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@TrynaBeTurquoise Are the trans-fat oils more likely to cause diabetes or high sugar diets? What's worse for diabetes high sugar/low trans-fat or low sugar/high-trans fat?

@zeroISinfinity Hey thanks for checking out my thread. I know. But I feel like it's good for me to be as open as authentic as I can be on this forum and this is a great start. @modmyth said she feels better after she dumps her mind onto a journal and feels lighter after. I'm basically trying the same thing, just laying it all out there. Everything must be let go of eventually.

@laurel Maybe they don't know enough to be scared of the world when they're young. As we get older we see how many threats exist to our survival and it's difficult to cope.

My thoughts: I went out last with some friends from school after we finished our first exam. I had a lot of fun. It made me not want to leave law school because my classmates are so fun to be around. I also recognize some social anxiety worries. I don't want to get too close to anyone because I need my spare time to pursue self actualization and spirituality, but at the same i want to be liked and accepted as one of the guys. I try to be as open as possible in the social interactions, and i'm getting really good at not saying anything and just letting the conversation develop on it's own. I used to just blurt out random things sometimes because i felt like i hadn't talked in a while, but being quiet and engaged is great. People feel like you're listening to them and it makes them happy, and i'm happy because I just want to socialize and experience the situation to the best of it's ability. I made one comment which i kind of regret. In my school people have a joke that our friend group is the "bros" because we all like sports and our group is all guys. There was one other girl who was out with us, she seemed really chill and not the type of person who is bothered by petty jokes/comments. But when my friends asked what you call the group of girls that hang out together, if we're the "bros" then what do you call the girl group, i said sluts lol. Everyone thought it was hilarious but i know that people could be offended. My school is very stage green, progressive so those comments can rub people the wrong way. I gotta be careful, i definitely have some sexist tendencies in me and it makes me look bad. Caring too much about the opinions of other is not good, but is reputation a real thing? I don't know about how to balance not giving a fuck with maintaining a reputation. I have 5 exams left and I need to study every day until exams are over. I need to spend at least 3 hours per day everyday until exams are over. I don't care too much about my grades, but i also don't want a complete shit mark. Discipline will be huge over the next few weeks. I know i can do it. I had a nightmare last night. I don't know if it's because i went out drinking and I masterbated last night, so maybe that's bad kharma who knows... But i was arguing with my friend and there were some other issues throughout the dream. But then i remember at the end of the dream i was feeling pretty good in my apartment, and then i saw some little kid fall off his balcony to his death. I've never had a panic attack, but the feeling that came over felt like sheer terror. I can still feel it a bit if i think about it. Then when i woke up i thought i saw some demon/entity in my apartment, and i yelled let's fucking go like i was going to fight it. So crazy, i wonder what my neighbors thought? I feel good though because I wasn't that scared after i woke up. My mind was pretty active, but i calmed down right away. I wonder if i have to face that terror on my path to awakening. I would prefer not too, but if i have to i'm pretty sure i can handle it. I've noticed a lot of people on this forum are going through a predictable pattern. They start as hardcore seekers of enlightenment, then they meditate a lot, do psych's, and then achieve some profound insights. But then they are forced to re-enter the real world after all those experiences, so they all come full circle. I think that's why it's important to maintain balance on the path. Don't sacrifice everything on the path to freedom, because at some point you will have to re-enter the world. And your past actions will matter. I'm still not sure on this point, i think a lot of people here are deluded and don't know how to optimially pursue enlightenment work. My self included lmao.

@Leo Gura Very nice breakdown. Thanks.

@Leo Gura When people accuse gurus of mistreatment, abuse, etc. Are the gurus engaging in the behavior because they think it will help the person improve spiritually, or are they consciously and maliciously abusing people even though they know it's wrong. There is some sick shit gurus could do to you which could ultimately be good for you because it causes so much suffering.

@Key Elements I get it lol. It would indeed be very unusual. I'm all in on non-duality and if someone just came up to me and discussing I would be weird out too. Imagine a random person... If you feel good about what you're doing then you already got it figured out imo. I don't feel good about pursuing sports. Sports are just a tool. Not the end game for me. Maybe if my kids one day love basketball I can help them pursue it but I want something else. That would be enough for me. I am deluded tbh. So much poor conditioning, and toxic beliefs. I don't trust my desires and wants fully. I won't know what's right until I make more progress in my life imo.

@Preety_India Nothing is impossible. I've seen a girl on youtube who did a dry fast for like 3 plus weeks. By conventional scientific understand she should be dead. But if it works then it should be testable and reproducible. But i'm with you on being skeptical. You gotta prove this one to be taken seriously.

@DrewNows I agree. So much information about nutrition is hearsay and junk science. But breatharian seems extraordinary. Is there any rational explanation for why it works from your research? It's similar to a guy saying he can move objects with his mind. In my opinion anything is possible. But you gotta have some evidence. Extraordinary claims require extraordinary evidence.

@TrynaBeTurquoise Yoga is the best for meditation. It super charges meditative progress imo. I started doing yoga 3 months ago, and my meditation practice has grown more in the past 3 months than it has in the past 2.5 years. Have you seen Nahm's thread on using the dream board. Most practical thing on this forum for me so far

@DrewNows Tell that to goggins.

@Proactive Negative visualization. Imagine the worst case scenario of whatever you're doing and accept it fully. Then go on with your day like it's all sunshine and roses. Easier said than done though lol... I don't do it (:

@Key Elements I do love basketball. And i have no intention of working as a lawyer. It's either i graduate law school and do something else, or i drop out and do something else. But i also don't want to do something related to basketball. But the question for me is why do i love basketball. And what happens as I improve as a person and go deeper with spirituality work. Will i still love basketball? I don't know the answer but I'm not doing anything until i get a deeper understanding of non-duality. Step 1. Get enlightened Step 2. Embody enlightenment the best I can. Step 3. Once i understand myself and reality. Choose a LP that enlightened me think's is right.

@electroBeam Why did you feel the need to post this. If you felt you are ready to move beyond the forum why not just move on in silence?

@Leo Gura How much longer are you going to play the role of leo gura the online personal development guru? Then what happens to this place when you decide to move on?

@Angelite I meant the hindu who can see people's lives up until now. How does he do it? If i ask him what i did 5 months ago to the day can he describe it? Or does he need more information?

@modmyth Suffering breeds love. If you dry fast you are on the verge of death. Coming that close to death will you bring you closer to god.

@mandyjw How many awakenings have you had?

@mandyjw How has the experience changed you? Can you notice little behaviors or habits help you move in alignment and others clearly pull you away?

@mandyjw Oh i see, i just read your initial post. So you have had some awakening experiences and now you are trying to integrate them?

@mandyjw What were your intentions for the journal?

@integral Yea i am i'll do an update on the thread soon. I can't tell if the gaba is improving my mood or i was already on the upswing and the gaba was just a minor boost.

Right now i'm listening to songs i've listened to many times before, but for some reason i'm feeling amazing listening to them right now. Literally these songs are making me feel better than I have in years. The same thing happened to me a few years when i overcame my depression. Music just sounded so good and it got me so inspired. Does anyone else experience this phenomena? Why does the same song feel so much different at different times in our life?

@Nahm My bad i was thinking of the time he reacted strongly the secret. But i think some of his criticisms apply to LoA too.

@TrynaBeTurquoise What's your spiritual practice like? What kind of practices do you besides meditation? I'm doing a similar journal, but i'm just trying to dump my thoughts about everything and look for patterns.