StarStruck

Really? You solved all of your karma?

Dating apps are skewed against men if you aren't in the top 20%. I just go out and there are tons of hot girls out there in the club and outside of the club. If you are ok looking and talkative without any weird quirks, it is not that bad out here. There are shit tons of hot girls but not that many quality men because you have to work on yourself to become one. To be a hot girl, you don't have to do anything.

It is projection You are still identified with the animal ego.

I feel like I held myself back for years on end. If I continue to tread softly I will be wasting a lot of potential. Perhaps I should just let go ego go wild and crash and burn. The worst that can happen is death.

@Swarnim What is AP? If you have questions about sexual transmutation you can DM me or open a separate thread, this is not the topic to discuss that.

I’m diving in deep waters. Doing astral projection entering my astral and causal bodies in combination with sexual transmutation If you do spirituality the right way it is very practical. I don’t agree that life is the same after enlightenment. You are not doing spirituality the right way. Spirituality changes everything. Especially sexual transmutation is explosive. This is a spiritual technology as potent as psychedelics but in a different way. The thing is that nobody in my surrounding understands these topics. And I do feel the need to share my discoveries because if you discover a new continent so to speak why wouldn’t you want to share it? This urge is eating a lot of my energy. It is a healthy urge I think but it is not effective because of the catch 22 problem. How do I get rid of this urge to be understood? It has a childish feel to it. I don’t like it and it sucks my energy.

Yea, it is all the fault of men..

@Inliytened1 @Eternal Unity @gettoefl if I let my ego run wild I'm afraid I will beat people. I was beaten as a kid so that karma is inside of me. I had therapy for this but it is still in me. That is a good one. But my ego doesn't want to do creative stuff. It is not getting enjoyment from it. I like boxing because it is so competitive, and when you beat the other it feels crazy good. Dancing is creative but it is not as fun. I really have to be in the mood to dance (and be creative) but that doesn't happen often.

Her panties will drop to the merits of your masculinity/funniness. If you are just a clown and lose the masculine frame, you are not getting any fun. With girls you get back what you give, so if are fun you get fun back, if you are serious you get seriousness back.

And she has the audacity to blame me for being mechanical and too technical all the while she can't do shit without her procedures and rule books. It is projection at best. A good therapist doesn't project and for that to be the case she has to be spiritual. This work is just way above her head which is sad because it is the blind leading the blind. At least I have the resources to save myself while others don't have that luxury.

I told her I fell in love with a girl and I told her that I actually found a part of myself in her. In other words I project my love onto her. After hearing that she told me I was a “little out there”. I have a good click with this therapist but she is not spiritual so she doesn’t understand where I come from. Do you think I should change my therapist? Often I have to censor myself because I’m afraid she won’t understand me. Trying to find a spiritual therapist is very difficult. I have already had 7-8 therapist and none were spiritual. Psychology and spirituality are close fields but it seems there aren’t many therapists that are into spirituality.

The ego is very clever. Thanks for pointing out this blind spot. This is exactly the case but I didn't see it. What do you want to know more about? I opened this thread on the value of close mindedness accompanied by open mindedness but people just aren't interested. I'm going to share far less on this forum. This forum isn't as enlightened as you think.

Unfortunately not a lot of people responded to this thread so I did my own introspection. My need to be understood comes from ego. Desires of the ego are endless. It is a hole without a bottom. I have tried to exhaust my ego needs. It can’t be exhausted. Trust me. Talking to people about it only builds the ego further. For example if you have addiction to chocolate. Just binging on it doesn’t make it go away. It just means you binged, doubled down, and strengthened it.

I'm only human. I only have so many fucks to give.

I advice yourself to get out of your house and put yourself in difficult situations to test your “love” ?

So whose fault is it in the eyes of Syrians? Are people blaming the government or the west? What about Arab countries? Why aren’t they helping Syria?

From my exp this is true.

Most people froze to death under the rubble. Seems like an awful slow death.

Conversation becomes very random with free association. Perhaps I’m doing it wrong. I don’t know. But from my exp it is kind of weird. I try to be more natural speaker. I don’t want to come off as forced. If I have to chose between a forced conversation and no conversation, I prefer the latter.

That is weird

I have trouble with this too now I think about it. I expect the girl to do 50% of the talking. The very hot girls don't put in this effort. It is more like 20%/80% to her/me talking. Is there a secret to maintaining a conversation or is it just pure experience? If I'm in a good mood, I don't have trouble with small talk. I guess big part of it is being in a good state, letting the field doing the work instead of the ego. But there is definitely a technical aspect to maintaining flow which I need to work on.

People respect different things so it is kind of weird these words are tossed around like they are some universal values. Relationships are based on value exchange and people value different things. With some people, acting nice will cause them to disrespect you because they see this as a weakness. Other people see niceness as a value and respect you. Popular people already have a bunch of respect from their surrounding so they value other things. They value you being edgy. What people value the most is authenticity. People don’t like fake people. So if you are an ass just own it. If you are a saint own it. But don’t pretend otherwise. In the same way we don’t like fake money, we don’t like fake people.

Some dudes on this forum need to take couple of boxing classes and need their face punched in to know what life is really about. The 5 MeO DMT has zonked them out to their mind.

It is a real pleasure to listen to him after a long meditation session. Such a soothing voice to listen to when you are blissed out. The man has no ego. Nothing to prove. No tantrums or hissy fits. Just LOC800 vibes and chill. What books do you recommend? He has some but some are vague. I don't want to read all of his books, perhaps 1-2..

A healthy male is somebody who is polarized to healthy female energy. He is made in the image of God. He is the medium between heaven and earth. An animal capable of destruction but has tamed his inner animal. Capable both in word and action. Capable of sacrifice for love at the expense of short term gratification.