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It’s a dream. As what Leo has said many times, life is a dream. If it's a dream, it's an automatic illusion. No, I'm not just parroting him. I speak from direct experience. Others have no localized consciousness. Every human and animal in your life behaves similar to a living thing which has its own mind. But this is not the case. There is only one mind in existence which is yours. Another mind-boggling truth is your father and mother are made of the exact same substance or material as your cabinet and PC. No difference. Death Yes, it’s true that you are alive right now. But it's also true that you are already dead. Why? Because in the end (death), your life will be erased. All memories of your existence will also be erased. It feels similar to having never been born and alive. If you have never been born, it means you have always been dead. I'm writing this post not to devalue your life or end it. It's still important to honor the purpose of your life which is to experience, create, and admire the beauty of existence (yourself included). I'm writing this post to help you be less attached to life and embrace unavoidable death. This post is also a note to myself. I have mastered seeing and admiring the beauty of existence. But I'm still learning how to embrace death. I'm still far from mastering it.

We agree on things except what you said above. But in the end, we both need to honor what is true for us based on our experience. But I wonder why your spiritual insights are different from Leo's when you both use psychedelics. I generated my spiritual insights without using psychedelics and even without my intention. My spiritual path is very different.

Everything in existence, no matter how beautiful, fades. I'll share an experience which happened a few years ago. I was sitting in a Japanese park, marveling at the beauty of the wide-open space, grasses, trees, and skylarks. I felt deep joy and I said to myself "I've been looking for this beautiful place my entire life without even knowing it. Now I'm finally here. I will come to this place every few days to watch these beautiful things and feel this joy.". So, that was what I did. And for the first month, I was one of the happiest few humans in the world. But I was surprised that the park lost its beauty in the second month. I was very disappointed. I contemplated why that was the situation. Then I realized, the park actually did not lose its beauty. It was my senses and perception which lost their appreciation capability, hence the joy also faded. I also realized this is not avoidable. God designed it that way to motivate me to enjoy as many parks as I can. God wants me to enjoy variety of beauty. This is also true to all other things in existence. God wants you to enjoy as many works of art, foods, parks, women, etc., as you can. If you ate only sushi your entire life, you would be sick of it and become unhealthy. It's good to enjoy other foods. If you stayed at the same hotel every vacation time, you would also be sick of it. It's good to enjoy other hotels. Of course, if you flirted and fucked only one woman your entire life, you would also be sick of her and that would be a big tragedy. It's surely good to enjoy other beautiful women. Monogamy is dumb. I think polyamory is better. I haven't done much research on polyamory so I don't understand it that much. But I want to say you can have a deep, genuine relationship with more than one woman simultaneously. It functions similar to synergy. When you start to feel sick of flirting and fucking Kimberly, you take a break and you spend more time flirting and fucking Park Min-ji. When you get sick of flirting and fucking Park Min-ji, you take a break again and spend more time with Ishii Yuki or Kimberly again. That's how you generate and sustain love and excitement. And paradoxically, it nourishes romantic relationships. If monogamy is the best, why do you think cheating, domestic abuse and divorce are prevalent? It is natural for a sexual human to be simultaneously sexually attracted to more than one sexual partner. Monogamy forces naturally polygamous humans to enjoy only one partner, hence the marital tragedy. Even married couples who are not legally divorced are essentially divorced. Many of such couples are sexless or the romantic spark is long gone. They are essentially friends who chose to stay together for the kids or other reasons. But I need to clarify that this is not true for everybody. Some humans are naturally ok being monogamous (especially humans with low libido). So they should honor their monogamy. I just want to demonstrate why polygamy is superior to monogamy.

A good post. The best way is to embody all 4.

Yes, I also intuit that this is the case. Leo even made a video about this which is titled "Infinity of Gods". Every God has its own solipsistic dream. It's very interesting. But in this dream of yours, you are the solitary dreamer. Because I am honoring the purpose of my life. Helping others is a form of beauty, and I honor all forms of beauty. No, it's not a twisted interpretation. I realized that it is actually good that your level of consciousness goes back to your default state after awakening. During a very elevated state of consciousness, your experience of existence significantly changes. It is very obvious that your parents and everybody else are illusions. There are no other minds. There's nothing there. It becomes absurd to interact with them knowing and experiencing them as illusions. And it becomes very difficult to honor the purpose of your life. Now that my level of consciousness is more human again, existence becomes real. Everybody and everything are real and physical again. Intellectually, I knew that the female intern doctor is an illusion which sprouted from my mind. But experientially, she is real. So, when we flirted with each other, I felt love and enjoyment. If I had the opportunity to hold her face and admire her beauty, it would have been one of the greatest joys in my life, knowing that this beauty sprouted from my mind. Without the schizophrenic experience or awakening, things would just be normal and lack intensity.

No. Your mind imagines others' minds. I need to say it for what it is. It is surely horrifying at first. But as you bear with it and continue your spiritual journey, you will arrive at a point when it becomes beautiful and magical. "I am all which exists. The entire universe is made of the exact same substance as my body. How beautiful!" The thought above fills my heart with much love. You need to experience the solipsistic dream for yourself to remove any doubt. But even if you do, you might doubt it first because it is very different from your usual consciousness. It feels similar to insanity. But as you contemplate it more and listen to your intuition, you become surer that the "schizophrenic" experience is the truth. I just described what happened to me and why I created this thread. This dream of yours is grand in its beauty and deception. And I'm a part of this dream, an illusion pretending to be real.

Also true. And this is good news. It makes accomplishing the purpose of your life more sensible and satisfying. What are you waiting for? It's time to go outside your comfort zone and experience many things. Be brave and detemined, and create and admire as much beauty as you can. Don't waste the gift of life.

Life is a dream. It's not real or physical, and you are not inside it. Instead, life is not physical. Life or existence sprouts from your mind, exactly similar to your dreams at night.

It is an illusion. But love yourself to death, despite it being an illusion. It's all you have. There is somebody who can awaken. And it can only be you.

Leo can't afford to eat a slice of pizza but has no problem eating ice cream. ? It's senseless. Those posts surely are strange and out of character. But they don't mean they're self-destructive. But it's understandable to be concerned. Yes, a few of his recent posts on Instagram are not positive. But the childhood photographs and the cat apology are good though a bit strange.

No. He clearly said that the human you will not die if you are always completely present because the past and future can't exist hence no physical death. It's a crazy claim. But yes, also interesting.

That's a good projection right there. Assuming you are a heterosexual. Will you ask Connor Murphy to suck his dick? I read his entire post. It's obvious to me that he is unreliable. Yes, Of course. I won't be surprised if he is doing his best right now to hide that post.

It can happen. But the probability is very low, especially that his homosexual desire for Connor Murphy was only last year or 2 years ago. He probably has the same sexual orientation now. He is probably trolling you guys for attention.

If this is what you really want, then yes. You need to clarify it to the 2 guys. You don't need to be violent. Just be assertive. If it happens again, then let them taste their own medicine. Steal their milk or food. That can stop them from doing it the 3rd time. Your assumption that the 2 guys punctured the tires could be wrong. Don't accuse them of doing it. It really seems you are in a bad environment. Get out of there as soon as possible.

Yes, what you said is true. But you need to do everything in your power to be free from your sin or karma as soon as possible. If you are still in your 20s or 30s, that's very good. You have much time and energy to do it. Even if you are already in your 40s or 50s, you still need to do it. Better late than never. Generate much self-love and take care of your body and soul, every day, every week, every month, every year.

I remember you. In the past, your profile picture was a gorilla. When Connor Murphy was still active in this forum, you asked him whether he was a homosexual because you wanted to suck his dick. You're a homosexual. So, your claim of having fucked at least 6 women this year must be bullshit. I have a sharp memory, so what I just said is probably accurate. I highly doubt your other claims. You're a troll and an attention whore. You have scammed the forum members who took you seriously. Congratulations!

I understand how frustrating it is. Life is fucking difficult, not just for you, but for everybody. I hope your tinnitus will heal and you'll become a successful musician. I hope you'll find a way to rectify your money problems. I hope you'll find a way to make your life satisfying.

Go ahead! Reach your highest potential and live your best life. That's the way to go. The problem is you cornered yourself by wanting to be a financially successful musician who performs for tens of thousands of people or even millions. And if you can't accomplish that "highest life", you will murder yourself. You do care about others' validation. It's obvious. You need millions of humans to listen to your music, otherwise your life is boring and you prefer to end it. The correct mindset is: "I want to create the best music and share it with millions of humans. I hope they'll be happy when they hear my splendid music, and I'll be rewarded with millions of dollars. But I also understand that people have different preferences. They might not perceive my music the way I do. And there are other forces beyond my control which could hinder me from sharing my music with millions. But hey, I'll be happy if I can share my music with some, including my friends. I hope I'll make enough money from it to sustain myself. If not, I hope they'll at least enjoy and appreciate my music. What really matters is I am able to do what I love. I create music, and I know my music is very good." This is a healthier, less needy, and a more realistic approach. But it seems you are interested in being in the top 3 or 5 percent, which is unrealistic. It can happen, but the possibility is very low. See? You need millions of people to listen to and appreciate your music. If that can't happen then life is not worth living. You'll murder yourself instead. This mindset is foolish. You also claimed you don't need others' validation. Your self-deception is grand. @Sine Suppose he becomes a very successful musician who performs in front of tens of thousands, and is very rich. I won't be surprised, in fact, I am more inclined to believe that he will feel the same way he feels now. He will never be satisfied. If the problem is the internal wiring, the external situation doesn't matter. That's why the most important thing a human can do is to develop his internal world; heal childhood trauma and any form of dysfunction, and develop their character or soul. The external situation then slots into place or at least becomes less significant.

Are you sure about this? You might discover how to heal it next year or 2 years from now. Keep observing and researching. Go for it. If you generate much money via devilry, still go for it. Money is a very powerful, all-encompassing force. So, I understand why you'll go the evil route. But just ensure that you compensate your devilry via creating as much beauty and goodness as you can (financially support humans with tinnitus, build homes for the homeless, feed the hungry, etc.). Yes, God is an asshole this way. But remember that we all have our own shit. Leo has been tortured by his intestinal and low energy problems for many years. Don't underestimate his shit. Having low energy to materialize your principles and desires is very humiliating. I also have my own shit. After recovering financially from my last divorce, I was feeling secure and comfortable. But then I lost more or less 70,000 USD from an online investment just a few months ago. It devastated my soul. I also cursed God . I have recovered mentally-emotionally from that tragedy. But I haven't recovered financially. So, remember everybody has their own shit. Sounds good. But be careful about defining what a good life is. If you mean you need to be as rich and as famous as Justin Bieber to have a good life, then you slander the definition of a good life. And you'll probably end up murdering yourself for the wrong reasons. There is much beauty in existence. Are you sure you don't get awed when you see beautiful women, trees, flowers, dogs, landscapes, architecture, parks, etc.? Are you sure you don't get significant enjoyment when you travel around your country? Have you even tried travelling to a foreign country? It's even more splendid and magical (if you know which country to travel to). If you don't see beauty and enjoyment in the things I said, you are already fucked. It doesn't even matter anymore whether you become a financially successful musician or not. Your real problem is you take things for granted. You need to enhance your perception and appreciation of beauty. There's something wrong with your worldview. It seems you need other's validation to make you happy and approve of yourself. Go and create music, and master it. But if you don't become as famous and as rich as Justin Bieber, that's ok. What matters is you do what you love, you master it, and you know that the music you create is a work of art. Others' reception of it is secondary. Here is an important lesson to learn. Her name was Miki Matsubara. She accomplished your musical dreams. She was a very famous Japanese singer, songwriter, composer, and rich as fuck. She accomplished it all in her 20s. But when she turned around 40, she regretted her musical career. She said her financial success and fame hindered her from living her best life. She burned all her musical collections and written musical pieces. She realized all this when she got cancer which eventually killed her. Her life story is featured in the video below. Turn on 'CC' for English subtitles. You can see her in the official video of her popular song "Stay with Me". Turn on 'CC' for English subtitles. And how about Kurt Cobain, the vocalist of Sound Garden and Linkin Park (Chester Benington is his name?), and many other famous and rich rockstars who ended up murdering themselves? It shows you that reaching the top of the musical world is not everything. Living a satisfying life is all about knowing yourself (your values, desires, repulsions, strengths, weakness), loving yourself (appreciating and being grateful for your gifts; and still loving yourself despite your flaws), seeing and appreciating the beauty of existence (many of them I already mentioned; and yes, it includes awakening). Money is there simply to keep you alive and to help you accomplish what I just said. I already answered this. What is the greatest miracle if you can't love yourself deeply or unconditionally? What is the greatest miracle if you rely on other's validation to satisfy you?

I hope God will finally show you love. The form of love which you can see and appreciate. I know you are doing your best. I hope you will continue trying to improve your best. If your best is not enough, it means you need to improve it.

Answering these questions answers all the other questions. I think you should prioritize earning money and healing your tinnitus. Everything else is secondary. You can continue loving music. But don't rely on it to generate the money you need. It's disappointing but it needs to be said. For every 1 financially successful musician, 99 are financial failures.

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In Japan, cyclists usually use sidewalks. It's safer for cyclists to be on sidewalks than to be on roads. Japanese pedestrians have no problems sharing sidewalks with cyclists.

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