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What's true is what's happening. Leo cannot tell us what to believe. A belief is just a thought repeated over and over and over till it has been accepted by your mind and now you believe it to be true. That's all a belief is. All beliefs are false, but they can be true for you. Thoughts just come and go. Leo cannot tell us what to think because he doesn't even know what his next thought will be and neither do you. Thoughts follow a certain pattern and depending on the frequency you're vibrating on, will depend on the trajectory of your thought patterns. He can only guide us towards a certain direction, and it is up to us to adhere if it resonates. The most he can do is guide us on HOW to think, which he already has a video on.

We don't see the world as it is. We see the world how we are. Like the famous saying "If you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change".

You are an Infinite being in a finite body. Your true nature is. You are not the body/mind. I can't believe you're not aware of this. This is old news. Can I ask you then, what are you?

I learnt a few hours ago that my mother passed away. She's across town in Florida and I'm in NJ. I haven't seen her since before covid and I'm having a hard time dealing with her passing. I have seen the video about "What is Death" by Leo, but I can't seem to apply it at the moment. My mom was my rock. I used to say she was my role model because I never seen her do any wrong except for minor things she would get on my nerves about. Right now I'm all alone sitting in my room just staring out the window saying to myself is this for real. I can't process this. I have no children and my siblings are all scattered. Its 4 of us and one in Canada one in West Virginia and my brother just called me as I'm writing this post and I had to break the news to him over the phone. He started bawling and I had to tell him to process the news and call me back. He's not too far from me so that's good, we can comfort each other. I felt like I needed some conscious advice on how to process this as I never had to deal with death this close before. All I'm saying to my self is I regret not seeing her before she left me and I'm having trouble dealing with the fact that I won't see her alive again. I guess its normal to mourn a loved one that passes but I'm not mourning because I think she's dead but that I can't see her right now. In my mind she's still alive but deep down I know she's not. I need to be able to process this the right way for myself and for her. I just learnt about 2hrs ago so its still fresh. I go in spurts without crying then I start again because I will never see her again. I never thought I would see this day come so soon even though I knew it would someday, just not this soon. Her death wasn't tragic or anything, just sudden. She went to the hospital and within hrs she was gone. I will leave this post up and check on the responses for the rest of the evening, but as of tomorrow, I will take a break from the forum for as long as I need to. I won't put a time on it because I'm not sure. I know its not healthy to stop doing normal things as I will just get into a state of I don't know what, so I will try in a few days to be normal again but for now I know I will need this time to myself and my family. Any advice on how to process this in a healthy way will surely be received and greatly appreciated. Thank you all so much, you guys are a wonderful bunch and I won't make any comments only if I'm asked a question that I can or feel like answering but I will be reading them to help me get through this time. Thanking all of you in advance for the suggestions and, like I said, this is my last post or comment for a bit but I will see the comments made. Have a nice evening and I will be ok, I know I just need time. I love you all.

You're still growing up, so its not too late ?

Pretty much that nothing exists without someone observing it. It is a wave particle prior. So consciousness observes it, then it becomes visible until it stops observing it. I believe science has proven this.

Well, if the 'observer effect' is true, doesn't that make everything conscious? I'm assuming you're aware of what the "observer effect" is.

Figure out the WHY. Why do you want what you want. You will never be totally satisfied with anything finite because you are an Infinite Being. Nothing finite will ever bring lasting satisfaction to you. There will always be something more to strive for. Coming from a place of already knowing you are everything can make the experience more enjoyable and then, if you're not seeking a satisfactory state, the feeling will be more sustainable. You are coming from a place of unworthiness.

The tree is probably saying it would rather be human than a tree. The grass is always greener on the other side. ?

You're welcome. Everytime you're experiencing mental suffering, just keep asking yourself that question, "what am I doing now" not thinking. Keep doing it over and over and over. The mental chitter chatter will dissolve more and more and keep you more in the present moment. Life is forever changing, even your present condition. Terminal illnesses are not final. Anything can happen if you stay positive, but most importantly, if you're not in any immediate threat, (like a bear chasing you etc) you're fine. When the thoughts come change them to another thought that is more pleasing to you. It takes practice but it will change your state of being, but you have to be persistent. You are loved. Bye for now.

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Ask yourself, "what am I doing at this moment". Not 'what am I thinking'. You are on this forum reading or typing. There's no threat here and now. You are ok, now. Whatever pain you're feeling isn't happening now, unless its physical pain, which you can do something about.

You don't want to die, you want to live, but just don't know how. F Oh, because you mentioned that. Why do you want to die then?

Oh, because you mentioned that. Why do you want to die then?

You want to die because you ate some bread and your digestive system is not working properly. Is that the reason?

No, different things make different people happy, but happiness basically means the same for everyone, different levels of happiness, maybe, but happiness is happiness.

But isn't the reason you know what happiness, joy, ecstacy feels like is because you know what sadness, etc feels like. Aren't we able to differentiate the feelings because we've experienced the opposite. If I'm feeling sadness, I know I am because my memory recalls the feeling of happiness. I don't say this to myself when I'm having those respective feelings, it just happens. So aren't we using memory there, subconsciously. When something makes you angry you're extracting that from a past memory and comparing it to the current experience and that is why the emotion gets re-lived. For instance, if I'm in a relationship with someone and they do or say something to me that feels hurtful, isn't it because I've experienced a hurtful thing before that reminds me of what they said, so the memory of that caused the body to re-live that experience without realizing consciously that that's what happening. Different words mean different things to different people, how they interpret it, that is. Someone can say "I hate you" to someone and it doesn't affect them, while someone else may be affected by the same words. Isn't it because of a previous experience they had why it affected them negatively. When I say all this I mean subconsciously, not aware that this is happening. Explain.

Few drops Lavender essential oil on pillow helps to sleep sounder and longer. Also soaking feet in Epsom salt before bed. Put some sleep music on that best suits you. Plenty on YT. 432htz.

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@Someone hereYou are Consciousness. Yes, you were never born and will never die, but you as consciousness dreamt itself as the elements, then rocks, then trees, then animals, now you're dreaming yourself to be human, all different levels of consciousness. A rock now is still being dreamt by you. It is conscious but at a lower state. Creation is finished. You are the only thing in existence but right now you are only conscious of what you are presently being.

You were a rock before you became a human. Also Fire, Water, Air, a weed, a plant, a tree, an animal. Next you'll be an Alien...lol.

I will cherish our memories.

Thank you all for the condolences. They are greatly appreciated. Thank you @Lila9 I will look into that book and @Raze, that middle video with John Gray was very helpful and I love his work and am familiar with him. I understand it will take some time for me to accept this part of Reality, and I have come to the realization that the only process I need is what is naturally occurring for me and i've recognized that she never went anywhere but is still here with me. Early this morning, she whispered in my ear "I'm still here". I heard it very clearly as I was beginning to awaken from my sleep, and even though it was a whisper, I heard it very clearly. No doubt. The only regret I have, which is very hard but its diminishing slowly, is that I never got to hold and kiss her before she passed, but I will let that take it's course. The dream I had last night about her was a beautiful one and I saw the beautiful waves of the ocean and all I could see through my closed eyes were waves and things blowing in the wind softly with a white background as if she was revealing herself to me. I was awake but my eyes were closed and I knew I was seeing the unseen. It was beautiful and words can't explain. The words "I am here" was all I needed and now I know she's still here with me and I feel even closer to her now, which helps. Thanks again for all the wishes and I will be easy on myself through this time. I see the importance of having direct experiences because nothing compares to that, and all the talking and knowledge that you have acquired in this journey doesn't come close to having the experience yourself. Thank you all. Bye for now.

@Leo Gura could you briefly explain this part of your latest blog post. Quote "God is not some kind of special object. God is the SUM TOTAL of all final objects. The sum total of all finite objects is not the same kind of thing as any one of those final objects". The SUM TOTAL part is what got me confused. Isn't saying sum total the same as saying something is finite. If you put a bunch of birds in a box, isn't the box an object, which in turn be classified as a finite object? Saying that God is the sum total of all finite objects, to me, is saying that God is limited to a totality which is quantifiable and is limited to only what is held within it including it being what the objects are held within. Not sure if I'm saying this correctly, but what I'm asking is, for something to be a "sum total" doesn't that thing require for it to be measurable. Please explain.