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@LaucherJunge in Leo’s videos in particular I saw how he portrayed the ego as something bad.

I observe that I need something to hold on, I guess I should let that need go I guess.

Does it leave a temporary smell in the living room? I researched it but I couldn't find any answers to this question.

@ravlondon Friendships grow organically. If you have purpose during the interaction to become friends it is weird. If he is weird and wants friends too it might work out.

@docs20 With the quarantine in place right now I didn't have any opportunity to test it out. I literally "refound" him the day I posted about him.

@docs20 I’m busy with speed seduction. He got me into NLP. It is fascinating.

This is going to sound harsh but if you were smart you wouldn't make this topic. EQ is as important as IQ.

@Pilgrimage of Self Look into "creating a common book". Leo has a video on it. I'm using OneNote and it works well.

I didn’t know that. I remember him as creepy but his knew stuff is totally different from what I recall. He says he changed after death of his father. Now he talks about spirituality, yoga and even non duality. He even used similar vocabulary like structure versus content. This guy watched actualized org or Leo watched him. ?

If I remember correctly he said he is going to revise his old positions. I'm curious about that.

Social skill guide book is good. And of course the all time classic how to win friends and influence people.

Does 5 meo DMT smell? I don’t want my living room to smell shady.

I couldn’t find the powder form at where I’m at. The DIPT variation is the only thing I could find. They basically look the same as LSD tabs but it has 5 meo. Does anyone have any any experience with it? I couldn’t find anything in the search.

@Girzo all other things are easily accessible, besides 5-MeO-DMT.

It is definitely not fake. The 5-MEO-DIPT is from a good source. I also knew it is not the same as the DMT. I’m not able to find it.

Strategy in a nutshell matching your goals to your resources.

I postponed this trip for almost a month to do spirituality work. To watch video's, read the books and do the practices. I watched all of Leo's spirituality videos. Today I took my 200 ug of LSD expecting no ego death or major enlightenment. I knew old shit was going to bubble: mostly childhood trauma. This is the stuff that is killing mood, since forever. It is my main obstacle for not being actualized, and all problems that stem from that such as procrastination, hopelessness, not feeling connected, loneliness and not enjoying life. LSD showed me I need to fix my relationship with my family so I can get some emotional support for fixing my personal and professional life. I know they are understanding and loving people but you really need to be stage yellow to get along with them. I'm kind of "forced" to do this because I don't really have a close group of friends or a girlfriend who can provide me emotional support. Currently doing an university course and trying to find full time job on the side. It is not easy and I need people to support me with my journey. The main lesson I got out of this trip was that I need to get my life fixed. My problem is that I didn't understand myself and what my purpose in this universe is. Main insights I got: All humans are consciousness with various degrees of enlightenment Physical reality does not exist, we are just entities who interact with each other through our senses Every human is just a "seed" of consciousness that blossomed into a thoughts/emotions (identity). A human has no influence on what he or she or it is going to be. It depends where the seed lands. For example: even my access to Actualized org depended on being born in a country with internet connection. Procrastination is highly linked to how you feel: it is the emotion that attracts you or distracts you from doing an activity I got some insights how humankind/the universe has grand overlapping interests, how countries got overlapping interests, how families got overlapping interests and how spiral dynamics got a role in that. Life is just partnering up with people to realize the ultimate goal. I realized that all relationships are a give and take, including a child/parent relationship. I mean I wasn't asked to be put here. They spawned me so to say so I could continue their identity (thought of self) This trip also made clear that I cannot really do deep spiritual work before fixing my life: being self-sustained (having a steady income) and at least have a support group before I can move on into deep spiritual stuff. If I understand it correctly enlightenment is just about aligning yourself with the universe. I don't know how much further mental gymnastics is going to bring me happiness. I don't think I can be happy if I chose not to have a wife and kids and become a zen master instead. I remember Leo saying a person should go for the regular life if that makes him/her happy. In the last couple of months I was in conflict with myself about this. I want to get enlightened but there are all of these things in my life that I want to get done. I can let all of it go for the sake of enlightenment but then what? At this moment I feel like a failed stage orange person (with some other shades). I'm kind of confused right now. Spirituality teachers such as Leo, Sadhuru, and Eckhart Tolle say that all problems solve itself when one becomes enlightened. Does this mean, when one becomes enlightened it will be easier to find a good job/good partner/good friends? Or does it mean when you become enlightened you don't need those things? It would be nice to be enlightened + have the good stuff in life. This trip also made it painfully obvious that I just use enlightenment for personal gain and to get added advantage in the rat race game of life. My expectations for life is no where near the American dream. It is much more humble. Everybody is doing there best in life. Is enlightenment asking to be happy about nothing? I mean you first need to survive so you can't be happy with nothing (no food). And after that there are all the stages of Maslow's pyramid for human needs. To wrap this up: the main lesson I got out of this trip is that enlightenment is about truth seeking but that I'm using enlightenment just as survival gimmick. Everything I'm doing is just for survival. The enlightenment teaching says I need to let everything go but I can't. I don't know how.

Yes, it is basically build around the breathing technique.

His program RSD transformations is highly recommended. It helped me a lot.

I have made similar text books for other video sections.

He is definitely my favorite mod. :))

I just stay away from arguments most of the time. What you focus on becomes your reality. Annoying people are everywhere. Good luck evading them your whole life.

Do you have any advice for my next trip?

In retrospect this trap totally melted my perception of the world. I’m still a little depressed. I didn’t get the answers I wanted. The trip itself was easy to handle. I got stuck in couple of thought loops and I feel like I didn’t let go. In two weeks I will do another LSD trip but this time 400 ug. I might have build up some tolerance for the substance. It will be the last time I will take LSD for a while. Might switch to 5 meo.

How many grams?