Princess Arabia

Tell me how many of us go work on these things when boredom hits. That's what society is for, go distract yourself, or call someone to do it for you. That's what we do. The entertainment playground. Yippee. No self-reflection here. Let's find something to do. That's why the lock down woke so many up. But you're right, though, God invented distractions to distract itself from itself. So if doesn't find itself just to find itself. Silly God. God you so silly. Oh wait, that's me.

I don't think it was, don't have sex, but more don't enjoy it. If you did, that wasn't considered ladylike or you're a slut or something silly like that. Imagine a society telling women to don't have sex and they comply, then men wouldn't have anybody to call whores and sluts. Hehe

Nah, anybody can do it though. Just try to find yourself. It's still a thought. I'm thinking this to myself. There's still a me trying to find myself, and it only happens when I deliberately try to do it. It's kinda hard to describe, but I'll try. It feels like there's no point of reference. When I look at something, like an object, or anything for that matter, it seems to be coming from within my eyes and it's not really out there. My eyes kinda look like a mirror when I'm looking from within them, through them. Nothing special about that. It's like it's always been that way, just never noticed before. Nothing hard to do, just sit there, or stand, and try to look out your eyes from within. Sometimes it even seems like there are no eyes, only what's out there and sometimes like there's no out there only what's coming from the eyes. It's weird, but I can only see it when It's deliberately done, which is pretty often, because I got so used to doing it, but it comes automatically after sleeping and when I first open them. Like I came from somewhere and now I'm back. I'm sure anybody can do it too if they concentrate on the eyes when they're open. As far as trying to find myself, that is just all the time. The "sensation" of that, though, is mostly up top, from the neck up. I say sensation, not that I feel anything, quite the contrary, but I can't find another word to use. But apart from all I described, I still feel normal like before just aware of these things that I never noticed before. Years ago, tho, I used to ask myself, what is this thing that keeps following me around that I can't pinpoint. I remember asking myself that a few times. I would also look at a person and said to myself, I wonder what it would be like to be in their body and sometimes it felt like I was in their body. I dunno, just seems like anybody can do this. My mind just gets into different states but I don't dig too deep because I notice I start to get scared if I do, so I quickly snap out of it especially with the eye part. Not scared scared but a weird feeling.

Scary looking eyeballs. Nice quote, though.

Yeah, it's kinda weird. Even my memories are seeming fake. Like they never happened. Today I went to the store and when I got back, it felt like I never left. I was back on my couch and said to myself, I felt like I never went anywhere. Weird shit. Even when I wake up in the morning and as soon as I open my eyes, things look funny like I im looking at a mirror with pictures in it. And then my eyes get adjusted.

Ever sit down and try to find yourself? I can't find it. Lol. I'm like, where am I. Anywhere I point to it's not me. No, I'm not trippin'.

Ever seen the movie The Three Faces of Eve. She had multiple personalities. Good movie. Kinda old though. I'll try to be a little more patient and lenient with you, then, as I see it's not your fault, and only when you're responding to me, cause it's not my business how you respond to others.

Love these. I use the meat to make coconut milk sometimes and use it to make curry chicken or in smoothies. Just add water and blend. Delish!

Yeah, I saw it. I thought it was kinda weird. I couldn't really get into it, though. I saw all the buzz and I rented it off YT. I wanted to watch it again. Maybe it'll hit different second time around. I know the story line is about jumping in and out of Realities but it was a bit too fast for me to grasp, as I'm kinda slow when it comes to watching movies. Lol. I like the Lifetime movies where they're easy to understand, but ill watch it again.

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Idk if shrooms count since every experience on them would probably be mystical and hallucinatory. I heard death dreams usually mean birth and vice versa, but there are no rules regarding dreams anyway so who knows. Just don't dream your own death, even though it's imaginary anyway.

@Hojowere currently doing this now by going into different Realities without knowing it. We're constantly going in and out of different Realities, so your dream was, I guess, symbolic of this. Amazing how many clues we experience without even realizing how they fit within the puzzle.

Throw out all memories of her. Energetically make space for a new partner to come in. Don't think positive or negative things about her but understanding it was just an experience. The next partner you have, and if you were to ever break up, you will say the same thing that she wasn't your ideal partner, so that's irrelevant for you to even think about. There's no such thing as an ideal partner, they are just there whatever that feels like for you at the moment and every moment from there until you either die or break up. I like what @Noahsteelers34had to say. Sound advice from him. Most importantly don't hold any grudges about her because you will take them as truths going forward which will influence your future decision-making in this area. If anything, take them as lessons and view them neutrally and without attaching her face to them, just general relationship or life lessons. I really do think you will find someone soon that will enhance your life experience. Keep going but don't look too hard. Make it more energetic and more mental (visualizing) while taking inspired action when it feels right to you to do so.

You have multiple personalities. After reading your response, I looked at who wrote it and my eyes popped open when I saw your name. This is clearly a different side of you than the usual ranting and complaining and constant negativity. I see this a lot on here too but not as obvious as with you. Interesting.

Wasn't sure❤️

Are you speaking of the original post?

They were meant to be funny.

Now ya talkin'

First of all, how old are you. This can determine what type of advice you need.

I also think she's beautiful.

The mind will find a problem in anything if you let it. It likes to "solve problems" so it's never content with what is. It's trained that way. It will take something already perfect, tear it to pieces just to bring it back together again, to Infinity. The problem is, we all have ideas, perceptions, perspectives, different beliefs and self-concepts and assumptions about ourselves and the world and we go about life projecting those unto the world. If we are able to drop those things, every single one of them, then just going about our lives, bicycling, hiking, running, going to different places and experiencing life as it is without holding our ideas about life as the truth, we would enjoy life better and be more at peace and we wouldn't need self-help. The only self-help we would need then would be to sit in silence and listen to God speak and follow our hearts. Everything else would just be for entertainment and gaining knowledge for knowledge's sake and guidance on how to do the things we would like to accomplish while we're here experiencing ourselves as a human beings with no judgements or attachments.

BINGO. How much did you win. ?. Yeah I'm starting to recognize this....what you're saying. We hold so many ideas about Reality that we begin to loose its essence. In my early teens, I literally thought there was a man in the sky and a devil in the ground. Then I said to myself, wait a minute, if the Earth is round, how is that possible. That's when the deconstruction began. Between the Adam and Eve story, the 10 commandments, the Saturday or Sunday Church, the creating the world in 7days or 6 and rested on the 7th, the Noah's Arc story. It all didn't make sense to me, the way they taught it anyway. Now I see how the Bible is allegorical, metaphorical and is subject to interpretation. All these Religious books are. Now, it's a different kind of deconstructing. Not only from the Church's programming but now from Society's. It just seem like it never ends. That's why it's called Infinity, I guess. Even though the conscious mind can't even grasp what that means, only imagine it. The heart knows, though.

Frustrating isn't it, and you give quality advice too.

I see what you're saying and I agree.