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@Leo Gura thanks for the reply. Existential fear perhaps. I felt like I was fine

@UDT Haha.. maybe, I don't know.

@Nahm Haha shoot.. you hit me with a truth bullet I guess I don't. ?‍♂️ Well being is prior to knowing. Which is consciousness. "Knowing" through the intellect just seems to all be created by consciousness. So god is completely aware of himself because god is awareness itself

@Nahm hmm.. well I'd say "the knower," because "the knower" would be a created identity.

@Nahm Itself. Exploring itself. Learning about itself.

@Nahm I think so. And yes.

This is my first time taking mushrooms. This started off as something I wanted to do just for the experience and maybe gain small insight. See visuals, meditate, contemplate, smaller stuff. Instead, my whole reality broke apart. General release So, first thing's first. I take them and about a half hour later there are small visual distortions. It looked like objects were breathing and I felt more in touch with reality. The first thing that I do is cry. because I hated myself. I hated myself because it felt like I would never do things right, I was always wrong. That's how my mom made me feel. I let that out, it felt like a lot of my egoic boundaries broke down. I was no longer resisting crying. I now realize how powerful the mushroom is for healing and breaking down egoic boundaries. God realization. Wow! this truly was amazing. At one point, I was lying on the ground. All of my anxiety and fear went away and I felt myself break away. The energy was going toward the third eye chakra and the crown chakra. i remember hearing the ringing similar to what DMT produces when you take it. I was not fearful at all. I just kept letting go, I felt so ready to let go. So I did, and it felt like I fully broke through. My fucking god, the ultimate cosmic joke! I am the whole damn thing! You guys were right, this is completely beyond knowledge and myself. Realities spanning to infinity + Realization of infinity. When mirrors are set up to look at each other, and it produces the effect that you can see mirror after mirror after mirror. That's essentially what infinity is, except when we look into it normally we cannot see infinity because we are conceptualizing it with our mind. I remember imagining a similar effect that I produced when I created that imagery, except I dropped the conceptualization and I saw infinity for what it truly is. Never ending. Also, at some point I completely lost my sense of self and it seemed to produce effects similar to what you'd experience on a high-dose experience. It's like the psychedelic art that you see online. I remember, me being in the center seeing reality after reality after reality being created by consciousness. This is completely beyond words and I was speechless. I remember I kept muttering to myself "utterly remarkable" just at the sheer magnitude and beauty I experienced. No-self Nearing the end of the trip, I was in a state where my self-concept completely obliterated. I didn't exist anymore. I was listening to music and the music sounded completely different without myself. It felt more pure and crisp. No way other to describe this other than it felt like I was blank inside. Will / Getting what you want in life. There's literally no way you CAN'T get what you want in life. Reality is the ultimate giver, and all you really have to do is ask for it, and it will come. This realization came to me because I was struggling with my will and limiting beliefs. This is because god has infinite will and creates anything he fucking wants! out of sheer nothing! people are so scared that somehow things can fail, that they're not good enough, etc. But the TRUTH is, anything you want will come your way. All you gotta do is ask, and sacrifice yourself to your goal. The problem is, is that we generally have unconscious desires that keep manifesting themselves. So we're using this principle, just unconsciously. My expression of life force/consciousness From what I took and understand now, we are all individual expressions of consciousness. Like, yes we are all one, but god creates individual expressions that authentically exhibit different traits and characteristics authentically. I learned that I am a creator. It was so crystal clear to me on the trip, and even now that I'm making this decision in my life. I mean, a creator in art. My soul is definitely a light worker. There's literally no fucking doubt about it. I realized that my only care is for the mission I have for my life right now. Which is: help many many people and be a source of light. I feel like I've known this for a while, I kept questioning myself though. Now is the time to embrace it. Existential fear When "I" started to come back, I felt very fearful. I wanted to come back to myself because of fear. I kept having thoughts like "If I die, then I'm going to lose my goals!" "If I die, I'm going to be so authentic that everybody is going to find out that I had this experience!" That's all folks! I may revision if anything else I may have forgotten comes up.

@seeking_brilliance Haha yeah I knew that but I'm not sure what reality is like w/o that assumption yet. Your answer makes sense.

My thought is that since everything is infinite, then he cannot because when "he has explored all there is to explore" theres still an infinite amount to explore... although with infinite time to explore, he'll be able to. So I agree with yes and no like the above

Agreed. Some real gold here.

Both are important, imo

@Inliytened1 Yeah haha.. I couldn't believe it, and yet it's way beyond belief. @Nahm Thanks!

@Leo Gura Hmm, okay. You are right that I need to look for myself. Well, I'll ask more questions after some experience. Maybe share some experience if I can. If it's not too beyond words lmao

Guys, this is never what I was expecting. Just want to thank @Leo Gura and others on this forum. You guys are amazing. Anyways, I just wanted to share where I'm at. Like a life report for spirituality and life. instead of a trip report for psychedelics. 500ug of spirituality: I've come to some insane realizations. The other day I was doing homework and I let go of the notion that "I" was doing the homework. I realized that the homework was doing itself. Even to looking at a photo of myself, and seeing it not as "myself" but just as a photo. Like I dont exist, so none of that is me doing or that being me. I still consider myself as a newbie, but man, this work has changed my life forever. I know that for sure. Throughout my life, I never felt like I fit in. I always felt so anxious, and my life was going in the wrong direction. I used to hate myself a lot. I still do but less now. I felt like my life was bound to suck because everything in my life sucked, I never saw a way out. Some part of me cant even believe how far I've come and how much I've changed. I still am anxious and fearful, but much less. Living in love and contribution is much more rewarding than the likewise. I'm so grateful for all of the events that have taken place, though. Somehow I'm here. Leo, your work and my awakening has helped me through so so much. I remember you saying in a video that there are things you could've decided that would've had your life go in a way different direction, and that is so true for me. I seriously cant thank you enough. Infinite gratitude ? Me being a newbie still, I still have much much work to do. I wouldnt have been able to do it without any of the support or advice.

I don't have enough information to make a claim but it is interesting for sure

@Average Investor really? Interesting. That's exciting.

Creating a Journal for Lucid dreaming/dreaming in general & Astral projection. I had been interested in this for FOREVER but I am deciding to start this now. I am going to write down the dream and the content within it. I cannot do either at the moment, but will write down the progression that I have getting there. Also, with a reflection section and a questions that I have for myself section to deepen the excitement and contemplation. Also I'm doing a bunch of shadow work, and that seems to be reflected in my dreams. I'm excited! Inspired by @seeking_brilliance and my own general motivation and inspiration. Also, feel free to leave any comments about your experience, questions, tips, etc etc.

I finally did it! I think. 2/1 - 2/2 So I was having a normal dream when I started to wake up. And I did. But then I realized I was dreaming as I woke up. So as I became conscious I let my body fall back asleep and i kept dreaming. Firstly, I was working in some sort of big business. Idk what I was doing but my legs were jacked up. Then I realized that I was dreaming. I realized that I was waking up so I spun in circles to remain in the dream, and it worked. Then I was able to manipulate the dream as I wanted to. I removed all people and went to different places in my memory. I also visualized myself with other people. Also, I tried flying which was pretty cool to experience. While all of this was going on, I was still aware of my body and my thoughts. I would fade back into consciousness (my body) for small increments and start thinking, but then I'd relax myself to go back into the dream. I didnt have much lucidity.

So I've been clearing my body for some time now. I have a pretty rough past. Anyways, it feels to be going slowly. There are many times I feel I cant focus on school or other things because I'm so engulfed in anxiety and fear. Most of my mental energy goes toward focusing on energy centers to break down these and go in the past to heal wounds or gain higher awareness of myself. It just feels like a lot to me. Theres more to life than my emotions and this isnt all I wanna do. I actually wanna learn what school teaches and do stuff outside of focusing on my fears and anxieties and resistance all day! Am I doing something wrong?? Or is this just the norm. Theres gotta be a faster way to heal and clear this.

Thank you ?

@Cocolove Haha.. I think I'm gonna have to wait ?

I want a coconut

@Leo Gura Can't wait Leo!

@Kushu2000 ? have a good day