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@Shunyata The first question I'd ask you is, how are you taking care of yourself? Do you meditate, exercise, eat healthy? Do you have addictions? If your health practices aren't good, you aren't going to have much motivation. Second, if you don't know which way to go, you aren't going to be motivated to go anywhere. It's really normal to be confused about where you want to go. Especially at the college level. I was super depressed in college for that very reason. My advice here would be to talk to college counselors. Get all the help you can get. That said, you are young, shit will come to you as you get more life experience. So make sure you aren't wasting all of your time alone and avoiding life. You need to get out there and have some experiences.
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@preventingdiabetes Just out of curiosity, how old are you? What you've described here resonates with me. I went through it several years ago. It was a rather bumpy ride, so hang in there. You didn't elaborate on your inauthentic desires or misguided efforts so I can't make specific advice. Perhaps you want validation, money, power, or were fueled by avoidance or the promise of comfort... I'm not sure. Nor did you share your strengths or interests. Perhaps you can chime in. That said, the following advice is pretty much universal. It is guaranteed to be authentic because it's all an expression of love (self-love that is)... Focus on taking care of your health. Get good sleep, exercise, meditate, eat nutritious meals, give up all addictions. Also, make sure you have a good crew of friends you enjoy being around and that treat you well. The idea here is that you want to be taking excellent care of yourself. What could be more authentic than that? Start there and figure out where you want to go next. This should keep you busy for a while.
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I bet we'd get a lot of different definitions if we asked multiple people to define "emotional mastery". To me all it really means is understanding how emotions come and go and being competent with tools for dealing with emotions so that they are no longer running your life. It requires diligence, courage, and life-long commitment. Someone with a fair level of emotional mastery is going to understand impermanence on a deep level. That is to say that emotions don't last, but neither does transcendence or the quality of our practice. Here is what I've learned about the nature of emotion: It is true that some emotions stop arising in certain situations, particular through repeated exposure. Emotions also stop arising as we heal from trauma and loss. Sometimes emotions don't go away, but the intensity lessens. Other times emotions return or increase in intensity as our exposure to them lessens or when we stop practicing. The last thing I've realized is that life is always changing so we will always have emotional reactions as life throws new challenges at us. I don't like the term emotional mastery because it implies a destination or transcendence or some other bullshit like that. However, I do believe that we can tap into equanimous states with increasing frequency as our understanding and commitment deepens.
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@Hawkins I'm a 40 year old software developer and totally relate to your story. I spent a good deal of my life lonely, isolated, and awkward around people. I struggled a lot but learned a ton and eventually came to lead a very fulfilling social life. I just wanted to offer some words of encouragement and perhaps a little bit of advice. First of all it's going to take time to reach your destination. I can see that you are dealing with a lot of frustration but you have to understand that you're not going to see progress overnight. When you get discouraged or feel like giving up, grieve a little, pick yourself back up, and keep moving. Realize that you're not going to click with everyone but you will eventually find people you are compatible with. Be patient and gentle with yourself. Make sure you get as much social interaction as possible. Open up to new experiences and different types of people. The more experience you have the more well-rounded you become and the clearer you get on your values and preferences. Develop yourself and get clear on your direction. I realize that this will be a challenge during the pandemic but it's not impossible and this too shall pass. Take in interest in hobbies, health, education and learning, adventure, and mastery at work. Investing in yourself will boost your confidence and self-esteem and help you find common ground with others. I would highly recommend seeing a therapist to keep you motivated, on track, and mentally healthy. Trust me, it's worth it. Therapists are awesome because they offer a unique perspective and understand the mechanics of suffering. Personal growth can be counterintuitive so working with a professional is invaluable. Self-esteem issues are really difficult to treat on your own. I hope at least some of this is useful. Best of luck to you on your journey.
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@ColeMC01 The book Models by Mark Manson is a really good place to start.
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@RoerAmit You need to work on self-acceptance, honesty, and vulnerability with others. If you are able to afford it, I would recommend a therapist. Self-acceptance is really difficult to achieve on your own. I'm speaking from experience. That said, there are some things you can do, and that is to get more life experience under your belt. Spirituality development doesn't happen in a bubble. You should strive to be well rounded. Have hobbies, friends, a job you like, read, watch documentaries, explore and adventure. The more developed you become the more attractive you will be to women, but you need to be on your true path, not the path that you think will make chicks like you. Lastly, I would highly recommend the book Models by Mark Manson. It expands on some of the stuff I talked about here and will give you tools to attract women authentically. I can't recommend the book enough. Good luck my dude
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I hate to be the bearer of bad news but there are very few people out there who are truly spiritually developed. We're talking way less than one percent of the population. Part of the work we do on this forum is to develop ourselves so we are adaptable and content regardless of circumstance. If you are chronically lonely, sad, or depressed then you still have a good deal of work to do. You need to get to a place where you accept and appreciate people as they are. You aren't going to connect with everyone and you should stay away from toxic people but being lonely all the time is a good indicator that something is off internally. Some or none of this may be true for you but most people who aren't content socially are: lacking social skills, shy, awkward, lazy, needy, excessively introverted, living in an incompatible city, expecting too much from others, underdeveloped, inexperienced, idealistic, arrogant, lacking self-knowledge, using spirituality to avoid real life. This is not a judgement but more of an observation and result of having learned from personal experience. I used to be chronically lonely and a social misfit but now live a very rich and fulfilling social life. My advice to people who haven't found their tribe is to get a lot of life experience and be open to meeting and getting to know a variety of people. To be fulfilled you need to be developed/well-rounded/experienced and that doesn't happen in a spiritual bubble. Continue to be open-minded, curious, accepting, and kind; And don't run away from life's challenges. I am willing to bet that most people on this forum would do quite well pursuing people who meet the following criteria: deep thinkers, creative, well-traveled, health-conscious, intelligent, interesting, politically mature, quirky, meditators, activists, nature lovers, adventurers, readers, documentary lovers. If you are familiar with Spiral Dynamics seek out "green" friends and make that a priority. Make sure you live in an area conducive to developing a healthy and supportive community. Lastly, don't listen to the people who say that you should be content without friends. People need varying levels of social interaction but most of us need a good deal of love and support from others. A life without friends is not only empty but it is also really unhealthy. Beware of those who say otherwise. Wishing you the best on your journey.
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ivory replied to Parththakkar12's topic in Society, Politics, Government, Environment, Current Events
Hmm... I'm a huge fan of existentialism. What are these flaws that you speak of? Sounds like the transition from dark night of the soul. -
I suffered from anxiety for a long time. First I refused meds but after a year of intense suffering I finally agreed to them. Meds are meant to be used in conjunction with therapy to ease the suffering while you address the root cause of anxiety. Don't come off of meds until you are emotionally stable.
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If you are at this level you need to get the hell off this forum and get some real help.
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@RoerAmit I'm an ex-PUA. I sucked in the beginning, but reached a semi-advanced level at the end of my 2-year career. By semi-advanced I mean that I was banging one new chick each week while maintaining a consistent rotation of fuck-buddies. Eventually I became a pickup coach and trained hopeless virgins to become lady killers. Here's what I have to say... First, let me preface this by saying that there is a more direct route to having fulfilling relationships with women. Pickup is merely a phase on the journey to authenticity. You may need to practice pickup before you realize that you already have what it takes for women to like you. That may sound nonsensical to you, but you already have what it takes. You just don't know it because you lack experience and have a negative self-image. It's up to you if you want to study pickup or if you want to go the more direct and authentic route... Should you go down the pickup route here's my advice: Study Real Social Dynamics (RSD). Fuck Mystery, he will lead you astray. Now, there are two RSD products I would recommend: 1) "Pimp" by Julien Blanc and 2) The Program by Jeffy. "Pimp" will teach you in-field mechanics where "The Program" will teach you how to game online. Also, if you can get your hands on "RSD Hot Seat" footage, do so. The instructor footage will show you how it's done. Now listen, those are the only products that you need. Don't waste your time going down the youtube rabbit hole filling your head with conflicting bullshit. Now for the practice...Find a wingman and go out regularly. Talk girls that you find attractive. Make sure you hold each other accountable but be gentle on each other. The turtle wins the race here. Do not traumatize yourself with rejection too quickly because you will only quit. Be consistent. Once you start to feel comfortable approaching women and have some successes under you belt you want to do an RSD bootcamp. At this stage you will not be fully confident, in fact, you will likely doubt yourself still, but women are responding positively to you. A well-timed bootcamp will sky-rocket your game to a level you can only dream of. I have seen this time and time again. I started by going to bars three times per week and found an intermediate-level wingman to show me the ropes. At the one-year mark I started having small successes. You may get there more quickly, but I was a huge pussy. At this stage I did an RSD bootcamp. I would not have been ready for it if I went any sooner. The bootcamp was a pivotal moment in my career. Post-bootcamp I was making out with girls at will and getting laid regularly. I felt like I had cheat codes to the female psych. I also picked up a new wingman who happened to be an assistant instructor for RSD, and that only furthered my success. From there I became an assistant instructor at another pickup company that had similar values to RSD. Once my skills surpassed my mentors I developed a system and started coaching on my own. Now, a word of warning... Pickup will teach you some nasty habits that you will eventually have to unlearn in order to have authentic relationships with women. Also, once you become successful, sex will become dry and meaningless. You may even become depressed like Mystery did and wonder why you even put all this effort to arrive at such a low point. This is the stage, and it is a stage, where you are being called to authenticity. By that I mean you will have to drop the facade, be yourself, and engage in meaningful relationships. Should you go down the authentic route: What @outlandish posted above is gold. Read it again, he knows what he's talking about. What women really want is a man who puts his authentic self forward. Authenticity is a long winded topic so I'm not going to offer too much advice there. That's what this forum is for. Get this book: Models: Attract Women through Honesty. IMO, that is the only book you need to achieve real and authentic success with women. You may not be getting every girl you want, but it will teach you to get the girls that are right for you. Read it, practice, and integrate the concepts. Good luck.
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I discovered this blog years ago but I stumbled upon it again today. It offers a unique perspective on the causes of suffering. Internal conflict and attachment to negative emotions are a couple of them. The blog is written by a psychologist in Michigan who specializes in depth psychology. Have a look, I'm sure you'll have some good insights. https://whywesuffer.com/
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I found this resource quiet helpful: http://spiraldynamicsintegral.nl/en/red/ What are healthy manifestations of Red? Assertive, movement, show courage, acts immediately on what needs to be done in the here and now and in a respectful way. Set clear boundaries and indicate urgency. Express one’s own opinion.
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I used to be so shy that I would sweat and my voice would tremble. I'm am much, much less shy now. The only way to conquer your anxiety is to continually expose yourself to the things that cause you anxiety.
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ivory replied to Ya know's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Don't listen to the nay sayers in this thread. I do solo camping all the time. IMO it's the best solo retreat you can do. I prefer to find a secluded spot where I'm shielded from others behind trees and bushes and such. Create a meditation schedule and stick to it. Also include mindfulness walks in that schedule. Learn to meditate while walking and sitting. I find that four hours of silence a day is plenty. Bring HEALTHY food and cook your meals. Flush your body of toxins. Also, make some time for enjoyment. Have some books or podcasts on hand, make some art, or do some journaling. Retreats don't have to be ascetic in nature so make some time for enjoyment. Silence deepens when you are enjoying life, the same goes for a retreat. Don't be afraid to socialize a little with the neighbors. Oh, and four days is perfect. Retreats typically take about three days to settle in. By the fourth day you meditation should be very deep and very pleasant. In summary, stick to a schedule and plan to fill your day with meditation, walks in nature, enjoyment, and healthy activities. Your practice will deepen and you will have insights galore. Enjoy -
ivory replied to Javfly33's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
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I get what you are saying by, "There's no such thing as a right answer," and I agree that we are all biased to a degree. However, the more conscious you become the more you care and want to give. Certain candidates are better because they are more conscious and because they want what's good for the whole. Not caring for the wellbeing of others is insanity.
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ivory replied to khalifa's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
You will remain stuck until you face your fears. Once you start down the rabbit hole there's only one way to go. -
ivory replied to gggkkk's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Find some green friends. That's about as good as you can get. And there are plenty of them. Find places to live that are known to be more liberal. I personally look for people who like being out in nature, artists, yogis, meditators, travelers, etc. -
@Leo Gura That's not good to hear. Is it a matter of purity?
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I finally got my hands on some 5meo. It almost look like brown sugar, but a little bit lighter in color. Is that to be expected?
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ivory replied to Spiral Wizard's topic in Society, Politics, Government, Environment, Current Events
I think you would find the narcissistic qualities on both the orange and red side of things. I'm happy to have this guy out of my life now. In the end I learned a lot, so I'm stoked. The rest of my friends are super great. I'm very blessed to have them. Cheers -
ivory replied to Spiral Wizard's topic in Society, Politics, Government, Environment, Current Events
I have a mother who is a narcissist and just ended a friendship with another. That said, I have known two. There were some commonalities but both of them exhibited different flavors of narcissism. In fact, it was really interesting to see how much they differed. First let's look at the DSM V. A narcissist is a person that possesses at least 5 of the following 9 qualities: A grandiose logic of self-importance A fixation with fantasies of infinite success, control, brilliance, beauty, or idyllic love A credence that he or she is extraordinary and exceptional and can only be understood by, or should connect with, other extraordinary or important people or institutions A desire for unwarranted admiration A sense of entitlement Interpersonally oppressive behavior No form of empathy Resentment of others or a conviction that others are resentful of him or her A display of egotistical and conceited behaviors or attitudes A narcissist isn't necessarily all red. But likely a combination of red, blue, and orange. Take a look at the above list and compare that to what you'll find at each stage in the spiral. As for my mother here are some interesting qualities: Has a need to control everyone, bosses people around, will call people names, believes people are put on earth to serve her, fearlessly confrontational, denies science (climate change, corona virus, doctor's advice, etc), believes she is always right and no one else knows what they're talking about, is the CEO of a company which she loves more than her family, her employees despise her because she's a nutcase, believes in the law of attraction (oddly), is overweight but wishes she was skinny (eats like shit and complains how hot she gets when and if she exercises), expects everything now now now (very little patience), extremely sensitive, lacks understanding, Trump supporter (seems to admire other Narcissists), has a toxic relationship with her husband, has no friends, cares about her kids to some degree but will lash out if her ideas are challenged. My friend exhibited the following qualities: A need to show people how strong and powerful he is, talks about how great he is constantly, isn't really all that great at anything or worthy of admiration at all, obsesses about masculinity, obsesses about morality (go figure), "devout Christian" (but also acknowledges Buddhism and Hinduism - he's a very strange character), has a savior complex (believes he was put on earth some godly purpose), highly opinionated despite having any actual knowledge about anything, extremely close-minded, very health conscious (eats a strict vegetarian diet, works out, etc), is saving himself for marriage (not a virgin but hasn't been with a girl in 8 years), highly skilled with the tongue (quite charming and charismatic), extremely judgmental of others, puts others down and talks himself up, admires Connor McGregor and Trump (which I recently discovered), a lone wolf. I have yet to end my relationship with my mother but I will no longer be visiting her for the holidays. Sometimes I enjoy conversations with her on the phone but in person she's an absolute nightmare to be around. I may end up breaking ties altogether. I just ended my friendship with the other guy. When I told him I didn't want to be friends with him anymore he told me that the devil was inside of me, called me a hypocrite, then tried to manipulate me into accepting Christ as Lord. LOL. -
I'm not sure how common this is but I recently discovered a therapist who incorporates SD into her therapy. Check out the article: Here
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No one is disagreeing with you here. Nor are they disagreeing with you here ^^^ How about some understanding? The black people of today cry for equality and want their feelings to be validated. I see hurt and anger and I think we owe it to them to show our support. Black lives do matter and this is a time open our arms to them.