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You have your own process and he has his own process. How you view him changes based on where you're at. How he changes is based on where he's at.

@James123 Alright. But I wasn't pointing to 'basic' meditation. Rather; a form of shamanic breathing. It's way more intense. That's why many pass out so fast. And yes, it's true that you lose all sense of time whilst in it. But your alarm does not.

How 'bout a flashlight? Seriously considering buying one.

@James123 Most people would pass out after 10 minutes or less. If you can go for 3-4hrs; I'll suck your dick ?

I'm not a fan of the fat ass movement. It seems caricatured. I like petite women. Just sayin'.

Breathe semi-fast for 30 minutes, through your mouth.

@Inva You speak the true-true. Thanks.

Interesting. Your comment got me thinking... a lot ? Did not notice that in me. What I did notice though, is that many women rush into sex not because they enjoy it that much, but rather because they use sex as a tool - almost like a shortcut - to satisfy their emotional needs. Attention, validation and a sense of security is far more important to these women. And they know they will get all that if they take their panties off quickly and have crazy, out-of-this-world sex with a guy. Been there, done that. The sex gets less and less crazy, less and less frequent and they become more and more emotionally dependent. In my case; I never used sex for emotional comfort. But I did have a tendency of becoming emotionally dependent in relationships. It's when I let someone 'too close' that I tend to grip too tightly. I was extremely attached in my last relationship. And the break-up literally killed a part of me. The emotionally dependent part. It was incredibly painful. But it was worth it. I'm kinda against the 'don't get attached in a relationship' idea. To me that seems like it's coming from a place of fear. Fear of loss and pain. No. Do get attached. Love that person blindly and with your whole being. And if it doesn't work out... God be with you. You will burn. And you will rise from the ashes as a completely new beast. We will rip holes in the space-time continuum ?

Sometimes it seems like the afterlife, other times it seems like no life at all. Whatever it is; I love it.

The Father and The Son are One. One Breath. One Being. I myself connect to or even 'switch places' with the 'higher self' mostly through the power of music. And also often when I'm posting here. I can feel 'it' 'taking over'. I'm still here, having my own experience, but the wheel is in 'its hands'. Some other methods for establishing the connection are; meditation, breathwork, psychedelics, prayer, or even just simply talking to 'it' directly. Opening up for the connection is a form of art, really. One must be comfortable with surrendering their will.

@Shin ❤

@Shin I knew you were a slick player ? Alrighty then! Let's do this thing! Never thought I'd be so excited about not having sex ?

@JJfromSwitzerland Yup. It can be hella frustrating haha. The thing that was fascinating to me was that it happened so fast and so effortlessly, but it was so...not right. It's like God was like; 'You wanna have some empty, meaningless sex? I got you Son!' And then BAM! A nymph manifests itself in my bed. Me: 'Yeah, this isn't what I actually want. It feels wrong...' God: 'I know, Son. I know...' *girl disappears* ? @Shin No worries. I know I don't like peepees. But I sure know how to love a man ?

Long time no see, @Shin ? Love ya too ?

Definitely some truth to this, yup. I was horny but I also rushed things. As I said; I do love sex, very much. lol. It was always a source of good feelings for me. And I wanted to feel that again. But it quickly became obvious that things have changed since the last time I was single. I've changed. My values, boundaries and priorities got stronger and more defined. So since @WaveInTheOcean brought the thread back to life (thanks btw!) here's a little update; Saying 'no' to sex was harder than I thought it would be haha. I really had a pattern. An addiction even - one could say. So I ended up 'relapsing' pretty damn fast. I got into a 'FWB' situation. And it was as good as such a situation can be - I guess. Everything went pretty smoothly and it was some pretty damn good sex. But again; no love. Pure physicality. I did smoke some weed before we'd hook up. So that contributed to me relaxing a bit and getting more into it. Weed can make me pretty horny lol. But anyways; even though the sex itself was good... I ended things pretty fast. It just didn't feel right - on a soul level. I really felt like I should focus completely on myself and go through this transformation with as little distraction as possible. So that's where I am at now. No sex ? Do I dream of pussy nearly everyday? You bet I do. But I know the work I'm doing now is much more important. And it's going to allow me to meet a much better match in the future.

Some more comes to mind; Journaling Obviously good for ya. It's a nice way to express and study yourself. While I do look forward to it; rn I don't write consistently in my journal. But I do post on this forum quite often. So that's how I'm tracking my progress. Short term/long term goals Write these down. It allows you to have a both small and big picture perspective on your life. For example; some short term goals for me are fixing my diet, getting in shape and being more creative, etc. And long term; success in business, collaborations, shows, travelling, etc. Prayer This is a big one. When all the walls are closing in on you and you're brought down to your knees; put your hands together and pray to the Heavens. No need to be formal. Use your own words. Speak from your heart. But speak out loud. And don't let those nondual realizations hold you back in this - if you had any. It may seem like there is a contradiction; but there really is none. God is always listening.

Thanks everyone for your input. I appreciate it a lot. Interestingly enough; I know a girl like that, too. What's important to understand, is that everyone processes their pain in their own unique way. And of course there are going to be all kinds of avoidance methods involved. It's only natural. Facing the pain of loss is not easy. I'd say there is nothing wrong with her crying here and there when thinking of her father. What's more important, is how that pain/grief affects her everyday behaviour. Her views on life. Her values. Etc. More often than not; if that kind of pain remains unprocessed; it's going to be seen and felt in all areas of life. And there's not much you can do. She must find the strength within herself to face her thoughts and feelings. Trust me; I tried everything. I wanted to be her saviour. I wanted to end her suffering and show her unconditional love and support - even at the cost of my own well-being. Needless to say; she was unable to meet me halfway and receive what I was offering. It's really sad. But truth is; she's alone in this. Only she can heal herself. Wish you both the best. Yup. Definitely. But not always and not in all cases. For example; rn psychedelics would do me more harm than good. They did so in the past, too. All because I wasn't listening to my inner truth. I kinda forced it. And ofc; it was hell. It only contributed to my trauma. So yeah... Know when and if, at all. Slovenia? We should grab a coffee sometimes ? And thanks for the info! Ineed it is. Helped me so much in so many different areas. It sped up my overall progress - big time. All hail actualized.org ?

@Thomas_VH Thanks. I'm glad to hear that. Best of luck to you, too.

Damn. Them narcissists be all over the place lately ?

Thanks everyone! Yup. This seems to be a common theme. Heart-rate accelerates and then BAM! You explode into everything. I like referring to it as a 'frequency singularity'. That's awesome. Thanks for sharing. Each time it happens; it happens for the very first time ever. Crazy! Cool! I'm sure those who practice yoga seriously can easily attain similar states. I myself don't do yoga that often. And when I do; it's always intuitive. I just let the body do its thing. Following the breath, focusing on feeling. Had some nice experiences while doing this. But never a full-blown breakthrough or anything like that. Crazy all the tools and methods!

Now that was wild! Kinda brief, but epic! I can still feel the afterglow... But I'm pretty much completely back at my baseline - if you will. I did nothing fancy to attain this state. I wasn't even attempting to reach any state per se. Just felt like releasing some toxins from my body. Filling it with fresh oxygen. I was breathing through my mouth the whole time. Nice and deep. Kinda fast, too. Eyes opened - staring into the distance. It felt real good, so I kept going. Soon my whole body was overwhelmed with this tingling sensation. It almost feels like a whole-body orgasm. But at the same time it feels like you're dissolving into nothingness. A few more deep breaths and my vision starts fading to black. I knew I was close to passing out, but I kept going a bit longer. The whole time I'm being showered with this warm, fuzzy feeling. I started losing myself in the breath. I could not tell if I was breathing in or out. Shortly; I could not tell if I was breathing at all. And then... it happened. I broke through. Enter 'the super-state'. I can only describe it as being sucked out of your body and spread onto everything. Yup! You're the whole thing now, baby! Perception no more. No need to see anything. I am what I see. No here and no there. No then and no later. In a sense; no now, either. Yes, you guessed it. It was all Nothing. However, there's much to be said about it. Really; one could go on forever. It just seemed so damn real. So much realer than where I'm at now. Yet at the same time; it was dreamy and magical. Totally unreal. At this point I'm weightless. I'm floating. I'm experiencing myself as everything. Literally. I felt what it's like to be a chair. And a TV. And a bed. Even though; 'experiencing' is not the right way to put it, really. That implies a lag. There was no lag. No time and no space for anything to be experienced. No experience and no experiencer. Only Being. In real time. You may think: 'but isn't everything always already in real time?' Well yes... and no. Think of yourself as an antenna. You are receiving the signals in real time... but it takes 'time' for you to receive, decode and process the information. To create a holographic representation of the signals you're receiving. To paint a picture. It's a layer. A snapshot of Reality. So that's the 'lag' I'm referring to. That's the 'veil of perception'. That's how the 5 human senses function, essentially. At least from what I understand. In a sense; you are experiencing time (or anything else for that matter) simply because you use your senses to filter vibratory information. To make sense out of reality. Being 'human' is nothing more but a filtration system - if we go all technical. So in that sense; you can only 'experience' real time in Absolute Unity. You do not know what the 'true now' is until you do not merge with God, completely. Only when there are not two, but only One; you Are. Only when there truly is no before and no after; Now is. Don't let yourself be deceived by thinking you're already IT, and there's nothing to do, nothing to attain, yadayada... Be real with yourself here. Be conscious of how conscious you are, right now. That's the only thing that matters. And also; breathing. Breathing is awesome. So this experience got me contemplating a bit. What is a state of Being? What is a breakthrough? And how is such a drastic jump even possible? Are there levels and degrees to this? Well, to put it as simply as I can; Being is Absolute. It cannot change, ever. It's eternal. While it itself cannot be altered, it can create an alteration within itself - so to speak. It can get drunk on itself. In a sense; you are constantly hallucinating. And that's how states come to be. They are like radio station. It's just a matter of tuning in. The possibilities are endless, really. There are infinite states. But only one Being. It could be also said that there are many, many qualities of Consciousness. And many, many layers and levels of Reality. All of those can be and are being experienced. But are not to be confused with Absolute Beingness. It's the difference between being sober and drunk, really. A 'baseline' frequency is simply a frequency that your system is most comfortable operating on. It's most familiar with it. Any significant alteration in your baseline frequency can be considered a breakthrough. Or a break-down lol. This shift can obviously be attained through various methods and practices. Meditation, breathwork, psychedelics... But one can also be triggered into it by random life-events. Usually people tend to go slow, altering ever so slightly their baseline over time. So obviously when you take a psychedelic for example and it shoots you right through the sky it literally feels like you're breaking through a brickwall. When in fact you're only breaking through the limitations of your mind. Psychedelics are essentially super - accelerators. They alter the rate of the oscillation. They 'raise your frequency'. That's how 'hyper-awarness' comes to be. That's how you can go from ego or object to Love or God-consciousness. That's how there are levels, degrees and states. It's all fun and cool until you become conscious that you're making your own heart beat. And that you're generating the temperature of your body. That you're making your hair and nails grow. Right this moment. You're doing it all out of sheer wiil. You're making the clouds and the trees move. You're making the Sun shine. The wind blow. It's all you baby! One thing to think and talk about it... And another to be conscious of it. If you're not used to those hights, it can quickly become too much. So be smart. Don't bite off more than you can chew. Peace.

This statement is false.

Do you find this statement to be true in your experience?

@Zeitgeist It's more about the attitude you have when it comes to doing things. If you do a half-ass job at one thing; that's going to echo through your whole experience and affect how you do other stuff. Even the things you enjoy doing. At least that's the idea.

@Waken That was beautiful. Thank you.