Javfly33

why would you want to go nuts?

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I´ve done plenty of psychedelics, chances are maybe more than you have done. They can't save ya. They are very powerful tools but you shouldn't have your primordial focus on them. Yeap. Couldn't said it better. I mean can't blame him he always said he is a very intellectual / conceptual type of guy. I wouldn't say he's in a dangerous road though. Psychedelics tend to be pretty use-regulatory. Meaning if you start doing them too much they stop working altogether. Although 5-MeO-DMT and similar triptamines with fast routes of administration is another story..maybe those ones can be more easily abused. For the ones that can stomach the consciousness levels on a regular matter of course....

That means that the fact that you "finally Awoken" doesn't mean much. If you can not retain the state of consciousness / energy vibration that puts you in Truth/Enlightment, then at any second you could be back at the ego state of consciousness. Doesn't matter how "clear" you Awoken, the ego can re-construct itself at any moment. Again, again, and again. That's why people can do 30 psychedelic trips and have awakenings in each one of them yet in daily sober life they are lost in individuality, delusion and fear. Like any other normie. Of course this is not a pessimistic message, and also not against psychedelics (I think they definitely help in moving towards the right direction) but just a pointer into what is important: Designing a lifestyle (from diet to spiritual-energetic practices ) that can put you in that state of consciousness and keep you there. So basically You awakening or your realizations doesn't mean much. What is important is: When you wake up in the morning, are you in Truth or are you lost in the internal dialogue?

I don't see how that invalidates my message. I know there is a tremendous difference between the ego normal state of consciousness and a very intense direct connection with the present moment such that the ego mind is eliminated. That feels pretty fucking good, there might be x100 more intense profound states ? Sure. I don't doubt you. But why you want to put the cart before the horse? Instead of daydreaming with super intense radical states awareness, why not first stabilize in something better than fear and pure delusion? And it's not a personal question, I'm talking generally about humanity, spiritual community obsessed with having "conclusions" and building theories about what is awakening and enlightenment, but within them they are not touching Truth on a daily basis for a significant amount of time. Good to see you brother. I agree with everything. "Polish your life so that the truth is as close as possible to the surface". Nice . @Tahuti If you are fine settling with that...

Some years ago when I was young and naive, I bitched a lot about the wasted time meditating, watching Leos videos, and for that matter watching all kind of spiritual videos that teach about enlightenment, Truth , etc. At that time I only saw the point in having fun, getting money and success, having girls, being cool, going on adventures, etc. Now after some time I see the deep wise on having done this work, it's starting to "pay" dividends. Im no super man and I still have lots of mastery to do and fix my habits In lots of ways, lots of it. But there are some days, when I retreat myself a bit from social engagement and just about almost anything apart from putting out the necessary work hours, and I just find myself in my home, with a weird smile on my face and clear-kind of warm comfort blanket around me, its not a physical blanket, but a metaphorical one: its a "subtle intuition" of... the differences are not there and damn it feels fucking nuts that one day could one be this conscious without doing anything, but just as a result of everything one has done and learn, over the years. Nothing more to say! Wishing luck for everyone else still seeking and that yeah the work pays but its grueling and nobody will support you, so have that in mind when you are not seeing results and get unmotivated.

Yeah, but he was convinced I was not real so he wanted to fuck with me. When I cut him off he left to the garage to take the car. When I realized I run outside to try to stop him, he almost hit me, luckily the garage door stopped him LOL. All of this while he was full on tripping and I was on mild dose of some RC shitty empathogen. Fuck that, ain't tripping with others ever.

Infinity is NOT an experience LoL You need stop thinking in logical terms, open your perception instead. @Edvardas sorry can't unquote

? Keep going I guess then ?

Can you get into bliss states without meditation? As far as I'm concerned the point of the practices are to build the skill of producing those states not just when you are doing the practice. Still a good achievement tho', not trying to downplay it, just talking about what is possible).

Absolute Love, I Iike it ?

I was going to fake a document to be able to enter a university residency for 10 months... Why? The prices of my city for renting are mad and my salary is low...I couldn't afford a flat on my own and I'm sick of sharing apartment with people I don't know, so these residency was offering a small but very cool and new studio with everything I could ask to live alone... Oh and also they had pool, cinema, gym... It would be just changing a number 3 times, in a PDF of 8 pages... It was so perfect, I even hired a Pakistani Adobe Photoshop freelancer on fiverr to do it for me. The PDF was protected against edits but the motherfucker was able to even trick this mechanism. I was so pumped up and excited, I felt like such a smart guy (going a little bit against the law and doing this kind of 'tricks' always gives me such a RUSH, I don't know if it's because I have narcissism traits or something like that..., But the thought of me "tricking" society with things like that it's like a revenge of some sort and makes me feel and intelligent and brilliant) . Anyways I end up messaging the residency today and telling them an excuse of why I'm cancelling my booking (I even already pay them 150$ to secure the booking one week ago)... I couldn't do it. The fear that they could ask me for other kind of document or even verify the legitimacy of it was enough to scare me. But also I think because it's childish to do these kind of stuff. I got such a rush in thinking I could trick them and be smartest fucker of the city ...but what if doesn't go well and the trick ends up being expensive for me... Better to be legit. I think I did the right thing. Some decisions are hard to make but my heart feels I did the right, sensible, conscious choice.

?? thanks for the compliment. Yeah you right I need to watch out to not fall into this devilry schemes my ego loves to play @lxlichael wut

Of course it is. How couldn't be? Morality is based on guilt. If people were conscious we wouldn't need morality.

That's really a very accurate way to put it ? totally fits my experience.

Oh ok, just asked to know from which perspective I should approach the problem you describe here. So in my view you are in the classic "fuck everything, they suck" attitude, right? What's your diet/spiritual exercises/work balance looking like? You say you haven't accomplished anything. What's really your vision? If you could have all the acceptance and Love that you could, what would you create/do as a passion? I would use this emotion/energy you are feeling to move in the direction you really want in life. If you are 42 it's a good timing. Most people when they get to 50-60 they just get very complacent and their lifes really become boring as fuck. You could take advantage of this "crisis" (to call it something)...

@EugeneTheSage I mean it's obvious that black clothing don't attract/create the same kind of energy as other colours, but it's obviously an exaggeration to say that 20-30% of the problems are for wearing black clothing lol. That's ridiculous. I love Sadghuru and I have him in high, very high respect, but the guy can also be wrong in some things too

How old are you?

I guess you are talking about getting to that kind of ground-stable energy that really attractive men have. I agree with you, people get lost in concepts but forget you can't eat fine dining by being a beggar.

@DualityHurts Yeap, Sadghuru is one legit conscious motherfucka in a million of self proclaimed charlatan gurus with a lot of talk but fake hearts. I hope he is with us for a lot more years

Everybody always congratulame because i have an stable full time job. especially here in my country getting a stable full time job aint that easy. Most people Who Dont have a job for a long time go depressed or some shit like that. However since i started a full time job (1 year ago) i feel my overall stress levels have gone through the roof, especially during the work hours. Also i feel overall with way way less energy to work on my self actualization goals on my free time. It hasnt helped i Guess that i went to a bigger city where commute takes way more time than in my natal city and also housing is ridiculously expensive so i have to share flat Recently i took holidays and came back 1 month to my mothers House and natal town. Shit i felt so much fucking Better. All the time and energy in the world to Create What i really want, no waking Up with stress/palpitations, not a city where you are surrounded constantly by cars, cozy hometown. Etc. However its true also that i went to a big city to purposely work on my self actualization goals and Career dreams. But the problem is i feel its so damn difficult to accomplish anything because i might have overall anxiety disorder and going 8 hours a day in a job where i am anxious is fucking me Up my health and leaving me ungrounded and in stress Mode the rest of the day (because i am already thinking that the Next day i have to go to work). But withouth job i cant live here and accomplish What i want. So i just have to push through. But its so difficult. Sometimes i wonder if should go back to my hometown. But everybody says that a man must be self suficient and all that shit to grow. Idk i feel everything overwhelms me. The loneliness. The job. The stress. Ugh. Can i get advice?

I´ve gotten my first girlfriend ever (I say like its a trophy LoL) and I feel lately im getting too needy with her. Should I do pickup again to lose this neediness? In a way I know it would help to stop being attached to her, in other I feel it could be kinda cheating. Edit: Obviously I wouldn't do it to the intention of getting laid. With pickup I mean keep going out clubbing/nightgame and being proactively interacting with girls. Just to not lose the abundance/relaxation mindset. But I wouldn't do it with the intention of escalating it to anything.

I used to Love it. The problem is eventually it would feel very toxic. It would completely wreck my stomach if I ate anything during the day I took the dose. Recreationally wise, it's very good for trips as you said, it eases you into trip reducing a lot the anxiety and synergizes very well (even alone it has a psychedelic edge to it...). Combines well with lysergimes and phenitelamines, (not so much with tryptamines) Honestly if your stomach/body can handle it then yeah its quite an amazing drug. Just take proper breaks, I've heard the withdrawals are pretty nasty.

What would take you to unconditionally accept and Love your suffering? radical and probably bitter to swallow post coming but... ...Everyone seems to have an explanation why 'suffering' exists (or any kind of happening that the ego feels it shouldn't happen) . Psychologists will tell its conditionings, hardcore biologists will tell its genetics, spiritual schools will tell its trauma of the personality, Sadhguru will say its "because you haven't read the users manual!"), religions will tell its because your sins. See? Notice all humans need to tell themselves that suffering needs a cause and effect. This gives the ego a sort of control. The ego cannot handle that the suffering might have absolutely no reason to exist. And yet this is precisely what has to be observed. To stop judging reality and thinking there could be any other better way for reality to be. To stop believing that there are some things that "shouldn't happen" or that "are wrong" to exist. What if there is no apparent material cause and no effect for your suffering? What if your current 'traumas' of your ego, your ptsd, your anxiety, HAS ABSOLUTELY NO CAUSE but the only reason that God decided to give himself that life/create/dream precisely that life with those precise ailments so God could show itself something? There might be no cause to your suffering. The cause its something that God imagines to give itself a backstory on why you have that ailment. But is totally not the reason you have it. ? Oh, God, that brilliant motherfucker. Now you go all along preaching you have that thing because you heredited that genetics or even that karma, and turns out you are imagining that backstory because if not you would have to realize you literally created that ailment out of pure will and brilliant design strategy. What if there is no a cause for your suffering but its just something that is created so the play, the narrative, has a profound meaning behind it? Its kind like in the movies. A good dramatic movie might have normal usual common scenes, maybe there is a shooting. Maybe there is someone being murdered. But is really the point of the scene to show that murder? No, that murder happens so that whatever the emotional meaning the director might want to transmit the audience is brilliantly conveyed to you. Here is a mindfuck!: What if all of your suffering has absolutely no reason to exist? (and at the same time, its absolutely meaningful?) What if all of your ideas of "reality absolutely shouldn't be like this) are actually totally designed to be THAT WAY? What if what you think its a bug, its literally a very loving-brilliant feature? But of course, you can not see that. You prefer to assume that you know how reality should be and blame God/reality for being like that. Here's the thing. You don't get to say how life should be. Of course you can do the best you can. But you should also realize that you have absolutely no control and God is always fucking right. Don't be so naive in saying that your suffering shouldn't happen. Maybe your life has happened in the most perfect possible way imaginable. Can you open yourself to that possibility? But that would require a very inmense capacity to Love each aspect of your life. Can you do that? Of course you could. You are just scared that all aspect of your life could have been actually perfect. You don't want to let That possibility into your mind. Its too radical. The love its too radical. A very minuscule piece in an infinite puzzle of pieces which interconnects all within themselves in a perfect way that would make you fall on your knees and cry of the beauty of how crazy brilliant and infinite your mind is. When you told that person "I fucking hate you" its because that served you a certain purpose to show yourself some thing, and the other person probably took that as something "bad" that has happened to them, but actually that other person got exactly what he/she needed to also realize something. Quite mindfucky! And like this it goes infinitely. The perfect design goes infinitely in all directions. And how come this design is possible? Because God is infinite. So there's nothing that God could never do. So of course it Designed the perfect Movie. What a fucking 10 out of 10 movie it made! Oh my fucking god! That motherfucker! Namastè

Nice! Beautiful. And very good to watch it before you go to sleep Lol