Giulio Bevilacqua

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    In your case I would try a more solid approach like psychedelics.

    if you feel more connected to stuff like yoga, I would highly suggest Shambhavi Mahamudra Kriya Yoga. It will bring you back to a state of balance and more clarity. And it is very easy for everyday life.

    in the mean time you could try chanting AUM 21 times a day, this can have a great effect on your psyche. 

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    Hi. 
    I have this massive tension/energy stuck in my stomach and 2nd chakra stuck there since Kundalini woke up.

    I tried yesterday Shambhavi Mahamudra Kriya from Sadhguru that i learned years ago. After one session things got worse and the pain was more acute.

    I tried also a lot of body scanning, seems to help but it would take days lying in the sleeping position till I get to the core.

    So I got the idea to try microdosing lsd, 20 mcg. I have never done any psychedelic before. I did weed where I get very sensitive and sometimes also  very anxious.

    in your opinion could micro lsd work for things like energy block and stuff like that ? 
    thank you 

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    Hi evryone.

    I am searching for someone to have just a talk  or chat, due my situation with the kundalini that i am struggling since most of the last months.

    I do not know how to go foward with this process and i am very fearful of this stuckness now, because my condition is slowly degenerating in evryway, and do not know how things will unfold if i do not resolve this as soon as possible. 

    Please, if this goes againts the guidelines of the forum remove the post 

     

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    Hi ervyone.

    I am thinking to take a healing workshop 3 days for Kundalini energy balance. 

    I am just a bit skeptical about the tools and the methods that are given and shared. Things like Shaktipat intiation, tantric techniques, crystals and sacred geometry, mandalas shamanic tools and so on.

    I have never entered this stuff for many reasons like too new age stuff and also my resitance for methods and techniques in general. 

    Would like to know from you what do you think about this things and if you have ever done something similar

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    You maybe have already seen some of my posts about the "strange" movements i am facing in this last time.

    When i let go of control and effort and just flow, the body starts to go into a Whirling motion like a Dervish.

    Many times  have tried to surrender to this. I came to a point where the speed was so intense where a big terror and fear popped up. At some point  something was crawling along the spine and getting stuck behind my neck.

    It seems that this stuff wanst surrender totally with a full heart, but i reallly feel not ready to jump into it. I do not know where this motion is going to take me, it's like jumping into a supermassive black hole. Who would do that ?

    I met a guy online who went through the same thing. He said that as the motion finished by itlsef he melted with "something".  

    Obviously i can take other actions like walking eating and so on, but they feel so forced and not in a state of alignment and truth

    It seems there are no other options than dying into this tornado of energy with full trust.  I could never imagine to finish in such a situation for a so long time. 

    Resisting it for many months now. Just wish this thing to end soon... 

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    On 4/8/2021 at 0:16 PM, nistake said:

    Effortless effort is what you're looking for. 

    Have a vision and get clear on what you'd like to achieve/manifest. Visualize it. Feel into it as if you've already achieved your goals. Then get on with your day and take the necessary actions. You don't need to think much about this, it should come naturally.

    Of course a stable daily routine helps a lot. You know, the usual stuff. Meditation, exercise, journaling, etc.

    But what i think is... routine must imply effort ! A river that flows effortless  is always in change state, flowing,

    Or can you have a routine without effort ? 

    It's crippling my mind

     

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    On 4/8/2021 at 1:04 PM, Tim R said:

    @Giulio Bevilacqua

    I'm glad that you asked because you're confronted with one of the biggest misunderstandings in (Western) spiritual circles. Which is the duality of:

    effort - effortlessness or you could say doing - non doing

    People start listening to some spiritual teacher and will soon come across the idea of letting go - which will include letting go of desire, effort, struggle, etc. But this can be so, so easily misunderstood. 

    In Chinese Daoism there is a very important principle called "Wu Wei" (無為), which is often translated as "not-doing". And people who first hear about this think that it literally means to "do nothing". But that's not at all what Wu Wei means. Wu Wei means rather something like "doing just as much as is needed, but in such a way, that all goals are fulfilled". 

    Wu Wei doesn't exclude effort. You can put in a lot of effort in an effortless/surrendering way. Think of it this way:

    What do you do when you are very skilled at something which requires effort?

    I for example am very skilled when it comes to riding my bicycle. And when I do so, I am so engrossed in the activity (which does very often include a lot of effort!) that it becomes effortless. I become so one with what I am doing, that everything "I do" is the same thing as "me". I melt into riding my bike. There is no more "me" who forces the pedals to move, there is just pedaling. And that's Wu Wei. in the West, we call it "flow". 

    You see, you don't exactly have to "balance" effort and surrender, because they aren't really any different from each other. But for you to understand this, you need to enter a state of flow (which I'm sure you already have at some point in you life). Because then, there is no more forcing, even though what you're doing may be very difficult or hard. 

    It's easy to enter the flow state if, in the first place, you like what you're doing. Otherwise you will obviously have to force yourself and then it's very difficult to be in Wu Wei. 

    So, in conclusion: surrender doesn't mean passivity. It doesn't mean to surrender activity itself. 

    It means to surrender yourself into activity. 

    Good. :) Thank you

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    Hi guys. Would appreciate to know  from you how do you live/see the aspect of effort and surrender/grace.

    I am really in the way of total surrender, going with less effort possible. But doubts are kicking in a lot. Just going with the flow of the river is sometimes hard to have faith in. 
    If I do not make some effort I would not care for a job or Mooney or whatever else like making a career and so on. Maybe those things would come in naturally along the path…? 
    I mean being in a state of utter and total spontaneity is wonderful, but I feel there is some fear and worry deep inside, and this confuses me a lot ! 

  23. Posted

    2 hours ago, eaaaeaeae said:

    dude are you ok now? or things are still difficult? could it be that these spams stop some day? 

    Still stuck. At the end it is my fault, it would just stop if i allow them.  I do not have any problem with the movement, they are healing motions. It's just that as soon as i relax or let go of control the body starts spinning too fast, if i would be smooth moovement i could handle it and see where it would lead, but the speed is insane it would kick the brain out of my skull

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    14 hours ago, OctagonOctopus said:

    @Giulio Bevilacqua

    There is a therapist who specializes in treating people dealing with Kundaini, Tara Springett, her books helped me a lot with dealing with negative side effects that can come from Kundalini.

    She also does online video session with people, although I haven't done one with her before. You might want to consider talking to her, or reading one of her books on dealing with Kundalini. 

    I will check her . Have you ever tried shaktipat ? Mayve these could help the enrgy move

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    14 hours ago, eaaaeaeae said:

    @Giulio BevilacquaI don't have the picture of what happens, but even if involuntear movements are a very very very very bad thing, have you considered that suicide is way worse? Maybe you can have this problem and be fine, till you search for other solutions. Maybe it's treatable. 

    They are people that have lost their libs and still don't suicide, even though I consider this to be tragic 

    Could those involuteer movements be cause you don't eat well or for some other decision in your life, like caffeine overdose.

    I am  no doctor, I am just trying to think solutions, these solutions may be wrong 

    Yes i have considered this option. And that is the only thing that is holding me right now. Maybe i'll get trgough it, somehow.

    No, it's not food. The movements occur to relese psychic tensions, in my case they are in the belly. At the end i am not against these movements, it just i can not phisically hold them or deal with , due to their intensity,