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Yeap. Don´t understimate cigarettes. My father used to have a smoking heroin habit for +25 years on and off, he said the real poison was the cigarettes. He also told me that at one heroin detox house he was, he was having a panic attack not because wanting to go out to go score some heroin but to smoke a fucking cigarette! So know you are dealing with a tough fucker...not to scare just to let you know the fight will be sneaky. I myself quit cigarettes some years ago and I remember the cravings and seduction of going back would go in flashes. I would have 1 week super good without not even remembering it and then I would crave it. It went like this for some time. I would say (in my experience) at the 2 Month the cravings completely went away and I didn't wanted to smoke ever again... I did smoke from time to time afterwards at parties, and very special occasions though, I must be a weird case...eventually it would give such crazy anxiety and bad move even smoking 1 cig that I just completely got disgusted by it and don't see the point at all in taking something that makes me anxious and tastes bad.... Bad yeah it's nice you don't want to smoke ever again...just remember quitting is sometimes not linear. Also don't be scared to be close to smokers, you will eventually have to resist that craving sooner or later (you being near a smoker a wanting a cig too) so becoming comfortable with it until you don't want it.

Breakfast: Peruvian soft coffee expresso + 1g of Neem powder. I'll add 3-4 turmeric pills through the day. Lunch: Grains probably, quinoa, or sarracenan wheat, idk... Dinner: Fruits, maybe some raw leafy vegetables sometimes, dressed with virgin olive oil Dont you feel weak as fuck with that diet?

as long as you dont eat them from a can...

why would you want to go nuts?

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I´ve done plenty of psychedelics, chances are maybe more than you have done. They can't save ya. They are very powerful tools but you shouldn't have your primordial focus on them. Yeap. Couldn't said it better. I mean can't blame him he always said he is a very intellectual / conceptual type of guy. I wouldn't say he's in a dangerous road though. Psychedelics tend to be pretty use-regulatory. Meaning if you start doing them too much they stop working altogether. Although 5-MeO-DMT and similar triptamines with fast routes of administration is another story..maybe those ones can be more easily abused. For the ones that can stomach the consciousness levels on a regular matter of course....

That means that the fact that you "finally Awoken" doesn't mean much. If you can not retain the state of consciousness / energy vibration that puts you in Truth/Enlightment, then at any second you could be back at the ego state of consciousness. Doesn't matter how "clear" you Awoken, the ego can re-construct itself at any moment. Again, again, and again. That's why people can do 30 psychedelic trips and have awakenings in each one of them yet in daily sober life they are lost in individuality, delusion and fear. Like any other normie. Of course this is not a pessimistic message, and also not against psychedelics (I think they definitely help in moving towards the right direction) but just a pointer into what is important: Designing a lifestyle (from diet to spiritual-energetic practices ) that can put you in that state of consciousness and keep you there. So basically You awakening or your realizations doesn't mean much. What is important is: When you wake up in the morning, are you in Truth or are you lost in the internal dialogue?

I don't see how that invalidates my message. I know there is a tremendous difference between the ego normal state of consciousness and a very intense direct connection with the present moment such that the ego mind is eliminated. That feels pretty fucking good, there might be x100 more intense profound states ? Sure. I don't doubt you. But why you want to put the cart before the horse? Instead of daydreaming with super intense radical states awareness, why not first stabilize in something better than fear and pure delusion? And it's not a personal question, I'm talking generally about humanity, spiritual community obsessed with having "conclusions" and building theories about what is awakening and enlightenment, but within them they are not touching Truth on a daily basis for a significant amount of time. Good to see you brother. I agree with everything. "Polish your life so that the truth is as close as possible to the surface". Nice . @Tahuti If you are fine settling with that...

Some years ago when I was young and naive, I bitched a lot about the wasted time meditating, watching Leos videos, and for that matter watching all kind of spiritual videos that teach about enlightenment, Truth , etc. At that time I only saw the point in having fun, getting money and success, having girls, being cool, going on adventures, etc. Now after some time I see the deep wise on having done this work, it's starting to "pay" dividends. Im no super man and I still have lots of mastery to do and fix my habits In lots of ways, lots of it. But there are some days, when I retreat myself a bit from social engagement and just about almost anything apart from putting out the necessary work hours, and I just find myself in my home, with a weird smile on my face and clear-kind of warm comfort blanket around me, its not a physical blanket, but a metaphorical one: its a "subtle intuition" of... the differences are not there and damn it feels fucking nuts that one day could one be this conscious without doing anything, but just as a result of everything one has done and learn, over the years. Nothing more to say! Wishing luck for everyone else still seeking and that yeah the work pays but its grueling and nobody will support you, so have that in mind when you are not seeing results and get unmotivated.

Yeah, but he was convinced I was not real so he wanted to fuck with me. When I cut him off he left to the garage to take the car. When I realized I run outside to try to stop him, he almost hit me, luckily the garage door stopped him LOL. All of this while he was full on tripping and I was on mild dose of some RC shitty empathogen. Fuck that, ain't tripping with others ever.

Infinity is NOT an experience LoL You need stop thinking in logical terms, open your perception instead. @Edvardas sorry can't unquote

? Keep going I guess then ?

Can you get into bliss states without meditation? As far as I'm concerned the point of the practices are to build the skill of producing those states not just when you are doing the practice. Still a good achievement tho', not trying to downplay it, just talking about what is possible).

Absolute Love, I Iike it ?

I was going to fake a document to be able to enter a university residency for 10 months... Why? The prices of my city for renting are mad and my salary is low...I couldn't afford a flat on my own and I'm sick of sharing apartment with people I don't know, so these residency was offering a small but very cool and new studio with everything I could ask to live alone... Oh and also they had pool, cinema, gym... It would be just changing a number 3 times, in a PDF of 8 pages... It was so perfect, I even hired a Pakistani Adobe Photoshop freelancer on fiverr to do it for me. The PDF was protected against edits but the motherfucker was able to even trick this mechanism. I was so pumped up and excited, I felt like such a smart guy (going a little bit against the law and doing this kind of 'tricks' always gives me such a RUSH, I don't know if it's because I have narcissism traits or something like that..., But the thought of me "tricking" society with things like that it's like a revenge of some sort and makes me feel and intelligent and brilliant) . Anyways I end up messaging the residency today and telling them an excuse of why I'm cancelling my booking (I even already pay them 150$ to secure the booking one week ago)... I couldn't do it. The fear that they could ask me for other kind of document or even verify the legitimacy of it was enough to scare me. But also I think because it's childish to do these kind of stuff. I got such a rush in thinking I could trick them and be smartest fucker of the city ...but what if doesn't go well and the trick ends up being expensive for me... Better to be legit. I think I did the right thing. Some decisions are hard to make but my heart feels I did the right, sensible, conscious choice.

?? thanks for the compliment. Yeah you right I need to watch out to not fall into this devilry schemes my ego loves to play @lxlichael wut

Of course it is. How couldn't be? Morality is based on guilt. If people were conscious we wouldn't need morality.

That's really a very accurate way to put it ? totally fits my experience.

Oh ok, just asked to know from which perspective I should approach the problem you describe here. So in my view you are in the classic "fuck everything, they suck" attitude, right? What's your diet/spiritual exercises/work balance looking like? You say you haven't accomplished anything. What's really your vision? If you could have all the acceptance and Love that you could, what would you create/do as a passion? I would use this emotion/energy you are feeling to move in the direction you really want in life. If you are 42 it's a good timing. Most people when they get to 50-60 they just get very complacent and their lifes really become boring as fuck. You could take advantage of this "crisis" (to call it something)...

@EugeneTheSage I mean it's obvious that black clothing don't attract/create the same kind of energy as other colours, but it's obviously an exaggeration to say that 20-30% of the problems are for wearing black clothing lol. That's ridiculous. I love Sadghuru and I have him in high, very high respect, but the guy can also be wrong in some things too

How old are you?

I guess you are talking about getting to that kind of ground-stable energy that really attractive men have. I agree with you, people get lost in concepts but forget you can't eat fine dining by being a beggar.

@DualityHurts Yeap, Sadghuru is one legit conscious motherfucka in a million of self proclaimed charlatan gurus with a lot of talk but fake hearts. I hope he is with us for a lot more years

Everybody always congratulame because i have an stable full time job. especially here in my country getting a stable full time job aint that easy. Most people Who Dont have a job for a long time go depressed or some shit like that. However since i started a full time job (1 year ago) i feel my overall stress levels have gone through the roof, especially during the work hours. Also i feel overall with way way less energy to work on my self actualization goals on my free time. It hasnt helped i Guess that i went to a bigger city where commute takes way more time than in my natal city and also housing is ridiculously expensive so i have to share flat Recently i took holidays and came back 1 month to my mothers House and natal town. Shit i felt so much fucking Better. All the time and energy in the world to Create What i really want, no waking Up with stress/palpitations, not a city where you are surrounded constantly by cars, cozy hometown. Etc. However its true also that i went to a big city to purposely work on my self actualization goals and Career dreams. But the problem is i feel its so damn difficult to accomplish anything because i might have overall anxiety disorder and going 8 hours a day in a job where i am anxious is fucking me Up my health and leaving me ungrounded and in stress Mode the rest of the day (because i am already thinking that the Next day i have to go to work). But withouth job i cant live here and accomplish What i want. So i just have to push through. But its so difficult. Sometimes i wonder if should go back to my hometown. But everybody says that a man must be self suficient and all that shit to grow. Idk i feel everything overwhelms me. The loneliness. The job. The stress. Ugh. Can i get advice?

I´ve gotten my first girlfriend ever (I say like its a trophy LoL) and I feel lately im getting too needy with her. Should I do pickup again to lose this neediness? In a way I know it would help to stop being attached to her, in other I feel it could be kinda cheating. Edit: Obviously I wouldn't do it to the intention of getting laid. With pickup I mean keep going out clubbing/nightgame and being proactively interacting with girls. Just to not lose the abundance/relaxation mindset. But I wouldn't do it with the intention of escalating it to anything.