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@Inliytened1 I am willing to do everything to become God Proper.

@Benton Can you explain what does this mean? I don't understand.

@Inliytened1 Yes but i want to experience the other side too. Right now i feel like a puppet with no free will or any sort of control. That is my actual experience. I would love to have control and start creating stuff without limits. I would love to experience being an actual God, if that makes sense.

@Leo Gura That is not being God Proper though. That is creating stuff as a little, extremely limited humanoid. I want the experience of being God Proper and actually creating stuff as an Infinite Intelligence. That is what i expect to experience as God.

@Leo Gura When do i get to dream creating stuff as God?

@Hojo What do you mean? That i never get to experience creating stuff as God? Also there is no one here experiencing too, because of No Self and Emptiness.

This works great. Changes your state.

@7:46 of the video he says something like this: I am not sure exactly what he means but i think this is BS.. God created the whole universe for itself so the entire Universe is here for God. What do you make of this statement? Can someone explain to me what it means? Is Michael Singer awake? I have read 1 of his book. He also seems to believe in an Earth spinning in the middle of nowhere... Kinda dissapointing.

At 9:00 of the video he talks about psychedelics. Then he says: Is this true?? Because i have zero understanding of the nervous system. And i really wanna try 5-meo in the near future.

I'm currently watching this video. Leo talks about how God is Death, and that basically we are already Dead.. Ok i have some experience with that. Then he goes on to say how identification with our physical body is selfishness delusion and fantasy. What is wrong with survival? I may not essentially be the body but i need to keep this body alive if i want to maintain this current particular dream. It may be a delusion to believe that i am a body but still i need to keep taking care of it. What is wrong with this selfishness (at moderate levels)? What is the alternative? I don't get it.. The most reasonable thing is to take care of the body so you don't have to constantly change dreams. I know Leo agrees with this also. But then again i don't understand why he criticizes survival . Also i believe God constructed survival . If i could maintain the dream without taking care of the body then ok. But God forces us with needs/urges/cravings to take care of the body. I don't really understand what is Leo's deepest point here. If survival is such a falsehood then why God designed this Earth and its creatures so that they have self-preservations instincts and a need to keep the body alive? Leo calls this attachment to survival self-bias but what is the alternative? The alternative seems like pure torture, pure misery to me & doesn't seem to make any sense... Also i disagree with him on some parts of the video. For example the thing i fear the most is excuciating pain and not death. Lastly Leo said: What does this meam? I don't get it. What about Ramana Maharshi and other super enlightened beings who survived for a long time? Were they self-deceived?

Is 5-meo-malt safe? I really wanna try it. I checked a site which sells 5-meo-malt and right below the description it has this picture..where it lists some chemicals like h302 and others that are harmful.. I don't understand what this all means. Can someone check the picture and give me an explanation please?

'' The world doesn't care whether you survive or not. The world runs on its own accord. '' This is a quote by Leo from one of his old videos. Is this statement true? And what does it really mean? If it is really true that God is totally indifferent then what is that different from materialism and nihilism? Why do we even talk about God then? Also this makes you feel terrible about existence and everything. It's not motivating or inspiring at all... It makes you wanna become someone like Bukowski for example.. God is supposedly infinitely intelligent and all loving. This is quite different from a neutral Universe.. Leo has said that the Universe/God has feelings and it is not cold and neutral.. Also he has stated that God wants us to awaken. It seems paradoxical that God would use his infinite intelligence to create a perfect universe and yet at the same time be totally indifferent about it.. I don't understand this. My intuition and previous experiences with psychedelics tell me that God cares about its Creation. It's counter-intuitive that God cares to create a perfect ant, yet at the same time doesn't care if it gets stomped by humans and other animals. I don't get this at all....

Leo says: What does this mean? I don't get it at all... What about super enlightened sages like Ramana Maharshi who lived to old age?

@Yimpa It might be a self-bias but everywhere i go, 'my' body follows. Is that a coincidence? I know that essentialy i am beyond the body but i need to take care of it as long as i want to maintain this dream. Otherwise i would be constantly jumping from one dream to the next. What would be the point of that?? What would be the alternative of not having a bias towards towards our bodies? Even very enlightened beings such as Ramana Maharshi survived for a long time. God has designed it so that we have a bias towards our bodies. That is the reason we experience this strong drive/urge to survive. It is not by accident. Problems begin if we are too attached though.

@Yimpa Why do you say that? It is not a delusion if you want to maintain this particular dream.

@Moksha Great quote.

@Kingston Yes i agree. I think unconsciously i am seeking some easy solution when there is none... Accepting the challenge is the hardest thing.

Presently, I am facing difficult circumstances and require assistance, though it is tough for me to ask for help as it may reflect poorly on me. As a 30-year-old man living with my mother and sisters in Athens, Greece, my family has been supporting me financially for the past few years. Unfortunately, Greece's economy is not as developed as other countries like the United States, and high rent costs can take up to 50% of one's income, making it very difficult for most individuals to make ends meet without parental support. Both of my parents were uneducated and dysfunctional, and their behavior negatively impacted my life. Additionally, my father's alcoholism, poor mental health (OCD), and absence during my childhood left a lasting negative impact on my life. I have always yearned for self-reliance and autonomy. Nevertheless, the job market in Greece is very limited, and finding a position that pays enough to cover basic expenses is challenging. Therefore, I have been considering the possibility of moving to countries such as Norway or Holland, where better opportunities might exist. Despite identifying some job openings in Holland, I am hesitant to accept them because they require sharing accommodation with three other people, which does not align with my preferred living arrangements. Furthermore, most of these jobs involve manual labor, which does not align with my career goals. I am proficient in the basics of HTML/CSS & Javascript and desire to work as a web developer or in a position where I can learn valuable skills. Unfortunately, my past addiction issues and mental health concerns have affected my productivity and hindered my progress. Nevertheless, I have successfully overcome my addiction to marijuana and am now in a much better mental state. I have been facing several challenges lately. Despite my efforts, I have been unsuccessful in securing a decent job in Greece, and my limited qualifications have made it challenging for me to work as a web developer. To make matters worse, the environment at home is not supportive, and I have not been receiving the love and understanding that I need. The frequent arguments at home have made the situation even more difficult for me, and it is taking a toll on my mental well-being. I feel trapped and uncertain about my future, which has led to some thoughts of suicide. It's hard to know what to do when it seems like my only options are to settle for a dead-end job & continue struggling to make ends meet. Ultimately, my desire is to live independently on a livable wage while working in a fulfilling job where I can learn valuable skills.

@Noahsteelers34 Yeah i think living abroads would be moving me towards a better position in life.. The reason is that Greece is a very underdeveloped country with tons of unconsciousness. Living abroad is also hard but at least you can survive a lot better than here. Many people have left Greece because they could not make ends meet without parental support. Unless you own your own house, living here is a real struggle. Maybe i should just experiment with the living situation abroad. I watch other people from Greece who live in Norway and Holland for example, and they have enough money where they can travel and do other hobbies. What keeps me from trying to live abroads, is fear of misery. I'm afraid i wil be miserable if i live with 3 other people in the same house. I know that after a while i could eventually rent my own house there. But that is also a challenge. Rent is very expensive and its really hard to find accomadation in Holland. Because things are so difficult and i have not found anything 'good enough'' this has kept me stuck in this situation.

@integral Here in Greece it is extremely difficult because 99.9% of employers want you to have all sorts of degrees and stuff. Moreover they tend to choose younger people. It's very very difficult that someone will give you a chance. Most business are ruthless and they only care about maximum efficiency and profit. In other countries it might be different. I know that in America people in similar situation who have found work as a developer. Like this guy who began coding at 32 and found a job:

Lately i have developed this concern about being careful enough to not ingest dish soap.. It has stemmed from some observations. I've observed how easily you can accidentaly leave extra soap on a dish... I've also observed the water bouncing back when it hits the surface of the sink.. and this water if mixed with soap could probably touch the dish.. I've watched two videos on YouTube just to observe how other people handle this.. but both videos were kinda dissapointing.. The old man in the 1st video especially seems to not care at all about the soap because he barely rinses out the dishes.. I believe this will probably leave some traces of soap on the dishes.. I don't know if this is significant or not though.. Maybe the soap just evaporates and it does not even matter. But again i am not sure. Probably a dish washing machine is the best solution.. I would like some insight on the points i made because i am very confused..

@Michael569 I appreciate your advice and i am kinda happy that you understand my misery.. My mind is very focused on the details and focuses on things that most other people ignore. When you are like that other people think you are kinda crazy but are you really? I used to suffer a lot from this kind of stuff because i was doing all sorts of compulsions to check and be 100% certain.. This only made things worse. This stuff is hard and you gotta learn to live with uncertainty. There is no other way.

@integral Brush my teeth with water...? Is that enough though??

@Girzo Very Interesting.