Javfly33

no I thought this work wasn't about believing

It seems with women either you go full authentic, as a normal human (with its chunks of insecurities and vulnerability, with no power play shitty games...etc ), you will enjoy yourself and feel relaxed and one with her, but she won't feel shit for you. And in the other hand, if you 'build a wall' to your heart and play the masculine leadership no-self conscious vibe, she will respond so good to it, yet inside you feel DEAD, because no real connection, you just become a perfect Rock for her to lean on you, but of course not real Love, where is the you that really wanted the unconditional love? Nowhere. You just put it behind that super confident masculine rock she so much wants. There doesn't seem a scenario where BOTH are in the same harmonic vibration. Is always power games. It seems always to be this subtle game of Is either I win and you don't, or you win and I don't. Disgusting. Where is the Love? Either you connect by being vulnerable but she won't see you as that high value man, or you disconnect yourself and become a Rock and she gets attracted but she is not getting attracted to really YOU, but to the survival high masculine value you are providing. Inside you are dead, no real connection. As always, this seems to be verify what I already suspected through the last years: Love can not be found in a relationship with other person, only with God, only with reality. Seeking in creating it with another human will leave to dissappointment.

In my experience, Oneness = Love. Feels incredibly good and brutally blissful, but there seems to be an even higher place: Absolute Nothing, "no center", as @Breakingthewall says If Love/Oneness feels like Blissful unity, Nothingness feels like an explosion of empty Ecstasy. I've only touched seconds of that state of consciousness in my lifetime but they are worth decades of suffering of how it feels. And please of course let's not confuse the nothing I talk about with the advaita nothingness. The nothingness I talk about is something beyond freedom. Is an explosion of Ecstasy due to the fact of no center or self at all exists. Is pure flow of Nothing, completely empty, in all directions. Reality at this point is not "Real" or Alive. Is just Ectsay in all directions. Pd: Probably this is how it feels to be "dead". (You become Energy free from a body, and lose the imaginary self-consciousness center that existed when you had a body)

I think I get what you are saying. "nothing" can probably be at the final stage. Oneness indeed might be a consequence of a self still existing.

I'm following the techniques sadhguru and they definitely work as a charm. Is just that I don't see they last through the whole day. He advertises as "being blissful/joyful is not difficult" but I find is difficult, unless you are doing them for a job lol. (!But I might not be a good example since I'm quite entangled with crap like sex and women lately.) (But again I wouldn't be entangled with it if the practices would produce those states continually...) Yeah probably the only way is to get to a point in life where you don't give a shit about physical stuff and you can be meditating as a priority the rest of your life.

@nhoktinvt that too my friend, that too 🙏

yes, masculine circumcision is basically the same as female ablation

Yup, as I told you @Bazooka Jesus the "relative" you does not exist. As you said is a concept

@Water by the River thanks friend I´ll read it

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I think that's a good analysis. Is just tough to do all of that right lol. Although i don't agree with the part of being awesome. So if you don't do all of this things you are not "awesome"? Ok this is so true. I've wasted so many times and hopes just getting numbers but then go to nothing. I swear to myself now that everyone I ask for a phone number from now on will be only as a consequence of an already proposed/set up date/meeting up again (and exchanging numbers is a way to make that a reality (

There is a distinction between mind paradigms and ACTUAL states of being. Doesn´t matter how many beautiful stories you tell yourself about the present moment, it can never ever match ACTUAL change in state of being/consciousness. Although, is true that negative or positive thoughts can definetely modify a bit your depressed or happy state. But is still peanuts how little far you can get with any mind paradigm compared to actual opening/stepping outside the mental paradigm. Life begins when you discover there the mind phenomena (from depressive kind of thoughts to happy kind of thoughts) is the 0.1% of the iceberg, and the 99% rest is those states that are outside the mind influence. In that the FUN really begins. But as society some of us are still struggling with some parts even of basic survival, so this perspective is still an utopia for most of us. Although at the end of the day the only reason why are struggling with survival is because we are trapped in the mind hell. Most animals with an infinite less amount of intelligence are able to survive just fine. We are shooting up missiles to each other in 2023 still 🤦‍♂️

Testosterone is deeply related with masculine traits and masculine energy. Is almost guaranteed you will have a more masculine real man vibe, stronger voice, etc ... The only question is if you want to run the risk of injecting something. But I think the effectivity of testosterone is proved at this point . I don't think you will have masochistic gay tendencies with testosterone+ daily gym

Shoot up testosterone, that should help

If you silence your mind enough / get out of it completely, what happens? Well, what remains is the same that was before: A body, objects, sounds, smell. But the difference is that there is no mind projecting the belief that any of this things are 'separated', there is no mind mechanism that is cutting differences and saying 'this object is different that this other one, this body is you and this other thing is obviously not'. When this mechanism stops, there is no need to 'convince yourself you are One', rather, it is revealed that when the mind is not alive, Love is brutally unavoidable, Non duality and Direct Unity is obviously unavoidable. It is the mind that avoids it, it is the mind mechanism that creates differences, it is the mind mechanism that creates the hell. It is the mind mechanism that makes you think this is not already Heaven. What a macabre game, my god. 🤣

@Razard86 no, I just feel sad that you think I open this topics to feel superior or brag about my "states of consciousness". I wrote several topics describing the type of meditation I do so everyone can do it, I'm not special or a "genetic freak " as Leo sometimes say with some people. But you guys lately always want to make things into dick measuring contest.

@Osaid 😪

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Having a cock

What kind of freak approaches 15000 women? Gtfo lol

I kneel and pray to God (not as a guy that is above of me in the Sky, but to the intelligence and Being that right here right now, is creating this objects, persons, my body ,etc...). I kneel to the floor and pray that It shows me the Love and Dignity I am lacking. That it makes vanish the terror and horror and violence and darkness I have inside. This is the most powerful tool, because it goes to the Nucleus, is the ego finally surrendering and seeing that it is him indeed that is the darkness, the horror, the suffering. Usually as the ego we think about Life in bad ways, we project that lack of love we feel inside outside. (As Life is "tough and cruel"). This is going completely 180°. Is surrendering completely. Is realizing you can never solve this, (because you are the darkness, you can only keep creating darkness as much tools, calculations, therapy, or psychedelics you do), only God (Life, the intelligence, Love) can heal it. The way is stepping outside of yourself. Everytime you feel that horror of shame or guilt thoughts, just ask for guidance, just realize nothing will work, just ask for Love. Because only True connection to Love and God can save you. Nothing in the outside or even you with your calculations or strategies can The solution is surrendering to Love. That is the last thing the ego wants. Is precisely what the ego needs to do

@Bazooka Jesus Where you can find the absolute perspective and where you can find the relative perspective? Is there a street where is it located? Does it have a phone number where I can call? Maybe there is only one perspective (Reality, Life, this experience), and the mind calls it relative when it serves the ego? Notice how well serves the ego to exist such a thing as a relative perspective, in order to this ego keep existing.

Also I'm not talking about highs, this is non dual state, this doesn't have anything to do with drugs

I don't know, I get what you mean but I Ive heard that motto in the past by some other guy and it seems to be as magical thinking

And why this doesn't have to be 'terrible' news. After spending easily the last 10 years of my life trying to 'sort it out', and I´ve tried practically fucking everything, I´ve come to the conclusion, or at least the possibility of this being the conclusion about trauma/emotional pain: It might not be possible to eliminate it/heal it Trying to heal it and eliminate it might be more entanglement onto the trauma story, you might never get out of it. So the 'solution' might be to accept that is always going to be there. Under the hood. Certain trauma-Thoughts or energy trying to catch you. And is your responsibility of Freedom to not get entangled with them, to accept is always going to be there, like a barking annoying dog, you just close the window and let it bark until it gets tired. And why do I say this? Well, thing is, trauma might be just memory. As there is mental memory and physical memory, there is also energetic memory, genetic memory, ...etc, in the Yoga tradition they speak about more than 6-7 types of memory your system is carrying and handling it. Taking into account this, the trauma or emotional pain that you might be struggling now, might not be the result of just one single even on childhood like some people affirm, but just a whole chunk of memory, not just of your whole childhood, but of your ancestors, from first single ameba, you are carrying an enormous amount of Karma. So you unless you brute force yourself to 'clean' or 'purify' this memory (which, honestly, I don't know if its even possible to do), this memory will always be there. Our freedom might be in knowing how to handle it, put it in a bag, not carrying it on our shoulders, but like in a suitcase with wheels, so it can't touch us, so we know the pain and those thoughts is not us, is just memory. Excerpt from sadhguru: