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@Consept 4chan happens

?? big clap for me. I beat procrastination and sent in the hair samples. Now i just need to load up on the big 4, liver support and Adrenal cortex for two weeks and then I can slowly start chelating. I Don't need the lab results to start.

All of this would be about age 2-4 I would fake being asleep on purpose so that my dad would carry me into bed. It was a very cozy experience to have someone you absolutely trust physically pick your tiny and fragile body and snug you into bed. Almost ASMR feeling. The biggest one was being " A good boy " for sure. Being polite, quiet, never making a scene and always doing what I was told. Guests would come by and marvel at how well behaved I was compared with other kids. ( this backfired in many ways in the future ?) My mother asking me if I want to go with her to the neighbors house to play with her kid. Being asked instead of forced or dragged made me feel appreciated. So apparently my old house was built on top of a cemetery and it was haunted. Many weird experiencest across all family members. Once I woke up in the middle of the night alone and saw a ghost -a young girl with super long hair curled into a ball laying on my brothers bed. I was so scared I sprinted out of my bedroom into my parents bed. I said nothing and they asked nothing. Total acceptance and safety in one moment. It may be an ilusion but it felt real. Absolutely carefree free-playing with my older sibling. In the garden, with our rabbits, video games or in the snow... Sometimes he would abuse his physical superiority though . That time my parents gave me a bowl of blueberries sprinkled with sugar for the first time ever. The flavor was so amazing it felt likr heaven. I was like a" Im allowed to eat such delicacy?????????????? , such a strong contrast with other bland foods. Absolutely blew my mind. Some things that made me feel unloved : My parents force feeding me dinner when I didn't like it. I used to cry and get shut off and very hurt. They telling me that they work for it and i don't appreciate it. Looking back my body just knew it was garbage. Or i was just stubborn lol. My mom yelling at me for stealing cookies before dinner. It's been about 21 years and I still remember it vividly. Being angry at my parents for forcing me to go to the neighbours pool with them but for some reason i really wanted to stay at ours. I was really pissed and upset, till the point where I had my first experience of consciousness. I zoomed out of myself and noticed that " Anger is being experienced . What was hurtful was being forced and my opinion not being respected. In polish there is this staying that goes " Dzieci i ryby głosu nie mają" Which literally means that kids and fish dont have a voice " As in " kids have 0 decisión making authority" . It made feel not appreciated but they kept repeating it throughout my whole youth. I didn't know how to go to the bathroom on my own and always wanted someone to go with me. I used to pee my pants here and there because of it. Sometimes no one wanted to go with me and it was the worst feeling. Or my brother talking down on me telling me to grow up. I actually consistently peed my pants for the first week or two of school when I came to Spain because I didn't know how to ask to go to the bathroom. But eventually the teacher noticed and she called an older kid that spoke polish to tell me what I need to ask. We ended up being friends and they invited me and my parents over. Then my parents told me to careful because they are jews and they can't be trusted and I was astonished that I didn't know they were jews!! How could I not know that before!! ( I had no idea what a jew is or why is it suposed to be bad lol but I was ashamed.

Can we create a self actualization tik tok reels section where I can show of my spiritual trendy dance moves? Im down

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Seven_deadly_sins I've known about this for a long time but after actually reading it's interesting how it points out a couple of the pitfalls of living a low consciousness lifestyle. Sweet read.

@jeffemmerson sounds like you're ripe for a few years of vanlife https://youtu.be/g2b35v758-I

@Someone here have u watched Leo's 3 part series on how to get laid? I mean everything is there.

Great share. I've allways suspected my mother had some sort of personallity disorder but it was very eye opening to pin down the exact definion of it. Owen as spot on as allways. During the whole video I was astonished how someone as socially sharp as him would fall for the pitfall of " a crazy girl like that " but then I realized that It's just me who's specifically ( unconsciously ) trained to avoid people with BPD and other mental issues, and not everyone knows about this phenomenon. Not that if you suffer some sort of mental issue you're evil, but since I understand many people simply can't be fixed it's better not to get your hands dirty in the first place.

bump again because still kinda mind-blowing Typo in title : Ment to write Musical Fractal not Musial Fractal.

let's get real for a second. I still haven't started chelating. I've had a quite long chunk of time with no progress in this area ( AKA Procrastination ) . I truly do belive chelation will radically improve my cognition over time. I guess I'm somewhat afraid of fucking myself up, as in I'm actually good now as in " don't fix whats not broken " I guess I have this buzzing background noise lack of faith in the chelation protocol that subconsciously has been stopping me from getting started. It's kinda weird but I have this belief that part of Leo's health problems are caused by heavy metal chelation. I've heard SIBO is also a protective mechanism of your body against leaked heavy metals leaked in your gut. It's just this thought that has been stuck in my subconscious for a while. Another thing that was stopping me : Im growing my hair out and I legit didn't want to cut a chunk for the hair test ? . But I have no excuse with that now because I can send some pubes. Action steps : Send in pubes to the lab. Start taking the core 4 supplements ( restock on magnesium ) . After the 2 weeks start slowly chelating even without the lab results . Adjust after results come .

Unless he manages to blow himself. Perpetuum Mobile solved.

The rich get richer and the poor get more poor. Research the concept of upwards and downwards spyrals and the ripple effect.

I'd frame this in a similar but simpler way : Self- doubt and hesitation = expression of trauma of different degrees. Trauma ➡ triggers turnoff in girls. They're hardwired against it . It explicitly shows you've been treated poorly by others throughout your life which is evolutionary a red flag. Your Self- doubt + her turnoff ➡ you experience a " downwards spyral " of more self doubt and more turnoff. All of this is extremely subconscious from both sides and specially from the girls side. They dont think or analyze these things. She just feels creeped out if you're uptight or hesitant and does not understand why.

ok but on tuesdays it's my turn to have elon musk ok?

@bmcnicho go for it and let me know how it went ?

I'm not sure if we're talking about the same technology here but if so, the takeaway from this video is stay the f*ck out away from THC and vitamin E acetate cartridges.

Wisdom is power bois

https://youtu.be/TIAqh2o1Jf4 4:58 Musk redeemed himself with these words on this topic after that epic putin 1v1 tweet lol

At what point do you consider going raw?

mmh about a month with no steps forward. I took the van to my friends yard where he has a carpentry workshop because I wanted to make the bed out of wood. After taking it there and coming up with some tangible build plans i decided it's actually way cheaper and more convenient to weld the bed out of steel. So i need to take it back to my garage or convince my dad to weld it at my friends yard. That's where I'm at right now. Also : I'll need some serious ventilation. I really do think it may be toxic to breathe in those glue fumes constantly.

Aight procrastination lord. The test arrived a few days ago. Just cut some hair and sent it back to the lab and in the meanwhile I could start taking the core 4 to get ready to chelate.

This is pretty much the definition of a meta-source and by default stage yellow. This guy puts effort into properly summarizing books, some shortly some more extensively. Some of his read choices are top notch personal development books. Ever heard of a book for a long time but never took the time to read through it ? Look up for the summary here and perhaps by skimming the wisdom you will get motivated into reading the actuall book. Enjoy and thank the writer! https://blas.com/

https://youtu.be/E3I17n4OyNE

I'm mind blown. Allways thought it was an Onomatopoeia not an acronym .