now is forever

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  3. Posted · Edited by now is forever

    @mandyjw god or goddesses deepest desire? i think you really need to start to talk about god in a female version sometimes... why should god have a gender? it’s both. if you talk about god i‘m getting confused if you talk about a guy sometimes. although if you really talk about my@god.ego it would also sound nice. but i am really more talking about a my.godesses deepest desire as this is always swinging in the background.

  5. Posted · Edited by now is forever

    @mandyjw did i use that word electronic jungle, electric jungle? see i can’t even remember... maybe it was you? i can just imagine that it was about being so much involved with data exchange that we don’t know how to meet people or peoples needs anymore.

  7. Posted · Edited by now is forever

    33 minutes ago, tsuki said:

    Perspectives can be made into absolutes, like Leo did with survival. It's a bold move in a spiritual community, but it's not the only way you can frame things as. If everything is ego, then ego has no meaning and becomes God.

    What I meant is: keep processing and see where it takes you. It may leave you staying here. Or not.

    yes, but i made a decision. i have principles i made for myself to survive at a minimum level, there are principles also i took up from others because there is an universal rule to them that makes sense on the level of human rights. even if i don’t want to i make sure to keep up to these principles. i‘m also unforgiving in these principles sometimes. as much as i try to be open as much i need to stick to these rules, to protect what separates me from what makes me sad to see in others. i‘m sorry if this is something that saddens others. i have never been treated personally better than others here, on the contrary. all connections developed completely on their own what i wrote happened in a muddling through atmosphere. with all the projections involved, i‘m sorry if these projections where lifethreatening to others, i want to excuse myself for that even though i can’t change it now. there is already deleted content in a lot of threads i was deleting from, for example from outer. there is no reason for me to stick around that is more important right now than the ability to start new. starting fresh is one of my survival mechanisms that keeps me on living. i have a lot of vata in my soul it even makes my body sick, i need to be like the wind. i feel entrapped if not.

    see all thes beautiful words that tell about what „sehnsucht“ means if it is part of your deepest longings for freedom.

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    3 minutes ago, tsuki said:

    Do your thing. Blossom, but don't assume the outcome.

    what do you mean by that? i don’t assume anything. see how all of our egos want to survive in one or the other way - i can’t go on like this, it’s destroying me, not my ego, but my soul.

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    3 minutes ago, tsuki said:

    "yes. you know what, sexuality in witchery is only always about your sexual identity so is witchery... god mode is really different, so try to see through it. it’s good that you are done with it tsuki.

    it‘s your problem if you didn’t see it while it was flying. now it doesn’t anymore."

    I'm processing too. Lots of insights happened on my trip. I'll be talking about them in my next video.

    nice do that. i‘ll not be a watcher of your videos guys - i simply don’t want to invest more time into this than i already am doing - i‘m spending more time here than with anyone else. it’s weird. i didn’t have a problem to be alone once. now i feel i always need someone around... or at least the feeling of always having someone around.

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    On 7.6.2018 at 8:59 PM, Malelekakis said:

    Hi guys I just came here from a higher consciousness plane just to tell you that you are stupid for arguing ?You could be experiencing and  enjoying love ❤️☮️ bye 

     

    On 7.6.2018 at 9:07 PM, now is forever said:

    thank you for flying by and dropping the love bomb, must seem pretty small from up your perspective. have a nice flight then ☺️

     

  11. Posted · Edited by now is forever

    20 minutes ago, tsuki said:

    "processing

    i said several times, it won‘t be easy."

    Can't wait to see the butterfly. Or will it be a coffeefly?

    "I CLEANED UP MY ACT FOR JESUS! 

    Now here I am waking up at the witching hour again having discussions I shouldn't be having!!!"

    You know that men are so penetrating only because you females have this stuff hidden in the witching hour? HAHAHAHA

    Shit, I'm done here. Przepraszam, nie bij Marta! 

    yes. you know what, sexuality in witchery is only always about your sexual identity so is witchery... god mode is really different, so try to see through it. it’s good that you are done with it tsuki.

    it‘s your problem if you didn’t see it while it was flying. now it doesn’t anymore.

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    1 minute ago, mandyjw said:

    @now is forever Ok, good advice. I miss coffee. Thomas told me to give it up, it's the first thing he told me. Or Eva. One of them. 

    yea i know, but i‘m drinking it in form of espresso - it’s less sour and i don’t drink it everyday - half a year ago i used to drink a lot of tumeric milk, being here made it worse.

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    1 minute ago, mandyjw said:

    @tsuki I CLEANED UP MY ACT FOR JESUS! 

    Now here I am waking up at the witching hour again having discussions I shouldn't be having!!! 

    go to bed mandy. i‘ll stop, posting now, i have to fetch some oatmilk at the little neighbor store to have some coffee.

  14. Posted · Edited by now is forever

    3 minutes ago, tsuki said:

    "there are no masks the identity here is faceless. it was never supposed to be more than that. i fell into wonderland and forgot to leave."

    Then what's the problem? You surely know that there is no exit so why all the theater?

    processing

    i said several times, it won‘t be easy.

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    2 minutes ago, tsuki said:

    Hahaha, if that's what you're planning then go on. You could go in the opposite way by making this place more real by showing your face. That would cut right through your masks without deleting anything. One fell swoop.

    Things are only as real as you make them. Only as sacred or mundane as you have them.

    That's what Mandy seems to be missing too. Masturbation is a part of witchcraft.

    there are no masks the identity here is faceless. it was never supposed to be more than that. i fell into wonderland and forgot to leave.

  17. Posted · Edited by now is forever

    11 minutes ago, tsuki said:

    @now is forever You've been deliberately constructing yourself to your own liking? Haven't you learned that desires are fickle?

    yes i already know that. but i also know what doesn’t die and i should returning to construct the connections to this in my real life. as this here will never become something touchable livable in the constellation it is here, i need to give up on most of the personal knotted connections as well. 

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    8 minutes ago, mandyjw said:

    @now is forever Because you fragment yourself. You integrated, integrated and integrated and now you want to stop. 

    no this is all connected to me, it doesn’t change who i am if i keep that content or not - it all came out of me, and so it will come out of me whatever the situation might be. i don’t need to put a name on it - it is like stepping back into the real world again out of phantasia and next time i step into it there is another world waiting for me.

    we need to grow up and be concious about our data.

  19. Posted · Edited by now is forever

    9 minutes ago, mandyjw said:

    I used to have pet rabbits when I was a kid, I know that look exactly. 

    Don't cling to your online identity, tell us your name. Group dynamics and color coding is so stage yellow. We need to integrate all the stages. I went back to my generic apple avatar for you. I wasn't nearly ready to put my face on here, it felt so gross you don't even know. 

    i‘m sorry :|

    i liked the anonymity here. that was mainly why i even entered. i would never have started posting here otherwise. i liked it that you could be here whoever you where however you felt. it didn’t distract from personality, no other identity involved whatsoever. i don’t want to tell my name or show my face in connection to my intestines - why should i. it’s not something i want to dress myself up with. it’s not something i can be free about if i need to dress myself up with it.

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    On 29.5.2018 at 9:23 PM, now is forever said:

    do you realize it's like the schrödinger experiment?

    i'm not sure what will be the outcome - but i expect it to be kind of a joke or not.

    it's all about a cat in a box ?=> ? 

    the question is who is the cat and who is the spectator.

    this was a funny one. actually i‘m wondering how i will exit the box, alive or dead, at the moment i‘m smeared in space.

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    7 minutes ago, tsuki said:

    I don't think anybody is going to hide your posts for you. The posts are not the problem.
    This place is already running through your veins, your soul is entangled with it. This is why it's difficult to leave.

    Freeing myself from my masks is never about smashing anything, or even taking them off.
    It's about a smile, laughter, the 'even me' phenomenon. It's shameless nakedness, having the audacity to not care.

    yes but i set myself the goal to erase data connected to my personality as far as possible - well then i will still have to do it with my own hands if i don’t get the right as everyone else. it is not that this data was ment for eternity. it was ment for the moment.

  22. Posted · Edited by now is forever

    you see this is like an addiction, i can’t get rid of it if i don’t force myself. i can’t have a way back. i need that help. i‘m clinging to this online identity, yes of course that’s also me, but i am not that.

    at some point i didn’t like facebook anymore, well in a sense in the beginning i liked it because people could experiment on building a different identity. but also i hated the amount of applied self-projection. how people present their egos a constant struggle about who looks better who has more friends, blablablabla. it’s so orange. sometimes i even wondered how people could present their babies in their profile pics, does it mean they lost their identity and the child took over their identity? or what did they want to communicate?

    for me the same thing is happening with actualized .org at the moment. it’s like a second facebook. no, thank you, i already had this shit. i‘m really good in seeing these group dynamics coming - it’s a prophecy :ph34r: this place is going to be more orange than ever.

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    8 hours ago, mandyjw said:

    Oh my God the bunny, I've been noticing bunnies, I always hated that in Monty python, I went down to the stream from the cemetary a week ago and found a fox hole with the remains of a white bunny by it.

    why it‘s super funny. they even call it a rabbit - but it’s a metaphor, because it’s protecting the holy grail xD

    ?‍♀️

    in germany we call people fear rabbits if they don’t want to do something because they don’t have the courage. even though it’s probbably because bunnies start to shiver and get big eyes when they are afraid. it’s still funny. they look so cute don’t they.