Javfly33

You can buy sex. But You can't buy the "psychological aspect" that guys are pursuing when pursuing sex. The validation high. That self-esteem-profound self-love wound that runs deeper than the ocean. The mindfuck is that girls think men are crazy for sex, but it's just a means to an end, what they really crave is the validation and the "yes, I am loved and sexually desired by a girl I consider high value!". That is more worth than 50 hired-escort sex experiences! @Preety_India

In my short experiencing approaching when I was 18-19, You shouldn't have problems with 1-2 years above than you. If they are +4 years above than you then it gets more challenging definitely

Why you assume your personality is that? Being a "nice guy" is not a personality, its a disease/bad learned behavioral pattern. And it can be healed. Also, have you ever tried things like phenibut, etc? They can't be used as a coping mechanism but they can help revealing to yourself that you don't have a "shitty personaltiy" but rather some parts of your mind doesn't function correctly. Wish you luck and as always my dms are open if sometime you want to chat

@EntheogenTruthSeeker What about Kratom? It works wonders for fatigue. I mean it will hook you physically like coffee does, but you know, ponder the goods and bads. Maybe once your adrenals are healed, you can taper off the kratom and go back to normal and this way you maintained the job. Although im not sure if Kratom uses adrenal energy too, if it does then discard this idea.

I am not sure if its possible to reach Enlightment But i Will keep fighting for It until the end. Freedom its always worth It no Matter the price ??

Now you seriously gotta be kidding me. That's my dream job. (well not that I would work there for ever or I would change my career for it, but I would have liked to work in such a place for some time). @EntheogenTruthSeeker What is adrenal burnout by the way? Are you taking too much coffee? Do you use kratom?

Jesus what a bunch of dumb things you just said.

Just realized that everything in mind phenomena... is a thought, never truth. Because there are some Thoughts that seem "more than thoughts". Yeah, you know which one Im taking about. Those ones that appear to be a separate self, But are, actually, thoughts, only. "Woah, that was great, But now the meditation is over i Guess" its still not a separate self, but a thought. "Today i had a very good meditation session" its still not a separate self, But a thought. "Thats amazing, I achieved such high level of Consciousness" its still not a separate self, But a thought. Its all thoughts. By the way, "Its all thoughts" IS also just a thought, not a separate self ??

I still don't understand what reality is. After hundreds of Leo's videos, hundreds of hours meditation+yoga, +10 psychedelic trips, Reality seems ALIEN for me. Today I was walking back home and I was listening to music. A space "opened up". It felt like the music was being played in this "space". Sure you can call it awareness. But that doesn't explain SHIT. Afterwards I started looking at the Cars parked on the right. The scene was humoristic, like a sadistic humor. Because this cars suddenly didn't look like mere objects. It's like they were Reality, itself. Like I was looking at the most important thing in the world. And they were just..."cars". Anyway I didn't understand what that experienced meant anyway. Just like it was alien as fuck. Then to conclude my weird fucking day, i did my 30min meditation session and in the middle of it I start to explode in this wave of energy with hands and arms like I just gone crazy. What did I do it? No fucking idea. And the last 5 minutes I just started doing the same twisted scene that I did on my last LSD trip, which was started to move and touch my hands trying to "wake myself up". "Hey, this is it, wake up, you are here". "Dude, here, here, here". Like I had been dreaming a fantasy, a dream, with my own mind all my life with thoughts, the universe, I, material reality, everything were concepts and thoughts, all of that wasn't real, and suddenly I wake up that it was just a dream. But who knows, all I know is that now I gotta go fix me some dinner and tomorrow gotta go working. Never going to get it.

It depends entirely on you how much approaches will it take you to stop feeling embarrasament and "cringy". As Leo said, it´s all in your head.

How many people realistically are in stage coral? 300, 400 ? ?

@Breakingthewall In the void there´s no understanding. I´ve been there. 10mg pure 5-meo-dmt through crack pipe. Everything dissappeared. Yet there was no understanding. If the void/God is so good, how it´s so dumb it doesn´t even understand how/why it created the whole universe?

Is that ironic ? ?

@Nahm Right. Thoughts. Yesterday i did a couple of approaches more and after the last one i felt horrible in my body. Then I realized "I have an option. Either I Believe this thoughts (which appear as true) or i Dont (as a little hope that they might not be true). Crazy how TWISTED the mind is. It conceals falsehood as truthful. "That situation means that you are....X". No. That situation is just Truth. The mind is projecting thoughts onto truth and then saying those are truth ??

@Fearless_Bum Ok, got It! Maybe i can explain myself better knowing now better your experience. When you drink coffee and eat normally, you have x energy levels, right? Lets say you do fasting, which definetely (in my experience) can increase energy and clarity levels. Wouldnt you say that the fact that you had energy + clarity was because of the fasting and not because of the coffee? And to be honest, like, yeah, if coffee doesnt hurt your performance (maybe It doesnt, we all are wired different) by all means, keep drinking It. Im just saying, that the fact that you had energy+clarity was obviously because of the fasting, not the coffee.

@Fearless_Bum Ok, so maybe i didnt understood you correctly. Were you drinking coffee when you did the fasting? (I Dont mean that day, i mean the previous ones)

@Fearless_Bum dude, you basically a variable (fasting) and did anything else. Actually do another experiment of fasting WITHOUTH coffee. I mean its fucking obvious lol See i can be taking coffee for years and having bad sleep (i mean that wasnt my issue particularly But anyway just for the sake of the argument) and one day go jogging for 1 hour and then have amazing sleep. Does that mean that coffee wasnt an issue? No, It just means that exercise helps a lot with sleep. Thank God not all scientistics have the amazing lógic you have brother ?? (not want to offend But cmon, cant you see It doesnt make sense to derive that coffee wasnt the issue ?). Here's another example: "For years i thought doing aderall at 7PM was the issue of not sleeping well, until one day i Popped 5 Xanax, 2 cups of Codeine and a bunch of weed and i slept just fine. From that experiment i derived that aderall wasnt the issue. Hugely changed my perspective.".

@SQAAD @museumoftrees Update guys: Today I felt much much better ? Already reaping the benefits of being more calm and less edgy at work and being more productive. @Fearless_Bum Fasting definetely gives energy. But I don´t know how your logic makes sense. It´s like saying, "I thought sleeping 4 hours a day was the issue of being tired, until one day I did some meth and had amazing energy/clarity. Hugely changed my perspetive.".

Nice ?

It's more physical. Like, I just feel bad in my body. (And also, tired).

The question is, can you? No, you can't. Most guys if put close to a really hot girl, can't be themselves (truth) even if they want.

Jon Hopkins released a new album just yesterday, and it's called "Music for Psychedelic Therapy" If that wasn't cool enough, this one behind is one of the gems inside that album. You're welcome, sneaky eternal soul

@Moksha What you mean my true nature, you mean awareness? See i just think we Dont communicate well. I think we have discovered certain stuff. We are just not understanding correctly. When i Talk about understanding, i Dont mean understanding awareness or Infinity. I literally mean understanding for example why i had precisely the Life i had (as the ego). Why that car is blue and not Green. Why the Earth was created with water and Land. Why i was born in x city. Why Gravity exists. Why why why why. See What i Dont agree is in that just because awareness or Spirit IS behind language and concepts, then that means that the material dream, is just useless and doesnt Mean anything. Cant you see that the material dream IS also part of Spirit? That car you seeing right now when you walk down the street, is not a dumb cold object outside of yourself (Spirit). Is fucking Spirit too. If you Dont understand why that car is there, thats fine. But Dont downplay It saying Spirit is behind concepts. Because doing that Its begging the question. I am not asking about spirit. Im asking about the car! PD: and the car is Spirit.

@Someone here thats cute as a fantasy. Yet you Dont live as IS appearance. Im sure you take serious sex, food, murder, etc. If its all an appearance and imaginary, you wouldnt have Fear. You still have doubts.

Here's the "Phenomena": I am meditating, and suddenly intense silence sets in. Probably the ego is being deconstructed here. This is where the weird "phenomena"/reaction that Im talking about happens. Suddenly I move my head like crazy and do a sound, I do a wild gesticulation which I don't have any control over (its just happens) but here's the trick: once this gesticulation happens, it obviously puts me out / stops the concentration and I have to go back to concentrating/meditating. The silence/contration is lost. ¿A trick of the ego resisting the SILENCE? It happened yesterday after so much time without doing spiritual practices (I picked back up the mediation habit just 2 weeks ago), but it used to happen almost DAILY when I did that Yoga retreat 1 year ago. It's just sucks because it seems like the ego just keeps rejecting and rejecting the silence, no matter what I do, it always reacts once it gets too serious. HAHAHA. ¿Has anyone experience this and do you think it stops spiritual growth or I shouldn't give it much importance?