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I think you're overconceptualizing. To me, this idea of "tuning in to your feelings" never worked. Paradoxically, this would make me go even more into my rational mind. What has helped me the most is to let my feelings course through me naturally -- with as less interference as possible.

Yes, it is paranoia. And I think you're overdoing psychedelics.

I agree. I always try to find an intersection of what I like and what the other person likes. Careful not to be arrogant. Socializing ain't quantum physics! If I could give you only one piece of advice, it would be to not force yourself too much and try to relax.

Who gave you this diagnostic?

The Universe doesn't give a fuc*.

This probably happens because you don't have enough practice.

That's good! I'm glad he's taking a rest, and not a hardcore solo retreat to become God or something — which is really exhausting). A break is very positive in order to get new insights and reflect. I also think that maybe he could upload 1 video every 2 weeks, instead of every week. Less is more!

I don't buy into that "everything is a dream" hypothesis. It simply can't be 100% proved. And on a practical level, believing so has never helped me in any way. It just gave a feeling of detachment towards life. And I also think it's pretty arrogant to think that the whole Universe is a fruit of my imagination. Whether the world is real on an ultimate level doesn't matter to me. It is the realest thing there is. What I do know that is an illusion is what I project onto the world. That is, my perceptions, my opinions, my thoughts, judgements, etc. This is all fabricated in the brain. At one moment of my life, I simply internalized this belief that physical reality isn't real -- because "spiritual masters" said so. And I'm much happier and healthier now that I block any type of thought such as "all of what I'm seeing on the outside world is nothing but an appearance".

What problems does chewing tobacco bring you?

Be gentle with yourself!

Interesting point. Tbh, she seems way too insecure. Well, you don't really need to find another partner. Sometimes it's positive to be single. Wut? So basically you haven't had a true experience with a guy. I think it would be very beneficial in terms of personal development if you actually had real experiences, not just a fantasy inside your mind. This could be something that would make you grow a lot. Some other questions: 1- Was it easy internally for you to accept your sexuality? 2- Do you love your wife? Have a good weekend!

Stop trying to "be confident", and focus on being natural.

You're planning to fast for a WHOLE MONTH?!

Wow, what a difficult situation you're going through. Some questions: Does your marriage make sense to you? Like, what does it benefit you? If your wife is very "traditional", then it'll be hard to let your feminine side flourish. And what's that thing about projecting the sexual energy? I didn't quite understand. Have you ever been with other guys? Best of luck!

That's tough. It's hard to stay motivated without getting results. Did he get a better score than before, at least?

Interesting read. Great to hear that you're better off, and that you're giving guitar classes. Do you enjoy them? As with psychedelics and weed, I know how seductive they can be, especially for a spiritual-seeker, because they change your perception on reality and can offer you very interesting insights. Problem is, those substances are widely known for triggering paranoia, psychosis, and depersonalization on some individuals. Myself included. So it ends up being a jack-pot. And the more trips I had, the higher were the odds of having a bad trip. In the beginning, most of them were magical and transformative. But eventually they started to harm me. It's like a relationship. In the beginning it was awesome, But then, it became toxic. So I had to quit., which was not easy Even though they're not physically addictive, they can be really psychologically addictive. In my case, it was as if I had to trip every weekend to "fill my serotonin tank".

I don't do well with very fixed schedule. In fact, I used to be neurotic about that. I'd put a time to everything I wanted to do, even simple things like brushing my teeth. It backfired.

First, why don't you play your guitar using headphones? Stop judging yourself! And stop feeling guilty! Don't try to carry the weight of the world on your shoulders. Do you think music is your passion? I think you need less self-purification, and more basic self-development work. That is, being able to achieve stuff in life. Btw - what type of music do you like? I got curious, hehe...

First, consider whether you're abusing psychedelics. These types of experiences are a big red flag! I also think that you're too caught up with spiral dynamics. Maybe you're somewhat addicted to categorizing the world using this model. Was that a good conversation?

What do you think this dream represents? That is, the meaning behind all that craziness.

Yes, it is. This is called spiritual ego.

When you wrote this topic, were you high on psychedelics?

"Defining" myself I don't like to put myself in boxes, but for the sake of this topic, I'd consider myself bisexual, with preference to men. And, politically, I'd say center-right (I really like Milton Friedman and Thomas Sowell, for example). Sexuality It was really tough to first of all accept myself in terms of sexuality. I had A LOT of guilt and shame when I was a teenager. It took me years to accept myself. A friend really helped. He is very well-resolved in that manner. He's gay, but his sexual orientation doesn't define his whole life. So he helped me to accept myself more, and not be afraid of the judgements of others. Politically But here's the thing: Because I'm technically in the LGBT group, people automatically assume that I am left-wing. But I'm not. Coming out in terms of my political positions has been harder for me. In the country that I live in, which had a right-wing dictatorship, people automatically assume that if you're more towards the right, you're a die hard Trump supporter sort of thing. In the schools, the teacher have a heavy bias towards the left. So subconsciously I started to believe that anyone who was right-wing, didn't give a fuck about poor people, for instance. And this is not the case. After watching Friedman's video, things started to make sense. And there's a group in my country called MBL (Free Brazil Movement), which I resonate to what they say. But I don't agree with everything. I don't like to place myself in a box. I'm more of an independent thinker. For instance, I'm in favor of the right to have abortion before 12 weeks; I'm an atheist; and I think that climate change is man-made. So I have opinions that are considered from the "left". Tired of hiding I started to share some of my political views on my social media. Just now, I shared a meme about the guy who lost the election here in São Paulo. And I'm pretty sure that some people will get pissed at me. But, you see, lots and lots of people share things making fun of right wing, so why can't I do this? It's not an excessive thing, and I'm not being aggressive. I'm simply sharing what I think. And if people will judge me because of that and won't want to talk with me, well... there's nothing I can do about it. And I don't want to have friends who are intolerant to different ideas. I am tired of hiding. And I will endure any setbacks of coming out, both sexually and politically. That is not to say that I want the whole world to know about this. I'm a reserved and introverted guy. But if people ask me something about that, I will not be afraid to say what I think. Obviously there has to be common sense. Anyway, I've been thinking about Leo's episode on "how to not care about the opinions of others". And it's liberating. There's a deep sense of freedom. The freedom to have unpopular opinions. Thanks for reading

I agree. That's why I think that, for me, psychotherapy has been much more powerful than psychedelics.

Because it's not enough to have a fulfilling life. Human bonding is a need.