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Can bullying create trauma strong enough to condition feelings of unworthiness, humiliation, etc...for the following years? Contemplating about my past I can remember a year in school when I was 14 years old and this guy bullied me through the whole year. I remember some days having fear of what would happen every day, although thinking about it he didn't bullied me most of the days. I believe this bullying might have traumatised me because the previous years I was a normal kid and I hang out with people just fine. Yet the next years after this year with the bully, I started to be very secluded and not go out almost at all. From that a lot of years of self-development and healing and whatever have passed, with some success here and there but not really solving anything in terms of feeling quite right within. The thing is I´m not clear of how much do I remember about this guy. I don't know if nothing much happened or on the other hand my mind might have 'forgotten' certain memories as a defence mechanism for the trauma. Who knows.

I was going to say that ultimately it seems psychedelics can not be trusted neither for this work.

I suspect God is not a human that wants things. 🌝

Of course this is not everything that they want or a 100% way of always having success with them, but rather the disqualifying factor. In other words if you don't do this you will make things very hard for you. Kind of like going into a job interview not well groomed or well dressed. So what is it? Basically if you are approaching a women and trying to escalate with her, what women will look for is if you are being selfish or not. If subconsciously you do not really need her much, and you are doing the escalation *for her, because you enjoy projecting and embodying the caressing/leading/protecting masculine energy, she will respond very good to that The basic things are; To... Lead her Protect her Give her pleasure Etc ... If she starts to Intuit (an women are very good in this regard) that you are being an emotional vampire, looking for validation, etc ... Alarms will go up. Very fast. And when you see this you understand why most men that had always issues with attracting women have a hard time changing regardless of how much they try. Deep down the dynamics haven't changed for them. They still treating the femenine as an object to leech value from, to complete them for validation and love. This is absolutely CONTRARY to what women will value on you. You need to love the femenine for what is it, and go approach escalate with them in an offering value kind of way, never to get anything from them. More in the energy of "I embody my masculine energy and I'm going to be with this girl so my masculine energy finds expression, I'm doing this for her, obviously I'm already complete within ". Etc Basically the dynamic of leeching value vampire needs to go.

Who have had that experience while tripping, that you are in that no thought awareness, thinking you are now enlightened for life, that you have "got it", that there's no way you are losing "this", and yet eventually you "lose it"? Of course the mind will say..."is because you ingested a psychedelic, it last X hours, and then it starts to wear of". Well that is the materialistic explanation. But that's not exactly what happens. Inside the trip and when you are "enlightened" or in the state of no thought, there is clearly the revelation that there is NO TIME. There is always NOW, always. Time is not "moving". Is always NOw. You can not scape the NOW. So how is possible that you "lose" the enlightened state? Is not because the psychedelic wears off. Is because you start to tell yourself that you are in that silent awareness state because you ingested a psychedelic (you project the responsability to the substance as it has some magic power) and thus as doing that, you fall "victim" to the consensual imagined properties of the psychedelic, which is: is a drug that last X hours in the brain and then wears off, so Awareness by projecting authority to this beliefs and thoughts, it "creates" the illusion that indeed, the psychedelic is starting the wear off. (Nothing actually is wearing off, because the psychedelic is a complete "placebo" for you to Awaken). After believing this thoughts and projections, slowly Fear start to arise a little bit. A thought here, a thought there. You decide to grasp them. Bum, you lost. Again enlightenment gone. Again the illusion of thoughts. You see the Trick? Is all created by thoughts, is fucking insane.

Good observation. There is a place outside the mind where nothing of the crap we are used to exist. They say those who stay in that place long enough, end up abandoning the body (Mahasamadhi) because of the irresistible sweet Bliss and explosive 🧨 good feeling liberation that is being outside the realm and chains of the mind.

To the solipsistic warriors: "other" is also a thought 🤭

very good, totally agree 👌

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😂 Exactly. As I said in other topics, the mind is very tricky in that aspect. When you say I want to fuck my cousin is easy to see that that is very basic, animalistic ,mind, selfishness. But things as I am God or Oneness mental paradigms, they can feel as absolute, trascendental, awakening etc... They can feel as they are "different", at the end of the day is still mind tricks. Conceptual laberinth. Tricky to see it. Yeap. It does seem like that.

So the million dollar question would be, is @Inliytened1and @Razard86 in an actual consciousness/energetic state of Aloleness or are you guys holding that as ideas ? (not saying those ideas aren't true, BUT the fact is are ideas!) That's the million dollar question. Just answer that and we will shut up. (Btw, obviously when doing mechanical things like operating machinery, driving, doing a mechanical job, etc... You will not be in Absolute Aloleness state, but my question is if once you stop doing that activity, your defuault state of consciousness is that one of Solipsism).

That's a good point and I don't hear it around here almost never. I agree with inlightened says, but the thing is theorically or conceptually saying that One is Alone or that others are You/Aren't Real, doesn't change much. And that's why sometimes I just say "Ok, you are God. So what? In what does change your experience?". That's why I'm so repetitive with being focus on actual state of being. Being in an state of Oneness DO change a lot our experience. Being in an state of boundaries or mental mechanism *while holding ideas of Oneness or Aloleness, make you feel like you are Awake, but actually you are in the "pit" or the hellhole of the mind as anyone else.

@deamordeamar where you expect to make those 5000 to 7000 coding??? I almost spill my coffee when I read that. I guess getting a remote job from USA? Because if not you absolutely won't do that anywhere with 4 year experience. Don't trust statistics from the internet, they are boosted I never understand why. I'm making 24K with almost 2 year experience, and my country has above salary average than Romania. Just to give you a heads up. But my country is pretty shitty in salary, you obviously could do more by getting remote jobs from top paying countries like Germany or UK. Still, no where near those 5000-7000. Also, If you are not that passionate about coding, forget again about making big bucks of it... You can get paid well but only if you are significantly better than the majority. Unless you think you have the skill to land a remote Job from USA changing your career to coding for the money, when you already are making 2000€ in a comfortable position, is really reeeally dumb imo...but to each their own. I absolutely wouldn't do it, I would stay in your current job and create a business or find a job that actually makes money and is actually enjoyable/makes you passionate

you could say solipsism means the external world becomes also the internal world 🌝

@LastThursday Yes, 'my' experience only exists because there is a consciousness identifying with a body, thus the posibility of saying 'My perceptions' can happen. I think inligtened means that the difference between 'my' experience and 'your' experience is not real. And that means solipsism because it means there is only One Consciousnes/One energy 'alone' with itself.

You only see that as a contradiction because you haven't dissolved the boundaries that your mind is creating between your body @Someone here and the body of @Bazooka Jesus Is very simple actually. Just realize the boundaries are being created IN THE MIND! Why you give so much importance to a survival tool that is all about creating differences and boundaries? Which is precisely why all spiritual techniques are designed to stopping the mind mechanism. Stop the mechanism and there will not be more 'contradictions'.

good summary

thanks, I´ll keep researching. But my experience is that all external tools are ultimately pointless. The root solution only can come from within

Trust me, if therapists could solve things like this the world wouldn't need Ayahuasca, gurus, or what else Although the funny thing is that Ayahuasca or gurus neither can solve it. Nobody knows, is unknown territory this stuff. At this point my best bet is that more suffering and being conscious of this pain will slowly get it out of my body, but who knows

I agree, all of this are suppositions but it does look it goes in that direction if I had to bet too

mainstream Therapists understand human mind, love and consciousness the same way Ants understand quantum physics No offense to them though, they just understand the same as any other mortal: close to nothing. We are lost in the maze.

Yeah, that wasn't useful 😂 my hairdresser listens to me more than any "mental health" professional ever did 🙄

Emotions are more complex stuff. I´m talking about basic body sensations. Obviously you can have body sensations that can be registered as pain or negative, but that doesn't mean you will suffer them. If there is distance of awareness between You and thoughts, and You and Body, then whatever happens in body doesn't change your stability. You can register the information of your knee hurting, but that doesn't necessarily have to mean that you have to start making yourself suffering. This is not a belief system. I´ll give you a personal example, As someone who has gone through opiate withdrawal for countless of times, this is the perfect example of how physical suffering resides in the mind. After going it through so many times, I have verified that body discomfort does not necessarily have to mean mental suffering. You can just accept the body sensations or physical uncomfort/aching/pain, and suddenly is just that: sensations. The moment the mind starts to contextualise and create a 'story' about those sensations, that's when suffering starts. And as personal experience, you can see how how much the mind creates this stories, how much harder you can make yourself the withdrawal, or how much you can't even feel it, as I said: Body sensations (which includes 'pain sensations') is just information of the body for you. Is only when you see them as bad, dangerous, fear (innate fear about your body being in danger), etc... when suffering starts.

How to accomplish this? Almost everyfucking day I get the extremely sweet taste of that non dual wave of love, or merging and losing sense of the boundary of the body with the surroundings. But once I get up of the meditation this state rapidly fades and I'm back to "Maya". Is clearly a mastery of energies. When I sit in a certain way and do certain positions with my hands, eyes, etc ...the body becomes vibrant, and bam, pure flowing, pure Non dual Wave...I'm out of the macabre game of the mind, in the cloud of Love, in heaven, safe, completely gone. Is so frustrating to experience this a couple of minutes a day and then not being able to be there the rest of the day, can society come up for a strategy for this and stop making more fucking iPhones and Teslas as that is a meter for human development? 🤦😂

A lot of us have been there. Good spiritual progress and little with women. We find out our spiritual progress don't necessarily help in attracting women. In fact some of us start to suspect that consciousness development sometimes mean being LESS raw attractiveness because scaling up the ladder of consciousness means abandoning, putting to the side or giving less importance to survival like aspects such as bold confidence that are one of the aspects the feminine looks in the masculine. Sometimes I wonder and think and I find myself getting very very very sad. Because all of this masculine energy work is meaning for me abandoning that which fiila my soul which is profound and ecstatic states of being , it feels more congruent to me which are more balanced masculine femenine kind of energy. In the back of my mind I feel doing this work is deeply deeply deeply hurting. Is making my consciousness entangle myself in the superior/Inferior survival matrix. But at the other hand I just can't handle mentally to let go of being super attractive and burn all the karma and desire related to having successful and good relationships and sex with women. So is difficult to say. On one hand it feels os the worst mistake one can do, in other maybe is precisely maybe what it needs to be done. Nobody knows. If one is getting free or enslaving oneself even more. Time will tell I guess. But it turns out to be a bad decision it will be too late. I guess If is a bad decision I'll just reincarnate again.