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@Leo Gura I don't get it. Doesn't God want the best for everyone? What is that 'something' larger at stake? You say that things are even worse. How one should react to this other than being terrified and scared for the rest of his life?

I was abruptly kicked out from my house 10 months ago. Without a warning. Without a single penny. By my "family". Ever since then i have been trying to get back on my feet. But it has been extremely challenging. Incredibly challenging. I can't go find a job just to make money . While at the same, feeling like i wanna die, all the time. I found a job working at a kiosk few months ago. I was doing well at that job but i wasn't satisfied because i wasn't getting properly paid as the law says i should. And after politely pointing this out to my boss, i got fired (because he was afraid he might get into legal trouble and pay a fine). After this, i was at a job interview for a well-known company here in Greece. As soon as i enteted the building i realized that all the family members of the boss, even his grandchildren were there "working". I didn't get that job . Just looking for a job is a serious challenge. I can't convey to a normal person who has never faced homelessness how much of a challenge it really is. I don't even have wi-fi on my phone. I have to walk 30 minutes just to get access from somewhere. Also i don't feel moved to chase , chase, chase , chase a job like many other people always tell. I feel i am already doing my best. I keep myself clean , i attend NA meetings,i meditate, read, i push myself everyday, i don't do drugs. Most jobs that are easy to find are traps: jobs where your mental and physical health gets ruined. So many jobs are also filled with toxic cigarette smoke, toxic people and disgusting car pollution. I would like a job where i can be learning something valuable. I wanted to be a software programmer and i have intermediate level skills in Javascript, html, css. But noone really gave me a chance. My biggest passion is non-duality , raising my Consciousness, peak mental performance, health, and exploring radical altered states of Consciousness. I live somewhere in the woods in an abandoned old building. I have not really received much help from other people. I have talked to church people, to people who work for the town, and got very little help, if any. There have been many idiots who have said to one another "this guy is homeless", but have offered no help. (They have seen where i stay). This has made me hate people even more. Many days i feel suicidal. The last couple of days i have been feeling a nice sense of Serenity. Hope it lasts. I was thinking to go to tourist areas and sell artificial intelligence images. I have already printed them. But i haven't done it. My goal is to consistently make money every day even without a regular 9-5. Below is one the images i printed . I also put it inside plastic. I feel bad because i have something to offer but i don't have the social connections and the other unfair structural advantages that other people were born with.

@Leo Gura There are people who earn money just from working on the streets. The guy in the video was making drawing and earning quite a bit of money. Trucking requires license that i don't have the money for.

@AION I have received very little help thus far.

@Jannes I was working some shit jobs in my early 20s that didn't pay much. And i was very unhappy at those jobs. This is why i didn't work for 5 years . All i did was self-actualization, meditation, programming, etc. An addiction to weed and some other issues didn't help achieve some results that i wanted. Basically i was kicked out for not working and some other reasons.

@Hojo Yes. I could sell them 2 euro a piece (They cost me 1 euro a piece). Haven't attempted to see if it works..

One of the biggest things that has held me back from actualizing the best version of myself is other people. A lot of people around us are in a very poor state of Mind. . When you become more conscious, many people will feel uncomfortable and threatened by you. They will judge you, criticize you, or try to bring you down. This is just a survival reaction. 'Attack and destroy' whatever is threatening in order to maintain my silly fantasies about how the world really works. These people don’t really want to hear the truth. They just want to hold on to their beliefs, their habits, and their comfort zones — even if it’s all based on lies or illusions. They’re not ready to see things differently. They will not support you on your path. If you've been watching someone like Leo Gura for a while and doing deep inner work — thinking for yourself, meditating, reflecting on life — then you're already far ahead of most people when it comes to spiritual and psychological awareness. Ground yourself in your truth. Stay connected to what feels real and meaningful to you. Don't let unconscious people pull you back down. Stay focused on your growth. One insight that has helped me enormously to ignore and avoid all idiots is the following realization "these people are more miserable than myself. Why do i even care? They do not have the results that i care for" Who is an idiot? If you are not aware that you are not the thinker of your thoughts you are by definition an idiot, executing the conditioning you received from your society. The results of this conditioning is low consciousness, greed, war, extreme inequality, people like Andrew Tate, Trump , Putin, etc. Not waking up is dangerous.

I take 50mg of zinc per day for 1 month now. It makes me feel great when i take it. I can feel the testosterone running through my body. I haven't noticed any bad effects so far, besides that my right nostril is a little bit clogged..

Interesting. I forgot to mention that the only side effect so far is that my right nostril is a little bit clogged. Do you notice any difference while taking zinc?

@Carl-Richard I also take vitamin d3 and k2. And vitamin C. I forgot to mention that the only side effect so far is that my right nostril is a little bit clogged..

I am currenty living in a rough living situation where every decision matters, at the end of the day whether i am gonna meet my needs, or feel like tying a rope around my neck. Hardcore stuff. But the Gods are on my side, gently pushing me towards Higher and better things. (Like being more selfless, more intelligent, more courageous etc). I do not like lying or being someone so incredibly disgusting and despicable like Andrew Tate. But i find that i am dealing with low-consciousness all around me, and playing the Game of Life "fair" doesn't always give me the strategic advantages that i so desperately seek.. I think there is Good vs Bad manipulation. Bad manipulation is when you hurt others by being dishonest. Good manipulation is when you don't really hurt the other person, but you nudge him towards a direction that suits you. Example: Let's say i pull out my good phone (when i don't feel like doing it) just so i can create a good impression of being the sort of person who has his sh!t together.. But i don't like doing it when i don't feel like doing it.. Sometimes the manipulation comes from a Genuine Place of Wisdom but others time , it comes from Survival Based Fear.. I don't know what to do anymore. Isn't pickup all about Manipulation Tactics? Isn't Everyone manipulation in some form or another to survive, have sex and thrive?? I feel like i am leaving a lot on the table for idiots like Andrew Tate to take..

Leo said that when you are on a higher level, you understand those at the lower level of the evolutionary journey. But i don't find this to always be true.. Many times i interact with people who are like animals.. Very gross Minds.. Very unconscious, Very stuck and sure of themselves. I don't understand for example how you can be a racist. I have never been a racist. And what about Liberals who don't understand the conservatives? And even as young as 8 years old, i never could fully believe what my Stage Blue grandma was saying about being a Literal Hell and Heaven that you go to.. I can sure understand those stuck at atheism because i was one in my early 20s. If it wasn't for Leo's work and a profound mushroom trip, i would probably still be an atheist. Because i was all for rationality, evidence, etc.

@Basman Ok so you understand racism? You have been a racist yourself? Or you understand someone who is a hardcore conservative? "Higher level" works only in a relative sense.

I can't but feel somewhat 'shocked', terrified and disgusted , when i observe my 'human' mind in action, judging and evaluating things. "Oh she is so fat". "Oh this person is ugly and old". "Oh, the next person is this and that". Fortunately i do not really engage with these type of thoughs, and i just notice them, terrified and disgusted pass away.. I can't but feel bad for people who have not practiced any meditation in their lives. It must be a bad situation in their head.. Why does the human mind work this way? The meditation teacher below says, you are not getting rid of these silly low-level thoughts. Just accept your humanity and watch these thoughts from afar for amusement purposes, lol.

@SwiftQuill Both.

I see young women being constantly distracted by silly games and traps and havings lot of fun, while men suffer enormously. Being distracted is a blessing because you are not forced by Suffering to grow up. If you are an average looking young woman you automatically have a lot of power and leverage on many things. While if you are an average guy, you are f*cked. Look at Ted Kaczynski. 167 IQ. Harvard Graduate. Died a virgin.. Guy spent decades thinking deeply about the consequences technology while women don't have to think about much, other than how to meet their needs. Leo will tell you that you have to work 10 lifetimes to finally be worthy enough. Not to mention how privileged and rare someone like Leo is. (This is not an attack). While women enjoy effortlessly the fruits of sex. This whole society is messed up. I agree with Robert Sapolsky. Agriculture was a disaster for the human race. 10.000 years ago, if you were a male, you were hunting all day with your group, you were fit, you were socializing and at night time you had sex with a female. Agriculture meant that 1 petty humanoid could have 1000000 more accumulated grain and wealth than 1000 humanoids combined. Before agriculture there was no wealth inequality . This extreme wealth inequality is the root of all of our social problems. There was no "i don't have any friends". Yeah you died at 25. But you lived fully. I'm exagerating some things here but bottom line is if you are male nowadays life is not easy for you. The most basic thing such as sex is like you are trying to climb Mountain Everest.

2 days ago i went out for a walk with a woman, that was kinda pursuing me. Her interest level was low and there were also some other things i didn't like (like dismissing something deep, i said once). But because she was texting me, i arranged that we go outside. When i meet her, she tells me that in like 30 minutes, she has to go for a dance class (in other words: you are the least important option for me, so i won't give you the time of the day). This was a big turn off and a waste of time. She will probably contact me again 2-3 weeks from now (if she doesn't find Chad or Bryce or some other guy who will be the "perfect" one). This time, i won't ever see this woman again. This just shows me how ruthless and not caring some women can be. There are very good reasons why many men end up hating women. Very good reasons..

@Applegarden8 No. It's not the same. I tend to treat people in a fair way. I would never leave earlier on a date just because i don't like the other person. Where is your love for your fellow human, if you do that kind of petty behavior.. This is what disapointed me the most.

@Schizophonia I did not force anything. When a girl is reaching to you, you assume she is interested and arrange a date. I don't need any more self-help theory. I need more action primarily.

@meta_male Not victim mentality at all. But Truth-Mentality instead.. You didn't read the post carefully. Bottom line is: many women will give guys preferential, non-fair treatment.

I have done tons of paying attention to my breath but after some time this got boring. I'm a hardcore person. I need more stimulation. Not just feeling like i took a bunch of xanax..lol. I tried Leo's technique where you just watch your hand. Mind was like: "What's this? This is weird. This is a waste of time. Stop doing it". But i kept going because i was getting something from it. Can't really explain what. This eventually progressed to where i just look at a specific location in the center of my left hand. And sit there for as long as i can. It's a Concentration exercise. What i find fascinating with this technique is that when my Mind focuses hard, i get a nice steady, kinda exhilarating feeling of Satisfaction. (Not a shallow, short-lived, cheap dopamine hit). This meditation technique has become the most important thing in my life. Goal is to be able to concentrate for 2 hours at a time but this is a challenge, unless someone else feeds you, and etc. Results so far (after 4 months of continuous practice) is that i can stare at something a lot longer than before. Feel more happy, content and Still. And my mind is sharper and more able to discern and cut through sh!t. Also if someone on the street looks me funny, i just stare at him, i know he won't be able to match my intensity. Lol. If you want a visual representation of the results , check the young man with the dark beard in this video. He is in a very good state of Consciousness. I don't understand why Leo says there is no best state of Consciousness. Isn't a composed calm state better than a Suicidal one??

Do you feel some anxiety and stress after uploading an important video? Does your mind go "what if this or the other scenarios". I will find it hard to believe if you say no because the mind is analyzing data all the time, and gets anxious when it feels overwhelmed..especially when thinking about long-reaching consequences some uncertain action has..

@samijiben One ice-cream. But infinite flavors.

@Applegarden8 @Applegarden8 What siddhi? I think the guy on the thumbnail of the video is a scammer-master manipulator.

@Sugarcoat Thank you! Even if there are infinite, some states are better than others.