" . It gives you this new elegant perspective on topics we rarely dare to talk about. And I love how the author addressed his points from philosophical point of view. Great book indeed. It's one of my "on hold" projects, I'm considering translating it into Arabic.
  6. Hello everyone, This is my first post here, I began my spiritual quest about 4 years ago. And I came across Leo's videos about 2 years ago, but I didn't know about the Forum until now. I'm super happy to finally find such a community. And I would like to thank Leo for his great, informative, and eye-opening efforts. (There is no valuable content below, I just wanted to share a part of my experience, and ask a silly question) It is really delightful to witness this spiritual revolution, although I'm from an Islamic culture/background and live in a Muslim society (where religion still plausible and taken seriously), I have noticed a massive change in the past few years, people are awakening, start to address life's big questions, and question the cultural inherited belief systems/religion openly. Antidepressants consumption increased rapidly year after year, and people begin to realize that the materialistic self-indulgent lifestyle isn't the answer, and they start to look inward. I think part of it has to do with online New-age content (YouTube for example). Since my early 20s and my existential crisis experience, I always felt that there is something missing, something is wrong, there is some sort of intelligent entity, a grand magnificent designer behind all of this. I never believed in the religion version and our (Narcissist king living in the sky judging our lives and gives us point if we remain obedient.) I knew it's no more than a cultural projection. And although most of my 20s I was more drawn to the SCIENCE/atheism camp, I never truly fully convinced by the rational (by "coincidence") interpretation of the universe. I was immersed in meaningless existence, and 4 years ago these skeptical questions start to flow into my head, what am I? where does this awareness come from? who the hell are these creatures anyway? How do I work? thus, I went into this quiet isolation and start to investigate my engine (the mind). And a warm spectacular long journey followed. I moved from nihilistic (why bother we all gonna die eventually) mindset to (I am God and all is fun) mindset. ــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــ I had my most influential profound experience about 14 months ago, I went on this wonderful retreat in Kyoto-Japan. I was meditating in an emotional state, and I kept repeating the phrase (I am Word) mentally for like 50 minutes or so. Suddenly I felt this overwhelming energy of warmth and peace flowing through my awareness! I felt as if "I" was in front of my face, as if "I" was suspended in the air in front of my body, It was weird pleasant altered state of consciousness, AWE feeling beyond all words. All these physical bodily sensations set me free! I opened my eyes and everything seem different, more vivid, and peaceful in unfamiliar way. I felt like this is my REAL state, I belong to that... and this majestic sense remain with me for few days after, I was experiencing the world in a complete different way. It's as if I've been seeing reality in black and white and suddenly colors appeared. And although it was a short experience, I still feel this glorious "bigger than life" feeling every time I recall it. I have experienced whole new awareness/perception of reality many times before but nothing like this. And I've been longing to this same experience ever since.. I think maybe because deep down I'm focusing on a specific result, I can't reach it I know many of you have these profound experiences a lot, and I really need some insights here.. Since I have reached this expanded "beyond words" state of consciousness, why did I lose that feeling of belonging, clarity and deep peacefulness? I don't know how to put it, but it feels like I reached that energy state and then I have regressed to a less developed state. If someone can share similar experiences I would appreciate it.. Have a safe day!