Javfly33

There's no body just conscioussness so the question is not very easy to answer.

Yeah happened to me too. I became everything the intensity was so overwhelming I stated shouting (inside the dream)

It's the other way around. There's no physical body, street, 'dying', or thoughts, Only Conscioussness. If you don't like the name, you can call it "Pizza", either way that's what reality is, only One thing that morfs and forms duality to experience itself.

You need to do the inquiry yourself, it's impossible to get it intellectually The final answer is that everything that you see it's conscioussness and you are That (notice that if there is only conscioussness, whatever you are, must be that too) but that of course won't help you because it would be just a belief for you . So it's not a matter of where you are, you are everywhere because there's nothing or nobody other than You Lol

Haha it's you!!! Now I FUCKING GOT IT, FINALLY!!! It's all ONE CRAZY BEING dreaming up everything!! Masterpiece! ???

It depends on what is the thing I want to go deep in. If it's Spirituality, I'll do Self-Inquiry or listen to some spiritual video while I walk in nature. If it's shadow work, any kind of exercise that otherwise I wouldn't do or might have resistance sober. An example would be, if I have social anxiety and I want to inquiry deep in it, I'll go when the peak it's finishing to socialize so I can get some insights. Once I have integrated the insights, I'll probably be able to go in the peak, not to a party but maybe it could be walking around a park and going home then. Idk I think you get the point. With spirituality works different, sometimes i want to do shadow work but it turns out spiritual etc... I would say that the most important thing is to have the ATTITUDE to do work. For example I would abstain myself from listening to music or watching a show. I would understand that the session might be uncomfortable (just as therapy can be) and therefore do stuff that might make me uncomfortable. The usefulness of psychedelics basically is that, just making sure you are not using them recreationally and to do the work, and they will be hell of effective.

They don't exist but they could exist

Because I've done "a lot" (although this is relative) of spiritual work beforehand. I would say I've done in the past 12 months about 12-13 doses of 32.5ug. I first tried this dose a year ago and it resulted in an amazing insightful trip about my traumas/shadow work. Seems my ego is scared of tripping full on I thought 'at least I will do this dose and I'll gain more than doing anything'. I basically have used for psychotherapy purposes with pretty good results (but in the meantime everything has been mixing up with Spirituality and my path. Because once you start healing you discover you were not the "identify" from all the problems arise). although like I said if you can do more dose you will save a lot of time.

It's in my wishlist definitely. I love acid but I agree sometimes it is too draining, too intense, sometimes just "too much" for a human mind lol

Thanks for the message, I agree a lot of with it. Sometimes I blame myself for not "pushing myself" but to be honest maybe i just have to go slowly.

My favorite dose of 32.5ug of LSD I'm pussy to do decent doses of LSD lately, so I just do this small doses that are always better than not doing anything. Wonder what happen when I finally do a full trip or try 5-MeO. Because at small doses total surrender is not going to happen (at least for me, because I have a very VERY strong ego)

@Corpus you snorted freebase?So the burn is not that bad?

Yeah It's so simple and obvious if we just wouldn't be totally hypnotized in the mind + thoughts 24/7

? @Rilles Sit in silence and just ask yourself "What is Conscioussness?". Don't look for an answer in the mind. Try to recognize directly what it is. Try to become consciouss that conscioussness can't be a thought, therefore can't be an intellectual answer.

When I make an important decision in my life (career) my first thoughts are not about the consecuences to my life about this decision, but rather the opinion/acceptance of others about this decision. I can see if I don't solve this, life won't get better anytime soon. I know psychedelics could help me face the this fears but ironically I've been avoiding for a lot of time precisely because I always have thoughts of "what if I lose control during the trip and I start calling people or whatever withouth inhibition". Ironically this is exactly what needs to happen in order to trascend this fear. This is exactly what I REALLY want to do. But the ego is terrified of this. The ego wants to control the damaged/hurt identity he believes itself to be. This kind of thoughts (of losing control and maybe call a family member and be totally me with them) makes me always postpone the trips. Of course I know is precisely this fear that I have to surrender in order to liberate myself from the fear of the opinion of others. This has been the root of all "stories" of my life. The root of 99% suffering of my life has been this "disorder". I guess Spirituality is called a "samsara" or karma from past lives. EVERYTHING has been ruled by this in my life. I am sure this is the major roadblock, withouth a doubt, in my path towards Enlightement. There's no way I get Enlightened before surrendering and trascending this fear/ego identity story. And it seems like hiking a monstrous mountain and the ego won't let go.

That's a good start, notice how different those two paragraphs are from the above ones. All are totally understandable, be sure to "pity yourself" long enough, and be ready to start going forward mate. The fact that you lost 35k, Take it as a " good lesson " (or a good remainder). Recently I was able to choose between towns around my city to start working, and because I didn't want to ask too much, i got the worst (more distance from my home) located work. The first days I was lamenting intensely of how I have 'fucked things up' yet the latest days I realized is this kind of things that make us be aware of our problems or things that might want to solve. In your Case, it could be a great "heads up" to you to start doing serious plans about your career or life purpose.

@kag101 Which one?

Of course, but according to the late narrative in this forum, that wouldn't be enlightenment. We don't really know what is possible. But of course we should strive for the best possible scenario

Enlightement is the realization of Truth... Sometimes just a "trip more" is what it's next to realize what is true . Doesn't matter if it's trip or meditation retreat of course. I'm just saying

@Nahm By the way, the work you do in this forum helping others its so fucking awesome. Keep being awesome please.(even though I know you can't help yourself ??

@Nahm Thanks man I took a small trip today and heart again felt amazing ✨ it's all good. Remembering I live in the present and not in thoughts ??

Lol YOU ARE GOD! You'll have to ask yourself!

Amazing. Thanks for sharing.

We are waiting for the trip report bro @James123??

No, not at all. That's exactly why both can exist .