Ima Freeman

@Sugarcoat Someone in a healthy state of consciousness cannot get suicidal, except people trying to do something like Mahasamadhi or radical people like jihadist who are sure to enter into a glorious afterlife. If you get suicidal thoughts, you either have some persistent physical ailment (heavy metals, chronic infections, hormonal imbalances ..) or psychological stress (bullying, poverty, loneliness, nihilism, ...) that you deem to be extremely hard to overcome or don't even see a way to overcome. If you have a healthy body and your needs are sufficiently met, you have radiant wellbeing in your body and happy emotions leading to constructive thoughts. There is no way for suicidal thoughts. Only when you experience persistent suffering and have little to no hope for relsolve than suicidal thoughts creep in as a self destruction mechanism, because the human system is geared towards wellbeing.

Oh, yeah, I was thinking about that too. Deep sleep = nothingness It is not an assumption, because I can witness newness right now. It is amazing, but terrifying too and not fully accepted by the world, far from it

True, there is no future I just have a hard time grasping the implications of infinity

It makes sense to go into nothingness. But then again, here in the eternal moment, right now, there is something going on and it comes out of nothing I will go Chances are high that something new will spring forth

It's not a question of a external world, rather than an exercise in openmindedness. My question has to do with what Mind will be imagining next. Maybe I'm just tired of my life and want to experience more, more than my human experience holds.

For real, what will come after this human being I can not know. But drawing from all possibilities of consciousness, and I don't know them entirely either, isn't it naive to anthropomorphize life?

Just to clarify: I never had an breakthrough with 5-MeO-DMT. Nor to I feel stable enough.

Just wanted to ponder this thought here. It is nothing more than a thought, since I do not know what will come after

If everything that was experienced in this human life was just a infinitesimal spec of the infinite possibilities that are contained in the absolute, shouldn't my endeavor be to explore unfamiliar alien dimensions, so to really know life? Why should the experience after this human one be another human one. It could be something totally different, with different natural laws, different dimensions, not imaginable right now.

Hello forum I need some advice on my chronic illness problem concerning heavy metals (again) For reference I link two older posts I made: 1. The Cutler Protocol failed to cure my problems after 80+ rounds and had heavy side effects 2. Out of desperation I took cilantro juice + binders for two months, then switched back to the Cutler Protocol and had a health downfall after that Half a year after my incident with cilantro juice, as seen in the second topic, my health restabilized again. It was possible to make some progress in my life and things went better again. Still I had problems with reoccurring fatigue, attention deficit, being intellectually on the slow side and being overly-neurotic. After working on my gut health, my liver health and doing some parasite cleansing, I decided to restart my endeavor of chelating heavy metals again. Because the Cutler Protocol with DMPS and ALA was way too high in side effects and did not bring much gain and cilantro brought me half a year of severe health problems I was on the lookout for a new approach and researched deeper. I found this chelator called NBMI otherwise known as OSR-1 or Irminix. As I read reports of people using it in a frequent low dose way, as developed by Andrew Cutler, and having little side effects with it, i choose to give it a try. First round with 15mg went quite well. Side effects where less dominant then with ALA or DMPS. Sporadically, they included headaches, being emotionally volatile, being neurotic, having slight anxiety in the evening and hearing a hissing noise. Some rounds there where little to no acute side effects, which surprised me. I was very happy to see that after years I found a method, that I managed to live a functional life besides. My general mental health was declining though, as always when I do chelation. I saw that the side effects had some impact on my life, but this impact was still small. After six rounds, everything seemed to go hunky-dory. But the next three rounds had increased side effects that came after them. After the last and 10th one I was impacted heavily. I was forgetful, confused, very undecided and felt weak. As a side note, the downfall started after being bitten by some ticks, but a test for a lyme's infection was negative. Normally after Cutler Rounds, side effects would slowly subside after 1-3 weeks for me. But this time, they even worsened. I am more cognitively impaired, it is harder for me to organize my life. The worst is, that a month ago I even got suicidal thoughts. My mind furthers the idea of ending this life, organizing how and when to do it and what steps to go until the final day. I have problems now with being mentally even slower than before, having intrusive thoughts, having difficulties with getting out of bed, feeling suicidal and tired of life. Looking back, I felt amazingly good after removing my amalgams and taking antioxidants and minerals. Compared to this short time span after removal, starting with chelation five years ago, my state got worse, I lost creativity, energy, happiness and cognitive function. There are still things I know of that could be the culprit: - Some chronic infections, I did not test for which block the ability to excrete heavy metals - Some other detox blockage - Some immune defect, maybe metal allergy or something else - Some other factor I am unaware of I know, this is kind of a rant, but given this information, maybe someone can give me valuable information. I would be very very thankful.

I was bitten by around nine ticks in 2022 and had a health breakdown afterwards including a slight fever and shivering which was so intense that I went to the hospital. I became slightly sick a couple of times afterwards and my general problems with emotional instability, ADHD and digestive health became worse. At the same time, I did heavy metal detoxing too, which went fine until then. First I attributed the decline in health to that. Only some time later I became conscious about the possible connection between the ticks and my decline in health. Couple months later I did a blood test for the most common chronic conditions including lyme, but it came back negative. A similar thing happened this year. Got bitten by couple of ticks. My health declined afterwards again. Went to a doctor for a lyme test. Came back negative. My rant maybe of no value. But here some recommendations: Don't go though high grass or woods, especially if you see wildlife around. Check your whole body at least every night before bed, this includes getting two mirror to look at every bit of your body Use some repellent, but please no toxic chemicals that damage your body Get one of those: https://www.amazon.co.uk/geo-versand-Tick-Tweezers-Removal-Geocaching/dp/B07F3DQQMC

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So, that means, on very high states of consciousness, everyday conversations feel like talking to yourself?

If there is only one self, why am I surprised with the action of other people. If the one self is creating everything, including all beings, why is there confusion about the motives of these beings? I can go to some person and ask them a question, but why am I unsure about the answer, If I am supposedly creating that exact answer. Isn't it, that with absolute solipsism everything must be totally predictable. Why are the self's own creations unpredictable to the self?

@Human Mint This is conflict