Javfly33

Who are you talking to then?

So, what are the conclusions then? Do other people (POVs) being experienced now?

Just read the Rumi famous quote: "I've been knocking from the inside". Since you are the truth, only can you know the truth. Nobody will deliver it to you. You will be your own authority.

Nice but I've tried it and no way I could sleep by 11pm if I do methylphenidate at 16-17pm

Currently no, I don't do other practices, mainly because I found a new job and I don't find so much time and energy as I had before. But before the new job I used to do 3 hours a day of Yoga and meditation. Most people who preach " sober practices are more than enough" don't realize that most people in the west just don't have time to do them. Meditation, self inquiry, yoga, imo they are potent practices when done long and intensely enough. Meditation or Yoga for Enlightement purposes is not supposed to be 1 hour a day. Hell not even for healing which ime happens also because of a high states of conscioussness. Yes of course they can heal, is just takes too damn time doing the amount you can do while maintaining a full time job I would laugh if I have to get all the healing and insights that I had until, doing 1 hour meditation and 20 self inquiry a day. Like...lol. No way.

I do have experienced a change. Always. They still are the number #1 tool for growth and change of ego. But hey maybe I just resonate too well with them and some people aren't able to get so much off them. Let people do what they work for them anyways. I don't judge people who don't take psychs and just do meditation. I expect the same treat.

Of course, God is just a word. It just describes the misterious, eternal, loving Self that created/creates Reality. So God pretty much is a good word. But you could call if Sasquatch if you'd like.

So far it seems that Enlightement is When God remembers itself and stop identifying obsessively with one of his creations (a human body). In a profound level of those questions then have not much sense but I would reply: 1- Yes. But the meaning of "existence" gets re-contextualized as imagination 2- No. God remembers itself. However it seems imaginary brain chemistry plays a role in how awake God gets in his own dream 3- Reality/You 4- No. The mind doesn't have Consciousness

Haha nice I will do it ?

So let see If I got it You are infinity, holding an infinite number of dimensions within your imagination. In each of them a random dream happens. One of those dreams is @Inliytened1 body POV. Another is @Javfly33 BODY POV. And right now Infinity is ZOOMED into @Javfly33 because it just the infinite dream that happens to be imagined. I don't know. There some piece that still doesn't completely fits. Where are you right now then? In my imagination? But what does exactly MEAN!!!

I'm truly want to fully understand this POV perspectives because this stuff ain't clear yet to me. Do you know of any videos of Leo that talks about it? The ones uploaded on the blog which he made quite a bunch of them after his several retreats . Might be a good time for me to re-watch some of those instead something "clicks" with my new recent understanding of infinity .

And is even more mindfuck that the pain is actually Love isn't?

That's the thing. I'm just one year older, and a friend has been telling me day in and day out that I should look for a woman in his late thirties. He told me indeed that I would get the best sex ever, not at all from 20 something girls.

@Gesundheit Haha I love that phrase.

Good! You will discover what Love is if you keep going! Don't be scared. Love is at the other end

You are probably right . My ego is still not purified enough to be ready to total surrender

@Litaken How can you know it? Have you actually experienced that hug from the perspective of the other person received by "You"? If not, that's just a belief let's be honest

Dramatic event ? ?

That's a nifty way to put it. But there's nothing before Consciousness? Consciousness being consciouss of itself is the same as Consciousness?

Same here. I went up to 32mg and no ego death. Might have to find another batch maybe yours is also line mine of weak. Because I really don't want to smoke it. It's too strong, plugging is the best for comtemplation and Awakening , for recontextualize the visual field you have called reality.

Would it seem like very countitive to tell you to be very Conscious and alert (Accept, observe) when you are shaking? In that moment try to discard all of thoughts of fear and just OBSERVE what is happening. Let me share with you a personal story. I used to have a "crush" towards a girl of a bookstore I used to go. When I first approach her I was shaking like mad. Thoughts of unworthiness and cringiness washed over me each time I remember how I behaved. Months later I started to work with Lsd for healing. I remember I put Young Thug's "Gain Clout" song while in the trip. Such a great wonky song. The beat made want to tremble. So I started trembling while listening to the song. And I instantly had a "flashback" how I was exactly trembling/shaking when I talked to this girl. It felt like I was literally in the same situation (Lsd can feel very real) but I got the opportunity of being in a very different state of observing myself. Instead of avoiding or escaping or judging myself, I stayed and observed what was happening. I was having anxiety towards a girl so much I was shaking. But... That's not a problem. I saw that I was as worthy as her! Because this shaking was being accepted by reality. Only a thought can tell you than somebody shaking is "less" than somebody not shaking, only a thought says that shaking like that makes me "a bad or low value person". In reality, everything is Accepted and good/valid. Is that radical and good. So yeah, I saw how that shaking was actually amazing, beautiful, valid, powerful, love. Just as her. Just as the floor we were standing while we are talking. I hope this has motivated you to accept yourself. Because this is You. You are the same shaking or not shaking. Even more you are the one who shakes, and the one who not. But this is for another story. Awesome and Valid always.

Your life, for starters.

I would surrender if I'd have all the answers. But God won't deliver truth

Impressive. Seems to good to believe, such a change in such a short time. But I guess Its possible! To get out of the prison of ego once and for all. Thanks for that text, I'm happy for you, there's hope

First time I've heard someone quitting caffeine and it's happy about it Lol