Giulio Bevilacqua

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  1. Hi. I'm experiencing a crucial moment in my life with lots of decisions. I'm thinking to study at university to have a cultural and education basis for my self . I would like to study Antropology/Religions/Oriental civilizations. There are a lot of courses like Indian Philosophies/Western Philosophy/ Chinese Japanese History , modern History , And the literatures of the East Like Turkey or South America. Also Buddhism, Hinduism, Christianity and so on . And you have also to learn a foreign leanguage like Sanskrit . I have a little fear that all this knowledge will influence in some way my Spiritual journey, maybe too much theoretical stuff in my mind. The university is 3 Year long. Another point is that I have to spent 1 and half hour in train to reach university. If I go there I'll finish when I'm 23 years old, so maybe after I could also focus on other things. What do you think ?
  2. Hello everyone. I'm facing an obstacle during my consciousness path, it regards people around me. The more I become conscious the more others are irritated by me. I really feel to be my self, I do not talk to much, only when I feel it is necessary and spontaneous. When I listen to people most of the time I'm empty inside my self and others perceive as if I I'm not listening to them. My mother got very angry and aggressive for my behaviours she says I'm like a ghost. This makes me feel uncomfortable because I do not want to make then feel such feelings or ideas but at the same time I do not want to loose my presence awareness. Most of the people sees my like a weird and strange one. How could I balance such a situation ?
  3. On an existential level I haven't found a meaning/purpose in life. When It comes to social "individual" beings things get more complicated. So many people are stuck in this endless loop of "what is my purpose in life ? " The first one is to be alive and experience life day by day, but of course we have to perform some activities in our social life. Here comes the problem, "what should I choose , what should I do ? " Many are choosing blindly without any sense of Inner awareness, they are compulsive. Others choose things that they are good at, talent,passion and so on. The rest of the people are scratching their heads to figure out what they want to do in their lifes. The main problem in my opinion about the idea of Life Purpose is that we think something is better than something else, you make a comparison and so a distortion of Life. For example : Cooking and Painting . I do not know which one to choose . I love both. In a bigger wiew they are the same, there is no difference, only because we think on is better than the other we get stuck and confused. Preference always refers to our conditioned personality, we are not more able to enjoy whatever comes our way, because our egoic likes and dislikes have distorted reality. If I choose cooking and get absolutley involved with it where is the problem ? If I choose painting and get absolutely involved with it where is the problem ? The content of the activities are different but the Inner experience is the same . Of course we need to look at what we are good and what out capabilities are best at. I'm not saying that this is thruth. It is a just a reasoning that I've build in these days. Please tell me what is your opinion about. Sorry for my English I tried my best.
  4. Look in your email . Unwanted emails
  5. https://yogitonics.com/shivas-112-ways-to-attain-enlightenment/ Very interesting how many techniques there are. Useful for daily practice everywhere evrymoment
  6. I have always enjoyed and felt a deep love in helping others, especially trough talking. I would like to create my life purpose around this. Helping others in some way. The most beautiful dream is to be a spiritual teacher, but that requires a deep realization inside yourself in my opinion and it is not something that you can strive to become. Other ways would be to be a therapist, but here in Italy you have to go trough an endless process of academic formation . 5 years in university and other 8 to become a therapist. And the idea to study academic psychology seems very hard if you have got some spiritual realizations. An other way I thought is though Yoga maybe I can combine it with something else, writing books and so on. I really enjoy teaching and helping so this could be a good point. What do you think , are there some other ways ? Thank you
  7. Most of the spiritual teachings (if not all) says that we are not the body. I can I understand that I am not my thoughts because I can clearly see that they are only accumulated stuff from external situations. But how with the body ? Many says that it is an accumulation of food that I have gathered with time. My mind tries do understand how I can not be the body and I think the problem here is the limit of my logic. So how to go foward ? I mean how can I not be the body ? Why should I not be the body ? If I'm not the body I do not exist but I feel that I exist
  8. This leads me only to a conceptual belief . God is just a word for me, in this stage.
  9. Yes fully understand this . But what should I be ? If I am not the body I am nothing but I feel to exist
  10. Yes . I feel a very strong emptiness inside me . Not having the image of me "being the drummer of the band" makes the ego scream
  11. Two days ago i decided to leave my band members. I wanted to start new, making new experiences and so on. Also because the main aim in the band was becoming famous. I was also worried about my personal Growth because they where quite unconscious. In the beginning I was sure to do this , but now that I have done it I'm suffering a lot and doubts are arising if I have done the good thing or not. My mind sends me only the beautiful moments that I have had with them and this makes me feel very nostalgic and guilty. It feels like I had a heavy break up with a girlfriend. I do not understand why in the beginning I was clear and secure about what to do and now all this shit comes up.
  12. I would suggest to observe yourself . Your tendencies and so on. In my opinion it is useless to get rid of bad habits by changing them or resisting them because they really exist only in your mind. The more you become conscious of your patterns the more things will fall apart by itself and the so called good habits will manifest spontaneously.
  13. "A journey of thousand miles begins with a single step. " Lao Tzu Try to focus on the process . Enjoy the process . The growth and the failures. Often we get coguht up in the fears of failures on the path. They will be there, you can not deny them. But how can you develop without failures ? Take the step and enjoy the rest of the trip whatever may happen. But one thing has to be always with you. Your absolute involvement. Good luck
  14. Samadhi on Youtube pt1 pt2 pt3
  15. I found my self in long periods of indecision . I decided to study it, how it works and why. I realized that is a big illusion of fear. If you are struggling with it , this can be helpful. This article is very well structured with lot of resources. http://www.nomadpsychologist.com/uncategorized/make-important-life-decisions/
  16. https://www.innerengineering.com/diwali?utm_campaign=iec_chennai_dec19&utm_medium=social&utm_source=youtube&utm_content=diwali_ieo_video_unlisted&utm_term=sg_message_email Sadhguru offers inner engineering online for free in occasion of Diwali. Only till October 28.
  17. Very beautiful. But in practical very difficult ahaha
  18. After deep realizations and glimpses I find my self to rebuild the fundaments of my life that in the past I have built unconsciously. It can be hard to start things again from the floor. I have a big contrast within my self with the actual band I'm playing in. The level of consciousness is quite low in the other members. The main aim is to become famous and make Mooney. Nothing wrong in making Mooney. But the Inner tendencies are very egoic. So sometimes one part of me tends to follow the flow of ego ➡️ wants fame and recognition. But there is a bigger part that denies it. I enjoy to play with them but I'm very scared that this situation can cause some damage on my spiritual level because there are a lot of compulsions in them, mostly on the sex level. In that situations I feel very distant and different. When I make in my mind the decision to leave a fear appears about a future regret "you could have been famous and have a financial security" and so on. I just wonder if It can be dangerous or not. "Should I stay or should I go ?" I"m so weak in this point.
  19. TThis time is very precious. Could you stay in this job and at the same time be happy ? That is a big one for spiritual practice. It is not going to be eternal. This can be you best sadhana. Are you crawling trough your work or are you dancing ? You can push your self above your stronger barrier➡️ Your likes and dislikes. It's a precious occasion !! :))
  20. Hey I know what it feels like to be in this stage. I'm 21. The greatest mistake I've made was FEAR ! Yes. Fear of making a mistake,fear of not doing the perfect decisions, fear of change , fear of leaving wrong relationships. Take courage now ! Experiment . Do not be afraid to do wrong things . You have this time now to take wrong paths. One of the most important things to do in this age where we have the necessary energy is to know how to handle our body/emotions/mind. In my opinion this is the most important sadhana you can do right know apart of what you are going to do materially with your life.
  21. Buy the "Inner Engeeniering " book of Sadhguru. The you can find a good introduction of what yoga is and what it's not so that you can clear all your doubts about it. If you want the practical part I would suggest you the Inner Engeniering Program total. There you can taste what real yoga can do, not the superficial yoga studios in California. You can find this programs all over the world .
  22. Thank you all
  23. Hi. Why should i trust my feelings and emotions in situations like making decisions ? I really doubt evry thought and emotion. Why should a "bad" feeling be wrong and a "good" feeling be right ? I really can not trust them fully. I always wait for that perfect feeling before taking an action, and often it really doest not express it self and so it takes a lot of time before i decide something. Is intuition a an emotion/object in consciousness , or only a knowing ? Also this famous concept of "gut" is an illusion in my opinion. Like sadhguru says " The way you think is the way you feel " and vice versa. What do you think ? I'm curious how you see this . Thank you 🙏
  24. If we take the example of making decisions. You follow something (could be thought,emotions,sensations) and you trust them so to speak.
  25. Such beautiful words