Deziree

It could be we are one soul. Not necessarily one mind. If you catch the drift.

Values check-in What values did I uphold today, and in which moments did I stray from them? How can I better align my actions with my core beliefs tomorrow? Learning corner What did I learn today — about myself, others, or the world around me? Interaction insight Which interaction today left the most significant impact on me? Was it positive or negative, and why? Dreams and desires What is one thing I deeply desire, and what steps can I take tomorrow toward achieving it? Barriers and solutions What obstacles did I face today, and how did I overcome them? If I didn’t, what can I do differently next time?

I tried 360mg magnesium glycinate and I suffered severe stomach pain. So I stopped it.

Yes. One consciousness. awesome.

The “hostile crowd” represents the parts of yourself that feel betrayed, ignored, or unloved.

I thought we were all consciousness. Infinite streams.

Depends on a lot of factors other than just health. Your environment and resources. Your ability to process information that you consume. Resonance and survival. Most of our thoughts are aligned primarily to our survival. So your survival bias plays a big role. Survival itself depends on so many factors. Our brains are engineered for survival. So your brain chemistry will formulate those thoughts accordingly. In any given situation, the brain is trying the best to just get through. Thinkers like Feynman or Darwin were “fertile” because they spent years absorbing reality through observation and experimentation, not because their brains were just faster.Anxiety, shame, pride, or ideological rigidity distort cognition, they bias what’s noticed and what’s dismissed. Calm, open, emotionally grounded minds produce clearer and more truth-oriented thoughts. This is why some “low-IQ” people can have piercingly wise intuitions, they’re emotionally attuned and undefended enough to see what’s true, not just what flatters them. The quality of a thought will finally depend on the subject at hand, the problem at hand. If the thought appropriately targets the main concern and gives a coherent solution, it doesn't matter where it came from, low IQ or high IQ. Lastly there's dunning Kruger effect as well. The thought doesn't necessarily solves problems even if they are great quality. Also @Carl-Richard you mentioned something about weed producing better insights. That sort of negates the whole idea of high IQs because it's not your brain originally producing those thoughts, it's the weed influencing the brain and altering it. An altered brain negates or invalidates the idea of low or high IQ and in any transformation in the quality of thoughts is manufactured rather than organically produced. But this itself tells you that quality of thought is highly malleable and changeable because it's in a constant process of fluidity. So it's quality can be enhanced or deteriorated by multiple agents including substances, information,genetics, health, feedback loops, emotional neutrality, experience, intuitions, hard work, contemplation, clarity of input, curiosity, observation, list goes on..

Caught flu. Drinking fluids.

I have to carefully lay out my goals so as to not get completely entangled in them. I want to study. I want to work. Currently doing a part time art teaching job. But I want to upgrade soon. I want to feel intellectually and spiritually safer to be in my own rhythm. I am single and not looking for a relationship as yet. That will need time. I want to settle first and take things slower. Change strategies and change my mindset. Long term goals planning. ❤❤❤ I talked to my family yesterday and we had dinner together. It felt good after a long time. Sometimes they don't understand my issues and journey and that's okay. ❤❤❤ Growing in my brain is good but it's also draining. I have understood that self development is not that easy. It's an on-going thing and needs a lot of motivation to keep digging to keep going. First thing is liberate all the fears. Don't hang on to anything. There's no need to fear anything at all absolutely. ❤❤❤ It's been raining outside and I have caught a flu. Just high body temperatures. Not feeling great generally. Not trying to get this on my nerves. Drank hot water a while ago. ❤❤❤ I discussed with my colleague certain crucial aspects of work and life. One of the things that came up was that I perpetually live in survival mode. It's not separable from my entire self. That makes anything so difficult. Along with the diagnosis of adhd it's hard not to feel like I am spazzing out. I am thinking about healthy emotions now. Healthy emotions not just in self but also with respect to environment. ❤❤❤ First thing is to create a safe space. That's how you switch from survival mode to safety mode.

Don't expect someone to be spiritual in a situation like this. The texting naked pics went a bit far and I understand why your gf felt the way she did. You can assure her that won't happen again. I don't see this as a problem of incompatibility. More like matters of trust. If she is good sport generally, drop it and make amends.

I’ve been in a really similar spot. I connect with people slowly too, especially when someone’s super open and emotionally expressive, it can feel like being hit by a wave. Honestly, you’re doing the right thing just by noticing this pattern instead of ghosting or shutting down completely. The key thing I’ve learned is to be upfront about your pace. You don’t have to match her openness, just let her know that you tend to open up more gradually. That way, she doesn’t misread your need for space as lack of interest. Also, don’t beat yourself up for protecting your space. Emotional speed differences are totally normal. The goal isn’t to “fix” it, but to find a rhythm that keeps both people regulated and genuine. And for what it’s worth, if she already knows some things about you through friends, that’s not necessarily a bad thing. Sometimes that pre-knowledge can make her more empathetic, not judgmental. So yeah, take it slow, communicate honestly, and don’t force yourself to go faster than your nervous system allows. Openness that’s gradual but real usually goes way further than trying to keep up with someone else’s pace. Try being patient when it's really needed.

This is so beautiful. Living like a shaman.