Holly Ann

Thanks for all the replies, but this forum seems to keep too much track of things...visits and all that, it's just not my thing, don't care to have all that recorded, but thanks just the same for the advice and kindness

@Elisabeth i really don't know how to use this forum... my appraoch has been alcohol, weed, and molly... no good, but i quit everything, for a year, now back again, same old shit... i am stopping it all again now...i did have meditation practice but stopped, i will never get anywhere if i don't try harder

@Elisabeth thanks, i have been away from the relationship, all relationships, for 13 years now... enough is enough, cannot keep carrying the pain

is there a psychedelic i can take that will help me realize the past is not real, get it out of my memory and body... i am frozen, can't seem to realize it's a teaching that happened for me, not to me...14 years much physical violence and psychological abuse at the hands of my partner, dark night of the soul