JayT79

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    I would advise to stay at your place while taking it. If you end up taking too much, you'll probably get a full on body buzz which won't allow you to function in public setting. That's my advice to you.

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    4 hours ago, Jowblob said:

    Reading the part where you describe that everything is you and being happy about it like a kid, my first thought was 'oh boy, at that level it can drastically change its turn for the bad' don't be that happy about it.

    And i was right, you got in some form of bad trip. In that level of consciousness you have to watch your mind, but the problem is that no action or no doing feels like death.

    The story that you wrote feels like i wrote it myself for myself, thus creating a reality for myself.

    The thing about things being orchestrated is you doing it to yourself because there are no others, the main reasons for this is 1. You want to experience something rather then nothing and 2. You're in your own mind as God and you don't understand yourself forever, it's like you being stuck in nothingness forever and because of this nothingness wants to experience something  but the thing that god doesnt understand  how this nothingness gained awareness. All life will always lead to this question.

    When you say that God doesn't understand how nothingness gained awareness and life will always lead to this question. Is God in turmoil for forevermore about this but happy at the same time of beingness?

  3. Posted · Edited by JayT79

    18 hours ago, Princess Arabia said:

    Men kill themselves over lack of pussy.

    This maybe true but do you have data for this? I mean I have a lack of experience with women and not had a lot of sexual experience with women but the idea of killing oneself is a bit of stretch. I couldn't fathom myself killing myself because I wasn't getting pussy from women. Maybe my intellectual knowledge of spirituality from this forum and psychedelic experience and practicing stay in the moment has prevented me leading to suicide.

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    The only experience I had is at age of 5, my mother told me about the Christian Religion and how we were created by God and we're going to have to face judgment. After our conversation in the car, I started to look at my hands intensely in awe how was it possible I could be here. It was almost to the point where I almost scared myself to death in deep thought. Then I said to myself, "I'm all alone".

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    Attractive people have trouble on tinder as well, when it comes to physical looks that is. I have a relative who is not as good looking as me physically wise but he gets more matches than I do. I think it's because women view good looking guys who've ran through a bunch of women and gives the not so looking guys a chance.

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    10 hours ago, Javfly33 said:

    The 'zen' peaceful states of mind that I would reach in meditation in the past were really nice and good.

    But, honestly, it's fucking child candy compared to the states I´m reaching almost every fucking day, even it is for just some seconds, It just puts the demon in me, and I can not forget how fucking good feels the 'Love', if I can call it like that, its like pure Ecstasy of the Now, of the absolute destruction of any kind of feeling of 'time', I can't explain how that feels, its like a diamond of bliss and light running through your fingers, and its so slippery, you get it , then you lose it.

    I dont want anything else in life but this... I need this, every second. Anything that is not this ecstatic blissful awareness of Love (no-time), I can enjoy it, but in the back of my mind I know it's crap, compared to this. 

    It's all just a seeking to the highest state of Love and Truth. Fuck understanding, you guys can have it all. I know you guys would sell any kind of understand in exchange for this 'thing'. 

    And yet...is right fucking here. The irony...

    What type of meditation are you doing to get these results?

  8. Posted · Edited by JayT79

    Those guys are exhibiting low self-esteem traits. A man with high self-esteem wouldn't dare to bring another man down. If that was me, I would've said, "Okay Mr. Low Self-Esteem, you look dumb as fvck bringing down another person down like that, sucks to be you" My words usually sting people. But yeah, you need to defend yourself next time.

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    My very first spiritual insight is when my mother told me the traditional gospel about God being our creator and judge, and that we're accountable for our lives and Jesus was our Saviour to save us from our sins. After the small talk conversation about the topic...I immediately looked at my hands (age 4 or 5) was an amazement that I had exist and I begin to get scared (my ego) of knowing this truth and then I said to myself "I'm alone" as in my awareness.

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    I had recently took a drop of cbd & thc underneath my tongue. Man, I had a realization that we are made of nothing, like nothing. It kinda startled me. In the process of seeing it visually painted in my mind, I had to tell my mind.."wait a minute, rewind that back again" then that's when it was clear, my mouth dropped open. Couldn't believe it. I've could've realized more truth but my ego wouldn't allow it, I fought it off.

  13. Posted · Edited by JayT79

    Don't mean to hijack your thread but a couple of weeks ago I had a dream realization that the whole universe disappeared and I was the only one left (I guess this is my first God realization without direct experience through meditation or psychedelics). I was absolutely terrified and snapped out of the dream..it was too much handle.

  17. Posted · Edited by JayT79

    I took 3 mdma pills in a short amount of time as well just like you did and I had a full blown hallucination trip. Parts of the trip I wasn't sure if I had an out of body experience or if I was temporarily dead on certain parts of the trip. Taking too many pills in a short amount of time is irresponsible and not respecting the substance itself. I know better now.

     

     

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    On 8/6/2021 at 6:09 AM, integral said:

    Trying to help a 13 year old navigate her living situation with her rapist, who has now been revealed to be a full narcissist. The situation is he comes home from work tired/stressed and takes it out on the family. She is the center of his focus, yelling/screaming in her face with insane demands and expectations (call me master and thank me when ever I speak, your coming to work with me 8 hours everyday and your going to do my job for me). She is emotionally destroyed by this in every way. 

    I am working to get her father involved to save her, but its going to take sometime. So I've been teacher her how to communicate with the narcissist in the best way possible to minimize conflict and emotional pain as well as to help her communicate with her father about all this, that she is refusing to do.  

    These are a few things she is slowly learning how to do, please give advice if you guys have any thanks! 

    • To re-contextualize him as a child having a temper tantrum and to not take it personally. If a 4 year old is screaming, its not personal, but when a adult does it, it hurts, just a game of context! Hes a child in a adults body, don't be fooled. 
    • To be aware of and avoid adding fuel to the fire while communicating with him. Always address everything calmly no matter how you feel. 
    • Focus on thinking about what to say instead of reacting to what was said. 
    • Stoicism. He feeds off of any little change in her tone of voice and takes it personally.
    • To take a bigger picture of the situation while the situation is happening in real time. 
    • Make him know that you understand how he feels, said calmly. 
    • Its not about winning or being right, its about defusing the situation and waiting for the fire to burn out, its a temporarily outburst. 

    Did you call the police? What's the update? I've experienced with a Narcissist (my father), the 13 yr old needs to be away from the abuser ASAP!

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    9 hours ago, StarStruck said:

    Survival is important to exist but also important for spirituality. If you don't have a body you can't do spirituality. 

    The body is really your temple but also your dojo. 

    If you can't beat up a motherfucker you are missing that vital energy that males should have to get shit done. 

    When talking to dudes who have this energy you can just sense it. Me as a male can sense it. Girls can sense it too. That is why nice guys don't do well with anything and especially not with girls. The girl knows if he is weak with me he is also weak in other high pressure situations. 

     

    I agree that in probably most cases you can sense a guy that has the aggressiveness and willpower to defend himself to protect his gf/wife, but in other cases you can't tell. Sometimes it can come by surprise. 

     

  22. Posted · Edited by JayT79

    I'm curious to know if anyone has been in stuck in a period of their life where they're no longer interested in dreaming at all. Well I've come to that point of my life, after constantly self-meditated on thoughts about non-duality and that we are God in a finite form on a weekly basis, even though I don't have much inner direct experience work to working towards self-realization or have a bit of awakening in which I want to do eventually. I don't know for someone reason I'm just not looking forward to going to sleep and dream a dream knowing its all an illusion with in the moment direct experience. 

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    I have a serious issue with being in my head a lot and self negative talk that keeps my anxiety at medium high. I want to be at a stage when I can be calm majority of my life and enjoy life like everyone else is doing (or seems to be doing). The calmness I'm referring to is similar to a mdma high when the mind quiets down and everything is peaceful while being in the present moment. 

    I also feel like my body needs to release trauma that's been in my body since the trauma effected my body when the trauma  (abused by my narcissistic father) happened as a young child ( at Age 6). When I say release trauma, I mean a physically sensation that I could feel and release and no longer have the trauma there. Is this something I can do on my own or would I need a specialist to help me achieve this?

    Thanks in advanced for suggestion and advice.

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    On 6/18/2020 at 9:31 PM, WaveInTheOcean said:

    Beautiful. You are always ready to progress towards discovering what is ultimately true -- i.e. to progress towards liberation/awakening. Don't worry about that. It will happen at its own pace no matter what 'you' do.

    Yes, the key to negative emotions is to not resist them. Observe them, let them be. Don't control. Even let yourself fully go and just immerse yourself in the raw qualia-feeling of the so-called "negative" emotion itself. What happens when you fully let go of control and have absolutely no desire to change anything about the present moment / the Now ?? What happens is that you stop unconsciously, emotionally seeing it/labelling it as "negative" or "positive": it just becomes part of the present moment. And then it actually becomes beautiful. All emotions are beautiful in their own right. Absolutely beautiful. Absolute love.

    <3

    Yes, everyone are somewhat traumatized by their childhood. But you can often become conscious of this and remedy it, if you are willing to put it in the work.
    I was talking about extreme neglect/extreme lack of love. This is not the norm, although there are still way too many who have been exposed to this.

    Yes, fear is a reaction towards something you perceive as a threat to yourself. It is relatively speaking the opposite of love, yes. Absolutely speaking it is Love though, just as everything is. Nothing is not Love.

    What I was doing in this post was to go full-circle to show that, yes, fear is a reaction towards something you perceive as a threat to yourself,... --> so that if 'yourself' got damaged too much/died, then you wouldn't be able to participate in the sharing of Love with all other beings...<-- this is what you actually fear. Of course the Cosmos is designed in such a way that everyone -- sooner or later -- gets to bathe in the <Oneness of Love>.

    Cos Everyone = God <3

    @WaveInTheOcean So if someone who is traumatized by their childhood and well into their adulthood. What psychedelics would you recommend to start this repair/growth transition.