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I thought his thread would be best choice for this question So lately i have been looking for sensations in my body when i feel emotions. Every single time i have felt the emotions mainly in my upper chest, look at the picture for specific area There has been also feelings on my upper abdomen, but less so. So i was wondering if this could have something to do with heart chakra?

I was pretty heavily alcoholic (2-3 heavy drinking nights a week) when I watched Leo's video on "awaraness alone is curative" and derived my own version of the method descriped in the video to get rid of alcohol and my method went like this: 1 when at home, take a bottle of whisky and pour yourself a shot 2 everytime you get a feeling that you need to take a shot, or if you think about alcohol, or even if you look at the shot you have to pick it up 3 pull it under your nose and smell it, think how it tastes, how it makes you feel, the hangover, how it affects your social situations, future and basically tap into every negative emotion that you have with alcohol and dvelve in it 4 you should notice your hand shaking as it becomes impossible to drink that shot 5 dispose of the shot when you go to sleep During my first 2 weeks i did this excersise countless times. The first day i did it over 15 freaking times. After those first 2 weeks i just dropped the method and in the past 2 months, i have gotten only once heavily drunk, and few nights i have gone with max 6 drinks. Changed my life Edit: funny thing, at one point i tried to force myself into drinking the shot, but everytime i tried i just couldnt. Then my mind literally began to distract me from focusing on the shot with all kind of imaginations and thoughts Edit2: if someone here tries out this technique, please PM me for your results. I have noticed that it works much better with hard addictions such as alcohol, tobacco and drug addictions but with minor addictions with less noticable side effects its less effective

I think so, too. Blindly believing in and only the Sadhguru and his cult(or the system built around his followers, if you prefer that) is like shutting everything else out of your belief system is like being a scientist and then shutting your eyes to spirituality and vice versa. If i had to choose one thing to take from his teachings, it would be his saying: "If you hate a man today, why would you hate a man tomorrow?" Such a simple sentence but oh so powerful to me.

Exactly this. I have noticed that whenever i go to my childhood home for extended period of time (basically summer vacations) i tend to gravitate towards my old bad habits. You just have to push through them. Practice mindfulness and change what you need, accept everything else If your mother keeps irritating, consider renting an apartment or try to figure a way to deal with your mother. In the worst case scenario your mother is lost in the web of beliefs and wont come out even if you tried your everything to help her. Sadly, i have witnessed it in first person as my mother lost her job and fell under alcoholism after she was unemployed for 6 years. I have tried to help her in every way possible, try to help her get a job, try to help her with her marriage, try to help her with her emotions, i have even cried with her and the moment it looked like things would go better, everything would just crash even worse. Now i have simply accepted that she's a negative force pulling down my whole family with her, but i won't let her pull me down with her

Well, when i wake up i most often masturbate. Not every time, though. Sometimes i browse 4chan, or masturbate while i browse 4chan. That takes about 20-180 minutes, depending on the day and my motivation really. Then i usually make myself some porridge and add some lingonberries and vegetable fats to it to make it actually taste good. Then i usually meditate for about 20 minutes, and during meditation i think how i should meditate longer times than just 20 minutes, and also i feel the need to get over with my meditation so i could eat my lovely oat-porridge with the bitter-as-fuck lingonberries which i have no idea why i keep adding it into my porridge. After my meditation i obviously engorge with my porridge and take small sips of my only glass of semi-skimmed milk for the day Jesus that milk tastes good (This is actually how the 60-240 minutes of my first hours go by)

Am I wrong to think that a high-schooler in the field of self-actualization should spend his summer with having fun and doing high-school age stuff alongside awareness practice instead of going to hardcore meditation retreats? Like do all the shit you like to do, spend time with friends, play games, be aware of the laziness you encounter with the early steps of self-actualization and shit like that. To be a child, not child monk. PS: I envy you Xin! When i was your age i was just wasting my time playing videogames (Edit: The guy is British and in high-school so he is maximum of 15 years old, how the fuck do you go traveling around the world or take retreats at that age? Im actually more curious than certain)

Do you mean i can build an environment that makes me motivated AND helps me to clean up my home? Thats AWESOME ? all my life i have thought about getting a big room with a specific room for building my study, when i had the possibility to turn my 1 room apartment into a temple @smd I resonate with the thought to action part. My problem has been to start and to keep going, but the latter one has been only with things i didnt find positive motivation with. Thanks all for great answers ?

Whenever im away from home, i get these bursts of motivation to do things like making an idea-map on my weaknesses on poker play and things i need to improve in my play, or to meditate, or to finally start a mindfulness practice etc. Like today when i was at work i couldn't wait to get home to write down my plans for poker and i imagined myself making the mind-map, i imagined myself watching the poker videos and writing down facts that could improve my play Then i get home and i start to actually do the plan, and BAM! All motivation disappears for no reason and i get cravings to play video games or go to 4chan and waste my time in that fashion. Has anyone else had this kind of problem and if so, how have you got ridden of it?

TL;DR Yes and no I can't say im escaping negative feelings, but i had long and hard look into what motivates me. I noticed that those chores i have no problem doing brought a vague smile on my face, and when i looked into that emotion i noticed that, for example meditation which i recently picked up is linked with strong positive understanding and picture of what happens when i build enough awareness (I felt an absolute bliss and happiness when i was walking in forest and i just crave to tap into that feeling) When i thought what motivates me to learn poker first thing that came to my mind were the positive and happy feelings that i had when i was brainstorming poker play with my best friend and actually found out that i have excellent poker face and good sense of reading body signs. But then i thought what motivates me to learn poker at web-casino, and it was "i want to stop losing money" and when i started to look into my motivation to use the material i have been listening and watching to stop losing money, i noticed that its dull and boring as fuck. So, in a sense i don't have positive motivation to learn internet casino, but i do have positive motivation to learn poker with my friend, which i think is more about my passion to psychology and healthy competition than making money Dude, you saved a lot of my time and frustration! Can you recommend a book that can help teach me to build positive motivation around things that i feel are necessary for me? EDIT: Along with the motivation mega-thread, i'll be looking into that too

Are you me? It frustrates me that i have to sleep 9 hours a night to function properly. I used the Runtastic Sleep Better application to find out my sleep pattern, and found out that towards the end of the week i keep going to light state and awakened state of sleep more and more. My doctor said that maybe its the stress, maybe its because i use the application that lies to me (results can lie, trends dont) or that i have been light sleeper all my life and i should not be worried about it. Just in case it is the stress, does anyone here know a method to relieve stress daily/once a week to normalize sleep pattern?

Gee! I wonder what could possibly be the answer! But no no no, just keep sitting and complaining, maybe you can buy an indian hat and smoke a peace pipe and hope that magical scorpion crawls out of your toaster and tells you the ultimate truth about jews.

Meditate and build your awareness, and you will find more answers than any test

This has been a problem for me too as i have blue beliefs for maintaining our army and borders, while i have orange beliefs of individuality and i have strong green beliefs of doing my all to keep the peace(which ironically strenghtens my blue ideas), i have very strong emotions, no problems with femininity and i can see the beauty in things like an old movie where there is a dog that have died tens of years ago, but in my minds eye i kind of see the life of the dog and i become happy for the joy it has brought into the world, and still brings in form of this old movie. Ideologically if every single people on the planet was a perfect green, the planet would be saved. But here we stumble upon the problem of many green people, which is blind belief to the ideology and not taking in the fact, that if a country became 100% green while the rest of the world stays the same, there is a high danger that the country is occupied by tanks of a blue country within a century. What i am attempting to do is that i try to abolish my blue ideas, delve into the orange ideas, research them and try to move to green. When i feel like i am truly in green stage and there is no residue left from stage orange or blue, then i will look back and wonder if it was right move to fully leave the stages. I do this because if i don't keep the possibility of going back to holding orange and blue values, then my mind probably wont let to let go of these values in the first place Hope i could help PS: How i like to rationalize this is that i can become even stage yellow, but still understand the need for blue and orange and use those values to bring more people closer to my stage. I believe that the reason why Leo says that "you cannot move to a higher stage until you become the earlier stage" is, that you cant turn blue country to green, or orange country to yellow etc. Its too much change that just results in a huge ego backlash. So if you are yellow and you want to raise a red country to your own level, then you have to "turn yourself into red/blue stage individual" and use the red/blue ideologies to turn this country to sufficient level of blue. After that is done, you use parts of blue/orange to turn the country to stage orange. I like to believe that this is why Leo says "Dont skip the orange stage and rush to green, dwelve in the orange stage and understand what it means to be orange" or something like that. Please correct me if im wrong EDIT: -C. G. Jung, in his book "Memories, Dreams, Reflections" recalls a conversation he had with a Native American man: The whites eyes have staring expression. They are always seeking something. What are they seeking? The whites always want something, they are always uneasy and restless. We do not know what they want, we do not understand them, we think that they are mad.

Something i dont understand about spiral dynamics is that am i supposed to drop all blue ideologies in order to ascend to orange? I mean, i defend gays whenever someone starts talking shit of them, i know personally a man who is living inside a woman's body, i know multiple Estonian people, people of Russian descend who came from Estonia and Filippino people who are more intelligent and more understanding than many people of my own nationality and i believe strongly in the right of moving to another country if your intentions are good, i have strong interest in different cultures and have spent a lot of time with the said Estonian, people of Russian descend and Filippino people talking of their homes, how their system works and how their culture treats different kind of people (FYI: In Filippinos, they don't kill all the drug users. They force the users into detox centers until they are stable enough to continue living without drugs. However, they do attack and destroy mafia facilities and headquarters) But what i don't understand that... Am i supposed to accept multiculturalism in the way the media depicts it? Am i supposed to accept all the people who come here "escaping war" and then start throwing the food we give them on the ground and start demanding cars and shit? I don't want my country to turn into Sweden, where there is literally places where they fight with grenades and circumcise little girls! One thing i really don't understand is that in Spiral Dynamics its very blue thing to support mandatory army. Paid army would never be enough to protect my country against the red machine if they decided to do what they did in Ukraine. Our mandatory army is not to fight. We train every men for a year so we could inflict as much economic damage to the attacker, and after the attacker takes over we stay guerilla fighting, destroying their resource trucks and infrastructure in order to prevent the attacker using them in order to slow their journey deeper into Europe. When we go to war, we already know we lost. Why are we this stupid? Its because the stupidest of man in power understands that their best interest is NOT to lose their army and their economic wealth for bunch of rubble. Our mandatory army is better at keeping peace than all of the nuclear weapons in the world. Am i truly going to stay blue forever if i believe in this? I'd love to rant more about the accepting of SJW and their demand of everyone having to fill cunninglus forms but that's already stage orange which im clearly not. PS: I wrote this message out of pure triggering of the Spiral Dynamics blue and orange video. I went through multiple stages of understanding, anger, sadness, thoughts of giving up actualization and more anger. Im not a troll, and i genuinely want to know why i should change the beliefs i stated before in order to grow myself, im currently very confused.

Edit: i deleted the content on this post because my thoughts have been swinging like pendulum swing. The content of this particular post have changed so many times that reading it would make the reader more confused than me, and it troubles me that i feel the need to come back and correct myself every time i get more understanding on ego, spiral dynamics model and consciousness. I feel like im trying to comprehend high stage ideas with low stage consciousness, like a vegetarian would try when he/she would fight animal abuse with paint bucket and unexpecting victim. Thank you!

Well, damn. I just realized that i always thought myself to be accepting of other cultures, but now that i think about it i have been internally criticizing them despite letting them be. Intellectually i understand that in Russia, giving and family ties are held in high value because of the need for social support-net, but inside i have felt disgust and criticized it as "not the right way" and "i would hate to live like that". And the same goes for Filippino and Estonian culture, i have listened them but still i have thought that my culture does it the best with its superior welfare system and equal rights to school, despite the fact that there could be many things more superior in their culture to mine. (EDIT: I just realized im still thinking in the sense of "good" and "bad" since i said that there could be more superior things in their culture and there is superior things in mine. This takes some time to wrap up) So... I guess im not supposed to take the spiral dynamics in a literal sense, but to take the judgement triggering subjects in my current stage and study them, research and weed out the judgment and after there is no judgement, it doesen't matter what i believe because i have found the inner peace and not get triggered despite someone judging the subject. And that is when i can deal with it objectively without strong emotional reactions like i got watching the video? Because what i truly know about feminism and SJW? Well, i know what twitter feminists ramble about, but i never found out about other aspects of modern feminism. Maybe all feminism is not twitter feminism? Thank you Leo, you restored my faith to actualization and made it stronger

Leo has great video on the subject of "wanting to turn everyone around me yogis" (note: my description is exaggerated) In the video Leo explains how people don't generally like when they are shown why they are hurting themselves. They have countless defense mechanics in place to combat your good intention to help them. Instead of trying to help them, notice their flaws and think how their flaws apply to your own life. I watched the video a week ago and quickly found out that i am not the perfect human that i thought i was, and im in fact doing those flaws myself in varying ways. Now i try to remember this technique to grow myself and not fall back to sleep when i hang out with my friends, that's my main flaw

Hey, i got a question that dont really deserve its own thread, but its regarding ego backlash So, im weeding out bad habits and inhibiting new good ones into my life, trying to baby step it but my problem is that every time i get a feeling of success regarding my new course of life, i get immediat ego backlash with gaming, trash eating, porn and browsing. They can be very minor successes, like noticing that i have lost 1kg of fat, or i have done great deal of my school research project, or that i have meditated 20 minutes every day for a week. Have i conditioned myself to seek low consciousness activities each time i get even the smallest of success? Thanks!

Mm, i have a distant memory of sentence "you are unaware of how unaware you are" or something similar between those lines. Then again, i have experienced this state of being in the present which i felt in a forest Basically i was listening to one of Leo's videos where he talked about surrendering and forgetting future and forgetting past, and focusing on the now, and immediatly i imagined three boxes with the past, now and future, and first i thought what happened in my past, and then i saw the box cut off, slowly drifting into nothingess, then i saw the ridiculousness of time and predicament of future, and then the future box also faded away, and i was left with now. Suddenly all the trees had this new, much farther depth and a new "glow" kind of look on them, not glow in traditional sense but i interpreted it as a glowing sensation, and i was walking in the forest with a big ass smile, tens of mosquitos biting on my neck, legs and hands. I don't know why i wrote this, but i think it was because of my eagerness and want to share my experience somewhere and to get back there, to build my life around that sensation Setting daily intentions sounds very good at general. I was setting goals and reading goals for a month, but every time i wrote daily goals i would really focus on the daily, small goals rather than the big ones and in the end, i would end up with a few weeks of effective work, then huge dip and frustration as i no longer got anything done, especially if i had written it as a goal in the morning. But an intention of focus sounds flexible and simple enough to try do for a few months. I never really thought of this option and i always went with the techniques, not end goal in mind Thank you. I think joining the forum and finding the passion to seek awareness are the two best changes in my self actualization journey so far

I tried to find this topic on search, but nothing really satisfied my questions so im creating a new thread. My background: I grasped the importance of awareness about a week ago, and ever since i have been trying to focus on the present moment, every day with varying success. Walking in the forest gives me immense awareness(in the quantity that i can realize), but everywhere else its a little harder. Whenever i get an emotion, i try to focus on the emotion and be aware of what my consciousness reveals about the emotion, aswell as i try to be aware what is going on in my process of being aware of the emotion. The amount of happiness i have gained through the short moments of fully forgetting past and future have lead me to wanting to hone and extend my awareness. So i have been listening to the book "Power of now" by Ekchart Tolle and trying to grasp its wisdom. Yesterday i started working on an assembly line style job and my job is very monotonous collecting and packaging of plastic items for 8 hours every day. Previously i would have dreaded such monotonous job, but now i take it as a chance to really improve my consciousness and improve my skill of awareness while making few bucks to survive until next semester starts. But today i noticed that trying to build awareness even in such a monotonous situation is hard, and trying to be aware of the feelings on my body, sight, breathing and sense of touch all at once for 8 hours straight probably will make me more bad than good at the level of awareness i am now, so i was wondering if there was a technique developed for just the kind, or similiar kind of situations?