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  1. These are things that you can heal. If you do have the time and money, there exist plenty of services that can help with that. I remember how Leo searched high and low trying everything to figure out and heal his health problems, I suggest you do the same.
  2. Committing suicide for anything other than economic reasons is just retarded, and a waste of life you could be enjoying. The point of it all is to actually let go of your sense of separate ego identity, and let your true self embody your body while still alive and actively participating within the human dream.
  3. One that occurred to me recently while thinking about the recent suicide: Leo gives you the impression that death = infinite unconditional love-bliss, complete understanding, total onenss and all the other facets of enlightenment. Though he clearly and overtly discourages his viewers from doing any physical harm to themselves, some will inevitably jump to that conclusion, thinking themselves to be so fed up with life, or such a spiritual badass that they can take a short cut and jump straight to enlightenment by suicide. The bias of course being that Leo and everyone else alive reading this are alive. Whatever levels of consciousness are reached, that consciousnes also resides in a living human body looking through physical eyes. What if maybe, possibly, perhaps, "enlightenment" as anyone can conceive of it from the human perspective, is only possible for incarnated beings. What if those who have died before reaching that level of consciousness in their lifetime do not become instantly "enlightened" upon death, and instead, will return in physical form for as many lifetimes as it takes before that self-realization unfolds while alive? I can't claim to know, point is that having mystical experiences of any sort, while giving you sharable insights into reality, doesn't necessarily mean you know what would happen (in the proximate sense) after anyone else becomes physically dead for real, permanently.
  4. As I've recently read Robert Monroe's books and those of his student Bruce Moen, they repeat at the beginning of the books the affirmation they use before out of body exploration. What may be helpful is something similar to start videos and articles: A guiding affirmation, much like "setting your intention" at the beginning of a yoga class, hyping youself up before going to an important meeting, or a mantra before bed to train for lucid dreaming. Restating some of the basics, without sounding like a cultic mantra. Things Leo reiterates frequently like Although material reality including the body is imagined by consciousness, we never intend to cause physical harm to it. In fact, maintaining your health within the life-dream is fundamental to spiritual growth.... It is the false self that dies when the ego falls away, you need not fear your body harmed by transcending the ego identity, nor will suicide give you a shortcut to enlightenment.... I'll also mention that these books mentioned really connect a lot of things that Leo never covers, or dismisses as "new-age." A few months ago I got curious about all of the in-betweens, the infinite complexity between baseline human consciousness and infinite God-consciousness. Having a bit of direct experience with this and reading the direct experiences of others paints a much more complete picture of reality, rather than just thinking when everyone dies they have a full awakening, remember that they're God and that's it. In this sense, the psychadelics, dream hacking/astral projection and meditative states that take people into these other in-between consciousness levels are beneficial, since then one would not fall into the trap of thinking suicide is a guaranteed direct shortcut to full enlightenment. Even just learning about them as a complement to enlightenment teachings would probably dispell that myth.
  5. As someone who's spent a decade on 4chan before "becoming spiritual," I find Leo's attitude very relatable, and quite helpful actually. High consciousness shitposting ftw.
  6. Feel the raw sensation of the emotions instead of trying to label and conceptualize them, like experience the full force of the feelings in your body instead of converting them to abstract ideas in your head.
  7. Nah, plenty of interactive scheduling programs already exist, including those which remind you to get up from your chair or take a break from looking at your phone, which IMO are the most useful.
  8. Looks like psychedelic therapy is accelerating towards mainstream now.
  9. It's become clear by now that there is no lasting immunity to COVID-19 and that this shit will never go away. But many doctors and scientists speculate that as the virus mutates it will gradually decrease in severity and become like another common cold. So I looked for historical examples of this and found one. No way to know for sure if what is now the OC43 coronavirus jumped to humans in present-day Uzbekistan before spreading rapidly around the world and recurring in peaks for several years, but based on historical accounts that seems to be the case.–1890_flu_pandemic#Coronavirus
  10. Few people actually trust him anymore, but think 4 more years of the same clown show as better than the alternative currently presented.
  11. Camming for donations and selling homemade videos on pornhub and onlyfans.
  12. No matter how tired I am, even when acutely sleep-deprived I can always just get up and go walk outside for hours, or do physical things whether it's cleaning and organizing, the laundry, peeling vegetables, kriya yoga, washing dishes. On the other hand, trying to do anything productive while stationary makes me feel physically and mentally fatigued. It has been only increasingly so, the phenomenon is what I've called "computer brain-melt syndrome," but it's also the case for reading, writing or any other activity done sitting idly. This is natural though, sitting is what is the problem. I was never successfully conditioned by society to plant myself and be productive, I never shed the primal inborn impulses to walk, run, jump, climb, dance, roll around, and move my body every which way. When moving I feel intelligent and creative, but when sitting and trying to be productive my brain turns to mush, unless I'm just consuming content, or delivering a stream of consciousness monologue, as I'm doing now. At 11 a psychiatrist recommended I take medication for ADD/ADHD, but my parents refused it, and I somehow managed to drag myself through graduating high school, scarred by the trauma of being forced to go sit at a desk for several hours a day for several years. As of now solution for myself is to prioritize physical activity, and minimize any time spent sedentary. There is only so much time in the day, and getting in a few hours of walking outside and a few hours of active movement working out or doing yoga. mantra and breathwork at home every day is prioritized. Gradually I am spending less and less time idle except if it's watching useful videos, meditating or sleeping. But I do realize how lucky I am to have the luxury of breaking away, having no commitments and responsibilities that require parking my ass and overclocking my brain on the regular. Since COVID-19 hit I realized I'm actually living the dream! With nowhere to go and nothing I need to do, life has shifted into alignment with my true desires. I enjoy walking more than anyone I know, just spending several hours walking around outside by myself is a great joy and a day well spent. I love the feeling of walking down an empty sidewalk in a beautifully landscaped residential area, seeing the path stretch out into the distance with no one walking towards me. In this sense I'm glad others don't know this joy, because then there would be more people to ruin the serenity and have to dodge on my walks, or these days put on a mask and walk 2 metres over in the grass or street. It's not normal to just stroll around aimlessly for hours, when I tell people what I do they think it's crazy and a waste of time, but it makes me very happy, it feels natural, or the most natural thing to do in my environment. Human body was designed to move constantly, and spending lots of time sitting (or standing) in place is unhealthy, and will manifest many subtle and not so subtle physical and mental health problems. I have compassion for masses on their asses, because for most of them it is their means of making a living, and for learning, entertainment and productivity. Whether you're reading books, working at a desk, looking at a screen, driving, or using this website, that is all stationary activity, where your body barely moves, it's just sitting there. All the progress we've made in technology, and everything we have to learn comes at the cost of neglecting our bodies, like we're just a brain connected to a computer. Most don't think twice about sitting, it's what they were conditioned to do in school, and most activities that aren't actively doing something with the body means basically sitting around, being sedentary, inactive. All the comforts of modern life I enjoy exist because people spend long hours sitting in front of a screen designing them, and driving the trucks, ships and airplanes that make it all possible. So I do see this as a dilemma for the progress humanity, and perhaps some of you also, when so much of life involves being inactive, parking your ass and overclocking your brain. More and more sedentary learning time required for society to function and for people to progress. More and more aspects of live relegated to being done sitting or standing in front of the computer, and it will only get worse. Sitting is the new smoking, but even the doctors who tell you that are chronically sitting much of the time every day. Sitting long hours for work can't be demonized because it's a step up from grueling physical labor, and sitting at a computer at home earning money instead of working as an employee is what many idealize for making a living. If I tell anyone not to sit so much, it feels like I am talking down to them, since I have the privilege of avoiding the sedentary lifestyle, my only limitation in this regard is my own laziness and addiction to consuming media. But even when I did neglect my body and spend several hours a day sitting at the computer jerking off to porn, marathoning shows or whatever else, going for long walks kept me in a good mood and full of energy. It's why I still have my health after spending what feels like 3 lifetimes worth of sitting in front of the computer myself. Something about just walking, so simple, and I don't feel the same way working out in a gym, running, cycling or anything else, enjoying a good long walk with no definitive route, destination or timing other than the position of the sun is the greatest feeling for me and I think you should try it, and do whatever you can to sit less, move more. You've probably dreamed of what it would be like if you had enough money that you would never need to work again. The better dream is to have a lifestyle where you are free to move your body whenever you want, and conversely to avoid having to sit in front of a screen constantly. This post written while alternating between sitting over a yoga block, sitting on the edge of the bed, kneeling, squatting, standing with one knee resting on a table, and standing up straight.
  13. And there are extensions to download videos or the audio from a YouTube videos.
  14. I don't see the point if you use adblock, and it ads to subscription creep. Feels a lot easier to minimize any recurring charges and if you really want premium/paywall content just buy it or select pay-per-view. Right now I only paid for subscriptions to Amazon and a local photographer who makes softcore content with female models.
  15. If all travel is grounded and everyone (except utility workers, medics and first responders) gets a 1 months stockpile of food and stays in their home (or quarantine trailer/other makeshift accommodation for the homeless) for an entire month, it would get rid of the virus. Like a great purge. Not a chance in the summer, but during colder weather and shorter days, with higher susceptibility to illness and people more prone to being inside anyways, I'm sure some countries will try this strategy. On a related note, the reason it's gotten out of control here in California is because people are gathering together outside, at restaurants, in yards, and having even more get-togethers inside homes. Makes sense though, I'm a loner myself but normal people go nuts isolated, and were like fuck this shit, let's enjoy summer, hang out and hook up. Yet the government is citing a few cherrypicked examples of business who didn't follow the rules to justify shutting it down again. Masks and spacing were required everywhere inside or in crowded places already, so that wasn't the problem, it's the private house parties that spread it. But muh freedoms. This isn't the UK or where police can go door to door to make sure you're not having anyone over for tea and crumpets.
  16. Alcohol addiction hasn't been a problem for me unlike other things, because it's very obvious how shitty I feel when I drink too much, or two often. I choose to avoid hard liquor, except for the occasional mini added to another drink, but am fine with having 2-4 beers or white claws one or 2 days a week. Or none at all for a few months at a time. This spring I thought I would not drink because it's just not necessary I don't need it, but a few times when I ordered kombucha from Amazon, they sent an alcoholic variety as an automatic substitute for something out of stock, and wasn't going to waste it. Then realized how ridiculous it is being straight edge, makes as little sense to me as drinking daily. Also fuck everyone who shames people for drinking or says it's un-spiritual. Alcoholic beverages are the most accessible, and for many of us the only readily available tool to temporarily alter our state of consciousness instantly, real benefits to being more open minded and creative. To use it wisely is to let go of self counsciousness, break old routines that don't serve us, develop new habits that we stick with even in a sober state. To use it unwisely would be to use alcohol as a crutch you depend on rather than something you do for fun occasionally.
  17. Yep, I just choose a time when I will first eat, and 8 hours later when I will not eat afterwards, fast the other 16 hours and stick to it every day (allowing for one day a week when I have an online event that runs later and I can't eat during). Seems absurdly simple but powerful, it's a new habit for me, but quality of life noticeably improved already, and the discipline is starting to carry over into other areas of life.
  18. Assuming it is even is possible to make a vaccine that works long term, yes, since I'm sure it will be mandatory for just about everything. Unless I take a test that shows I've been exposed to SARS-2 without noticing and developed lasting immunity. Global pandemics kill the anti-vaxer movement.
  19. Absolutely plenty of then on youtube you can search for. Best investment I made last month was a thick latex yoga mat, too heavy to ever bring to an IRL yoga class, but at home, it's allowed me to do all kinds of dance cardio core workouts with much more intensity than if I was just stomping on the floor. Gained visible abs despite eating too much.
  20. And after re-reading my post I cried for some reason, tears of gratitude and relief it seems.
  21. I've never done so much deep breathing before, and I never had the discipline to actually do a full yoga and pranayama class at home. Now that that's the only option, I'm doing it all the time, not at all self-conscious to make loud noise and chant the mantras with all my heart and voice. Less than a year ago I would often go long time without chanting mantra at home, only at a yoga class, and be pretty lazy and self neglecting. Ironically I've never felt healthier in some ways, literally forced to not take things for granted. All those solo projects I've been putting off working on and finishing, everyday health habits to make and stick to, being mindful of how I use every waking moment, it took this shit to get myself in order. If I feared catching the corona or if things would be like this forever I supposed I'd just drink, jack off, play video games and watch TV all the time. Of course there is the occasional moment sulking and even crying once in a while, I can just change my state by going back to deep breathing. There has been fake news going around that filling up lungs and holding your breath is a self test for the virus, but just doing it as an exercise, and to an extreme, like breathing so deep it feels like your lungs will explode, holding breath over a minute, then exhale slowly as you can, it really stretches out the lungs and keeps them healthy. Also lifts my mood back up to 9/10 and full of energy. Now I wonder just why in the heck I didn't do this every day before, as well as all the other pranayama, which purifies my mind, strengthens my body, and is basically like getting high off oxygen and vagus nerve stimulation. Being a yogi and meditator but also suffering from the social isolation and touch deprivation which has merely just begun, and reaching just the tip of awakening a few times before then chickening out, it seems inevitable I will face that fear and wake the fuck up for real this time during the next few months. As it's only been a week or 2 of this madness in the West, I'd expect many on the depressive side of things will go through Eckhart Tolle style intense awakenings as a result of extreme stress and mental breakdown.
  22. This was my mantra for 30 years, I never asked to be born, didn't choose to exist here, all this was forced upon me, it'y my parents fault I am alive. Then I had a mystical experience, and the first thing that happened when consciousness started to leave the body is a direct remembering that it did choose this life, it created the whole thing. Intuitively it felt exactly what it was like before being born, as if no time had passed, as if there were no such thing as birth or death. Before that point spirituality was just something I did to cope with life. And though I haven't yet went deep enough behind the veil to figure out what life is all about, or if I have some purpose of being here in human form, there is a pervading calmness, even in the worst of times I can return to it. Because now I've experiences firsthand that this is all a dream, everything is divinity, everything is okay, there is nothing to be afraid of.